A deep love: Thousands of stars are not as good as you

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry..." An Jinnian kept repeating sorry over and over again.He reached out and gently embraced me in his arms, whispering and echoing.

The coldness on his body is like snow and ice in winter, making the embrace that should be warm appear cold at this moment.

I lay on his body, buried my head deeply in his chest, and let the tears wet a large piece of clothes on his chest with my nose and tears.

When the familiar scent hit my nostrils, I couldn't hold back anymore and hugged An Jinnian's waist tightly, crying bitterly.

It is obviously still a mixture of baby's breath and gardenia, but it can be smelled at the tip of the nose, but the smell seems to have changed.

Just like our love, it is also changing bit by bit, moving in a direction we can't predict, going further and further away, never returning.

I was like a drowning fish in the deep sea, allowing myself to lose my breath little by little, suffocating to death.

"I don't want your sorry, An Jinnian, don't push me away again, okay..." I lay in his arms and begged in a low voice. "Six years of waiting is too long after all, so don't drive me away, okay?"

"Don't cry, dear..." His right hand was dragging on the back of my head, his voice was slightly hoarse, as if he was hiding his emotions, "Don't worry me."

His hot and cold, let me fall into confusion again.

I looked up at him, only to see his gentle eyes falling on the top of my head, looking so fascinated that I didn't even know when I poked my head out of his arms.

I pursed my lips, grinned bitterly, and said in a heartbroken voice that only I could hear, "Okay, if that's the case, then let's leave now..."

I let go of him, and stepped back slowly, the moment my hand touched the back of his hand, my whole body trembled.

It was still cold to the touch, with no warmth, even in this gold throwing hall that was fully air-conditioned and surrounded by heating, his body was still bone-chillingly cold.

The distance between us became farther and farther as I automatically retreated, until I stood two meters away, I whimpered and asked him, "This is what you want."

An Jinnian didn't answer, and still maintained the posture of embracing me just now, standing there blankly, motionless.

He looked at me, from affectionate to fickle, and the conversion was completed in just a second.

Those star-like eyes, like the stars in the dark night, are so dazzling and fascinating.

It's just that kind of dazzling, from now on, I'm afraid it will have nothing to do with me.

Because, An Jinnian, whom I have loved for many years, is finally about to abandon me.

After five years, my An Jinnian, the man whom I dubbed Prince Charming, finally left me behind.

This night, he fulfilled all my dreams about Cinderella...

He took me to meet his parents, friends, and elders.Everything, everything I want to meet and accomplish, he helped me do it as a boyfriend.

This also means that our relationship is over.

Perhaps from now on, we are not even as good as passers-by.

"Lin Xi, I'm sorry..." An Jinnian turned away from looking at me.

I said, "I'm not sorry, An Jinnian, I'm tired...bye..."

I turned around, trying to maintain an elegant pace, step by step, slowly walking away, farther and farther away from him.

I can even hear the sound of my heart breaking, and clearly feel that every time I take a step, the muscles all over my body are throbbing with pain.

Until the last moment when I squeezed into the crowd, I still did not forget to look back at him, with reluctance and nostalgia in my eyes.

It was the last time that he stood in the sight of everyone so clearly and boldly, looking at him, reluctantly...

The bright white light in the hall slanted on his face, reflecting his pale face and purple lips.

All expressions on his indifferent face were buried, making it hard to see what he was thinking at the moment.

I sniffed, with a strong nasal voice, and covered my face with tears.

In the turbulent crowd, I was the only one left, and I was left alone, secretly sad, crying bitterly.

The sadness that came from the bottom of my heart was like a kind of silent pain, and it made me hard to breathe.

An Jinnian, since this is what you want, then, I will grant it to you.

Leaving Jiangzhou, disappearing into your world, from then on, separated by two cities, never seeing each other again.

……

"Hey! An Jinnian, Lin Xi loves you so much, even if your heart is made of ice, it should be melted by her. What's more, she is so devoted to you."

Seeing Lin Xi go away, Xu Yan pulled Yu Sheng out of the crowd and accused him angrily. "Do you know how Lin Xi got here all these years?"

"I know." An Jinnian interrupted Xu Yan, resolutely closing her eyes. "But I can't drag her down, she deserves better..."

Pain gradually spread across An Jinnian's face. He closed his eyes, feeling so distressed that it seemed as if all the strength in his body had been sucked away, leaving him surrounded only by endless despair.

An Jinnian, whose body was trembling, became unsteady and fell straight on the sofa, curled up into a ball.

He wanted to move his body and leave here, but the pain that spread in his bones and blood swept him instantly, making him unable to move.

Almost, and only a little bit, he was about to show his true colors in front of Lin Xi.

Xu Yan was shocked by this scene. She pointed at An Jinnian and asked hesitantly, "An Jinnian, you... what's wrong with you, don't scare me."

"Master An, are you alright?" Yu Sheng, who was standing on the sidelines and was ready to stand by, also noticed that something was wrong with An Jinnian, and hurriedly asked.

An Jinnian remained silent, frowning tightly. Wrapped in pain, his face was terribly pale, and cold sweat dripped down from his forehead.

"That's not right..." Yu Sheng stretched out his hand to check An Jinnian's body temperature worriedly, but when he touched An Jinnian's forehead, he was startled, "How could that be, Young Master An, why is your body so cold. "

Xu Yan was also sweating in anxiety, took out her mobile phone and searched for Lin Xi's number in the address book, and asked, "What's the matter, Yu Sheng, do you want my name to be Lin Xi..."

"Don't...tell...Lin Xi." Even though it was difficult to pronounce the words, An Jinnian still managed to squeeze out these words from between his teeth.
Although the voice was not very loud, Xu Yan could still hear it clearly.

"Why?" Xu Yan paused while holding the phone, asking inexplicably.

"Don't... tell her." An Jinnian bit her lip, trying her best not to groan in pain.

"No, he has to be sent to the hospital right away." Yu Sheng squatted down, ready to carry An Jinnian on his back.

"Trouble...help me...find Mu Yuan." An Jinnian shook his head weakly, opened his eyes with difficulty, looked at the two figures that were gradually blurring in front of him, and said weakly.

"Okay, you wait, I'll look for it right away." Xu Yan withdrew her hand that was about to dial Lin Xi's number, quickly put the phone back in her handbag, turned around and squeezed into the crowd.

Yu Sheng squatted on the ground, feeling anxious for a while.

An Jinnian's sudden onset of illness really shocked him. If he could not hear An Jinnian's breathless breathing, he would have thought that An Jinnian was dead.

Looking at An Jinnian's painful appearance, Yu Sheng finally caught a little clue from the unusual meaning.He seemed to suddenly understand why An Jinnian refused Lin Xi thousands of miles away every time.

"So that's how it is." Yu Sheng murmured softly, and said in a voice that only he could hear, "So you love her so much, hehe... It's because I treat the belly of a gentleman with the heart of a villain. From the beginning to the end, Lin Xi's I have never stepped into the world. An Jinnian, what is your virtue and ability to make Lin Xi love you so much."

Yu Sheng's eyes lingered on An Jinnian's body, he closed his eyes helplessly, he couldn't bear to watch the scene of An Jinnian's painful struggle again.

As a man, how could he not know what An Jinnian was worried about.If the roles were changed, and it was him, he would push Lin Xi away without hesitation.

However, he is not the protagonist in their story after all, nor is he the lover in her world after all.

When Mu Yuan and Xu Yan arrived, An Jinnian had already fainted from the pain.

The three of them stood in the corner looking at me and you, all anxious and didn't know what to do.

In the end, it was Mu Yuan who had experience. He rolled up his sleeves, moved away the sofa that was in the way, squatted down, patted his back, and said to Yu Sheng, "Please help me put Jin Nian on my back."

"Okay." Yu Sheng nodded, without saying a word, half-lifted An Jinnian from the sofa, and gently placed him on Mu Yuan's back.

"Please help me to cover Jinnian's head with that coat." Everything was ready, Mu Yuan was about to carry An Jinnian on his back, when he suddenly remembered that this is a public place, and it is not appropriate for people to know about An Jinnian, He tilted his head to look at Yu Sheng who was silent behind him, and politely reminded him.

Yu Sheng knew the importance of An Jinnian's condition, so he didn't hesitate much, quickly grabbed the hair cover on the sofa and put it on for An Jinnian, and carefully covered his upper body. "alright."

As soon as Yu Sheng finished speaking, Mu Yuan rushed into the crowd with An Jinnian on his back, squeezing and yelling, "Please make room, everyone"

"Yu Sheng, why don't we go too." Xu Yan said worriedly.

Although she didn't know what An Jinnian was hiding from Lin Xi, but at present, she had to confirm An Jinnian's situation for Lin Xi first,

"Let's go." Yu Sheng took Xu Yan's hand after speaking, and followed Mu Yuan's pace.

Fortunately, he made preparations in advance, and Mu Yuan was not familiar with Jiangzhou, so his noble face did not cause him any trouble.

It was almost early morning when An Jinnian was sent to the hospital.

At the door of the emergency room, Mu Yuan was lying on a bench, gasping for breath, as if he hadn't recovered from the incident where he carried An Jinnian all the way from Yunque Palace to the urban hospital.

Xu Yan on the side had already blushed for this, and she was originally an impatient person.

Especially after discovering An Jinnian's unknown side, no matter how she thought about it, she felt that something was wrong, as if she had missed something.

"Mu Yuan, what's going on here?" Xu Yan continued her Nth question and answer without giving up.

From the time An Jinnian was sent to the emergency room until now, all of Xu Yan's words were shortened into one question, "Mu Yuan, what's going on?"