love addiction

She has been here many times, and she entered the password again to open the door, and she suddenly fell in love with this place.

In fact, the decoration style here is the one she likes, with a warm and girlish feeling.

These are completely different from Qin Pianran's preferences, but he did it according to this style. She suddenly wanted to know, what kind of mood did he have when he was doing these things?
He Xijue walked around the room, every time he could feel the man's intentions.

If you don't love her, you can't do this, right?
When he was in front of her, he was always calm and reserved, so he gave her the illusion that he didn't love her.

But in private, he is in such a state.

This kind of understanding is far from enough for He Xijue, she wants to know more, wants to know more.

He Xijue went upstairs, walked around his bedroom, and opened his closet.

There are only a few clothes in simple shades, and there may even be many pieces of the same style of clothes.

But in such a match, there is always one color that is indispensable, and that is royal blue.

He Xijue remembered that he seemed to have said that he looked handsome in a royal blue suit.

In fact, at that time, she was just talking casually, but now that she thinks about it carefully, she saw him wearing royal blue suits more often.

It was just a casual sentence from himself, and he just heard it in his heart.

If you didn't love her, how could you do this?
After leaving the bedroom, He Xijue went to the study.

Most of the books in the study are professional books. This man has been a top student since he was a child, so he reads an amazing amount of books, which is far behind her.

He has read so many books, and these are only domestic books, and the books he left abroad are far too numerous to count.

He Xijue randomly picked out and basically flipped through it, all of which contained his detailed records and opinions.

There are countless grids in the bookcase on one wall, and He Xijue flipped through them, and accidentally found two notebooks that seemed out of place in one of the grids.

The notebook is old and almost invisible because of the books outside.

If she hadn't come here on a whim today to read it carefully, it might be difficult to find it.

He Xijue turned out the two notebooks. The notebooks were a little old, and they looked like they were old. She took them to the desk and sat down, then opened the first one.

It is written in Qin Pianran's handwriting, He Xijue can recognize it, but it is somewhat different from the current handwriting, it should be written earlier.

What was written above are some things in life, judging from the content, it should be during the period after Qin Pianran's father's accident.

He was depressed and under a lot of pressure, but he endured these silently, and was even ready to drop out of school and go to work.

Then, grandpa appeared, and the old chief was used here to honor his grandfather. He wrote in his diary that he was very grateful for the old chief's assistance, and clearly recorded what help the old chief had given him.

Turning back, He Xijue found himself.

There are a lot of creases on that page, probably because I often flip through this page.

This is recorded in the diary.

I saw a rainbow today, and I also saw a girl like a rainbow.

So much time has passed, He Xijue really can't remember whether there was a rainbow that day, but he clearly remembers the astonishment when he first saw him.

His method of recording diaries has always been very simple, but this page is written in such a dreamlike way that it is incompatible with the previous method.

If it wasn't for the fact that she could recognize his handwriting, she would be a little uncertain.

Then, turn it over again.

I went to work at the horse farm for a day today, and I had a rare opportunity to ride a horse. I experienced the feeling of riding a horse, and it turned out that this is what she likes.

Everyone in the family knows that He Xijue likes to ride horses.

The first time I rode a horse, I followed my grandfather. At that time, my grandfather was still in good health, and he would take his adjutant to the racecourse for horseback riding every day.

He Xijue once pestered her to go, and the old man agreed, and took her for a ride. After that, she fell in love with horse riding, and would pester her grandfather every day to get a horse of her own.

On the day she met Qin Pianran, after she got good grades, she went to claim credit from her grandfather and wanted to buy a horse.

No wonder, no wonder Qin Pianran knows how to ride a horse, because after hearing that she likes riding a horse, she deliberately went to learn it.

Due to economic reasons, it was impossible for him to have the opportunity to learn how to ride a horse, so he chose to work in a horse farm, so that he could make money while riding a horse.

But He Xijue also knew that if Qin Pianran was a tutor at that time, his salary would be several times higher than that of working in a racecourse, but he still chose to work in a racecourse. The fundamental reason was because she liked riding horses, right?

If it wasn't for the reason, why would he do this?

He Xijue's eyes were already red, and he touched this page carefully, as if he could feel the mood of this man when he wrote these words.

The diary is not written every day, but it seems that since I met her, most of it is about her.

Later, I wrote a lot about her.

For example, she likes to eat mushrooms, and wrote down the taste of mushrooms.

And the lemon duck she likes to eat.

He made this dish for her when he was in the United States. At that time, he just made it with the attitude of giving it a try. Who knew she liked it very much. Qin Pianran recorded the recipe of this dish in his diary, hoping that There will be more opportunities for her to do it in the future.

He Xijue was so moved that he was wiping tears while reading the diary. The emotion was flowing in his heart, and he couldn't control it no matter what.

She read on, there was her embarrassment when she couldn't tell the difference between south, east and north for the first time abroad, and when she took her to the California farm, she couldn't move when she saw cherries.

There was her who quarreled with the coach when she was learning to drive, and when she was bullied by a blonde classmate, he felt sorry for her after he stepped forward.

Everything is about her.

He Xijue turned to the back, only to find that the sweetness suddenly came to an abrupt end.

The back of the diary was torn a lot, and after the torn pages, there was only a blank space left.

He Xijue flipped through the pages, but didn't find a single word, and the last diary was just when his birthday was about to be celebrated.

He Xijue was stunned, and thought about it carefully, Qin Pianran had always been very kind to him.

The attitude change started from that birthday, after that he became elusive, unapproachable and cold.

Even if she was wronged, he just watched with cold eyes, as cold as a stranger.

It was from that time that He Xijue began to become anxious, feeling that the distance between himself and this man was getting farther and farther.

Seeing that she was about to catch up with great difficulty, just after this birthday, there seemed to be a whole world between him and her.

From then on, she was the beginning of her bitter love.

If it wasn't for his warmth before, He Xijue thought, he wouldn't be able to persist for so many years.

No matter how much you like someone, if you don't get a little response, it's impossible to stick to it.

So at the beginning, she felt the man's liking for her, but then it disappeared suddenly, which made her feel that the liking was probably just her own illusion.

Later on, his indifferent attitude made her feel disheartened, and she gradually felt that all these years, she was just singing a one-man show alone, and ignored the original feeling.

Holding the notebook, He Xijue suddenly became confused again.

But the only thing that is certain is that he liked himself.

But now, she couldn't find the answer, so she could only put it down temporarily, and opened another notebook.

　This book is much simpler, full of plans and the like.

Qin Pianran has always been a person who loves to plan. He has his own plans for everything. He clearly records when he will graduate, when he will accomplish what goals.

But when he writes about family and marriage, it goes blank.

Later, he skipped this stage directly and continued his career, but never mentioned the plan of marriage and family again.

He Xijue couldn't find any more useful information, so he could only sit there in a daze.

Later, he turned on his computer, which was locked. He Xijue looked at the password and tried to enter his birthday, but the password was wrong.

She entered her birthday again, and this time the password was correct.

I guessed it so quickly, which surprised me a bit.

In fact, it was a very small matter, but when Qin Pianran did these things, He Xijue felt very touched and moved.

This is probably the so-called beauty in the eyes of relatives. In her opinion, this moved her more than vows of eternal love.

There were a lot of documents on the computer, but she saw the document with her own name at a glance.

When I opened the folder, it was full of her photos.

The photos are all sorted by date, from when I was a teenager to now.

Some are photos from my daily life, some are from school, and there are even photos from alumni records...

The most recent time was when she went to inspect the hotel, sitting by the lake, and he took pictures from behind.

That time she deliberately avoided him, but she didn't expect to meet this man by chance in the hotel. After dinner, Pei Yiyi wanted to swim in the lake, so she took the two of them there.

Her feet were tired, so she sat by the lake to rest and waited for them, but Qin Pianran didn't go, but came over and sat down with her.

What He Xi never expected was that he actually took a photo before sitting down.

Qin Pianran's actions were something that He Xijue had never thought about, nor could he imagine at all.

But this man really did.

He Xijue's eyes turned red, and he suddenly missed Qin Pianran very much.

I want to hear his voice, I want to see him, I want to be held tightly by him, and I want to hold him tightly.

He Xijue wiped away his tears, took out his mobile phone, pressed his number, and definitely called him.

Qin Pianran, it turns out that you have always loved me.

Qin Pianran, I have always loved you too.

Qin Pianran, let's be together.

These words are ready to come out in her heart, as long as he picks up, she will say these words without hesitation, no longer reserved, no longer have any doubts and uncertainties, but will tell him firmly These.

but……

No one answered the phone.

(I didn’t add an update yesterday, okay, I’ll update it in the early morning, I’m too busy recently, and I have to go abroad, I don’t know if I can guarantee an update, sorry~)