A deep love: Thousands of stars are not as good as you

What is the dream, I always ask myself this way, is it a person, or a wish that has never been fulfilled in a poor life.Is it the person who turns around and leaves, or the self who stops in place and refuses to leave.

An Jinnian, in the past few years after you left, I lived in my own world worrying about gains and losses, dreaming a dream that I refused to wake up from.In the dream, you are the Prince Charming riding a horse against the light, and I am the Cinderella who travels all over the world just to meet you.I waited persistently, turned sadness into motivation, and shuttled through major cities, just to find your figure.However, in An Jinnian, we never met again.

You don't know how much I like you, almost crazy, but I just want to find news about you.

The world is so big and crowded with people, what I am most afraid of is not whose side you are standing by, whose hand you are holding.But I have searched all over the world, but there is no news of you.

It's like these years, I always call your name to wake up from the dream, but unwilling to read your name to fall asleep again.

"Lin Xi, Lin Xi..." There seemed to be someone shaking my arm beside me.

I tiredly opened my eyes and looked at the blurred person in front of me. "What's wrong……"

Xu Yan pulled me up indiscriminately, "Lin Xi, are you sleepwalking? You stayed up all night in front of the computer in a perfect bed. Are you okay?" Xu Yan stretched out her hand to touch my forehead. "Fortunately, the heating came on in the morning, otherwise your life will probably be accounted for. Alright, I'll cook, you go back to your room and lie down for a while, and I'll call you when the food is ready." Xu Yan said nothing He helped me up and walked towards the bedroom, and I was not allowed to argue, and kept nagging, a bit more than my mother.

I rubbed my forehead and felt my eyes hurt, presumably because I didn't sleep all night.

I went back to the bedroom with Xu Yan's support, afraid of disturbing my rest, she still didn't forget to close the bedroom door gently when she went out.

I closed my eyes, but I didn't feel sleepy anymore. All the messages about An Jinnian flashed through my mind, and my heart throbbed slightly.

It's been so long, but I still feel my heart contract suddenly and ache as soon as I think about it.

After pulling off the quilt and covering his head, everything around him suddenly became quiet, and he could feel his heart beating slowly and restlessly, "Bang bang..." was louder than a loud bang.

"By the way, Lin Xi, uncles and aunts will come over later." Just as she felt a little sleepy, Xu Yan's croaking voice came.She pushed open the door and poked her head in, but did not enter the bedroom.

As soon as I lifted the quilt, I gasped for breath, and suddenly, the cold air lurking in the room enveloped me instantly.I had no choice but to pull back the quilt cover again, my face was flushed. "Ah, why didn't you tell me." I put the pillows behind me, sat up sideways, and gave Xu Yan a dissatisfied look.This guy sometimes likes to pretend to be confused, knowing that I don't want my parents to see me like this.

"Lin Xi, it's rare for me to come to Beijing, so I asked my uncles and aunts to come over and have a lively gathering. You know, I'm always alone in Jiangzhou..." Xu Yan gradually lowered her voice as she spoke.

Seeing Xu Yan, who was still excited and joyful just now, suddenly became sad and lonely, I felt a little guilty in my heart.

Xu Yan's parents divorced since she was a child, her mother married into a wealthy family, and she went abroad with her husband, and she has lost contact with her since then.As for Xu Yan, she followed her father as she should, but her father was a businessman, and he spent almost all his time on his career throughout the year.Although Xu Yan is his daughter, she never saw each other for a year. All that was left to Xu Yan were countless banknotes, brand-name bags and clothes that accompanied her... So, for me, the simple On the contrary, she is very envious of the warm and warm home. Whenever she comes to Beijing to visit me, she always has to behave in front of my parents for a while, to satisfy her children's feelings.

"Okay, okay, Xu Yan, I'm sorry, I was wrong, okay..." I didn't care about the cold air spreading around the room, I hurriedly got out of bed and walked over to pull her sleeve, half pushing and half flattering her.

"I think you're fine, so hurry up and help me, so that uncles and aunts can taste my craft later." Xu Yan said, turning around arrogantly and leaving, with a sly and bright smile on the corner of her mouth, Obvious and arrogant, it seems to remind me that I have been fooled.

Only then did I realize that I jumped into the hole Xu Yan dug and couldn't get out.Er... "Xu Yan, you don't love me anymore..."

While accusing Xu Yan, I complained dissatisfiedly.

In the kitchen, Xu Yan was happily busy left and right, with no displeasure on her face, as if what she just mentioned didn't affect her in the slightest.

In fact, many times, I feel that my life is much better than Xu Yan's.At least no matter what happened, I still have my parents who love me, but she only has me.

I was a little girl born in a warm family when I was young. My father is a civil servant and my mother is a people's teacher. In ancient times, I am a young lady from a scholarly family with a good family background and good conduct.Because of being inspired by my parents since I was a child, I have benefited a lot.Dad is a lover of literature, and the bookcases at home are full of books of all kinds.Because my mother is a teacher, she also loves literature very much, so under their influence, over time, I have also been influenced by them, and I fell in love with writing. She contributed articles to the agency, and was even more honored to be honored to be published in newspapers and magazines. This is why the name Lin Xi is always popular and active in the Internet circle, and it is also the reason why I met An Jinnian.

Thinking of this, I couldn't help laughing at myself. After so many years, I was still looking forward to his appearance so much.

"Lin Xi, hurry up, take this cabbage to wash." Xu Yan saw that I was standing behind her without moving, so she sneaked a glance at me, and quickly acted as her commander and arranged the work for me.

"Hey..." I shook my head helplessly, picked up the cabbage placed in the vegetable sink, walked to the faucet, turned on the hot water, and got busy in a leisurely manner.

Fortunately, the rooms in Beijing are heated. Even if you wear less clothes, the room is not as warm as it is in winter.

Outside the house, suddenly there was heavy snow with goose feathers, and the snowflakes fluttered and fell to the ground, disappearing without a trace.

At this time, there was a knock on the door. I was about to open the door, but Xu Yan ran faster than me. I just turned off the faucet, and she opened the door with a sweet voice, "Uncle Auntie is here, come in and sit down..." Xu Yan turned her back on guests, and after inviting her parents into the room, she quickly closed the door.It stuck to my parents like a dog skin plaster, "Uncle and aunt are tired, come and sit down, rest..."

I stood dumbfounded at the door of the kitchen, as if Xu Yan was my parents' biological daughter.

"Uncles and aunts take a break first, Lin Xi and I will cook in the kitchen, and it will be ready soon." Xu Yan tried her best to show off her image of a good girl who went to school on TV.The startled parents sat on the sofa dumbfounded one after another, not knowing how to react, they just kept nodding in response to Xu Yan's politeness.

"Xiaoyan, you are all from my own family, so you don't have to be polite." Dad is nearly sixty years old, his temples are gradually turning gray, and he is 1.8 meters tall. A lot shorter.The years silently scratched the marks on his face, leaving a series of aging wrinkles. Even so, he looked like he was only in his early fifties, and he was in a good state of mind.

"Uncle, you're welcome, you sit down first..." Xu Yan ran into the kitchen quickly, and urged, "It's all your fault. You didn't sleep well, and you just lay on the table all night. See, I can't show it because of the trouble." Greet uncle and aunt with the best posture..." Xu Yan was busy and murmured non-stop, afraid of being heard by her parents, I was shocked and sighed, who are these parents...

"Xiao Xi, help Xiaoyan..." Mom worriedly urged in the living room.

"Got it, Mom." I put the washed cabbage on a plate, enjoying this rare and warm scene.

It's really been a long time since I've had a good meal with my parents, and I haven't had a good word with them for a long time.

"Lin Xi, hurry up and wash up, I'm all fine..." Xu Yan held the dishes she had prepared and smelled them closely, "It's been a long time since I cooked, and the dishes are still so delicious..."

I looked at her suspiciously, and then went straight to the bathroom.

After I finished washing, the people on the table had already started eating. Xu Yan and her parents were chatting vigorously. Seeing me coming, she hurriedly opened the seat and handed me a pair of chopsticks, "Eat quickly..."

There are four dishes and one soup simply placed on the table. They all looked good, and they looked delicious. I picked up the chopsticks and picked a piece of meat for myself. I was about to feed it into my mouth, but Xu Yan didn’t know what she had smoked. Crazy, I stretched out my left hand and patted the back of my hand hard. I couldn't tell whether it was deliberate or intentional. As soon as my hand hurt, the meat immediately fell into the bowl.I opened my mouth wide in embarrassment, and paused for a moment before I could react.

"Uncle and aunt haven't eaten yet, what are you in a hurry for?" Looking at Xu Yan's serious expression, I really wonder if she is the rightful daughter of my parents.

"Xiaoyan, just let Xiaoxi eat." Mom looked at us both with a big smile on her face, "It's rare for us as a family to get together. It's so delicious..." Mom said giving food to me and me respectively. Xu Yan picked up a piece of meat each, but there was a bitterness in her voice, which made me feel sour.

My mother is a few years younger than my father, and she looks like she is in her forties in her fifties. Because she doesn't pay much attention to maintenance, her face is covered with fine wrinkles and brown spots.However, she is quite particular about her clothes, and she usually dresses like a rich wife when she goes out.So today, she is wearing a green dress with lace trim, a beige long coat, and a black and white checkered scarf. Her long hair is pulled up high, which complements her fair complexion, beauty, and dignity grace.When she entered the living room, she took off her coat, opened the scarf, and draped it over her body as a shawl, making her look even more beautiful. For a while, it was difficult to find the traces of time carved on her face.

"Hey...thank you, Auntie." Xu Yan laughed and picked up the meat and put it in her mouth with a satisfied expression.

"Xiaoyan, come to Beijing more next time, your aunt and I will miss you!" Dad, who had been eating food in a muffled voice, didn't want to anymore, so he hurriedly joined in.

"Don't worry, uncle, this is my home. I'll come back to see you and auntie when I'm free."

"That's good, come on, eat more..." Dad picked up the chopsticks to pick up food for Xu Yan and me, with a smug smile on his face.

After a meal, the dishes on the table were basically empty. I have to say that Xu Yan cooks good dishes.

After dinner, my parents sat in the living room and chatted with me. Xu Yan brought a plate of cut fruit and put it on the table, chatting with us.

"Dad, Mom, I'm going to Jiangzhou with Xu Yan this time." Expressing what I wanted to say with anxiety, I lowered my head guiltily, not daring to look at them again.

As a daughter, I'm really not filial. In the past few years, my parents have worried a lot about me, and I'm not a daughter to let them worry about it. I can count on one hand.

My parents were obviously shocked by my words, one or two looked at me, only Xu Yan gave me a deep look.

"Why do you want to go to Jiangzhou?" Mom showed a worried look on her face.

"It's okay, I just want to change the environment and work hard." I pretended to be nonchalant and picked up my phone and swiped Weibo, but my heart was full of heart-wrenching pain.

Facing the probing eyes of my parents, I am very reluctant to reveal my thoughts in front of them. There are some things that I would rather bury in my heart than for them to worry about me all the time.

"Daughter is old, don't stay in China, go if you want, no matter what you do, dad will support you." Dad has a rare understanding of righteousness.

"Xiao Xi,..." My mother called out my name and stopped talking.I knew she must be sad and afraid that she would choke up, so I swallowed back the words that came to my lips.

"It's okay, Dad, Mom, I'll take care of myself..." I nodded affirmatively, tears flashed in my eyes, and I almost burst out of my eyes, revealing my fragility to the public.

"Uncle, Auntie, don't worry, I will take good care of Lin Xi." Xu Yan patted her chest with a confident face.

"Um……"

The living room suddenly fell into silence. After a long time, my parents got up and picked up their coats and put them on. "It's getting late today, Xiao Xi, Xiao Yan, let's go back first."

"Uncle and aunt, won't you stay longer?"

"No, we have to go back and pack up. Well, Xiao Xi, remember to go home when you leave and say hello to me and your mother, so that we can feel at ease." Dad supported his mother and walked all the way to the door. Before leaving, I didn't forget to tell him. "Also, Xiaoyi is coming back too. If you're not in a hurry, just wait until Xiaoyi comes back before leaving. It's rare for our family to be reunited."

Xiao Yi, also known as Ji Dong, is my brother who is two years younger than me.He has been eccentric since he was a child and prefers to be independent. Since he was in high school, the chance for us to meet has almost changed from once a year to once every two years. With me, it is even more pitiful to talk less. Think about the past few years It's claustrophobic, and I've only seen him once.

While I was still in a daze, Xu Yan had already sent my parents to the door, taking the place of my daughter's due responsibility, "Uncle and aunt, please slow down, remember to call us when you get home."

"Tell me, why do you want to go back to Jiangzhou with me?" After sending her parents away, Xu Yan sat opposite me with an interrogating face, her hands crossed her chest, as if she would not give up until she got the result.

"There is still an answer between us..." I avoided Xu Yan's gaze and turned to look out the window.

Outside the window, the cold wind blew past, making a sound of "whoosh...". The plain white snowflakes, accompanied by the strong wind, fell to every corner of the earth, piled up a thin layer of snow.The snowflakes are crystal clear, and in the cold and humid weather, they produce bright white.