Long-term love becomes sick, ex-husband is too involved in the drama

Her voice was obviously choked up, even though she tried her best to restrain herself, the rampant emotions in her heart made her unable to resist at all.

Li Jingyan heard it.

The palm of his right hand was still gently rubbing and pressing her lower abdomen, while the left hand holding her side face trembled slightly. He looked at her for a moment, and said after a while, "It hurts."

It seemed to be a word squeezed out from a very deep place in the throat, very dumb, very heavy, and obviously tense.

"It hurts," he repeated, with firm eyes, "but I don't regret it, even if it happens again, I will still choose that way."

There is no choice.

For him, her safety is far more important than his own, even if she blames him for hating him for the rest of his life, he will still send her away without hesitation.

"I'm sorry." He said again hoarsely.

Mu Shihuan's heart trembled again and again, as did the fingers tightly clutching the quilt, she understood what he meant.

How can you not understand?
"Have you ever thought about me?" She couldn't help asking as her eyes became blurred.

Li Jingyan paused, his thin lips moved, and two seconds later he replied in a hoarse voice: "I dare not think about it, I am afraid that I will not be able to resist coming to you, I am afraid that I cannot resist contacting you..."

The urge to cry suddenly became stronger at this moment, Mo Shihuan turned his face away again.

"Don't cry." He gently wiped the tears off her face with his fingertips, coaxing her gently.

But Mu Shihuan wanted to cry even more, the tears were wanton, including the thousands of emotions in her heart, screaming in her body uncontrollably.

She could no longer speak.

When she cried, Li Jingyan felt even more distressed, and wanted to coax her not to cry again, but he knew that she had held back such a sentence, maybe it would be good for her to vent properly.

After staring at her for a few seconds, he got up and sat on the edge of the bed. The hand holding her tentatively turned to hug her, letting her lean into his arms.

Mu Shihuan was still holding back at first, but for some reason, when his breath was on the tip of her nose, and when her face was pressed against his chest and felt his heartbeat, she couldn't bear it anymore.

Tears fell down in big drops, as if she wanted to cry out all the grievances and sorrows she had suffered for so long, and vent everything.

Her body trembled uncontrollably, and gradually, the crying became more pronounced, and after a while, her tears even wet the clothes on his chest.

All kinds of scenes from the past came to mind.

She clutched his clothes, crying out of breath, choking abnormally: "You bastard...don't come to me, how can you leave me alone..."

Why doesn't she know?
I knew it at the beginning, and now I understand that he was really thinking about her safety and her best, but didn't he know that it was the same for her?

But she also knew that she was not feeling well, and he was even more so.

Mo Shihuan cried louder and louder, and the pain that weighed heavily on his heart seemed to be getting lighter little by little.

Li Jingyan didn't stop her, but just hugged her and stroked her gently, accompanying her with this kind of silent comfort, after a while, his eye sockets turned red a lot.

No one speaks anymore.

After an unknown amount of time, the cry of the person in her arms gradually became smaller, and her body was no longer trembling as before, only sobbing remained.

Unable to hold back, Li Jingyan lowered his head and kissed her hair lightly.

"I'm sorry." He said hoarsely.

With just this one sentence, Mo Shihuan's tears were about to burst again, she tightly grabbed the clothes on his chest: "Yes, you are sorry for me, bastard..."

Deep inside, it seemed that the pain was not so painful, so uncomfortable.

"I'll get a towel and wipe my face, okay?" Li Jingyan coaxed her softly, fearing that her eyes would hurt if she cried for a long time.

Mu Shihuan didn't respond.

Li Jingyan thought about it, and was about to let go of her cautiously, but her hand holding his clothes suddenly became stronger.

He was silent.

"I'm not going," he said.

Mu Shihuan also didn't speak, and the two hugged each other for a long time.

Originally, there were still many things she wanted to ask, such as how the fight with Yu Linshang started and ended, but suddenly she felt that it was unnecessary.

The past is the past, what matters is the present and the future, neither she nor he can be stuck in the past forever.

The eyelashes trembled, and the lips moved. After a while, Mo Shihuan said in a hoarse voice: "I want to drink water..."

Li Jingyan heard immediately: "Okay." Cautiously letting go of her, he coaxed, "Wait for me, I'll be back soon."

Mu Shihuan bit her lip and nodded.

Letting go of the big stone in his heart, Li Jingyan walked out of the bedroom quickly, poured a glass of water at a suitable temperature, and went back.

Mu Shihuan reached out to take it, but he handed it directly to her lips.

"Drink."

Mo Shihuan glanced at him, and finally drank water in this position. Maybe it was because she cried for too long, or maybe she was in urgent need of something to add, so she drank a lot at once.

"Slow down." Li Jingyan said in a low voice.

Swallowing, Mo Shihuan unconsciously slowed down, even so, she almost drank the whole glass of water when it was over.

Li Jingyan put the cup on the bedside table, saw that there was water stain at the corner of her mouth, took out a tissue and gently wiped it off for her.

Mu Shihuan let him move, and when he was about to leave, she grabbed his wrist.

Li Jingyan paused, his body stiffened slightly.

Mu Shihuan looked at him, and after looking at him for a long time, he said, "Is there anything else you're hiding from me?"

After crying for too long, her voice was still a little crying at the moment, but she looked at him persistently, as if she must ask him for an answer.

Li Jingyan looked back at her and shook her head: "No."

"Yes." The grip on his wrist became slightly heavier, and the tip of his nose became sour. Mo Shihuan said directly, "You must have also found out the whereabouts of my master and... the little brother, right?"

From the time she woke up from a narrow escape, to when she came back to Pingcheng, she has actually been trying to find out the whereabouts of the two of them, but they seem to have disappeared out of thin air without any news.

She had guessed, but she didn't want to go into details until Li Jingyan appeared in front of her again.

The guess that he didn't want to believe finally came true, even though he didn't actually say anything, but he said something else, about Yu Linshang's fate, about Chi Hua, about the remaining problems during the undercover period, and about...

It just didn't mention the master and the little brother.

He obviously knew so much, and obviously investigated clearly, it was impossible for Yu Linshang to say nothing, but he didn't tell her, there was only one reason——

The truth is something she cannot or will not accept.

For example, the so-called master and junior brother were just arranged by Yu Linshang from the beginning, or they are no longer in this world.

She prefers the former.

"Is that right?" She looked at him and asked again, "It's... Yu Linshang's arrangement, right?"

Li Jingyan always knew that she was smart, and she couldn't hide anything from her.

The matter has come to this point, there is no need to hide it.

"Yes," he admitted with a hoarse voice, and tried hard to hold her hand to comfort her, "They're fine, don't worry."

Appearing was a plan, but the care during that time couldn't be said to be all acting, he knew this and Mo Shihuan knew it too, so he gave them a choice after finding them at that time, which was regarded as a return for their care.

really.

Mu Shihuan was in a daze.

Although he didn't say the rest, she could guess it.

"...Okay." Eyelashes fluttered, she said.

"Do you want to see them?" Li Jingyan asked.

Want to see you?What can I say when I see you?

Mu Shihuan shook his head lightly, with a bit of relief in his tone: "No need."

It's all over, why bother to see you again to increase the sadness and embarrassment?It's better not to see, leaving the last beauty.

"No need," she repeated.

Li Jingyan held her hand and squeezed it, respecting her choice: "OK."

Mu Shihuan glanced at him and wanted to say something, but for a moment she didn't seem to know what to say, although she could feel the distance between the two of them getting closer after just now.

"Is it better?" Li Jingyan thoughtfully changed the subject, probably knowing her mood.

He was still rubbing her belly.

Mu Shihuan nodded, and said in a low voice, "Yes."

"Are you tired?" Li Jingyan asked again.

Mo Shihuan wanted to shake her head, but for some reason, she nodded.

"Then go to sleep." Li Jingyan's voice was also very low, as if he had thought of something, he explained, "I'll leave when you fall asleep."

After finishing speaking, he carefully helped her to lie down, and he still pressed her belly lightly. Seeing that she closed her eyes, he couldn't bear to look away, and still stared at her intently.

Mu Shihuan could feel it clearly.

I wanted to tell myself to sleep without being affected, but the presence in his eyes was too strong, even if she was tired and wanted to sleep, she still couldn't fall asleep.

To be precise, there was a voice in her heart saying something.

His eyes are getting hotter and hotter, with many, many emotions, and his movements of rubbing her belly are always gentle and careful.

Inexplicably, Mo Shihuan's nose felt sore again, and she slowly opened her eyes.

Li Jingyan paused when he was about to stroke her hair.

"What's wrong?" he asked.

Mu Shihuan looked at him without making a sound.

After staring at each other for a few seconds, Li Jingyan stretched out his hand to push the strand of hair aside for her: "Can't you sleep?"

He wants to withdraw his hand.

Almost without thinking, Mo Shihuan grabbed his hand, and the moment the skin touched it, both of them were stunned for a moment, as if no one expected this to happen.

Mo Shihuan's heart beat a little faster.

After a while, she said in a hoarse voice: "Before today, I never thought that there would be a day when I would express those resentments. Maybe as you said, I might never forget them in my life."

Li Jingyan's heart skipped a beat.

"Shi Huan..."

"Listen to me," Mo Shihuan interrupted him, at this moment the courage of the past seems to have returned, "I figured it out, whether it's me or you, you shouldn't trap yourself in the past, the past... It's long gone."

Li Jingyan pursed her thin lips, and even stopped breathing for a few seconds.

Feeling more relieved, Mo Shihuan looked at him and said, "Let's forget about it, shall we?"

Feeling that he held his hand instead, as if he was afraid that she would abandon him, fear and nervousness clearly flashed across his eyes, and his thoughts moved slightly, and she gently stroked his face with the other hand: "Li Jingyan... ..."