The Nth Disappearance of My Wife

I am a very withdrawn person. Although I look optimistic, I really don't have many friends. Even when those few friends are busy, I can only feel sad secretly, do my own things, and then act as Nothing happened. ——Tian Xiaoxiao.

"Q Dong, do you like dessert?"

"I don't like it." Tian Xiaoxiao drank black coffee and put away his previous personality.

In the eyes of her colleagues, she is not a kind boss. Even though she wears a warm smile all day long, her eyes are lonely.

When off work, Tian Xiaoxiao will secretly buy desserts and favorite milk tea, but these cannot be discovered by others.

Because, she is a boss and an artist, and life has smoothed her corners, making her tired of the mediocre present.

However, the dream when I was a teenager couldn't be realized no matter what, and I don't know when I became timid and timid. I used to want to take a trip as soon as I said it.

Tian Xiaoxiao longs for poetry and the distance, but the reality is really skinny, there is no romance of romance, only the absurdity and skinnyness of Rashomon.

Tian Xiaoxiao loves to read, and she likes to read books that are incompatible with her personality. She doesn't know why she likes to read biographies or stories about reality when she is a teenager. She has longed for love before.

However, Tian Xiaoxiao lost his mind because of the life of chicken feathers all over the place. At that time, Tian Xiaoxiao only wanted to stand out from others.

But now Tian Xiaoxiao has everything, but she doesn't have the courage of that time, the courage to do what she loves.

Later, the memory recovered a little, and I remembered the past, but found that I couldn't find my adoptive mother, and I didn't know the contact information.

Back to the place in the past, because of a sudden phone call, they said that the adoptive mother had passed away.

"Your mother is a very gentle old lady. Some time ago, last year, when she was sick, she bought the house for us. She also said at that time that if someone came to her, she would tell that person that she had passed away. Now, if no one is looking for her, just call this number." The current resident Mr.

Farewell to life and death always comes suddenly.

"Mom, I'm sorry, I came too late..."

Tian Xiaoxiao took off his mask, knelt in the house that had changed owners a long time ago, caressing the door that hadn't been changed, the previous scene replayed in front of his eyes over and over again.

When she was the most humble and clumsy, she was bullied and hated by others, but her mother seemed to be the only person in the world who loved her.

Even if it wasn't her biological mother, in Tian Xiaoxiao's heart she was already the same as her biological mother.

There was a downpour, which wet Tian Xiaoxiao's clothes and made Tian Xiaoxiao's eyes hard to open.

Memories are floating around, just like the rain that seemed to keep falling.

At that time, Tian Xiaoxiao stayed at home even at the age of six because his family had no money to go to kindergarten.

"Xiaoxiao, don't go out to play in the future, okay? It's raining outside, it will make you catch a cold!" Mother rubbed Tian Xiaoxiao's wet hair, and found Tian Xiaoxiao's replacement clothes from the closet.

"But it's so hot at home, and the water is always cut off. If I go out, I can save the money for taking a shower!" Tian Xiaoxiao smiled childishly, squinting her eyes, but she didn't notice the bitterness in her mother's eyes.

Life is tight, but still happy.

It was a long time later that Tian Xiaoxiao realized that she was not her mother's biological child.

The mother was bought by her stepfather to a small village. She was originally a primary school teacher in other provinces, but the mother was born without ovaries, so she could not give birth to children.

Tian Xiaoxiao, who was kidnapped, happened to lose his memory.

The two depended on each other, like two matches burning in winter. Mother gave Tian Xiaoxiao all the good things, and Tian Xiaoxiao also made up her mind to be filial to her mother.

However, the stepfather is an unworthy thing, a gambler and also likes domestic violence. Later, the mother couldn't bear it, so she divorced the stepfather, or separated.

My mother used to be an intellectual, so she knew that knowledge is power. She desperately wanted Tian Xiaoxiao to go to a good school, but poverty was the biggest difficulty. Xiaoxiao Zhengqi is pitifully skinny on weekdays.

Tian Xiaoxiao knows what her mother wants, but it is a pity that what she has always wanted to achieve is really difficult. She seems to be really a big fool. There are so many things that she doesn't understand. She hates those mathematics I remember the method of solving the problem clearly.

But why changed Aunt Wang to Aunt Li, and suddenly it didn't work anymore?Tian Xiaoxiao has always been considered a middle school student, but after some bumps and bumps, he finally finished high school.

Tian Xiaoxiao later failed the college entrance examination, but her mother did not give up.

Mother was waiting for Tian Xiaoxiao at the entrance of the examination room.

Tian Xiaoxiao bit her lip and didn't dare to look at her mother. She said, "I'm sorry mom, I didn't pass the exam. Maybe I'm really not suitable for school..."

The mother didn't get angry, but said very calmly, "It's okay, as long as you are happy, mom, it's okay."

Later, my mother spent money to send Tian Xiaoxiao to a third-rate university, no matter how difficult it was, she still gritted her teeth and insisted on sending Tian Xiaoxiao to the university.

"Mom, why do you have to work so hard? I'm not a material for studying at all." Tian Xiaoxiao couldn't understand her mother's persistence. She felt that she was not worthy of her mother's care and love.

"Because, I hope you can see a wider world. My mother said that as long as you are happy, it's okay." My mother always said that it was okay, and even if there was something, she would classify it as nothing.

Later, I found out that there really was a wider sky there, and that was Tian Xiaoxiao's few happy times, but the happy times were always short, and he didn't have many friends.

Because they have friends, they have to go out to eat and go shopping together, but Tian Xiaoxiao can't support these.

The lonely days were changed because of meeting Su Yang, but the former vows of eternal love were destroyed in an instant.

Tian Xiaoxiao no longer knew what the true meaning of life was, and what was the meaning of being in this world.

Tian Xiaoxiao got up, didn't cry bitterly, but changed his clothes as if nothing happened, booked a plane ticket and rushed to work again.

"Good morning." Tian Xiaoxiao would take the initiative to greet every employee in the company with a faint smile, but that was just pure politeness.

No one knows why the eyes of President Q, who looks easy to get along with, are always not as clear as those in front of the camera, as if there is always a cloud of fog.

"You look great today, and this new dress suits you very well." Tian Xiaoxiao would praise the newly bought dresses of her subordinate female employees, but she never seemed to be friendly enough, always with a touch of alienation.

The company still has a lot of things to deal with, but there is one thing that makes Tian Xiaoxiao dumbfounded.

A photographer named Martin passed away, but the negative of the cover of Tian Xiaoxiao's magazine "loser" disappeared. Tian Xiaoxiao and the people below searched for a long time but could not find the negative.

Until Tian Xiaoxiao saw photographer Martin's travel notes in the bookstore, he couldn't help but bought it.

It turned out that the photographer Martin actually wanted to be an explorer the most. Later, he learned photography from his family, and later became a photographer who took pictures while exploring.

Tian Xiaoxiao opened the last page and wrote: "As long as you go to three places alone, you can capture the true meaning of life."

Tian Xiaoxiao always feels that this episode is very similar to the movie "Daydreamer". It is also about traveling and looking for the true meaning of life.

Tian Xiaoxiao suddenly had a bold idea. She decided to look for the true meaning of life like the hero Walter in "Daydreamer". For Tian Xiaoxiao, what is the true meaning of life?

Just go and set foot on the trip, the first stop is the aurora in Norway.

Tian Xiaoxiao remembered coming here with Sun.

The dark blue sky is shining with silver stars, and several colored lights are red, green and blue. They interweave into a beautiful light, which complements the snow-covered snow below.

Tian Xiaoxiao sat on the sled dog, took the camera to take pictures of the current scene, some things need to be recorded with the camera.

Take out a small notebook and write:
There are galaxies swaying on the nearly gradient sky, and the light descends on the sky, as if frozen for that second, the aurora here is still as beautiful as the last time I saw it.

I love it here, this is what I saw in my dream.

The true meaning of life is the beauty that is fleeting, but unfortunately it is too short, so I can't help but want to catch it, but I can't catch it.

Tian Xiaoxiao went to visit the hotel, but found that the hotel had been closed long ago and changed into a late-night cafeteria. He heard that the former hotel owner Ling Che embarked on a journey to find the aurora, because there was no aurora in Norway for a while .

Some people come, some people leave, intertwined into a landscape of sighs and sighs.

Next stop: Notre Dame Cathedral.

I used to know about Notre Dame de Paris in Hugo's "Les Miserables". I remember Quasimodo, the clock tower eccentric, who was a deformed child abandoned by his parents in front of Notre Dame de Paris. The Hunchback of Notre Dame is kind but ugly and deaf.

Quasimodo loves Esmeralda, but dare not tell her. Later, Quasimodo lost his beloved girl, and finally lost his beloved bell tower.

On April 2019, 4, a fire engulfed the Notre Dame Cathedral in Paris, France.

It seemed that what Tian Xiaoxiao saw was being rebuilt brick by brick. She hadn't had time to see the original appearance of Notre Dame de Paris.

how come...

Tian Xiaoxiao took out his camera to take pictures of that scene, and then took out his small notebook.

She wrote:
It has long since lost my surprise in the pictures at the beginning, only the building being rebuilt, and I still look forward to its rebirth. I hope that next time I come here, I can see the real it.

The true meaning of life seems to be to rebuild after destruction and never give up again and again.

last place.

Go back to where you started.

Tian Xiaoxiao once again came to the home where she lived with her mother, and she still stood outside the door and watched.

But I don't know what it is worth recording, but an old man riding a tricycle passed by and let Tian Xiaoxiao know what to shoot. Tian Xiaoxiao took out the camera and took a picture of the man staring at the three-wheeled man and his granddaughter behind the tricycle smiley face.

Tian Xiaoxiao took out the notebook for recording travel notes, and wrote on it:
I saw a very thin old man and his lovely granddaughter. The granddaughter laughed and the old man followed suit.

It makes me feel that the true meaning of life is to be plain and simple.

However, Tian Xiaoxiao still couldn't find the photos he needed, so what is the meaning of photographer Martin's life?

A phone call from the manager came, "Dong Q, the film was found."

Later, a magazine was published, and Tian Xiaoxiao was actually on the cover.

Martin recorded it with the camera. Tian Xiaoxiao was wearing big slovenly underpants and an old man's vest. She was holding a thick stack, walking forward while looking at her. He was smoking a cigarette, which was five yuan a pack of low-quality cigarettes. He was obviously smiling at the corner of his mouth, but there were crystal clear tears in his eyes.

That was after Tian Xiaoxiao learned of her mother's death, but she still had to work hard to get out of her small shell.