As deep as you are as hell

Chu Ting remained silent.

His current temper is like a ball of shriveled cotton, no matter how I wave my fist upwards, he remains silent.

I provoked him with thorny words, and irritated him with a perfunctory attitude... But I played so many tricks, but I still couldn't take off the mask on Chu Ting's face and see his truest appearance.

"It seems I'm bothering you." The corners of Chu Ting's lips curled up, and there was no emotion in his words, "Then if Ms. Sofia is sleepy, I'll take you to the hotel to rest first?"

I lowered my eyelids and saw that Chu Ting's fingertips were clasping his briefcase tightly, as if he was about to take something out of it.

And it took me a long time to realize that there was only one thing in the briefcase, and that was the "suicide note" that Chu Ting had written to Chen Jiao.

If I hadn't interrupted Chu Ting's words roughly this night, he originally planned to share with me his thoughts in the past four years.

He was ready to tear off the bloody mask on his face, but I pushed him back again and again.

"You sent me to the hotel because you were afraid that something might happen to me along the way? But I think you are the biggest hidden danger around me."

As long as he appears by my side, it is really hard for me to put my heart in my stomach.

"After the farewell tonight, I hope that Mr. Chu and I won't have to see each other again in a short time. After all, we don't have anything to talk about when we meet, right? I really can't empathize with what you said tonight. I don't want to empathize, so let's not choose to embarrass each other and let each of us live a little easier, okay?" I blinked.

I didn't control my volume when I spoke just now, and the conversation with Chu Ting was heard by the old couple without any accident.

The old lady has a heart of gossip, her ears are pricked up, and her eyes keep sneaking in our direction, but she can't stop her disgust from her wife.

"There are conflicts between the young couple, what's our business? Don't worry about it, just read your newspaper carefully, okay?"

"Hu Yanxin, what do you mean by that? Do you mean that I'm a dog who picks up mice and meddles in other people's business?"

"You said it yourself, don't slander me..." The old man stopped abruptly in the middle of his words, and his expression suddenly became serious.

I pretended that I didn't hear what this interesting old couple was talking about just now, and just said lightly: "Check it out."

The old man looked at my expression and said in a low voice: "Girl, is the milk tea suitable for tonight? Actually... getting along with each other is like making milk tea, and what can't be said between male and female friends?" It's open……"

The more I heard this, the more I felt something was wrong, and it was obvious that the old man misunderstood my relationship with Chu Ting.

"25 yuan? Then I'll just scan the QR code."

Although this method of diverting the topic is not bright, it can at least bring the direction of the topic back on track.

After paying the money, I walked briskly and was ready to flee, but I could still faintly hear one or two conversations between the old couple.

"Look, you don't gossip, you have the skills to speak, and you scare away other girls! I was thinking that this girl is my eye, maybe I can really have a good chat with her, you are better, let others talk The roads are blocked."

"Do you think I want to say what I just said? Didn't I ask your question for you? And I see that girl also looks preoccupied..."

The voice gradually became inaudible, I shook my hair, and when I stepped out of the milk tea shop, I felt that I should forget everything about today, including Chu Ting's long "speech" and his lingering in my mind. Clear body and face.

At four o'clock in the morning, the tight string in my body finally relaxed for a moment, and it actively released and transmitted the signal of sleepiness.

After checking into a hotel at random, I almost fell asleep.

But for some reason, I remembered the scene of Chu Ting lingering downstairs in my house during the three nights when I had a fever.

sleepless nights.

At seven o'clock in the morning, I got up and took a hot bath, which made my skin flushed.

Standing in front of the full-length mirror, I once again found that there are many gray hairs hidden under my black hair. One of the side effects of taking medicine is to accelerate the aging of people.

In the early years, there was a hot meme circulating on the Internet: "I am standing in front of you, how do you think I look like before?" So... after four years of meeting, how did Chu Ting recognize me at a glance?
Temporarily erasing all the memories about Chu Ting in my mind, I changed into a white cotton and linen home clothes and went to find my mother.

When his mother was discharged from the hospital, Chu Ting was worried about her, so he installed location software on her mobile phone.

And if someone else installs any positioning software on his mother's mobile phone, he will receive a notification immediately on his mobile phone.So when I was so anxious to say that I would come to Yancheng this morning, he had already guessed my real intention of coming here.

Following the location of the mobile phone, I searched for half an hour and finally found the hotel where my mother stayed.

In the spacious room with bright and clean windows, my mother was sitting on the balcony dully alone. It was strange that Cheng Xunsheng was not there.

There was a steaming bowl of steaming beef and egg porridge and a pancake fruit on the small table next to the bed. Presumably, Cheng Xunsheng knew the news that I was coming and left the space for us mother and daughter.

My mother sat on the balcony, looking at the vast sky and the magnificent, red sunrise, but she didn't know what she was thinking.

And I never thought that when I met her eyes, the word "turbidity" would slowly appear in my mind.

"Mom." I said softly, "I'm back."

The mother got up a little cautiously, and asked at a loss: "Who... are you? Where is Xiao Cheng? I, I want to find Xiao Cheng——"

Her mood fluctuated, with the flustered feeling of a child in an unfamiliar environment.

My fingernails sank deeply into the palm of my hand, but, but why can my mother remember Cheng Xunsheng, but can't remember her own daughter who has worked so hard for more than ten years?

My palm was icy cold, I wanted to step forward to hug my mother, but I disturbed her by patting her, so I dare not act rashly

. "Mom, I'm Chen Jiao. I came here specially to see you today." A smile rose from the corner of my mouth, and I tried my best to make the smile look like it was wrapped in sugar.

"Chen Jiao... Jiaojiao, but my Jiaojiao, isn't she dead? They all told me that Jiaojiao jumped into the sea... My child will never come back, and you don't look like her." Mother's eyes were calm, and she looked at me seriously.

When she said these words, she used declarative sentences, and her tone was calm.

I barely caught a trace of sadness, but it was quickly blown away by the wind.

"The child from the Chu family came to tell me the news. It was a rainy day when he came, and he refused to take an umbrella when he came to visit. Instead, he got wet all over." The mother spoke slowly. , Every time I said a word, it seemed that I had exhausted my whole body's strength, "I didn't have a good attitude towards this child. At that time, I wished I could take a broom and drive him out of the house immediately."

"But he suddenly knelt down towards me with a 'plop', and apologized to me repeatedly. Before he could say anything, he couldn't make a sound. At that time, I was thinking, this person is so strange, why did he come to cry in front of me? Out of breath."

"I was soft-hearted for a while, so I didn't throw him out... Then, he told me..." Mother's lips began to tremble, and she couldn't help rubbing her arms folded in front of her, "My Jiaojiao jumped into the sea Died. He said, my Jiaojiao jumped into the sea and died!"

The mother's face was pale, and her breath was suffocating in her heart, and her breathing gradually became difficult.I hastily stepped forward and patted my mother on the back to calm her down, but suddenly a lot of words got stuck in my throat, and I couldn't say anything but let myself be silent.

Human hearts are made of flesh.

When I thought that it was because of me that Chu Ting knelt down twice, I felt a throbbing pain in my heart.

My mother's eyes began to lose focus, and I was clearly standing beside her, but to her I looked like a transparent person.

She muttered to herself: "That's my only child, do you know how much it hurts when you hear this news?"

Pressing her hand on her heart, the beating sound of her heart was weak, as if it was slowly falling silent.

"So I didn't even think about it at the time, and threw everything I got at Chu Ting's face..."

My mother suddenly had a fierce look in her eyes, and she pushed me away viciously, "So my Jiaojiao is already dead, who are you... and why are you pretending to be her?!"

who are you?
This question was like a knife that cut me down and made my heart ache.

How can I explain it, and how can I explain those years to my mother one by one, so that she can believe me?
Someone pushed the door and entered, with a sense of spring wrapped around him.

"Aunt Zhao, I bought candied haws. Let's see if this is the one you want... Oh, Sister Jiaojiao is here too." Cheng Xunsheng saw the wind on the balcony, smiled kindly at me, and asked his mother what to eat. Do not sit in the room.

He naturally supported his mother's arm, and her mother trusted him completely, and held Cheng Xunsheng's arm tightly - when they walked by me, my mother even glanced at me several times, her eyes full of tears. alert.

My eyes began to wander aimlessly again, and finally I could only land on my toes, and I was stunned for a moment.

"This is the candied haws you bought back? Nonsense, these are not candied haws made of hawthorn at all, this is a bunch of strawberries." The mother whispered to Cheng Xunsheng, although there was complaint in her words, but she could also hear the closeness meaning.

My heart was pricked by an invisible thin needle. If I was allowed to show joy and anger, I think I would have grinned in pain at that moment.

"The bunch of strawberries you took are strawberries, and the rest are candied haws. And the store I went to buy is the one you and I kept talking about last night. I queued up for an hour Woolen cloth."

The hawthorn and strawberry are wrapped in white frosting, which complements the red color and adds to the attractiveness of the color, making people appetite after seeing it.

The mother pursed her lips, and finally chose a bunch of brightly colored candied haws from the bag and stuffed them into her pocket: "My Jiaojiao loved this the most when she was young, and I want to take it home for her to try."

The combination of mother's childish words and childish actions made Cheng Xunsheng grin and laugh.

The atmosphere between the two of them was warm, and it was not at all tense and vigilant like when I was with my mother just now.

Cheng Xunsheng pouted at me who was still standing on the balcony: "Isn't your Jiaojiao standing there? Sister Jiaojiao, why don't you come in? The wind on the balcony is so strong."

At that moment, as if I had been pardoned, I stepped forward and stepped into the house.