A deep love: Thousands of stars are not as good as you

An Jinnian's press conference was scheduled in a building called "Starry Sky Library" away from the urban area. When Xu Yan and I arrived, the lobby of the Starry Sky Library was already full of reporters.After a quick look, there were at least 50 to [-] people, not to mention some readers who were standing outside the building waiting for An Jinnian's arrival.

According to Xu Yan, An Jinnian has become famous in the past two years, and there are rumors both at home and abroad, and even holding press conferences is a common occurrence.As for why the news about An Jinnian was not found until now, Xu Yan said that it was her fault that she had been too obsessed with gossip about stars before, which led to the loss of the only opportunity to interview An Jinnian in Niannian.

Compared with An Jinnian, I realized that I was a little too low-key.

There was chatter and noise in the hall, and it sounded like they were discussing An Jinnian.

"Hey... Do you know that I met this Mr. An last year, he was so handsome..." It was a girl's voice, and the tone was full of obsession and yearning. "But last year was in Shanghai, and he was also holding a press conference. You all don't know how charming his face is. He is even more handsome than today's popular male stars..."

"Really?" There was a lot of booing, as if they were full of curiosity about Mr. An they were talking about.

"Really, I've seen it too..."

"However, Mr. An doesn't seem to like to talk very much. Every press conference can only hear his assistant talking."

"Yeah, I also heard that Mr. An has autism and doesn't like crowds, so every press conference is very low-key..."

"No, it's also called low-key. If you want to say low-key, it's better to talk about the writer in our city named Lin Xi. So far, her works have been made into several TV series, but she really showed her face two years ago. ..."

Suddenly hearing my name from those reporters, I couldn't help raising my eyebrows. Unexpectedly, I was still somewhat famous.

When it comes to popularity, I have to say that I am deep enough. I have been in the Internet literature circle for so long, but I have never claimed to be a writer. Therefore, when I can keep a low profile, I try not to be high profile.

"Hey... which of these two do you think is better?"

"Let me tell you, each has its own merits,"

"Think about whether someday if these two people meet together, will there be a spark of love? Two young writers, handsome men and beautiful women, talented and beautiful, are they..."

"Well, it's possible. I heard that Lin Xi is also quite beautiful..."

The discussions around were still going on, and Xu Yan beside me stretched out her hand to push me, and whispered, "Look, the eyes of the masses are discerning, you and An Jinnian are destined to be exposed to the sun."

I glared at Xu Yan angrily, but didn't answer.

At this moment, my mood is disorganized. It has been half an hour since I came here at nine o'clock in the morning.During this long waiting time, I feel very tormented.Even if it is a minute and a second, I count it in my heart, for fear that that person will be absent.

Just as he was thinking, there was a commotion at the entrance of the hall.I saw a group of tall people in black suits standing on both sides of the entrance of the hall.

In the middle surrounded by them, two men in light blue suits walked slowly. Their steps were steady and vigorous, with a cold aura on their bodies, as if they wanted to keep people away thousands of miles away.

The coldness coming from the bones forcibly blocked the readers watching from both sides from the men in black.

I stood behind the crowd, looked at the man walking in front, and lost all my composure in an instant.It's just that the eyes are greedy and nostalgic, watching the back that is gradually going away.

I thought, if time could be frozen at this moment, then I would rush forward desperately and hug him.

But now I am withdrawn and timid.

In the center of the hall is a temporary stage, for the convenience of separating the organizers from the reporters.The platform is not too high, as long as you lift your feet, you can step on it.The furnishings on the stage were also very simple. A table with a height of half a person and a meter long was quietly placed in the center of the stage, and two benches were neatly placed in front of the table.On the background wall behind is a huge promotional poster for the cover of "Human World".Below the stage, five rows of single stools were placed around the stage, and each row could seat about a dozen people.

The moment An Jinnian took the stage, all the reporters rushed over one after another, just to grab the most convenient position in the front row to ask questions.

After all the reporters in the hall were seated one after another, Xu Yan tugged on my collar, "Let's go, we'll go there too."

"Okay." I took out the prepared mask from my pocket, put it on, followed Xu Yan, and sat down in the last row.

Xu Yan handed the microphone to me, "Have you decided what to say to him?"

I shook my head and looked up, only to see An Jinnian on the stage with his left leg hooked slightly, stepping on the foot of the stool, his right leg stretched out straight, his back bent forward, his left arm hugging his chest, his right hand resting on his left elbow, Support the chin.

It looks like an extremely impolite and imageless sitting posture, but he does it without any sense of disobedience, and even gives people a cool, a little ruffian sense of surprise.The long bangs on the forehead extend to the front of the eyebrows, the high bridge of the nose stands quietly under the trembling eyelashes, and the sexy thin lips are tightly pursed into a line, adding a bit of handsome haze, just like the clouds in the sky The moon is visible but intangible.

In the hall, countless flash lights were fixed on him, and then fell again. The reporters asked questions about all the big and small things around him. He asked the question, but he didn't intend to speak for a long time.

On the contrary, the man beside him was frothing and eloquently answering every question asked by the reporters, no matter whether it should be answered or not, he avoided it in a clever way, answering In addition, he still did not forget to talk and laugh with the reporters.

"Hey... Lin Xi, why don't you come over?" Xu Yan approached and arched my arm, her eyes glowing with excitement. "If you don't go over, An Jinnian will be swallowed by the gazes of those women. Tsk tsk tsk... Look at them, they look so eager to post, I feel anxious for you."

I pouted my mouth, wanting to refute, but didn't know what to say.In fact, at this moment, more than anyone else, I want to go over to An Jinnian, to see what kind of expression he will have when he sees me.

However, my feet seemed to weigh a thousand catties, and I couldn't take that crucial step no matter what I stood on the spot.

Even the hand holding the microphone was trembling uncontrollably, and my body was sweating profusely. It was obviously a severe winter, but at this moment, I felt the temperature difference on my body.

The surrounding questions continued, I left Xu Yan, stood up and squeezed into the crowd, pushing them away with all my might.One step, two steps, three steps...

It's getting closer, it's getting closer...

In front of me was a densely packed wall of people. I stood in the middle of the crowd, a little confused, and the heart of my right hand holding the microphone was slowly sweating.He was obviously so nervous that he was going to die, but he still wanted to move forward.

Amidst the noise, I heard a female reporter asking, "Mr. An, can I ask you a personal question? Do you have a girlfriend now, or are you married..." Her tone was unusually shy And anticipation, as if looking forward to An Jinnian's answer, but afraid of his answer.

The neutral voice of "Yes" came through the crowd coldly. It was obviously a very light word, but it seemed to resound through the entire hall.Shocked, I stood where I was, not knowing how to react, only the word "yes" echoed repeatedly in my mind.

Do you have a girlfriend yet?That's right, I should have thought of it earlier, he is so good, how could he not have a girlfriend after so many years.

Thinking of this, I closed my eyes in desperation, as if someone had stabbed me hard in my heart, the pain was so painful that it was unspeakable.And his words were like a flash of thunder, disturbing all my thoughts.

The foot that was about to move forward retracted again, allowing the people around me to squeeze me back and forth.But my gaze was still fixed on the stage not far ahead.

That familiar face suddenly gave me a sense of strangeness.The youthful and childish face at the beginning was replaced by a mature and restrained face.He was still the same as in the past, still refusing the approach of everyone around him, being cold and not saying much.

At this moment, I suddenly understood that what he gave me back then was not only the meager love, but also the envy of so many girls. At least, the me at that time was special in his eyes.

what about now!Will it be special?

Suddenly, there was a hint of anticipation in my heart.The foot that had stopped before stepped forward again.

This time, I no longer have any hesitation.

As the distance gets closer and closer every time, my heart becomes uneasy again, and there is also a trace of pain in it.

As I pushed, dissatisfied eyes all gathered around me.

"Hey... why are you like this? What are you pushing us to do?"

"That's right, which magazine is this, why is it so unqualified."

There were complaints all around, and they all stared at me like hungry tigers, wishing to throw me to the back.

Finally, I walked through the crowd and walked to the front. I stood up straight calmly, raised my head, and stared straight at An Jinnian in front of me. He was only two steps away from me at this moment.

And I still feel the distance between us.

His eyes were deep, looking towards me slowly, there was a trace of sickly whiteness on his handsome and desolate face, his eyes were so light, so light, so light that he never put me in his eyes.

He obviously didn't expect such a sudden situation to happen.

The reporters interviewing around gradually quieted down amidst the complaints. They all looked at me in astonishment, with doubts and bewilderment in their eyes.What's more, they even took a few steps back, leaving all the space in front of An Jinnian to me.

I stood there, receiving the baptism of the eyes of everyone around me, feeling my whole body trembling. I raised the microphone in my right hand, handed it to him, and raised my eyes to meet his gaze.

His dark eyes were full of inquiry and ignorance, and there was even a bit of chill.He just glanced at me indifferently, then immediately retracted his gaze and looked elsewhere.

I stretched out my left hand and slowly tore off the mask on my face in the astonishment of everyone, and opened my mouth leisurely.

"After years of separation, it is the past
If life pays off
Why do we meet again, why do we meet again..." I whispered the words I saw on the top of his Weibo, although the voice was not very loud, but I could clearly feel the person in front of me The sudden gaze was full of disbelief, panic, and a trace of nervousness that was not easy to detect... "Mr. An, is it a mistake or a lifetime of misses. "

It was as if a pot exploded around me, and the reporters became enthusiastic all of a sudden, discussing in a hurry. "Hey... Isn't this Lin Xi? Why is she here?" Someone in the crowd seemed to recognize me.

"Hey, this battle is not here to slap your face."

"I think it's possible, this Lin Xi is also a capable faction."

"Oh, this is good news. Two young writers appeared at the same time. Hurry up, everyone..."

The discussions continued one after another, but my eyes were only on the person in front of me.

An Jinnian, whom I haven't seen for many years, is still so dazzling, as beautiful as a dream.

But he was still sitting still, staring at me blankly, his dark eyes seemed to have lost all his spirit at that moment, his expression was unclear.

For a moment, I even wanted to rush up and hug him, tell him that I still love him, and I'm still waiting for him.

However, none of us... have taken this step.

For a long time, the time seems to be as long as a century, and at the moment when I thought An Jinnian would come, he got up and ran away.

"An Jinnian, An Jinnian, how could you..." How could you abandon me again, there is no reason, no answer.

I stood there at a loss, watching his back running away, crying heartbreakingly, and yelling without image.It was like going back to the day An Jinnian left four years ago, everything was so helpless and powerless.

An Jinnian, is there really no answer between us?

Deep despair wrapped me up in an instant, I squatted down in pain and hugged myself, once again, I fell into a desperate situation.

Yes, there are only two steps between us, as if separated by a world, I don't even have the courage to catch up.Because I was afraid, afraid of deeper despair, afraid that what awaited me was his merciless answer.I'm even more afraid that his answer will make me fall to the bottom, and from then on I can no longer find the direction I am looking for, and can only fall into the dark abyss.

Surrounded by strange gazes from all the reporters, because they didn't know what happened in that short moment, why An Jinnian on the stage would suddenly run away, why I was crying loudly in the audience, everything was messy for no reason.

Xu Yan pushed aside the crowd and rushed over. She shouted at the people around me who were taking pictures of me, "What are you taking pictures of? What's there to take? An Jinnian is gone. What else do you have to take pictures..."

"Tch, if you don't shoot, don't shoot, who do you think she is, should we shoot her or give her face..."

"Let's go...don't be as knowledgeable as this kind of person."

"Hmph... I really take myself seriously." Those mocking voices faded away unwillingly, and Xu Yan and I were left alone in the empty hall.

"Lin Xi, don't be sad, okay?" Xu Yan knelt down and hugged me, "Even if An Jinnian doesn't want you, you still have me."

"Xu Yan, Xu Yan, he's gone, he's gone again..." He left without nostalgia, not even leaving me with the joy of reunion.

Heart, pain and numbness, that kind of sense of confusion, all struck.

"I know I know, Lin Xi, it's nothing." Xu Yan stretched out her hand and patted my back lightly, comforting me softly, just like four years ago, staying with me and never leaving.

In my heart, there was a deeper sadness.An Jinnian, you see, you are always the only one who is willing to abandon me cruelly, one time at a time...

"Come on, let's go home."

I don't know how long it took, the tears in my eyes seemed to have dried up, I was choked up, but I couldn't cry anymore, Xu Yan pulled me up, carefully and slowly accompanied me to leave, step by step, walking so cautiously.

The people around the Starry Sky Library were already empty, perhaps they had already dispersed the moment An Jinnian left.After all, those people were all for An Jinnian.

As soon as I walked out of the gate, I realized that the sunny weather in the morning had turned gloomy, and the sky had already started to snow goose feathers one after another, and the snow melted in pieces on the ground.Everything seemed to respond to my mood, and it came without warning.