Long-term love becomes sick, ex-husband is too involved in the drama

Her eyes were red, as if she had secretly cried inside.

She didn't hide it, but looked directly at herself.

In an instant, Li Jingyan felt a tight grip on his heart, and an indescribable pain spread out.

She was obviously different from last night, she became calmer, and when she calmed down, she was truly determined and cruel, as if she could abandon everything cruelly in the next moment, and she would not regret it if she didn't look back.

Li Jingyan stared at her, his eyes gradually darkened.

After a while, his Adam's apple rolled, and he wanted to speak.

"You are persecuting me." The hoarse words interrupted him.

The atmosphere changed silently and instantly.

With just one sentence, Li Jingyan's face was tense.

Mu Shihuan looked at him with his face up, and he never moved his gaze away, nor did he blink, even though there was always sourness in his eye sockets.

"Forcing me, forcing," she said, "severed all contact without saying a word, and appeared in front of me again without saying a word, saying sorry to me, saying that I need to forgive."

She looked calm.

"Li Jingyan," she finally called out his name. After such a long time, this name can still stir up other emotions, "Don't you think you are very selfish?"

The eyes of the two reflected each other, and only each other.

Li Jingyan's breathing was heavy.

Mu Shihuan suddenly pulled his lips, and even had a very shallow smile on the corner of his mouth: "If there is anything else, wouldn't you just leave without saying a word and cut off all news?"

"And then, when the matter is resolved, she will appear in front of me well, say sorry to me, and tell me that you love me, again and again... What do you think of me?"

Even though he was calm, even though he thought a lot before coming out, his mood changed after all, and some resentment overflowed quietly.

"Or maybe, you will say that that kind of situation will never happen again," she laid out all the possibilities one by one, "You will say that you have the ability to protect me, and you will say that it is for my own good, but..."

She paused.

Looking straight at him, at this moment, she no longer deliberately concealed her emotions, but revealed her truest side at this moment.

No more pretending, no more duplicity.

"Aren't you tired?" She asked softly.

Time seemed to stop for a short time, and as her words came out, even the things circulating in the air changed.

"I'm tired, I will be very tired." Li Jingyan heard her say.

One word at a time, very light, but with fatigue that cannot be ignored.

"I'm really tired."

The distance between the two is still very close and has not changed, but the two hearts seem to be very far away, so far away that they can never be together again in this life.

Li Jingyan's eyes darkened little by little at a speed visible to the naked eye.

In the end, dark as ink.

Mo Shihuan blinked his eyelashes lightly.

She continued: "Now, every sentence and every word I say comes from the heart. Being with you really makes me tired, whether it is the undercover period you mentioned, or when we have a husband and wife relationship, Or... now."

"Very tired, very exhausted."

As if to confirm her words, after saying this, her expression inevitably revealed a bit of exhaustion that she had never had before.

It was the burnout of him, of the relationship between him and her.

I am also afraid of rejection, and I don’t want to touch it again, because if I don’t touch it, I won’t be tired and afraid.

The man in front of him remained silent.

Mu Shihuan didn't care, and she wouldn't care. In her heart, she was willing, so let her take advantage of the courage at this moment and not want to escape, explain everything clearly, and cut off everything that shouldn't exist.

There should be a break.

"You always disrespect me," she said, "just like when I came back to divorce you, you forced me and threatened me like now, why are you with me for the last four days, why do you love me..."

"Do you really love me?"

Something was rolling in her throat, Li Jingyan stared at her, and asked hoarsely: "Do you think you don't love her?"

To love, or not to love...

Mu Shihuan nodded: "You love me."

She doesn't deny his affection, if he doesn't love, with his previous status, he doesn't want any kind of woman, why waste time on her, if he doesn't love, how can there be all kinds of things after that.

If he didn't love her, he wouldn't send her away regardless, and face the danger of having a relationship with Yu Linshang by himself.

If you don't love...

Suddenly, Mu Shihuan found that he seemed to be able to tell many moments and details of his love for her.

He loves her.

Perhaps the misunderstanding before falling into the river had shaken her doubts, but she still believed that he loved her.

No matter before or now.

but……

"You don't respect, you won't love me." She whispered the rest of the words.

It's not that I don't love, but that I don't know how to love.

Li Jingyan understood what she meant.

It seemed that those words that he wanted to explain could not be said, and it seemed that there was no need to say them. He just stared at her and asked hoarsely, "What else? What else do you want to say?"

He can know what she wants to say, and he also believes that she knows that he knows.

"Your love is too selfish," as he wished, Mo Shihuan told him word by word very clearly, "At first you did it for the company, but later it was probably because of guilt, and now you want to start over..."

"Li Jingyan, I'm not as selfish as you."

As if very tired, Mo Shihuan paused for a while.

"It's too tiring to get along with you. It's been like this since the accident. You know that I reject you and don't want to see you, but you still appear in front of me. Isn't it selfish?"

She breathed a sigh of relief and didn't hide it.

"Last night," the focus of her eyes disappeared for a moment, she said the most sincere words, "I know, you won't believe what I said last night, you think I hate you, and you think I love you."

"I thought you would give up when I said that, but it seems... things didn't develop as I thought."

The eyelashes trembled, the trace of chaos disappeared, and Qingming replaced it again.

She looked at his face, said lowly, but not without firmness: "Yes, you guessed it, I hate you, and I still love you a little bit, there is not enough time, I still can't stop loving you .”

She admitted that she still loves him.

I thought it would be difficult and uncomfortable to say it, but it seems that it is not as difficult as I imagined when I really said it. Instead, I was relieved, and I no longer have to blame myself and hate myself for avoiding.

Probably, escape is the most useless thing.

"Only enough time." She added.

As long as there is enough time, she can forget about her relationship with him, completely let go, and never love him again.

Li Jingyan could hear every word of her clearly. He thought that he would be happy and relieved when he admitted that he was still in his heart, but it turned out that he didn't.

Instead, his chest became heavier.

Her frankness was just to push him further and end with him.

"What else?" He heard his extremely hoarse voice, and his words were tense.

"and also……"

Suddenly, something else seemed to pierce the apex of my heart, and it hurt a little. Mo Shihuan restrained himself, met his eyes, and said, "And..."

But that sentence stuck in his throat but he didn't have the courage to say it for a long time.

So she forced herself to look at him, and forced herself to recall all the past.

then……

"You made me pregnant twice. We used to have two children, but they are gone." She looked at him, and finally said the words out of her mouth.

Children are the last thing she wants to talk about.

But in order to end with him, she would rather expose her scars.

Even if the price is bloody.

The chest was stuffy, and even with mental preparations, the stuffy feeling still swept through the whole body. Mo Shihuan forced himself not to back down, and said the rest: "Do you think, like this... can we still be together? Do you still want to be together?" Are you forcing me to be with you again?"

It seemed that it was difficult to breathe, and she breathed a sigh of relief in front of him, trying to suppress the discomfort.

"Even if I still love you, I don't know how to love you, and how to go back to the beginning where I just simply like you and want to be with you."

Her fingertips trembled slightly, and she subconsciously wanted to blink, but she couldn't help it.

"The harm you gave me in the past cannot be erased by a single sorry. If you don't show up, I will get better completely and be able to face the past calmly. But you show up, and I... don't want you to show up."

She didn't know when the fisted hand was released, she looked into his eyes and asked softly: "Why bother me, make me sad, and make me not know how to face it."

As far as the eye can see, his beautiful thin lips seem to be tightly pressed into a straight line.

He is also restrained.

Mu Shihuan was in a daze for a while: "Last night, I dreamed about you. I had all kinds of pasts with you, including our children. Because I knew I couldn't let go, so I didn't want to lie to myself anymore, so I told you these things."

She knew that he took care of him all night last night.

But she doesn't want it.

"Li Jingyan," blinked her eyes, she looked at him again, and said the last words weakly, "I don't want to go back to the past, I don't want to love you, I don't want to be with you, I want to live a new life."

"Let me go."

"Ding-dong-"

As she spoke the last word, the doorbell rang in due time.

It shouldn't be Li Yan.

Then, only Shi Tingzhou or Jiang Wen were left.

Li Jingyan was still looking at her, but Mu Shihuan didn't look at him anymore, enduring the last bit of discomfort, turned sideways, and slowly wanted to walk towards the door.

The arm was grabbed by him.

Mu Shihuan stopped and didn't look at him.

"Just take it, I beg you, let me go." She just said this, and then brushed his hand away.

She left, and he didn't stop her.

Not long after, a man's voice came faintly from outside.

Sometimes Ting Zhou, also Jiang Wen.

Soon, the voice gradually became clear.

Li Jingyan raised his head and glanced across the bedroom.

It seemed that there was still a scent that belonged to her alone in the air. He stood quietly for a few seconds, and finally lifted his foot to leave.

Just as Ting Zhou sat down on the sofa, he was about to say something when he suddenly heard a sound, thinking it was Li Yan, he didn't turn his head.

Unexpectedly, the sound of footsteps was wrong, and the breath was also wrong.

Obviously a man.

He frowned, stood up straight, and turned his head.

With just one glance, his expression was unkind.