my naughty female president

The slightly cool pool water finally restored my brain to a semblance of rationality.

When the people around saw my operation, they all opened their mouths in surprise, not understanding why I acted like crazy.

It's just that I don't have the energy to pay attention to these things at the moment. I put my hands on the edge of the pool, watching the calm water surface gradually, and my heart sinks gradually.

Obviously, Annie already knows everything, if I don't know Annie's feelings for me, it's fine, but I already know that Annie has been secretly in love with me all these years, how should I explain this situation to her? Make her less hurt?
I'm afraid there is no way!Seeing the person I love falling in love with someone else with my own eyes, how can this kind of pain be repaired with explanations?

Anne Anne, I used to think that I could stop all disasters for you regardless of my life, but I didn't know, if the source of this disaster originated from myself, how should I take care of you?
Thinking of this, the mood that had just calmed down became irritable again. I tried my best to suppress my emotions that would become chaotic again. I knew that at this moment, I had to keep calm enough to deal with this matter in the most rational way.

Thinking about how well Anne has taken care of me in the years since my mother passed away, especially not long after my mother passed away, when I was a sophomore in college and hadn't even finished school yet.

Without Annie's help, I am afraid that even if I have the heart to fulfill my mother's last wish, I will be powerless.

Annie not only supported all my tuition and living expenses, but also cared more about my life. Annie's attitude towards me often gave me the illusion that she had reached a tacit agreement with her mother. She took over the mother's duties?
Now it seems that Anne already belonged to me at that time, so she didn't ask for anything in return for everything she did to me. Maybe she thought that I would understand her mind after all she gave me so unreservedly.

But she was wrong. What she didn't understand was that my heart is actually sensitive and fragile. Sensitivity comes from humble self-esteem, but vulnerability comes from low self-esteem itself.

She is beautiful, she is kind, she is so perfect, so perfect that she often makes me feel ashamed from the bottom of my heart, so that the better she treats me, the more I feel that she is out of reach.

In fact, it was not that I didn't feel Anne's affection at that time, nor did I not think about loving her with all my heart!
However, I clearly know that the relationship between the two of us has always been her unilateral contribution. Whether it is emotional or material, I have almost nothing. Even if I give everything, what can I do for her?

So at that time I decided that I can do anything for Anne, but I can't fall in love with her, because my love will only be a shackle to her, and it will only drag down her supposedly perfect life .

But I never thought that things would develop to this point one day!
Although I have repeatedly neglected her feelings, even though she has never received any response to my feelings, but she has not changed her original intention. She has been using her dedication all these years, silently waiting for what I may never have look back.

But just now, she saw with her own eyes that her hope of waiting was disillusioned. What could be more cruel than this?
Now that I have inevitably caused harm to Anne, should I give an account of what she has done to me for so many years, but I have nothing to repay her feelings for me, and all I can do is probably It may be to repay her material sacrifices to me over the years.

Although Annie has helped me materially for so many years, I have never carefully counted, because I have no intention of repaying her with money. I think this kind of behavior will be a kind of harm to her. I I have long believed in my heart that we will be friends for life, and I will repay what I owe her in my own way, but it is definitely not money.

However, things have come to this point, and the way I originally wanted to repay is meaningless. When she knows that her feelings will not be reciprocated, she will probably never accept any form of repayment from me.

Even so, I, with nothing in my pocket and nothing in my body, seem to be unable to do even this without turning to others for help.

And now the only one who can help me is Mu Xichun.

I hesitated for a long time, and finally took out my mobile phone and dialed Mu Xichun's number. At this moment, my heart was as desolate as a desert.

The call was connected quickly, and I didn't wait for Mu Xichun to speak, I opened my mouth first: "Can you lend me 10 yuan?"

"you……"

"Please don't ask me why, okay? I'll explain it to you tomorrow!" Probably my indifferent tone with a hint of sadness made her puzzled, and she was about to ask, but I stopped her.

"...Okay! Just wait for me, I'll make arrangements now!" After a moment of silence, Mu Xichun finally didn't ask any questions.

I hung up the phone silently, and sat on the steps weakly, thinking sadly in my heart: From now on, Annie may never treat me as a friend again, and this is the last thing I want to see in my life , I know that I will never have a chance to repay what I owe her...

After a while, Mu Xichun called me.

"Things have been arranged. Xiao Liu, the accountant, will send you the money later. Do you...do I need to do anything else?" Mu Xichun asked hesitantly.

She is a smart woman, she probably knew that something must have happened to me, but I didn't want to tell her, so she didn't ask, but I'm afraid her anxiety is no less than mine, but I don't have the mood to explain to her at the moment, I can only say sorry silently while being moved in my heart!

"No, thank you, you go to bed early, I will take care of everything!"

Mu Xichun hummed and hung up the phone silently seeing that I hadn't spoken for a long time.

Ten minutes later, Xiao Liu from the finance department rushed over. After seeing me, he handed me a paper bag and said out of breath, "Assistant Wei, this is the 10 yuan you asked for!"

I took the paper bag, thanked him and hurried out of the community.

Xiao Liu shouted loudly from behind: "Assistant Wei, do you want me to see you?" I turned around and watched him silently shook my head, and turned away with his puzzled expression.

I took a taxi to Annie's house, reached out and knocked on the door, but after waiting for a long time, there was no movement in the room.Thinking about it, Annie was probably not at home at the moment, so she hurried downstairs to her studio.

Along the way, my heart felt like being eaten by thousands of ants. I was thinking about what to say to Annie when I saw her, but I didn’t know how to explain all this to her. Maybe I don’t need to say anything. Because the damage has already been forged, it is futile to explain more.

The door of Annie's studio was ajar, and I thought my guess was right, but it was dark inside, and I couldn't see anything or hear a sound.

"Annie!"

I called out tentatively, but there was still no response from the huge studio, only my echo floating in the empty darkness.

I fumbled to turn on the light switch next to the door, all kinds of photographic equipment, and stood silently on the spot. Beside the photographic lamp stood a huge wedding photo. In the photo, the groom gently embraced the bride’s waist, bowed his head and kissed her A happy smile appeared on the bride's face.

This situation made my heart twitch violently. Thinking about how many happy loves Annie has witnessed, it was she who personally framed this kind of happiness in her lens.But when it was her turn, she couldn't witness her own happiness like the happiness she witnessed. Her love withered before it blossomed.

The door of her office was ajar, and the scene inside could not be seen clearly due to the angle of the light.

I gently pushed open the door of the office, and just as I was about to reach out to feel for the switch on the wall, I suddenly saw a figure under the opposite window. After my eyes got used to the darkness, I finally saw that figure squatting. Sitting under the window, arms folded over knees, head buried deep in arms, so lonely, so sad... 
Only lonely people will lick their wounds in this way, only sad people will embrace themselves in the dark.

Seeing this scene, my heart suddenly seemed to be pierced fiercely by a needle, and the blood dripped into the chest cavity drop by drop, making my breathing almost stagnant.

Anne, my Anne, why are you so sad?Don't you understand?The man you love has no right to make you so sad. He is just a bastard. How can you be so sad for him?

I have never seen Annie like this before, my heart throbbed uncontrollably, it seemed that the entire chest had been filled with blood, and the heartbeat became weak, as if it would lose its beating due to severe pain at any time.

I walked gently to Annie's side, squatted down silently, and stretched out my hand to hug her, but just as my hand touched her shoulder, she suddenly raised her head and pushed me away violently.

With the faint light coming in from the door, I saw that Anne's face was covered with tears, her eyes were red, her eyelids were red and swollen, God knows how long she had been crying before I came.

She looked at me quietly, her eyes were full of despair, and in the despair was the deep sadness that I couldn't see to the end.

She just looked at me like this, without saying a word, but tears flowed from her eyes again.

My heart was getting tighter and tighter, as if being held tightly by a pair of ruthless hands. I reached out to help Annie wipe away my tears, but Annie pushed them away violently.

She finally broke out.

"What are you doing here? Why are you here? Are you here to see my joke? Did you see it? Are you satisfied?" Annie almost yelled at me emotionally!

"Annie, I..."

I wanted to explain it, but suddenly I didn't know what to say. How should I explain it?What else can I explain?Do you want me to tell her?I never loved you Is it always your wishful thinking?

"Didn't you say that no matter what happened, you would always be by my side and never leave me? Why? Why did you lie to me?"

That's right, I've said it, I've said it all, not long ago, the scene when I said this is still vivid in my memory, when I finished saying this, Annie looked at me with teary eyes and asked: "Brother, are you Is it true? Will you really be by my side all the time?" At that time, I nodded my head as if I had promised her very firmly.

However, I didn't expect that it had only been a few days, and the matter had developed to this point.

"..." I remained silent.

"For so many years, I have been standing behind you, following you silently, haven't you noticed?"

"I know you yearn for freedom, I know you don't want to be bound, so I have been following you silently, I only hope that one day, you are finally tired, you can turn around by chance, and then find that I am right behind you !"

"You always say that the world is too big, and you still have a lot of places to go and things to do, but do you know that in my heart, you are my whole world?" Annie almost yelled at me, her words were like A sharp knife cut a hole in my heart in an instant.