As deep as you are as hell

I thought about it, and finally took the cup of milk tea.

I thanked him verbally, but I didn't answer his last question.At the same time, a little bit of subtlety rose in my heart. This bit of subtlety was not only because a secret that Chu Ting had kept for many years was broken today, but also because I saw him crying in front of the tombstone on New Year's Day.

The black butterfly on my wrist is about to fly, as if it wants to fly to my mind to dispel those inappropriate thoughts.

That's right, Chu Ting ruined the Chen family back then, why should I be soft-hearted towards him because of such trivial matters? !

Chu Ting acted as a tour guide on his own, introducing me to the surrounding attractions in detail.

He also said that he would come here every New Year's day to relax, and the scenery here is refreshing.

It's just that his voice suddenly froze, and his eyes began to look back, falling on the Marriage Bridge.

At that moment, I felt that I was far away from him.It is clear that I am standing beside him.

Chu Ting suddenly said lightly: "Now, I really want to be alone."

His voice was so soft that I thought I had misheard him.

But when I realized it later, I just felt like my heart was being squeezed severely by someone.I seem to vaguely know who he is missing at the moment.

Fireworks suddenly bloomed in the night, like clusters of flowers.

Counting carefully, Chu Ting and I have seen so many fireworks, but I can't taste a bit of romance, but a bit more of the sentimentality of fireworks.

Chu Ting was holding a bottle of red wine in his hand, and a black scarf wrapped around his chin.A faint smile suddenly appeared on his lips, and he asked me if I wanted a drink.

I subconsciously wanted to nod and agree, but the physical condition of the advanced gastric cancer brought my thoughts back to reality, and finally I chose to decline.

I couldn't walk a few steps, and my panting became heavier.After my condition worsened, I often felt tired for no reason.

Chu Ting suddenly suggested to stop and rest for a while.He also found a bench and wiped the snow off it with a handkerchief.Then we each took one end of the bench.

I always thought that the snow in winter nights was dirty, but when I looked carefully today, I found that the snow particles were crystal clear, with the cleanest purity in the world.

While Chu Ting was drinking, the topic turned to me: "Miss Sofia wants to stay and develop in Yancheng in the future?"

"No."

"Then, in the field hospital in Somalia, the week Miss Sofia disappeared...where did she go?"

"Back to London." My answer was short and to the point.

But, it's not that I don't want to talk to Chu Ting more, it's just that I'm worried that I will reveal my truth.Chu Ting is such a shrewd person, I'm afraid he will find so many similarities between Sofia and Chen Jiao.

Chu Ting probably also heard the resistance in my words, and just congratulated me lightly.

And I know that when he said congratulations, he meant that I snatched his project, cut him off halfway, and returned to London to get a promotion and raise my salary.

"Mr. Chu is really generous. I thought Mr. Chu would at least be angry for a while."

"Then what if I say that I don't want this project in the first place?" The smile on Chu Ting's face was relaxed, but there was no element of hypocrisy.

I was about to start a conversation, but suddenly I felt a tightness in my chest, followed by a suffocation of my breath, and I fell to the ground in a panic.

The hearing aid in my ear did not hang securely and fell into the snow.My vision was blurry, and everything I saw was black and white.

The salty and bloody smell swept through my mouth, and I vomited it out again.All kinds of dirt and undigested liquid food are mixed in the blood, which brings a pungent taste.

The ends of my hair were also stained with food, and the sockets of my eyes were filled with water for some reason.The pain emanating from my heart made me subconsciously want to curl myself up.

But even at this time, I was actually distracted thinking about Chu Ting's attitude now.

Will he think I'm too scary?He who is obsessed with cleanliness, did he step back early, watching me lying on the ground in a state of embarrassment?

But I didn't expect that the next moment I would fall into a warm embrace.Chu Ting's lips opened and closed, his expression anxious and tense.

Having lost my hearing aid, I couldn't hear anything clearly, so I could only shake my head helplessly.

My consciousness was in a daze, and my whole body was like falling into a fog.The moment I put my hand on Chu Ting's sleeve, I suddenly realized that I wanted to ask him if he could give up on me.

Don't save me again.

If he later finds out who I am, what is my real purpose of returning to City A, and why I tried so hard to get close to him, will Chu Ting still be willing...to hold my dirty hand?

I seem to have heard an ethereal singing voice, and the lyrics sang word by word: "How far is it to enter your heart, how long is it to get close to you, how to find that person who is so far away but can't get close..."

Chu Ting held my cold hand, he was stunned for a moment.

But the next moment, I completely lost consciousness and passed out.

This year's New Year, I still spent in the hospital.

The familiar smell of disinfectant seems to be integrated with me. Whether it's blood or the medicine from the injection that flows in my veins, I gradually can't tell.

In the ward, my days are always boring.But I woke up less and less, and my eyelids always drooped heavily, with dark circles under my eyes.

Because I couldn't eat, and my gastrointestinal tract often refluxed, I began to lose weight.The fat bread jacket wrapped around me like a deflated balloon.

When I was awake, Chu Ting was always by my side in the ward.It stands to reason that he is obviously very busy, but he can spend his time on me all day long.

And in this ward, I don't know when the photo wall started to be posted. Many photos were taken recently and then developed.

I have carefully looked at the photos on it, some of which I looked up at the orange-pink sky and rose-red sunset outside the window, some of which I closed my eyes and took a nap, and more of them were actually photos of Chu Ting and me together.

But I don't know, how did he know which hospital I went through the hospitalization procedures before, how did he send me back to city A, and... where is Gu Jian?

Pages of the calendar were torn off, and before I knew it, I was in the hospital for another month.My face became paler and paler, and my whole temperament was visibly sluggish and depressed.

I once imagined the days when I would go back to City A——I would let Chu Ting suffer the consequences, make the Yuanshui Group run into obstacles and fail repeatedly in my hands, and make the branches of the Heiyan Group bigger and stronger until I could be in A City. The city's venture capital community has a place.

But all these imaginings eventually turned into bubbles that burst when the sun poked them because of the deterioration of my condition.

Even my own life is numbered.

Chu Ting rarely communicates with me every day, he is like an invisible person.

But I didn't expect that such a him would hug a pink and jade-carved female doll to make me happy.

The dull and cold atmosphere in the ward was dispelled by the soft and cute voice of the baby girl. She tried to warm me with her embrace and heal me with her smile.

She opened a pair of big eyes and asked me why I was unhappy and why I didn't smile more.

My eyes moved from her to Chu Ting, and I asked Chu Ting softly: "Where did you bring this child?"

But for some reason, I felt a pang of pain in my heart. If I hadn't had a miscarriage back then, my child should be at this age, right?

Chu Ting's voice was light: "Brought from the orphanage..."

He also seemed to have suddenly fallen into silence, and suddenly said: "My child should have grown up like this."

My voice was dry, like a mouthful of phlegm: "Mr. Chu... so there was a child?"

Chu Ting forced a smile, not knowing how to answer.

He finally said: "It's all my fault, it's all my fault... I was wrong."

The spring rain knows the season, and it falls in a patter.The bluestone roads of the hospital are covered with delicate green leaves and flowers that have been knocked down by the rain, and the fragrance still remains.

The little girl's eyes are clear, and her eyes are wandering between me and Chu Ting.Although she was young, she could feel the stiff atmosphere in the ward, so she held me with one hand, and the little finger of the other hand hooked up with Chu Ting's little finger circle.

She sang to us, told us stories, had a smile on her cheeks full of baby fat, and I knew she was trying to make us happy.

The attending doctor came in at some time, and the mobile phone captured the picture of the three of us getting along just now.He also joked with me that we looked like a family of three.

a family of three……

I smiled, but didn't take this sentence to heart.

But this sentence is really ambiguous, it defines the relationship between me and Chu Ting as husband and wife.

The doctor was still examining me and asked if I had noticed any other abnormalities in my body recently.

I put my hand on my heart and told the symptoms truthfully: "The heart is very stuffy, and I often can't breathe. The other conditions are still the same as before. I can't eat and often vomit. The vomit includes blood, liquid food, and yellow water."

I could feel my life passing by, and my optimism about my body dropped again and again. In the end, I simply gave up on myself and sat in the ward for longer and longer every day.

But the doctor frowned: "The report shows that some of your physical indicators have shown signs of improvement this month... I'm still thinking, didn't you ask me before, when will you be discharged from the hospital?"

What does it mean?
Suddenly a small flame of hope rose in my heart.

"If you feel that there is no major problem with your body, you can be discharged from the hospital in the next week. You have been living in the hospital for several months, and you don't move around much. This is not good for your health. So if you can consider If you are discharged from the hospital, you still have to go through the relevant procedures.”

"It's just an ugly thing to say. If you are too busy to take your body seriously, what happens at that time, even if the king of heaven comes, I may not be able to save you. Also, after you are discharged from the hospital, you will not be able to save yourself every week. You still have to come to the hospital for reexamination, get medicine and remember to take it on time."

I didn't get over it for a moment, I didn't fully digest what the doctor said, and I couldn't believe that I could really be discharged from the hospital.

On the day I was actually discharged from the hospital, the spring rain that had been falling for a month finally stopped, the sky cleared up, and the sun was warm.

My skin is sickly pale and I haven't been in the sun for a long time.

Walking on the street, I suddenly had an illusion in my heart like a world away.

I didn't let Chu Ting accompany me, and went back to the villa alone.That day, I was alone on the roof blowing the wind for a long time, watching the sunset slowly, watching the night gradually cover up the bright sky.

The branch opened auspiciously, and the senior management of the company gave it another name - "Mingshun".

It includes the meaning of breaking a boat into the sea, poverty and evil.