shallow marriage deep love

Shi Xiaorui suddenly raised her head and looked towards the door.

Miao Yiyang was thinking about something, and suddenly noticed the sight in front of him and was startled, and when he saw that it was Shi Xiaorui, he couldn't help but blame: "Xiaorui, you are at home, you scared me to death, didn't you say Are you going on a business trip?"

Shi Xiaorui pursed her lips and said nothing, couldn't help thinking along with her words, was she scared?Are you guilty?
For some reason, Miao Yiyang's heart skipped a beat when he met her gaze.

Her eyes seemed to be mixed with something.

"What's wrong? Are you in a bad mood?" Swallowing, she walked over tentatively, with a perfect smile on her face.

"No, no." Realizing her temptation, Shi Xiaorui shook her head quickly and smiled, "I was thinking about something just now, and my mind was distracted. You came back just in time. I just finished the meal and washed my hands. Then let's eat? "

Miao Yiyang glanced at her quickly, making sure that he only let go after thinking too much: "Okay, I'll wash my hands."

After the two lived together, if there was nothing, she would cook and eat at home, so she didn't think much about it when she saw that the table was full of her favorite dishes.

"Our Xiaorui is really ingenious. Whoever marries you in the future will be his luck!" Miao Yiyang put a chopstick of yam into a bowl, laughing while eating.

Shi Xiaorui couldn't laugh: "It's not as exaggerated as you said."

Yiyang, Yiyang, until now, when you said these words to me, didn't you really feel guilty?
As soon as she thought of the words she heard today, Shi Xiaorui felt as if her heart was being grabbed by a big hand. It was painful and oppressive, and she could hardly breathe.But no matter how sad it is, there are still some things to ask, which can be regarded as... the last explanation of the friendship between the two of them.

"Yiyang..." She put the chopsticks down as she pawed at the bowl for a long time.

Miao Yiyang's heart tightened inexplicably: "What's wrong?"

Shi Xiaorui smiled, seemingly unintentionally: "Do you still remember our ideals when we were in college?"

Miao Yiyang was startled, his eyes flashed, and his smile became a little forced: "I remember, of course I remember... At that time, you said that your greatest wish was to curate a magazine by yourself, your own magazine, and you said you wanted Work hard like your idol Su to make yourself better, and you also said that only when you become better can you be qualified to stand in front of your idol."

"What about your ideal?"

"Me?" Miao Yiyang's eyes became misty, perhaps because she thought of those fulfilling days, her tone also softened unknowingly, "At that time I said, I want to use my own Writing, open up your own era, and take this profession you love seriously. It is like my soul, where it is, I am.”

The further she went, the lower her voice became. If you discern carefully, you can hear a feeling similar to nostalgia in her words.

Shi Xiaorui opened her mouth, feeling bitter in her heart: "My ideal is still there, Yiyang, how about you?"

After recovering from her own thoughts, Miao Yiyang finally realized that something was wrong with her. After frowning, she asked in a joking tone: "Xiaorui, what happened? Why did you suddenly ask this? "

Her avoidance, her deliberate jokes all succeeded in making Shi Xiaorui feel more and more disappointed.

"It's okay." She shook her head, forcing herself to look relaxed, "I just thought of it suddenly. I miss my college days, just to see if we are still the same as before."

"Of course...it's still the same." Miao Yiyang reluctantly replied.

Shi Xiaorui took a deep look at her, and then said softly: "Yiyang, I always remember the teacher's words back then, never forgetting the original intention, only then can you stick to it."

Do not forget the original intention, only then...

These eight words kept circling in Miao Yiyang's mind as if with magical power, and her breathing became rapid.

Not wanting her to notice anything, Shi Xiaorui shrugged and changed the subject: "Let's not talk about this, let's talk about something else? Yiyang, I've always been curious about your boyfriend who never showed up back then. What’s so good about it? It’s worth giving up everything in City A and going to Hainan alone? If he can take good care of you, and you’re doing well, then that’s fine, but what’s the truth? Yiyang, you’re not doing well at all ,Is not it?"

If it was just a test at the beginning, but in the end, she was really complaining for Miao Yiyang, especially after she knew from Sister Qinglan that Yiyang's mysterious boyfriend was Xia Yan.She couldn't help thinking, if it wasn't for Xia Yan, maybe Yiyang wouldn't be like this now!

She blames Xia Yan.

Thinking of this, her emotions became uncontrollable, leaning over, she held Miao Yiyang's hand without warning: "Yiyang, do you regret it? I regret it! I regret that I didn't stop you at the beginning! Even if you would Blame me, I don't want you to go to Hainan either!"

"Xiaorui, you..." Miao Yiyang frowned, and resolutely pulled her hand away, slightly displeased, "I don't want to mention what happened back then. Whether my life was good or not, it's all about me." I won't regret my choice! You don't understand, the two years I was with him were the happiest times for me!"

She stood up and continued word by word, "what's the matter with you today?"

At this moment, she is really sure that Shi Xiaorui must have something to hide from her, otherwise how could she talk about it for no reason?
Has it come to light?
Thinking of this possibility, she clenched her hands hanging on both sides tightly.

Do not!
Will not!
She kept convincing herself in her heart, if things were revealed, how could she still sit here properly?What's more, this matter is absolutely confidential, it is impossible for Shi Xiaorui to know!

Even though she was thinking like this, she still stared at Shi Xiaorui without blinking, trying to find something on her face.

Her gaze was too strong, as if she wanted to see through people.

Shi Xiaorui's heart fell to the bottom in an instant, and she clenched her little hands subconsciously. She apologized to Shang Miao Yiyang's eyes: "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have said these things. I'm just, just the mood of being entangled by Qin Xin today. No, I, I..."

It turned out to be like this...

Miao Yiyang's nervous heart suddenly relaxed, she knew that Shi Xiaorui hated Qin Xin, it seemed that she was really just in a bad mood.

She leaned over and said with concern: "It's okay, remember to tell me if you need anything."

"En." Shi Xiaorui took her hand away without a trace, "Let's eat."

The two sat down again.

But they don't know that both of them are absent-minded.

Shi Xiaorui was thinking about how to lead the topic to the magazine without being discovered.As for Miao Yiyang, she was struggling with how to follow Shi Xiaorui's mouth. Although she had made a promise with Liu Lefan today, she was not very sure about Lu Qinglan.

Turning her eyes, she said seemingly unintentionally: "By the way, Xiaorui, will Sister Lan come to the magazine recently?"

Shi Xiaorui paused slightly with the hand holding the chopsticks, and a sense of desolation as in the day came back to her heart, resisting the urge to stand up and question her, she replied: "Well, Sister Qinglan said that she was too busy at home. I'm bored, so I've been coming to the magazine for a while."

"Oh." Miao Yiyang began to worry in his heart.

Shi Xiaorui felt pain in her heart as she stared at her bowed head in silence, but despite this, she still smiled: "Speaking of which, I really want to thank Sister Qinglan, if it wasn't for Sister Qinglan, we wouldn't have had the chance Working together. I have always felt that knowing Sister Qinglan is my luck, a kind of fate, especially for bringing you back to my side, I am very grateful."

"Really?" Miao Yiyang finally raised his head, but his smile was forced.

Shi Xiaorui stared at her without blinking, pretending to be curious: "Yiyang, to be honest, I'm quite curious what Sister Qinglan is like in your heart."

"Sister Lan, she..." Miao Yiyang's heart skipped a beat, hesitating, she was speechless for a while.

Shi Xiaorui suddenly didn't want to know anymore, quickly lowered her head to hide the disappointment and sadness in her eyes, and when she raised her head again, she had returned to normal: "Look at what I asked, I think everyone is different. I have a very special existence in my heart, when I decided to work in her magazine, I told myself in my heart that I could never betray her."

Her voice was a little cold, if Miao Yiyang wasn't flustered, it would be easy to hear it, but she didn't.

All her attention was attracted by the word betrayal.

The doubts that had been suppressed for a while surged up again, and she couldn't help but wonder if Shi Xiaorui really just talked about this casually?
betray……

Thinking of this word, her scalp became numb for no reason, and she lost the courage to even raise her head to meet Master Xiaorui's gaze.

The atmosphere suddenly became weird.

No one spoke.

After a long time, Miao Yiyang took a deep breath, and there was no warmth in his smile: "Of course I am the same as you."

Shi Xiaorui didn't even have the energy to force a smile.

She still didn't choose to hide, but chose... to stand on the opposite side.

At this moment, she suddenly felt that everything she did tonight was so ridiculous and meaningless.What exactly are you expecting?Do you expect Miao Yiyang to give up betraying the magazine?Or is it an extravagant hope that the two of them can still be as before without concealment and only sincerity?
But she forgot that extravagant wishes are extravagant wishes, and they will never come true.

As if losing her soul, Shi Xiaorui stood up without anger, and forced the corners of her mouth: "I don't feel well, go back to bed first."

After finishing speaking, she didn't wait for Miao Yiyang to express anything, she raised her legs and called to leave, saying that she was leaving, but in fact it was more like fleeing in fear.

Miao Yiyang watched her close the door with a complicated expression, and the uneasiness in her heart gradually expanded.

In the end what happened?
It's just that before she had time to think about it, the phone in her bag rang, she looked away, she convinced herself that she was thinking too much, and then she took out the phone and went back to her room.

Lying on the bed, Shi Xiaorui tossed and turned and couldn't fall asleep, all kinds of emotions tugged at her heart and made her so uncomfortable that she couldn't breathe.

Not wanting to stay in this room any longer, she ran away again.

But the moment he raised his head, he was so frightened that he almost cried out!