roses and lilies

She carefully read each chapter, and the book attracted her like a magnet.Reading can relax her body and mind.Feel the fate of the characters, and feel sad and happy with them.

I took the time to insert Xiaoya as the heroine in the relevant chapters of this book.Thinking about how to make her read feel real and exciting.

Creation is the best way for me to express my emotions. I like to reproduce the moving scenes in a real way, and I prefer to use love as the source of my code words.

Every time I come to the computer, facing this simple office software, I tap the keyboard rhythmically, making an intoxicating and light keyboard sound.Thinking is like a spring, as if the whole world does not exist, and you are alone in a pure and pure land.In this vast and boundless world, sway your thoughts, emotions and cognition to your heart's content.

No one disturbs, no one argues, explores the world and observes life from the perspective of God, and a character emerges from the mind like a movie, interpreting the emotions like reality.Many plots were originally well conceived, but when entering this world, it is really difficult to hold back, inexplicably following the impulse of feeling and creation.Let nature take its course, line by line of codewords, carriage return, space, modification, backspace, deletion, shift+punctuation.

After a short time, a piece of miraculous text appeared on the screen, followed by revisions over and over again, and deliberation line by line.The state of mind at this time is full of joy. The joy is that an article of creation is about to be released, and it is catchy to read.Inadvertently, I sat in this pure world for eight hours. For the nine-to-five in the real world, the eight-hour work is so slow.But in this pure land, it is as fast as 8 minutes.Carefully reading the newly created and revised chapters of my own, I can't help but be surprised, the outline that was previously conceived by myself has completely disappeared.The creation following the feeling makes the written chapter much more exciting than the outline. No wonder many well-known great writers do not write outlines. They seem to follow the steps of inspiration.Express your emotions and creative impulses eclecticly.

The happiest thing is to read quietly after creation, store countless classic works in a small electronic paper book, call out a book, and carefully feel the true feelings revealed between the lines of the author.It’s nothing more than joy, anger, sorrow, and joy. From the advancement of the plot, the shaping of the characters’ personalities, a large number of exquisite environment descriptions, the meticulous observation of the scenery, and the ups and downs of the characters’ psychological activities, I can absorb a lot of nutrients and accumulate my own creative accomplishment little by little. .

Writing and reading seem to be the biggest way of leisure and relaxation in my life.I am really grateful to the ancestors who created words, without them, how boring and boring life would be!

Xiaoya likes reading very much, which is inseparable from her education and cultivation. What she fears most is that her good years will slowly go away, and her youth will slowly fade away.After reading, she wrote a poem to express her feelings.

Qin Yuanchun Su Sha
Susachi dance
a ride on smoke

lonely
Looking at the blue sky and flowing clouds
Long day one color

galaxy sunset
boundless sea
Shadow Embedded Cangxia
wasteland
In a blink of an eye, the fragrance disappears for nine days

wait for the moon

Listen to Flying Stars

It's hard to read
Reminiscing about time gone by
looking back sadly wishing to tell forgotten words
Looking for traces of the past

close at hand
Today's Beauty
as far as the sky
Ride the waves
Missed
Bury a thousand cardamoms

don't let go

Let the wind blow

waving sleeves like smoke
She dressed herself up like a lady, clinging to each other as a bird, letting time pass by her side quietly, lamenting the passing of the years.Inadvertently, Xiaoya fell into the whirlpool of depression again and couldn't extricate herself.In desperation, I had no choice but to use my wits in a hurry, and based on the sadness of that word, I quickly composed a slightly cheerful song.

Rumengling

Flowing water is with me,

The fish swim freely.

Ask a stranger,
Have you ever remembered me?

stay, stay,
Don't talk about it.

The green hills come into view,

Floating Cloud waved gently.

Who will accompany you in this life?
Years like water have no desire,

Mo Chou, Mo Chou,
But said my heart is still.

After listening to this good song, there was a "pop" on the sad little face, and I couldn't help laughing. "What a stranger, what a companion in this life, the most wonderful thing is the timeless love! I really can't hide what I think in my heart! It's rare that you made the first choice so quickly, so I don't mind it Happy!"

Her mood became so fast, which was far beyond my expectation. These days, I feel slightly that she has been in love for such a long time, and the more she is reluctant to leave. The doctor once said that all patients with depression must have a standard , continued to be depressed for two weeks before being diagnosed.I also faintly feel that she is different from the previous state. Every day, she dresses herself up as a slim and ladylike lady. The long-lost double ponytails are naturally placed on her slender shoulders. smile.This doesn't look like being sick.Whenever I feel her better, she starts to get depressed again, and after a while, she is amused by me again.

I guess she must be hiding something.So I started to pay attention to her every move.

One day, Xiaoya snuggled into my arms as usual, and said to me affectionately: "Brother, I want to be with you for the rest of my life. Let's live happily together in this small family, okay?"

My heart couldn't help trembling, and I finally understood her thoughts, as well as those abnormal behaviors a while ago, she has already recovered, but she just couldn't bear to leave.People are emotional animals, and she didn't want to leave me alone in the country.Although it was her childhood dream to study at Stanford University, she had already made a judgment in her heart. When the studies and love in front of her made her make a difficult choice, she undoubtedly chose the latter.This is the last thing I want to see.If this is the case, I would kill her future with my own hands. How can I be worthy of the godmother's spirit in heaven!
As I expected, her occasional depression during this period was all faked. She wanted to create the illusion that she was not fully recovered, and used this period of time to implicitly infiltrate into me the idea of ​​not wanting to study abroad.

I couldn't refuse directly in my heart, and I fell into a deep conflict, but I had to make her feel at ease right now, so I had to deal with her with words like panacea, and then figured out a countermeasure after prevarication.

"Well, of course! But I feel that your studies are the most important thing. Everything must wait until you have completed your studies. After all, you are still young, so you are not bad in the past three or two years, right?" I asked tentatively.

She bowed her head in silence.Although he is virtuous, he is stubborn in his bones.It is difficult for others to change the things that are recognized.It seems that she has to go further to find a way to solve this matter that is related to her fate in the second half of her life.