The Nth Disappearance of My Wife

After returning to reality, there will be a doubt, is the reality I am in now really the reality?Is it really the reality I want?
"Brother Mu Xing, are you awake?" Micah rubbed his eyes and said to Lin Mu Xing who looked tired.

"Yeah, did you have a dream just now? I just had a dream and it was so uncomfortable." Lin Muxing drank a glass of water and asked Micah.

"Yes, I had a long, long dream, and I'm suffering as much as you now." Micah nodded, it seems that Lin Muxing should also be dreaming like him, right?
"Then what's the ending in your dream?" Lin Muxing asked curiously again. Lin Muxing saw that Micah was as haggard as him, so it shouldn't be an ending.

"I committed suicide, but I didn't expect to die in this reality. It's rare for me to have the courage to commit suicide, but it ended up like this." Micah had lingering fears, but he didn't expect that after death, he would return to the very beginning.

"Me too, did you also suffer a big blow? Anyway, I really didn't want to live at that time." Lin Muxing pursed his lips, obviously very unhappy.

"Do you want to wake them up?" Micah looked at the sleeping people, not knowing whether to wake them up or not.

"I want to scream too, but I heard that if you wake someone up in sleep, that person will stay in the dream forever." Lin Muxing waved his hand and said, it's better not to wake them up now.

"Brother Mu Xing, are you hungry?" Micah's stomach began to growl, telling him that he was a little hungry now.

"Really, I knew you were so hungry. I specially brought lemon slices and lemon-flavored lollipops. Hurry up and go!" Lin Muxing took out a lot of snacks from his bag. After all, Micah is Group pet, these brothers love Micah's younger brother very much.

"Thank you, Brother Muxing!" Micah took the lemon slices and lollipops given by Lin Muxing listlessly. This time it really felt sour, probably because he was in a bad mood, so no matter how much he ate, he felt unpalatable.

"Micah, let's watch a movie, anyway, it should take a long time for them to get up." Lin Muxing turned on his phone, this time Lin Muxing wanted to watch an excellent movie called "The Shawshank Redemption" with Micah.

Looking at Lin Muxing and Micah both cried.

There is a line in it: hope is a good thing, maybe the best thing in the world.Good things never pass away.

Shawshank finally redeemed himself and gained freedom, but in real life, not everyone is like Shawshank who will never give up chasing freedom and hope.

Most people have lost to the skinny feeling of reality, they will no longer be happy, and they will not yearn for poetry and distant places. They clearly know that they cannot redeem themselves.

Shawshank was able to regain his freedom in the end because he always had hope, but most people's hope has been smoothed out by reality.

"Micah, I think Shawshank is so miserable." Lin Muxing sighed, wiping away tears.

"I don't think he is miserable, at least he has regained his freedom, but we have not regained our freedom." Micah has always been emotional, but this time, he has a completely different view.

"Aren't you free? Don't you have everything you want now? It's been hard work." Lin Muxing looked at Micah suspiciously. He really didn't expect to get such an answer from Micah.

"Are we really free? Am I free? Brother Mu Xing, are you thinking about your freedom? Don't you think we have been controlled by the cage?" Micah asked several times in a row. Overwhelmed.

"You are just controlled by your emotions. In fact, there is no cage at all. It's just that we can't control our emotions." Lin Muxing stopped crying and said very seriously.

"But are we really happy? Living day after day, year after year, and even losing the person we care about the most, we had a dream that we could change the past, but our dream turned out to be crueler than reality, and even Don't you think we're ridiculous?" Micah suddenly smiled, and that smile didn't have a trace of warmth, it was a cold smile.

Death seems to be less scary, because the desire to live has been reduced, and death seems to be a kind of relief.

But Micah did not have the courage to face death, because he had already died once in his dream.

Lin Muxing also has no way to face death, and has no way to face the reality in the dream.He had already failed in the dream, and had already died completely once, so he didn't want to die at all now.

Because it seems that his current reality is much better than the dream.

That's why they are the most ridiculous. They lose the person they love the most, but they don't have the courage to accompany them. Many times, they can't be the person they want to be, and they can't move forward on tiptoe.

"But aren't we still alive? It's not like you haven't experienced the cruelty in your dreams. You may have experienced despair before you know how precious hope is. Although we don't have hope now, we also hope that there will be one in the future." Hope." As an older brother, Lin Muxing naturally wants to guide Micah as a younger brother.

"But don't you think the future is still far away? It's too difficult to get a good ending. We seem to see the ending of the future now. Either we will do nothing for the rest of our lives, or we will be cast aside. Anyway, we won't end up with a good ending." Micah didn't believe in hope anymore, that dream hit him too hard.

"Can we see the future now? The future is bleak now, so let's take a look at it from another angle. Maybe our future is the future we want. Although most people in this world have not got the future they want, they always have to Try hard." Lin Muxing pinched the face of Micah who was eating a lemon-flavored lollipop.

"You're right, instead of being here worrying about nothing, we both might as well do something we want to do. The best years of our lives are only those ten years. Let's cherish everything we have now, because we I don’t know when I will lose it.” Micah only felt the sugar in his mouth become more sour, and he began to wonder if the kind-hearted self in the past was right or wrong.

Perhaps the essence of human beings is to constantly reflect and be confused. If a completely different identity and life are given, then even a kind person like Micah will become the person he hates the most and become the opposite of himself.

It is hard to tell whether it is right or wrong. We are using moral laws to regulate people because we have no way to look directly at our own evil. We don’t know whether we will become primitive barbarians without these things to regulate us.

There is no black or white in this world, but black does not need to be sympathized with, justice is justice, and evil is evil.

Micah gave up thinking, because he had put himself into Su Lan's perspective, because everything he encountered before was what Su Lan encountered.

That's why Micah doubts the justice in his heart, and wonders if the justice in my heart is really justice?
"Micah, don't put yourself in the bad guy's mind. Once you get into the bad guy's mind, you will feel that everything you do, whether evil or righteous, is correct." Lin Muxing rubbed Micah's hair and said, They are all imprisoned in various ways, and the only thing they can do is to constantly solidify their inner morality and justice.

"Well, I know. I was sad and lost at the beginning. I really wanted to be friends with my good friend Su Lan, but the two of us came from different backgrounds, and we went through different things. We have different ways of doing things. Even if I had a dream, I may have changed the reality, but I will find that no matter what, if our birth values ​​are different, this will lead us further and further apart." Micah thought quietly Liao wanted to say that many times people may be inspired by a small thing or a dream.

"I had that dream about me and my father, I lived my whole life in that dream, I followed the rules all my life, but my father left me in the end, and I lost my whole passion And enthusiasm, maybe every gain has something to lose." Lin Muxing stretched his brows, he thought about many things.

We are always enlightened when we lose, but when we have it, we don't know how to cherish it but feel that they are really annoying.

Sometimes people who really love you will not show their love, but the love shown by some people may not really love you.

It is too late to understand everything in the loss, birth, old age, sickness and death are all things that must be experienced. We try to change it, but in fact the ending is still the same.

It is to rely on one's own mentality to think and adjust, and to make oneself feel that the ending is a good ending. We are actually just a small screw in the gear of fate.

Work hard, come on, it will be better in the future.