Chapter 54
I had a dream in a blur of consciousness.
I dreamed about my father again.The last time I dreamed about him was a few months ago.He looked at me silently and gently in the dark background, with some smiles on his lips, but no matter what I said, he remained silent.This time it is still the case.It's just that there seems to be some worry between his brows, but no matter what I say, he still just smiles and tolerates.She didn't move or speak.I talked to myself until the end, and finally my mouth was dry.After a moment of silence, I told him in a low voice, "I have bone cancer, Dad."
I was suddenly a little sad, and I couldn't suppress the feeling of wanting to cry.Hugging him tightly in the dream, Mizusawa slid down his cheeks: "It's bone cancer at an advanced stage. The doctor said I can only live for another four months. I often have bone headaches recently. Dad, but I don't want to live only four months." months. What should I do? Can you tell me?"
He still refused to speak or move as always.It's just that the smile became lighter, and the eyes looking at me became complicated.I wiped away my tears, but more tears fell.I seem to be standing on the ground of glass, and I can hear the crisp echo of tears dripping down.I felt more and more painful, and felt a little cold, but I couldn't tell where it hurt and where I felt cold.Only the uncomfortable feeling of heart palpitations was clearly discernible, so that he finally couldn't help but plunged into his arms, crying louder.
I cried for a long time, and I was willing to release all the suppressed emotions these days.In the end, I felt that my heart was constricting and aching, and I felt dizzy before my eyes.Suddenly being kissed gently by someone, from the forehead to the tip of the nose to the cheek, one stroke at a time, each stroke is extremely warm.In the haze, someone was patting me on the back, calling my nickname softly over and over again: "Wanwan? Wanwan?"
I slowly opened my eyes.Feel the soft light beside the bed, and a familiar and beautiful face in front of you.Finally slowly realized that just now was a dream.I was truly embraced by Gu Yanzhi, his fingers stroked my face, wiping away my tears bit by bit, his movements were gentle and warm to the touch.
He said softly, "What dream did you have?"
I whispered, "Did I talk in my sleep?"
"No." He still had that familiar smile on his face, and the corners of his lips were slightly curled up, "Why are you crying like this?"
"I dreamed about my father."
He raised his eyebrows slightly: "What did he say?"
I shook my head.There was still a lump in my throat.Without saying a word, she hugged him back.After hearing him think for a moment, he said, "Let's go back to the mountains sometime this month?"
I shook my head again, feeling a dull pain in my ankle.I remembered that one of the symptoms of bone cancer that Yan Yu said was that the bone pain at night was worse than that during the day.I ignored this feeling without a trace, but the pain intensified, and finally reached the point where it was unbearable.I started to inhale in pain, and finally Gu Yanzhi noticed: "What's wrong?"
"..." I said, "slight ankle pain."
He looks at me.He quickly found my ankle under the sheet, held it, and kneaded it gently in his arms.The gesture is gentle and just right.I look up at him.Deep long eyelashes, a straight nose bridge, and slightly upturned lips even when not smiling.He has always been so good-looking.
I suddenly felt a little sore again.When he raised his eyes, he could barely see it.He stretched out a little smile on his face: "Why is your mouth so pouty? The ankle has been hurting all this time, is there any problem? Let's go to the hospital the day after tomorrow to have a look?"
I said, "It doesn't hurt all the time, it just hurts occasionally. It may be due to the lack of some trace elements. I won't go to the hospital." After finishing speaking, I continued to look at him.
Maybe it's because my eyes are a bit greedy at the moment, so I let him gently place a kiss on my forehead, and asked with a smile, "What do you want to say?"
I hesitated for a moment.Still couldn't help but want to say something, and at the same time looked at him without blinking: "I just think, if one day you hate me, don't forget me. Is this okay?"
Gu Yanzhi looked at me with a funny look in his eyes: "Why would I hate you one day?"
I let out a cry.He looked down at the back of his hand, then looked up at the ceiling, and said nonchalantly: "This is easy. Maybe you like the new and dislike the old. You see, you have disliked me here and there before, and maybe you will dislike me here and here even more in the future." There, did you see that Ye Xunxun and Yan Yu broke up like this before?"
He smiled and said, "Where did I dislike you before?"
I said seriously: "You didn't explicitly say that you disliked me, but you must have disliked me in your heart."
"Like?"
"For example, you may have thought that I was not as smart as you, or you may even think that I am stupid. Then you may also think that my cooking skills are not as good as yours, and I am not as smart as you. I don't know anything, not only can't help, but I can usually mess up a lot of other things, and I talk a lot. Maybe you have hated it for a long time, and you feel that you can't stand it, and then seriously consider divorce. A smarter, quieter, more sensible girl."
After I finished speaking, I looked at him eagerly.Gu Yanzhi said lightly: "What do I despise? Are you not stupid?"
"..."
I froze for a moment, then realized the meaning of his words.He fluttered and said, "That's really embarrassing you. I think we should sleep in separate beds tonight." Then he was about to jump over him and climb out of bed, and he snatched him back, saying with a smile: "Every time I'll be thinking wildly for a few days. Aren't you sleepy? Sleep well."
I was pressed at the position of his heart, and I heard the sound of regular beating there.It's hard to imagine that one day in the future, Gu Yanzhi will do to others what I am doing now.It felt unbearable all at once.Then I resented how unfair the sky was.
I haven't done anything wrong, I just like a person and want to stay with him for a longer time.And up to now, we have been together for less than four years.Even if the time of separation in the middle is eliminated, the time left is really short compared to the whole life.
Didn't sleep well that night.I lay on Gu Yanzhi's heart, closed my eyes and pretended to be asleep for an unknown amount of time.It was just before dawn that some drowsiness brewed, but not long after, Gu Yanzhi was heard getting up.His movements of getting out of bed were always very light, and this time it was the same as before.But I still couldn't fall back asleep, lying on the pillow and watching him vaguely buttoning the buttons behind the glass wall, imagining his casual and lazy appearance when he unbuttoned the two buttons on the collar of his shirt.After a while he came out, and I closed my eyes immediately.
He was a little softer on his lips, and said: "Since you are awake, why not go downstairs and have breakfast with me."
"Then," I opened a narrow slit in my eyes, looked at his expression from inside, and said tentatively, "Please beg me."
I was pulled out of the bed.Someone above the head smiled and said, "I beg you, come have breakfast with me. There is someone's favorite pan-fried buns this morning."
I opened my eyes, and the person in front of me was wearing an off-white casual shirt, with a slightly curved face and a faint smile.Thinking of what Yan Yu told me before boarding the plane the day before, he would come back to T city to help me tomorrow afternoon, and the psychological preparation that I thought I had made suddenly collapsed.
I grabbed Gu Yanzhi's collar and slowly squeezed it until it was unbearable.
He looked at me with raised eyebrows.I lowered my head, not daring to look into his eyes, and whispered, "Hey, that, can you not go out today? You see, since you begged me to have breakfast, I promised you too, so Can you promise me too? Don't go to the company today, okay? I have never asked you like this before, only this time today, and I will never do it again in the future. "
After a pause, he immediately added, "Don't think about it too much. I didn't say that because I missed you so much. I didn't miss you. I just think, I just think, maybe there might be thunder and lightning today. Yeah, it won't be safe out there, don't you think?"
I heard someone smile twice.Immediately, his jaw was pinched, and he shook gently back and forth.Then he said, "It's like a child who doesn't agree with what he says."
Gu Yanzhi and I spent two full days at home.
The longer they stay together, the less they want Yan Yu to come the next day.The consequence of this kind of thinking was that he sent a message to Yan Yu the next morning, unilaterally telling him to postpone the scheduled matter for one day.And soon Yan Yu replied, it was a long and thrilling sentence: stupid!ignorance!Sentimental!I'm on my way to the airport now You tell me this!I think you don't even want to live for four months, you just want to fend for yourself, right?
I trembled in my heart, and I could almost imagine Yan Yu, who was released as a pigeon, furious.Turn off the phone immediately.
In fact, I didn't do anything special in the past two days.
But still the same things I used to do.Together, we watered the ginkgo tree in front of the courtyard and teased the goldfish in the glass tank a few times.Sitting side by side in the viewing room and watching two movies, playing chess, chatting, and sleeping, it was the third day without knowing it.
I didn't realize that 48 hours would be so urgent, so urgent that I can clearly feel that time is like the wind at my fingertips, and I can't grasp it.
I went to the coffee shop the next afternoon when Gu Yanzhi was at work.Li Xiangnan was already sitting upright and waiting there, with a look of distraught, he squeezed a smile on his face when he saw me, and waved to me.
I walked over and said to him: "Since you can't smile, don't laugh anymore, okay? To be honest, your smile just now was kind of scary. Look at me, I'm still doing well, maybe I'll survive again by a miracle It's over. Don't put on a weeping expression right now, can you?"
Li Xiangnan put on a very aggrieved look: "I'm crying and laughing and it's a test of my skills, okay? Do you know how sad I am now? I checked the information for two days without sleep, and I didn't even take the college entrance examination." So focused."
"What about the result of the inquiry?"
He was silent for a while, looked out of the floor-to-ceiling windows, turned his head and changed his words: "Hey, what do you want to drink? I'll buy it for you."
I said, "Choose one of the iced coffees. It's a bit hot today."
"You're not in the right shape to drink anything over ice," he said.
I said, "Then how about a cup of mocha?"
"You're not in the right shape for coffee right now," he said.
I stared at him without moving.Li Xiangnan was unmoved: "You don't want to be responsible for yourself, but I can't do it. Don't try to threaten me. Think about it, if Gu Yanzhi is sitting here now, would you dare to ask him these demands casually?"
I poked my neck and said, "Dare, why not."
Li Xiangnan said: "That's what you said. Then I'll call Gu Yanzhi now and tell him that you have advanced bone cancer." He picked up the phone as he spoke.I watched his movements until he turned to the phone number and looked up: "I really dialed?"
I nodded and looked at him with folded arms: "You continue."
Li Xiangnan's whole body was stiff for two seconds, and after two seconds he slumped and put down the phone.After looking at me for a while, he said, "I heard from Yan Yu that you don't want to receive treatment. Have you given up even the most basic conservative treatment?"
"That's right."
"why?"
"No why."
"why?"
I had a stalemate with Li Xiangnan for a while, and finally told the truth: "Anyway, there is no difference in the consequences between taking medicine and not taking medicine. What's more, if you take medicine now, it is very likely that Gu Yanzhi will find out."
He was silent for a while: "At least you two should be here." After a pause, he continued, "After the relationship breaks down, you should receive treatment."
I said: "Ah."
"What do you mean by that?"
I said: "I have read it."
"..."
Li Xiangnan's expression was obviously not giving up, and he wanted to persuade me again, but a startled and beautiful female voice suddenly sounded behind me: "Why are you two sitting together?"
I turned my head and saw that Ye Xunxun was standing not far away in a lavender dress, holding a cup of coffee in one hand and a pair of sunglasses in the other, staring at us with raised eyebrows.After finishing speaking, his gaze was fixed on Li Xiangnan alone: "When did you come back?"
When Ye Xunxun asks other people questions, to a large extent, they are just asking questions, and they don't need the person concerned to answer them.In other words, she was just emphasizing the tone with a tone that resembled a question, but was actually a rhetorical question.And obviously Li Xiangnan had already realized this point. Hearing this, he didn't look at her at all, he stood up and said to me, "I'll get you some warm water."
Ye Xunxun sat down on Li Xiangnan's seat unceremoniously, and said, "What are you two talking about? What can you two have to talk about? How did you two meet? Why are you two sitting in this place together? "
I said, "I'm talking about planning to divorce Gu Yanzhi."
Ye Xunxun snorted, "When are you going to get a divorce?"
"Within half a month."
"What is the reason for the divorce?"
I said, "Husband and wife are at odds."
"Are you sure these four words are used on the two of you, not on me and Lan Shi?" Ye Xunxun threw the sunglasses on the table casually, with a look of indifference, "That's all nonsense What is it, I ask you serious."
I diverted the question: "Why did you come here alone?"
"I'm tired from shopping, come here and have a rest."
"...You didn't buy anything?"
"I like it, but I haven't bought it yet." Ye Xunxun said casually, "Lan Shi is currently stuck in traffic on the road, and he will come over later."
"What is he doing here?"
Ye Xunxun looked completely righteous: "Pay the bill."
I watched her for a moment.Still can't understand the essence of it. "Why?"
"what why?"
"Why did Lan Shi come to pay the bill! When did you ask someone else to pay the bill before! Didn't you pay the bill yourself! Didn't you say that after you and Lan Shi got married, you two would never mess with each other!"
Ye Xunxun let out another oh, and said calmly: "But my wallet was stolen a few days ago, and I lost thousands of dollars. Lan Shi said it was compensation. Whatever I fancy in the mall today, I will be fine." It was he who came to pay the bill. I thought about it, after all, I was already married to him, and I might just spend the rest of my life with him like this. Since he has already opened his mouth like this, and I don't suffer, it would be too much to refuse. It's too contrived, what do you think?"
I looked at it, and said slowly, "Aren't you always pretentious?"
Ye Xunxun choked for a moment, poked his neck and said, "Whatever you want."
After a while, I suddenly thought of something: "Wait, where did Lan Shi meet you? How long are you going to sit here?"
Ye Xunxun looked at me inexplicably: "I'll just sit here and wait for him to come."
I looked at her and said, "..."
I finally realized that something was going on in a way I didn't expect.After being stunned for a moment, he immediately picked up his mobile phone to call Yan Yu, and was planning to make another appointment at another place, when suddenly there was a light wind chime ringing at the door.When I turned around, Yan Yu was dragging the suitcase with one hand, holding the phone to his ear with the other hand, and the store door behind him was barely closing.The next moment I heard a cold voice from the microphone in my hand: "Hello? I'm here."
I looked at the phone and swallowed my throat, and said, "..."
Before I could think of any suitable wording, I heard the crisp knocking of the wind chime sound again.I prayed silently and raised my head, only to see Ye Xunxun's current legal spouse, Lan Shichuan, who had deep brows and yet inexplicably gave off a gentle and modest feeling. Wearing light-colored long clothes and trousers, he was looking around and pushing the door in.
I finally fell into complete despair.
The end of his eyes secretly glanced at Ye Xunxun.Sitting there with her arms folded, her eyes and eyebrows were already icy cold.
When Ye Xunxun got married this year, Yan Yu didn't show up at the wedding, but entrusted Gu Yanzhi with a red envelope worth tens of thousands of dollars.Ye Xunxun knew about this before the wedding banquet, and after 2 minutes of silence, he slowly uttered a sentence: "Go to hell."
In my memory, Ye Xunxun has never had such a big hatred with anyone in history.If Yan Yu had stood in front of her at that time, she would have used all her strength to tear him apart.
Ever since the two of them broke up for the last time and Yan Yu left T City, the two of them have been silent about the past ever since.Until Ye Xunxun got married, the two never mentioned each other again.It seems that those old times were all a hazy illusion.Fleeing years have alternated between cherries and plantains. When Ye Xunxun's marriage partner changed from the long-awaited Yan Yu to the current Lan, I carefully asked her the reason why Yan Yu and Yan Yu had no contact with each other. She told me lightly: "He Since you let me cry and cry again and again, you can no longer forgive me."
I had the courage to ask again: "But if you see him again someday..."
Ye Xunxun said lightly: "If I take the initiative to speak to him again, let me die."
……
The scene in front of me challenged the limit of my life as a poor cancer patient.I figured that if I was going to die in less than four months, it would have nothing to do with my insistence on refusing to take my medicine, and most of it had to do with the shock I had this afternoon.
The surrounding air seemed to freeze.I felt my scalp go numb, and I heard Yan Yu yell twice on the phone.Probably because my non-response finally made him realize that something was wrong, Yan Yu held his mobile phone at the door, raised his eyelids slightly, and the next moment he met Ye Xunxun's eyes.
Yan Yu's expressionless face suddenly became as cold as ice.
Holding the last wonderful drama I witnessed in my life, I dared to look between the two of them with the confidence that I would die without regret after watching it.Yan Yu stood where he was, looked at Ye Xunxun for a moment, and then slowly came over with the suitcase.When I got closer, I suddenly turned my gaze to me next to me.
His two lines of sight are like pear blossom needles in a rainstorm, almost poking me out of my wounds.My heart twitched, and I immediately raised my hands to explain: "I didn't do it on purpose, no, it wasn't me, Ye Xunxun did it on purpose, and she didn't know it at all, but she also came to the coffee shop and saw me sitting Here and she comes and you come and you come and..."
My voice became lower and lower, and finally I wanted to cry without tears under Yan Yu's furious stare like "I'm too lazy to listen to your reasons, I finally came back to T City and you just showed me this".Li Xiangnan finally walked back with his coffee, walked closer and stopped, looked at the situation in front of him, and when he realized it, he let out an uncontrollable ah.
I swallowed my throat, and said weakly and with difficulty: "Li, Li Xiangnan, I feel a little dizzy and need to rest. Let's take a step first..."
Li Xiangnan immediately came to help me cooperatively.Yan Yu stared at us gloomyly and said, "Stop."
Li Xiangnan and I stopped immediately.
Yan Yu slowly turned to look at Ye Xunxun again.Then slowly said: "Long time no see. Ye Xunxun."
"It hasn't been a long time. Isn't it just half a year ago?" Ye Xunxun folded his arms, looked ahead, and seemed to suddenly remember something, and raised his head, "Hey, no, haven't we seen each other for several years?" Passed? Look, I’m really sorry, I’ve had a good time, and I don’t even know it’s been so long.”
Yan Yu looked at her for a while, then said slowly, "Speak well. Don't be smug."
Ye Xunxun's eyes turned cold in an instant: "Speak well. Okay, listen - I really didn't expect to see you here today. Frankly speaking, you let me down right away."
Yan Yu's face was frozen into an Antarctic iceberg at that moment.
The corners of his mouth were pressed down, and his slightly narrowed eyes seemed to eat people.Ye Xunxun looked back without showing any weakness.The four gazes were sharp, like sharp knives out of their sheaths.I watched the atmosphere between the two of them become more and more strange, and I felt a sense of tension and excitement of watching ancient martial arts masters meet on a narrow road and were about to start a fight.
I can assure you that if Yan Yu said a little more provocative words, Ye Xunxun would definitely pour down the cup of coffee in his hand.She has always had the ability to completely ignore everyone around her and treat everyone except herself as a still life.I became more and more excited watching, and I didn't know it when I broke free from Li Xiangnan's support. I almost wanted to jump over the stalemate between the two of them immediately, and watch them two fiercely fight each other.Unexpectedly, a hand was lightly placed on Ye Xunxun's shoulder.
That hand was well-trimmed, with distinct joints, and one could tell at a glance that it was a pampered hand, and the owner of that hand said gently: "Why are you sitting in such a place? Let people look for it."
Lan Shi appeared here unreasonably, like a top-notch outsider, with just a flick of the wide robe sleeves, the tense feeling just now dissipated suddenly.
I suddenly felt that the daydreams I had just made up in my brain were extremely weak.
Lan Shi bent slightly and rescued Ye Xunxun's coffee cup that was almost bursting from her hand, turned his face and nodded to us one by one.I only saw him once, but he called him by his name.Li Xiangnan did not know when he had seen him, but he also called out his name at this moment.When it was Yan Yu's turn, Lan Shi remained calm and polite, and said lightly, "Mr. Yan."
Yan Yu pursed her lips, her face was so gloomy that water dripped out.The white shirt on his body couldn't stop the strong explosion of his icy aura at all.After a while, he finally nodded expressionlessly.
Lan Shi turned to Ye Xunxun and said, "How long have you been waiting here?"
Ye Xunxun replied coldly: "It's been a while. You came a little late."
"A street shopping with Miss Du Wan?"
"Who wants to go shopping with her. The things I buy with her are not in the same style, okay?"
Lan Shi smiled slightly: "Then what do you fancy? Let's go buy it now, shall we?"
"Now I suddenly don't want to buy it anymore." Ye Xunxun raised his chin towards me, "Unless the three of them leave, I don't want to leave either. I just want to sit here now."
"..." Li Xiangnan opened his mouth and said, "Ye Xunxun, I obviously took this seat first, so you are taking my seat now, okay?"
Ye Xunxun sat there as firmly as Mount Tai, rubbed the sunglasses in his hands, and said slowly without raising his head, "So?"
Li Xiangnan said: "..."
Yan Yu said in a cold voice: "Ye Xunxun, please speak some reason."
Ye Xunxun suddenly raised his eyelids, and blurted out, "It has nothing to do with you if I tell the truth!"
Li Xiangnan and I were so shocked that we both took a step back.Immediately, it felt like everyone in the coffee shop was watching.There was a moment of silence.I swallowed my throat again, and called Yan Yu in a low voice, with a somewhat discussing tone: "Why don't we go to another store?"
Yan Yu didn't turn her head back and said coldly: "Why?"
I decided to keep my mouth shut and keep silent.
"Xun Xun," Lan Shi said in a warm voice, "There are many ways to release your anger. But embarrassing others and embarrassing yourself are two different things. What do you think?"
Ye Xunxun looked cold, but did not speak.Li Xiangnan whispered to me from the side: "What does Lan Shi mean by this? I don't understand."
I said, "I didn't understand either."
Li Xiangnan said: "..."
"However, Yanzhi once mentioned to me that he said that Ye Xunxun didn't need Ye Xunxun to understand when he talked to Ye Xunxun." I sighed softly, "Ye Xunxun is an unreasonable person. Unreasonable means that she can reason with everyone, but no one can reason with her. Even if Ye Xunxun understands reason, she can't reason with it. This is a common problem among girls, but this common problem is in Ye Xun Xun Xun played it to the fullest, and anyone who reasoned with her would only make her furious. So in this way, there are only two ways to deal with Ye Xunxun, or to be unreasonable with her, but this posture is too ugly No, it’s not appropriate; or you’re trying to reason with Ye Xunxun with reasons that Ye Xunxun doesn’t understand at all. The consequence of being so profound or pretending to be so profound is that Ye Xunxun can no longer use her theory to refute you. Actually Ye Xunxun's weapon is only her theory, and now the weapon is not easy to use, and she is not ignorant of reason, she is actually guilty, so you talk to her calmly and she gradually loses consciousness. After talking, I can only listen to you in the end. Gu Yanzhi said that the most appropriate way to deal with this kind of girl is to do this."
Li Xiangnan was silent for a while, then slowly said: "I really hate Gu Yanzhi."
The conversation between Lan Shi and Ye Xunxun on the other side continued calmly: "Xunxun, there must always be a solution to the matter. Of course we can sit here and let them go first. After all, I don't know how many people will take turns in this seat in a year , they are just a few of all the guests. But at the same time, we can go first. Did you forget the opportunity cost I taught you? Did you forget the time value? Some things will be missed a lot if they go the other way Good timing. Didn’t you tell me to hurry up just now, lest a rose red bag be bought by others? Of course, even if someone else bought it, you can go to the United States to buy it again in two days, but why bother? Sitting here sulking, is it happier than going to the mall to swipe my card?"
Ye Xunxun's expression softened a little.My eyes criss-cross Lan Shi and Yan Yu.The latter's eyebrows and eyes were chilling and cold, and gradually became depressed like a barren mountain covered with ice and snow in winter.I suddenly couldn't bear it, and I didn't know how to speak to persuade, Lan Shi had already picked up Ye Xunxun's handbag, and half coaxed and half hugged Ye Xunxun to help him up.
One minute later, Ye Xunxun left without saying a word with his chin raised.Lan Shi stopped behind her and nodded to us: "Let me go first." His eyes fell on Yan Yu first, then on Li Xiangnan, and finally on me, with a smile on his lips, "If Miss Du is free, Welcome to come to Lan's house as a guest. Xun Xun very much hopes that you can come."
I nodded silently.After watching him go away, Li Xiangnan sighed inaudibly: "The people who open the bank really have a mouth like a lotus flower."
I nodded silently again.On the one hand, he couldn't help but secretly glanced at Yan Yu.He had already sat down on the sofa by himself, opened the suitcase, and pulled out the documents inside.When he raised his head and looked at me again, his expression was as usual: "How have you and Gu Yanzhi been doing these two days? I will go to Gu Yanzhi tomorrow morning. Don't let him see you for three days after tomorrow. I suggest that you can actually go to Find a place to prepare the divorce agreement in these three days. If I succeed after three days, you can divorce him smoothly according to your idea. If not, I have no other way. "
I groaned, I couldn't bear such a big emotional change in him for a while.Yan Yu said again: "You really don't take medicine? Even if you don't want to do other treatments, you don't even take medicine? In fact, I really don't like you, a patient who insists on going his own way, you know?"
I groaned and nodded.Sitting next to me, Li Xiangnan asked the question I wanted to ask but didn't dare to ask: "Are you sure it's okay? Just now you paid, ah. Now you're, ah."
"My business has nothing to do with you." Yan Yu caressed his cuff lightly, but still raised his eyes to look at me, "I have to tell you in advance, although you and I are old acquaintances, but the consultation fee is the consultation fee. You have to follow the industry standard, no less than half a point. Can you understand?"
I nodded again.He heard him humming: "It's good that you understand. But then again, it is said that Gu Yanzhi signed a prenuptial agreement before you got married, right? Then you should be considered a rich man, and this small amount of money is nothing to you Well, it’s Gu Yanzhi, it’s really a huge disaster for him when you two get divorced. Oh yes, and you,” said Li Xiangnan, gloating obviously behind his glasses, “As the two of them It's the trigger of divorce, you have to be prepared for eternal doom. Gu Yanzhi has never been a magnanimous person, he has a small belly, and he loses his wife and loses his army all at once. I don't know what he can do. Irresponsible at all."
……
I went back to Gu's house at ten o'clock in the evening.
I rarely come home this late.There has never been a time when I returned home so late without notice.Li Xiangnan's car stopped at the intersection, and I slowly walked back along the road. Sure enough, I saw the butler who kept looking around from a distance. After seeing me, he hurried over immediately, with a somewhat anxious expression: "Where is Miss Du going all day today?" What? Why is the phone always turned off?"
I walked forward with my head down, and answered absent-mindedly: "The battery is dead."
He obviously disapproved of the tone: "At least find someone to call back. This has never happened before. The young master has been waiting in the study all night today. After 08:30, he started calling everyone he might know. They said they didn’t see anyone on the phone. Ms. Ye Xunxun’s cell phone is also turned off, and the young master is afraid that something will happen to you.” He paused in the middle of the conversation, and added, “It’s good to be back now. Have you had dinner? Don't ask the kitchen to make some more supper?"
"No. I'm not hungry."
As soon as I finished speaking, someone grabbed my wrist.The strength was not strong, and the voice above his head was even mild: "Where did you go without saying a word, and you are only coming back now."
I look up.Gu Yanzhi stood on the steps, still looking like the light-colored linen long trousers he was wearing when he left in the morning.Under the light, he was tall and straight, and the hair on his forehead was gently brushed by the breeze.The facial features are deep, with a little tenderness between the eyebrows and eyes, as rich as jade.
I watched him for a while.Only then did he look away, and said casually: "I just chatted with others. I talked about it now before I knew it."
He lowered his eyes and looked at me.My heart beat like a drum.He squeezed his palms and maintained his composure.After a while, I heard him speak softly: "But I haven't eaten dinner yet."
My courage seemed to be easily taken away by half of his words.
looked up at him.His eyelashes were deep and long, and his eyes were filled with softness, and no other emotions could be found in them.I struggled between apologizing and being cold.This is simply a battle between heaven and man.After a while, I finally gave up across the board.
Taking half a step forward, he hugged his waist carefully, without noticing any rejection, and hugged him even tighter.He said in a muffled voice, "I'm sorry."
His hands passed through the gap between my handbag and my body, and his upper body was tightly pressed into his arms.There was the familiar temperature of his fingertips on his back.I pressed my cheek against the buttons of his clothes, closed my eyes, and took two deep breaths.Feeling that the top of his hair was rubbed, Gu Yanzhi said with a smile: "Going to try on the wedding dress tomorrow?"
My lips hurt from being bitten by myself.
——Yan Yu told me this afternoon that the so-called psychological control is nine points true and one point false.Slowly and imperceptibly.Gu Yanzhi cannot know this fact, but apart from him, you have to be as consciously aware of it as I am.Harden your heart and be meticulous.This is your own business, and you are the most important thing.Of course, you can also choose to be weak, this is your right.It doesn't matter if I go back to City A now.But if you, as an adult, can't bear the consequences of your decisions, don't start talking about them.I don't like people who quit halfway.Du Wan, if you want to work hard, then try your best, okay?
After a while, I said nonchalantly: "But tomorrow I'm going to find Ye Xunxun."
"Then the day after tomorrow?"
I said, "Brother."
He hummed with a rising sound.
I distinctly felt myself having difficulty breathing.The voice was unusually calm: "In three days, I have something to tell you."
He hummed again and said, "It must be three days later?"
I said, "Yes. In three days."
There are always some things in this world that are not as expected.Specifically, it can be manifested in many ways.For example, the person you like doesn't like you.People you don't like like you.People you don't like don't like you.And, the person you like likes you, but you can't be together.etc.
The degree of pain of these four kinds of things, in general, should be like a fish drinking water, knowing whether it is warm or not.For me, what I understand deeply now is the fourth type.And it is a little more painful than the fourth kind, that is, the person you like likes you, but not only can you not be together, but he will also hate you because of your subjective reasons.
Even Li Xiangnan, when he first learned of my plan, couldn't help persuading me quietly, Du Wan, why bother.
In fact, if I think about it again, I don't really need it.
After all, as a dying person, if you plan more for yourself and plan less for yourself, the shelf life is the same, and there is no difference in the end.From this point of view, it is natural to make more plans for the living people you care about.Now the person I care about is naturally Gu Yanzhi.I don't want him to die with me, nor do I want him to do anything too abnormal for the rest of his life, so that the result can only be that I do some abnormal things myself.Of course, it is impossible to do these things without heartache, but heartache is not cancer after all. Although everyone does not like heartache, it will pass after all.Especially in the face of terminal cancer that cannot survive, this heartache can actually be ignored.
I was convincing myself like this, and by the way, I tried to convince Li Xiangnan who stayed with me in the hotel room and refused to leave.He was silent for a while with a disapproving expression, and in the end he probably couldn't find a perfect testimony that could convince me, so he sighed, and then fell silent indefinitely.Outside the floor-to-ceiling windows, it was dusk in T City. Looking out from such a height of more than [-] floors, the gray and red of the sky were very clear.There is only the last corner of the sun left, slowly sinking, and finally disappearing.I turned my head and looked at the clock on the wall. The hour hand barely moved past nineteen o'clock.It has been ten hours since I left Gu's house in the morning.
According to what Yan Yu said, the possibility that he can overturn Gu Yanzhi's memory and make him believe that I never liked him is basically zero.This is not something that simple hypnotic control can do.Unless it was hit by a car, or some other reason caused a severe head injury, and the severe injury happens to be such a place as the hippocampus, such a miracle can occur quickly.
So I can only settle for the next best thing, and forcefully open a gap quickly from Gu Yanzhi's firm belief that I will not change my mind.Although this is the principle of mind control, it is actually different from mind control.The analysis of the specific intermediate process is complicated, but the final result is to compress the time as much as possible and quickly convince Gu Yanzhi that although I still like him, it is human nature to like the new and dislike the old. In addition, Li Xiangnan himself is not bad, and we are the same age. It may be because of more common language, so compared to Gu Yanzhi, I like Li Xiangnan more now.
Yan Yu was going to add this false fact to the memories I told him earlier.The specific details include that he saw me date Li Xiangnan many times in City A, once half a year ago, and again a few days ago, and that I talked and laughed with Li Xiangnan and drank a drink together, etc.Last night he told me all this vividly to the end, I finally couldn't help it, raised my hand and interrupted him: "Okay, I get it, you don't have to tell me the details. Do you have anything else to say? What you didn't say Can we just stop and go home?"
Yan Yu obviously couldn't get enough of what he said.Sighing, he said to me: "Are you sure you don't want to hear it? I have been arranging such a wonderful love triangle story for two whole days without sleep. The details are so detailed that Gu Yanzhi can believe it. I made up the story so ups and downs. Believe it or not, it moved the mountains and rocks?"
I looked at him blankly: "Actually, this is not what you arranged, it is your personal experience, right?"
"..." Yan Yu lowered his head and slowly took a sip of water, raised his head, and said gently, "Please get out, okay?"
I stayed in the hotel for three days, and basically didn't drink water or eat at ease. Besides, I almost bit through all my fingernails.I walked back and forth in the room, and finally Li Xiangnan had to stand in front of me, grabbed my arm and pressed it hard: "Du Wan, don't do this."
"I didn't do anything. I was just a little worried." I looked up at him eagerly, "How much do you think Gu Yanzhi hates me?"
Lee Sang Nam said, "Maybe he doesn't hate you. He just feels sad."
"But if you are betrayed, don't you feel angry and disgusted?"
Li Xiangnan lingered on my face for a while, and finally gave up reasoning with me, and said instead: "How much do you want him to hate you?"
"Will he take the initiative to ask me for a divorce?"
"Maybe, maybe not."
"Will he never get in touch with me?"
Li Xiangnan looked at me again for a while.Quietly said: "No matter what kind of form he hates you, or divorce, he just hates you. Isn't this your purpose? If you still feel reluctant, you can call Yan Yu now. You still have Turn your back on your chance, Du Wan."
His tone was a little cold.I was stunned for a while, and finally he was sober.
It was cloudy and hot outside.It was already the afternoon of the third day.Yan Yu said that he would call to inform the result in the afternoon of the third day at the latest.Li Xiangnan and I faced each other silently.I felt more and more anxious, but didn't say a word.Until the clock on the wall passed two o'clock, I suddenly remembered the ringing of the phone in my hand.
I grabbed it, and the caller showed Yan Yu's name.It was connected immediately, and the hands even trembled slightly.
Yan Yu's voice came in, unhurried, with a concise and calm tone: "Congratulations, Miss Du. You succeeded. Gu Yanzhi believed at least half of what I said. Now you can go back to Gu Zhai."
I heard the low hum of the air conditioner in the room.After a while, I slowly heard myself oh.
Yan Yu's tone was as if she was staying out of the matter: "You have the final say on whether you want to get a divorce or what to do next. Of course, if you want to make the effect more realistic, you can also ask Li Xiangnan to send you back. It's okay to kiss in person. It's all about Gu Yanzhi I have received enough shocks in the past three days, and I don’t care about one more.”
This time I did not answer for a long time.
Obviously thought it would be such a result.When it really came to this moment, it was still difficult to deal with it calmly.I just felt a little cold all over my body, my brain went blank, and my heart constricted violently.I stood there a little bit tottering, but Li Xiangnan held my arm firmly so that I wouldn't fall down.Yan Yu over there paused for a moment, and his tone softened: "Regret?"
My voice was soft: "No."
"Is that what hurts your heart?"
The phone was taken away, and Li Xiangnan said into the microphone: "Isn't that a little too much?"
"I'm just preparing her mentally." Yan Yu replied coldly over there, "My words are nothing. When you see Gu Yanzhi later, you should tell Du Wan not to break down while acting."
It was already night when I went back to Gu Zhai.
I didn't actually notice the night falling.Including how to leave the hotel, how to get into the car, and how to be recalled by Li Xiangnan, the memory is the same.When the car came to a slow stop and there was a light at the entrance of Gu's house not far away, Li Xiangnan leaned over and helped me unbuckle my seat belt.There was a light click, and I was shocked and reacted.
Li Xiangnan asked: "Do you need me to go in with you?"
I made up my mind.Opening the car door, he said, "No need."
I imagined what Gu Yanzhi might look like.He may have a cold face, may question me angrily, or may not say a word and just regard me as air.But from an objective point of view, in fact, no matter which of these reactions, there is no difference to me.
However, the real fact is far from any kind of appearance I expected.It was very quiet when I walked into the living room. Gu Yanzhi was sitting on the sofa in light-colored home clothes, flipping through a magazine.The gesture of the finger resting on the centerfold is casual.He raised his head slightly when he heard the noise, and his face was calm the moment he saw me.With a faint tiredness.Then slightly raised the end of one eyebrow.
His tone was the same as his expression: "Come back from Ye Xunxun? Have you had dinner yet?"
I opened my mouth.He didn't use a single word he had prepared for many days. He remained silent for a moment, and only passively answered his question: "Not yet."
Five minutes later, Gu Yanzhi and I sat face to face in the restaurant.I just watched him bring the egg custard from a distance in front of me, and moved the plate of cauliflower aside from my hand.This is the action he has always been used to.Doing it today is no different than usual.His brows and eyes are always calm, just as calm as ever.When I was in a daze, he put a piece of beef in my bowl: "Taste to see if the taste of today is different from usual."
I held the chopsticks and poked in the bowl for a while.Whispered: "I have something to say."
"We'll talk about it after dinner," he said.
I raised my head and looked at his nose, lips, eyebrows and eyes.Every inch seems to be exquisitely painted, so beautiful.After a while, I said softly, "Gu Yanzhi, we're getting a divorce."
His movements finally stopped.Turned to look at me.There was still a calm expression between his eyebrows and eyes.After a while, he said calmly: "Don't mess around."
"I'm not messing around," I said, "I don't want to be with you anymore. After all these years, don't you feel the slightest bit of boredom? I don't think the feeling between us is the same now. I don't want to Go down. I'm in love with someone else."
I spoke firmly, without any pause or hesitation.This time he looked at me carefully for a while.His eyes were warm and calm.Finally asked in a low voice: "Li Xiangnan?"
I said, "Yes. Li Xiangnan."
He said lightly: "I don't believe it."
When he said this, he was still holding a piece of butter cut bun in his hand.The fingertips are trimmed and rounded, and the fingers are slender and beautiful.
I almost suspected that Yan Yu was lying to me.Gu Yanzhi didn't seem to believe my words at all.Maybe Yan Yu's so-called psychological control has not succeeded, maybe the person in front of me at this moment has already guessed my plan, maybe even he conspired with Yan Yu, or forced to ask Yan Yu's truth, now I know it well, just wait Then expose me step by step.I was flustered by random thoughts, until I saw Gu Yanzhi put down the pastry, picked up a small towel beside him and wiped his palms leisurely.
My heart that was hanging high suddenly fell down.
"It's true. Li Xiangnan likes me no less than you like me. You may think that Li Xiangnan is not as rich as you, and he may not have as much experience as you. But after all, he is younger than you. What you have now, he may not be in the future won't have it."
My tone was understated: "What's more, he respects my opinion more than you. He also understands me better. In these years, many things have been decided by you, and whatever you say is what you say. You may be very gentle on the surface, but in reality In fact, you can't be questioned and refuted. I actually don't like you very much. In fact, I have a lot of ideas that are different from yours. But I bury it in my heart much more than when I say it. And, I don't like you either I have always been so busy. You are out many days a month, and you will deal with many people. You may think that the time you allocate to me is already a lot, but for me, I spend more time alone. Of course, I can't blame you for this, I can only blame myself. You just treat me as a bad person, I don't have concentration, and it's not worth your troubles with me. Gu Yanzhi, we're getting a divorce."
I have been with him for so many years.You may still not be familiar with his way of managing the company, but you are already as familiar with the weakness of his heart and all the little habits as you are familiar with the length and width of his collarbone and the temperature of his palm.No one in this world knows better than me that when he is unsure, he will always hold any object at hand, and no one knows better than me the only two possible weaknesses in our relationship that he cares about-age The gap, and the time spent with each other.
It used to be love talk we discussed before we cuddled up to sleep.At that time, we crossed our fingers, kissed each other, and murmured in a low voice.I don't think Gu Yanzhi thought that one day I would use them as a sharp sword.My tone was serious, not a joke. In his eyes, it probably seemed like a real complaint when the relationship broke down.
Gu Yanzhi looked at me silently.His eyes were dark and deep.After a while, she slowly said, "Wanwan, if you don't like a person's shortcomings, you can tell them, and he will correct them. Husbands and wives always quarrel, this is a very normal thing. But this is not a divorce. reason."
I avoided his eyes and whispered: "I know what you mean, but you should also understand what I mean. You know I'm not arguing, I'm talking to you seriously. Some things endure to a certain stage , there is no point in correcting it. I don’t think I like you anymore. I will return the property transfer you signed before marriage to you intact in these two days. I hope we can divorce as soon as possible, I Will leave with nothing. That's it."
He put down the cutting bag in his hand, and said in a low voice: "Really, what is the initiative when you came back from City A a few days ago?"
"I just feel a little guilty for you."
He was silent for a moment.He suddenly said, "Wanwan, what happened to you?"
My heart skipped a beat.looked up at him.
His eyes were dark, dull and dull.I grabbed my palm tightly, turned my eyes away, and replied nonchalantly: "It's nothing. I just think that the previous decision was a little too reckless. Maybe, I shouldn't marry you so early. You were right before, I I was too young to have your insights, and I did a lot of things without thinking about the future and the consequences. I didn't know what I wanted before, so I wasted a lot of your time. Now I know, I think I The mistake should be corrected in time. It shouldn't take your time any longer. That's it."
He said: "A person will always encounter some things that feel new, and occasionally have a wrong obsession, which is not uncommon. But the heat will pass one day, and after calming down, you will know that the previous decision is not reasonable and correct. Wanwan, divorce is a serious matter. It is not an impulsive decision. Some things should not be said lightly, and it may be difficult to redeem them. I don't think today is the right time to talk about this matter. Let's talk about it another day Let's talk again."
He said to stand up.I said quickly, "I think I've thought it through carefully and thoroughly. I don't think we need another day. Brother, the old me was wrongly obsessed with you. It's not me and Li Xiangnan."
He made up his mind.Turn your eyes to see me.After a while, he turned and left.I heard his faint tone: "Wanwan, what you said is cruel."
(End of this chapter)
I had a dream in a blur of consciousness.
I dreamed about my father again.The last time I dreamed about him was a few months ago.He looked at me silently and gently in the dark background, with some smiles on his lips, but no matter what I said, he remained silent.This time it is still the case.It's just that there seems to be some worry between his brows, but no matter what I say, he still just smiles and tolerates.She didn't move or speak.I talked to myself until the end, and finally my mouth was dry.After a moment of silence, I told him in a low voice, "I have bone cancer, Dad."
I was suddenly a little sad, and I couldn't suppress the feeling of wanting to cry.Hugging him tightly in the dream, Mizusawa slid down his cheeks: "It's bone cancer at an advanced stage. The doctor said I can only live for another four months. I often have bone headaches recently. Dad, but I don't want to live only four months." months. What should I do? Can you tell me?"
He still refused to speak or move as always.It's just that the smile became lighter, and the eyes looking at me became complicated.I wiped away my tears, but more tears fell.I seem to be standing on the ground of glass, and I can hear the crisp echo of tears dripping down.I felt more and more painful, and felt a little cold, but I couldn't tell where it hurt and where I felt cold.Only the uncomfortable feeling of heart palpitations was clearly discernible, so that he finally couldn't help but plunged into his arms, crying louder.
I cried for a long time, and I was willing to release all the suppressed emotions these days.In the end, I felt that my heart was constricting and aching, and I felt dizzy before my eyes.Suddenly being kissed gently by someone, from the forehead to the tip of the nose to the cheek, one stroke at a time, each stroke is extremely warm.In the haze, someone was patting me on the back, calling my nickname softly over and over again: "Wanwan? Wanwan?"
I slowly opened my eyes.Feel the soft light beside the bed, and a familiar and beautiful face in front of you.Finally slowly realized that just now was a dream.I was truly embraced by Gu Yanzhi, his fingers stroked my face, wiping away my tears bit by bit, his movements were gentle and warm to the touch.
He said softly, "What dream did you have?"
I whispered, "Did I talk in my sleep?"
"No." He still had that familiar smile on his face, and the corners of his lips were slightly curled up, "Why are you crying like this?"
"I dreamed about my father."
He raised his eyebrows slightly: "What did he say?"
I shook my head.There was still a lump in my throat.Without saying a word, she hugged him back.After hearing him think for a moment, he said, "Let's go back to the mountains sometime this month?"
I shook my head again, feeling a dull pain in my ankle.I remembered that one of the symptoms of bone cancer that Yan Yu said was that the bone pain at night was worse than that during the day.I ignored this feeling without a trace, but the pain intensified, and finally reached the point where it was unbearable.I started to inhale in pain, and finally Gu Yanzhi noticed: "What's wrong?"
"..." I said, "slight ankle pain."
He looks at me.He quickly found my ankle under the sheet, held it, and kneaded it gently in his arms.The gesture is gentle and just right.I look up at him.Deep long eyelashes, a straight nose bridge, and slightly upturned lips even when not smiling.He has always been so good-looking.
I suddenly felt a little sore again.When he raised his eyes, he could barely see it.He stretched out a little smile on his face: "Why is your mouth so pouty? The ankle has been hurting all this time, is there any problem? Let's go to the hospital the day after tomorrow to have a look?"
I said, "It doesn't hurt all the time, it just hurts occasionally. It may be due to the lack of some trace elements. I won't go to the hospital." After finishing speaking, I continued to look at him.
Maybe it's because my eyes are a bit greedy at the moment, so I let him gently place a kiss on my forehead, and asked with a smile, "What do you want to say?"
I hesitated for a moment.Still couldn't help but want to say something, and at the same time looked at him without blinking: "I just think, if one day you hate me, don't forget me. Is this okay?"
Gu Yanzhi looked at me with a funny look in his eyes: "Why would I hate you one day?"
I let out a cry.He looked down at the back of his hand, then looked up at the ceiling, and said nonchalantly: "This is easy. Maybe you like the new and dislike the old. You see, you have disliked me here and there before, and maybe you will dislike me here and here even more in the future." There, did you see that Ye Xunxun and Yan Yu broke up like this before?"
He smiled and said, "Where did I dislike you before?"
I said seriously: "You didn't explicitly say that you disliked me, but you must have disliked me in your heart."
"Like?"
"For example, you may have thought that I was not as smart as you, or you may even think that I am stupid. Then you may also think that my cooking skills are not as good as yours, and I am not as smart as you. I don't know anything, not only can't help, but I can usually mess up a lot of other things, and I talk a lot. Maybe you have hated it for a long time, and you feel that you can't stand it, and then seriously consider divorce. A smarter, quieter, more sensible girl."
After I finished speaking, I looked at him eagerly.Gu Yanzhi said lightly: "What do I despise? Are you not stupid?"
"..."
I froze for a moment, then realized the meaning of his words.He fluttered and said, "That's really embarrassing you. I think we should sleep in separate beds tonight." Then he was about to jump over him and climb out of bed, and he snatched him back, saying with a smile: "Every time I'll be thinking wildly for a few days. Aren't you sleepy? Sleep well."
I was pressed at the position of his heart, and I heard the sound of regular beating there.It's hard to imagine that one day in the future, Gu Yanzhi will do to others what I am doing now.It felt unbearable all at once.Then I resented how unfair the sky was.
I haven't done anything wrong, I just like a person and want to stay with him for a longer time.And up to now, we have been together for less than four years.Even if the time of separation in the middle is eliminated, the time left is really short compared to the whole life.
Didn't sleep well that night.I lay on Gu Yanzhi's heart, closed my eyes and pretended to be asleep for an unknown amount of time.It was just before dawn that some drowsiness brewed, but not long after, Gu Yanzhi was heard getting up.His movements of getting out of bed were always very light, and this time it was the same as before.But I still couldn't fall back asleep, lying on the pillow and watching him vaguely buttoning the buttons behind the glass wall, imagining his casual and lazy appearance when he unbuttoned the two buttons on the collar of his shirt.After a while he came out, and I closed my eyes immediately.
He was a little softer on his lips, and said: "Since you are awake, why not go downstairs and have breakfast with me."
"Then," I opened a narrow slit in my eyes, looked at his expression from inside, and said tentatively, "Please beg me."
I was pulled out of the bed.Someone above the head smiled and said, "I beg you, come have breakfast with me. There is someone's favorite pan-fried buns this morning."
I opened my eyes, and the person in front of me was wearing an off-white casual shirt, with a slightly curved face and a faint smile.Thinking of what Yan Yu told me before boarding the plane the day before, he would come back to T city to help me tomorrow afternoon, and the psychological preparation that I thought I had made suddenly collapsed.
I grabbed Gu Yanzhi's collar and slowly squeezed it until it was unbearable.
He looked at me with raised eyebrows.I lowered my head, not daring to look into his eyes, and whispered, "Hey, that, can you not go out today? You see, since you begged me to have breakfast, I promised you too, so Can you promise me too? Don't go to the company today, okay? I have never asked you like this before, only this time today, and I will never do it again in the future. "
After a pause, he immediately added, "Don't think about it too much. I didn't say that because I missed you so much. I didn't miss you. I just think, I just think, maybe there might be thunder and lightning today. Yeah, it won't be safe out there, don't you think?"
I heard someone smile twice.Immediately, his jaw was pinched, and he shook gently back and forth.Then he said, "It's like a child who doesn't agree with what he says."
Gu Yanzhi and I spent two full days at home.
The longer they stay together, the less they want Yan Yu to come the next day.The consequence of this kind of thinking was that he sent a message to Yan Yu the next morning, unilaterally telling him to postpone the scheduled matter for one day.And soon Yan Yu replied, it was a long and thrilling sentence: stupid!ignorance!Sentimental!I'm on my way to the airport now You tell me this!I think you don't even want to live for four months, you just want to fend for yourself, right?
I trembled in my heart, and I could almost imagine Yan Yu, who was released as a pigeon, furious.Turn off the phone immediately.
In fact, I didn't do anything special in the past two days.
But still the same things I used to do.Together, we watered the ginkgo tree in front of the courtyard and teased the goldfish in the glass tank a few times.Sitting side by side in the viewing room and watching two movies, playing chess, chatting, and sleeping, it was the third day without knowing it.
I didn't realize that 48 hours would be so urgent, so urgent that I can clearly feel that time is like the wind at my fingertips, and I can't grasp it.
I went to the coffee shop the next afternoon when Gu Yanzhi was at work.Li Xiangnan was already sitting upright and waiting there, with a look of distraught, he squeezed a smile on his face when he saw me, and waved to me.
I walked over and said to him: "Since you can't smile, don't laugh anymore, okay? To be honest, your smile just now was kind of scary. Look at me, I'm still doing well, maybe I'll survive again by a miracle It's over. Don't put on a weeping expression right now, can you?"
Li Xiangnan put on a very aggrieved look: "I'm crying and laughing and it's a test of my skills, okay? Do you know how sad I am now? I checked the information for two days without sleep, and I didn't even take the college entrance examination." So focused."
"What about the result of the inquiry?"
He was silent for a while, looked out of the floor-to-ceiling windows, turned his head and changed his words: "Hey, what do you want to drink? I'll buy it for you."
I said, "Choose one of the iced coffees. It's a bit hot today."
"You're not in the right shape to drink anything over ice," he said.
I said, "Then how about a cup of mocha?"
"You're not in the right shape for coffee right now," he said.
I stared at him without moving.Li Xiangnan was unmoved: "You don't want to be responsible for yourself, but I can't do it. Don't try to threaten me. Think about it, if Gu Yanzhi is sitting here now, would you dare to ask him these demands casually?"
I poked my neck and said, "Dare, why not."
Li Xiangnan said: "That's what you said. Then I'll call Gu Yanzhi now and tell him that you have advanced bone cancer." He picked up the phone as he spoke.I watched his movements until he turned to the phone number and looked up: "I really dialed?"
I nodded and looked at him with folded arms: "You continue."
Li Xiangnan's whole body was stiff for two seconds, and after two seconds he slumped and put down the phone.After looking at me for a while, he said, "I heard from Yan Yu that you don't want to receive treatment. Have you given up even the most basic conservative treatment?"
"That's right."
"why?"
"No why."
"why?"
I had a stalemate with Li Xiangnan for a while, and finally told the truth: "Anyway, there is no difference in the consequences between taking medicine and not taking medicine. What's more, if you take medicine now, it is very likely that Gu Yanzhi will find out."
He was silent for a while: "At least you two should be here." After a pause, he continued, "After the relationship breaks down, you should receive treatment."
I said: "Ah."
"What do you mean by that?"
I said: "I have read it."
"..."
Li Xiangnan's expression was obviously not giving up, and he wanted to persuade me again, but a startled and beautiful female voice suddenly sounded behind me: "Why are you two sitting together?"
I turned my head and saw that Ye Xunxun was standing not far away in a lavender dress, holding a cup of coffee in one hand and a pair of sunglasses in the other, staring at us with raised eyebrows.After finishing speaking, his gaze was fixed on Li Xiangnan alone: "When did you come back?"
When Ye Xunxun asks other people questions, to a large extent, they are just asking questions, and they don't need the person concerned to answer them.In other words, she was just emphasizing the tone with a tone that resembled a question, but was actually a rhetorical question.And obviously Li Xiangnan had already realized this point. Hearing this, he didn't look at her at all, he stood up and said to me, "I'll get you some warm water."
Ye Xunxun sat down on Li Xiangnan's seat unceremoniously, and said, "What are you two talking about? What can you two have to talk about? How did you two meet? Why are you two sitting in this place together? "
I said, "I'm talking about planning to divorce Gu Yanzhi."
Ye Xunxun snorted, "When are you going to get a divorce?"
"Within half a month."
"What is the reason for the divorce?"
I said, "Husband and wife are at odds."
"Are you sure these four words are used on the two of you, not on me and Lan Shi?" Ye Xunxun threw the sunglasses on the table casually, with a look of indifference, "That's all nonsense What is it, I ask you serious."
I diverted the question: "Why did you come here alone?"
"I'm tired from shopping, come here and have a rest."
"...You didn't buy anything?"
"I like it, but I haven't bought it yet." Ye Xunxun said casually, "Lan Shi is currently stuck in traffic on the road, and he will come over later."
"What is he doing here?"
Ye Xunxun looked completely righteous: "Pay the bill."
I watched her for a moment.Still can't understand the essence of it. "Why?"
"what why?"
"Why did Lan Shi come to pay the bill! When did you ask someone else to pay the bill before! Didn't you pay the bill yourself! Didn't you say that after you and Lan Shi got married, you two would never mess with each other!"
Ye Xunxun let out another oh, and said calmly: "But my wallet was stolen a few days ago, and I lost thousands of dollars. Lan Shi said it was compensation. Whatever I fancy in the mall today, I will be fine." It was he who came to pay the bill. I thought about it, after all, I was already married to him, and I might just spend the rest of my life with him like this. Since he has already opened his mouth like this, and I don't suffer, it would be too much to refuse. It's too contrived, what do you think?"
I looked at it, and said slowly, "Aren't you always pretentious?"
Ye Xunxun choked for a moment, poked his neck and said, "Whatever you want."
After a while, I suddenly thought of something: "Wait, where did Lan Shi meet you? How long are you going to sit here?"
Ye Xunxun looked at me inexplicably: "I'll just sit here and wait for him to come."
I looked at her and said, "..."
I finally realized that something was going on in a way I didn't expect.After being stunned for a moment, he immediately picked up his mobile phone to call Yan Yu, and was planning to make another appointment at another place, when suddenly there was a light wind chime ringing at the door.When I turned around, Yan Yu was dragging the suitcase with one hand, holding the phone to his ear with the other hand, and the store door behind him was barely closing.The next moment I heard a cold voice from the microphone in my hand: "Hello? I'm here."
I looked at the phone and swallowed my throat, and said, "..."
Before I could think of any suitable wording, I heard the crisp knocking of the wind chime sound again.I prayed silently and raised my head, only to see Ye Xunxun's current legal spouse, Lan Shichuan, who had deep brows and yet inexplicably gave off a gentle and modest feeling. Wearing light-colored long clothes and trousers, he was looking around and pushing the door in.
I finally fell into complete despair.
The end of his eyes secretly glanced at Ye Xunxun.Sitting there with her arms folded, her eyes and eyebrows were already icy cold.
When Ye Xunxun got married this year, Yan Yu didn't show up at the wedding, but entrusted Gu Yanzhi with a red envelope worth tens of thousands of dollars.Ye Xunxun knew about this before the wedding banquet, and after 2 minutes of silence, he slowly uttered a sentence: "Go to hell."
In my memory, Ye Xunxun has never had such a big hatred with anyone in history.If Yan Yu had stood in front of her at that time, she would have used all her strength to tear him apart.
Ever since the two of them broke up for the last time and Yan Yu left T City, the two of them have been silent about the past ever since.Until Ye Xunxun got married, the two never mentioned each other again.It seems that those old times were all a hazy illusion.Fleeing years have alternated between cherries and plantains. When Ye Xunxun's marriage partner changed from the long-awaited Yan Yu to the current Lan, I carefully asked her the reason why Yan Yu and Yan Yu had no contact with each other. She told me lightly: "He Since you let me cry and cry again and again, you can no longer forgive me."
I had the courage to ask again: "But if you see him again someday..."
Ye Xunxun said lightly: "If I take the initiative to speak to him again, let me die."
……
The scene in front of me challenged the limit of my life as a poor cancer patient.I figured that if I was going to die in less than four months, it would have nothing to do with my insistence on refusing to take my medicine, and most of it had to do with the shock I had this afternoon.
The surrounding air seemed to freeze.I felt my scalp go numb, and I heard Yan Yu yell twice on the phone.Probably because my non-response finally made him realize that something was wrong, Yan Yu held his mobile phone at the door, raised his eyelids slightly, and the next moment he met Ye Xunxun's eyes.
Yan Yu's expressionless face suddenly became as cold as ice.
Holding the last wonderful drama I witnessed in my life, I dared to look between the two of them with the confidence that I would die without regret after watching it.Yan Yu stood where he was, looked at Ye Xunxun for a moment, and then slowly came over with the suitcase.When I got closer, I suddenly turned my gaze to me next to me.
His two lines of sight are like pear blossom needles in a rainstorm, almost poking me out of my wounds.My heart twitched, and I immediately raised my hands to explain: "I didn't do it on purpose, no, it wasn't me, Ye Xunxun did it on purpose, and she didn't know it at all, but she also came to the coffee shop and saw me sitting Here and she comes and you come and you come and..."
My voice became lower and lower, and finally I wanted to cry without tears under Yan Yu's furious stare like "I'm too lazy to listen to your reasons, I finally came back to T City and you just showed me this".Li Xiangnan finally walked back with his coffee, walked closer and stopped, looked at the situation in front of him, and when he realized it, he let out an uncontrollable ah.
I swallowed my throat, and said weakly and with difficulty: "Li, Li Xiangnan, I feel a little dizzy and need to rest. Let's take a step first..."
Li Xiangnan immediately came to help me cooperatively.Yan Yu stared at us gloomyly and said, "Stop."
Li Xiangnan and I stopped immediately.
Yan Yu slowly turned to look at Ye Xunxun again.Then slowly said: "Long time no see. Ye Xunxun."
"It hasn't been a long time. Isn't it just half a year ago?" Ye Xunxun folded his arms, looked ahead, and seemed to suddenly remember something, and raised his head, "Hey, no, haven't we seen each other for several years?" Passed? Look, I’m really sorry, I’ve had a good time, and I don’t even know it’s been so long.”
Yan Yu looked at her for a while, then said slowly, "Speak well. Don't be smug."
Ye Xunxun's eyes turned cold in an instant: "Speak well. Okay, listen - I really didn't expect to see you here today. Frankly speaking, you let me down right away."
Yan Yu's face was frozen into an Antarctic iceberg at that moment.
The corners of his mouth were pressed down, and his slightly narrowed eyes seemed to eat people.Ye Xunxun looked back without showing any weakness.The four gazes were sharp, like sharp knives out of their sheaths.I watched the atmosphere between the two of them become more and more strange, and I felt a sense of tension and excitement of watching ancient martial arts masters meet on a narrow road and were about to start a fight.
I can assure you that if Yan Yu said a little more provocative words, Ye Xunxun would definitely pour down the cup of coffee in his hand.She has always had the ability to completely ignore everyone around her and treat everyone except herself as a still life.I became more and more excited watching, and I didn't know it when I broke free from Li Xiangnan's support. I almost wanted to jump over the stalemate between the two of them immediately, and watch them two fiercely fight each other.Unexpectedly, a hand was lightly placed on Ye Xunxun's shoulder.
That hand was well-trimmed, with distinct joints, and one could tell at a glance that it was a pampered hand, and the owner of that hand said gently: "Why are you sitting in such a place? Let people look for it."
Lan Shi appeared here unreasonably, like a top-notch outsider, with just a flick of the wide robe sleeves, the tense feeling just now dissipated suddenly.
I suddenly felt that the daydreams I had just made up in my brain were extremely weak.
Lan Shi bent slightly and rescued Ye Xunxun's coffee cup that was almost bursting from her hand, turned his face and nodded to us one by one.I only saw him once, but he called him by his name.Li Xiangnan did not know when he had seen him, but he also called out his name at this moment.When it was Yan Yu's turn, Lan Shi remained calm and polite, and said lightly, "Mr. Yan."
Yan Yu pursed her lips, her face was so gloomy that water dripped out.The white shirt on his body couldn't stop the strong explosion of his icy aura at all.After a while, he finally nodded expressionlessly.
Lan Shi turned to Ye Xunxun and said, "How long have you been waiting here?"
Ye Xunxun replied coldly: "It's been a while. You came a little late."
"A street shopping with Miss Du Wan?"
"Who wants to go shopping with her. The things I buy with her are not in the same style, okay?"
Lan Shi smiled slightly: "Then what do you fancy? Let's go buy it now, shall we?"
"Now I suddenly don't want to buy it anymore." Ye Xunxun raised his chin towards me, "Unless the three of them leave, I don't want to leave either. I just want to sit here now."
"..." Li Xiangnan opened his mouth and said, "Ye Xunxun, I obviously took this seat first, so you are taking my seat now, okay?"
Ye Xunxun sat there as firmly as Mount Tai, rubbed the sunglasses in his hands, and said slowly without raising his head, "So?"
Li Xiangnan said: "..."
Yan Yu said in a cold voice: "Ye Xunxun, please speak some reason."
Ye Xunxun suddenly raised his eyelids, and blurted out, "It has nothing to do with you if I tell the truth!"
Li Xiangnan and I were so shocked that we both took a step back.Immediately, it felt like everyone in the coffee shop was watching.There was a moment of silence.I swallowed my throat again, and called Yan Yu in a low voice, with a somewhat discussing tone: "Why don't we go to another store?"
Yan Yu didn't turn her head back and said coldly: "Why?"
I decided to keep my mouth shut and keep silent.
"Xun Xun," Lan Shi said in a warm voice, "There are many ways to release your anger. But embarrassing others and embarrassing yourself are two different things. What do you think?"
Ye Xunxun looked cold, but did not speak.Li Xiangnan whispered to me from the side: "What does Lan Shi mean by this? I don't understand."
I said, "I didn't understand either."
Li Xiangnan said: "..."
"However, Yanzhi once mentioned to me that he said that Ye Xunxun didn't need Ye Xunxun to understand when he talked to Ye Xunxun." I sighed softly, "Ye Xunxun is an unreasonable person. Unreasonable means that she can reason with everyone, but no one can reason with her. Even if Ye Xunxun understands reason, she can't reason with it. This is a common problem among girls, but this common problem is in Ye Xun Xun Xun played it to the fullest, and anyone who reasoned with her would only make her furious. So in this way, there are only two ways to deal with Ye Xunxun, or to be unreasonable with her, but this posture is too ugly No, it’s not appropriate; or you’re trying to reason with Ye Xunxun with reasons that Ye Xunxun doesn’t understand at all. The consequence of being so profound or pretending to be so profound is that Ye Xunxun can no longer use her theory to refute you. Actually Ye Xunxun's weapon is only her theory, and now the weapon is not easy to use, and she is not ignorant of reason, she is actually guilty, so you talk to her calmly and she gradually loses consciousness. After talking, I can only listen to you in the end. Gu Yanzhi said that the most appropriate way to deal with this kind of girl is to do this."
Li Xiangnan was silent for a while, then slowly said: "I really hate Gu Yanzhi."
The conversation between Lan Shi and Ye Xunxun on the other side continued calmly: "Xunxun, there must always be a solution to the matter. Of course we can sit here and let them go first. After all, I don't know how many people will take turns in this seat in a year , they are just a few of all the guests. But at the same time, we can go first. Did you forget the opportunity cost I taught you? Did you forget the time value? Some things will be missed a lot if they go the other way Good timing. Didn’t you tell me to hurry up just now, lest a rose red bag be bought by others? Of course, even if someone else bought it, you can go to the United States to buy it again in two days, but why bother? Sitting here sulking, is it happier than going to the mall to swipe my card?"
Ye Xunxun's expression softened a little.My eyes criss-cross Lan Shi and Yan Yu.The latter's eyebrows and eyes were chilling and cold, and gradually became depressed like a barren mountain covered with ice and snow in winter.I suddenly couldn't bear it, and I didn't know how to speak to persuade, Lan Shi had already picked up Ye Xunxun's handbag, and half coaxed and half hugged Ye Xunxun to help him up.
One minute later, Ye Xunxun left without saying a word with his chin raised.Lan Shi stopped behind her and nodded to us: "Let me go first." His eyes fell on Yan Yu first, then on Li Xiangnan, and finally on me, with a smile on his lips, "If Miss Du is free, Welcome to come to Lan's house as a guest. Xun Xun very much hopes that you can come."
I nodded silently.After watching him go away, Li Xiangnan sighed inaudibly: "The people who open the bank really have a mouth like a lotus flower."
I nodded silently again.On the one hand, he couldn't help but secretly glanced at Yan Yu.He had already sat down on the sofa by himself, opened the suitcase, and pulled out the documents inside.When he raised his head and looked at me again, his expression was as usual: "How have you and Gu Yanzhi been doing these two days? I will go to Gu Yanzhi tomorrow morning. Don't let him see you for three days after tomorrow. I suggest that you can actually go to Find a place to prepare the divorce agreement in these three days. If I succeed after three days, you can divorce him smoothly according to your idea. If not, I have no other way. "
I groaned, I couldn't bear such a big emotional change in him for a while.Yan Yu said again: "You really don't take medicine? Even if you don't want to do other treatments, you don't even take medicine? In fact, I really don't like you, a patient who insists on going his own way, you know?"
I groaned and nodded.Sitting next to me, Li Xiangnan asked the question I wanted to ask but didn't dare to ask: "Are you sure it's okay? Just now you paid, ah. Now you're, ah."
"My business has nothing to do with you." Yan Yu caressed his cuff lightly, but still raised his eyes to look at me, "I have to tell you in advance, although you and I are old acquaintances, but the consultation fee is the consultation fee. You have to follow the industry standard, no less than half a point. Can you understand?"
I nodded again.He heard him humming: "It's good that you understand. But then again, it is said that Gu Yanzhi signed a prenuptial agreement before you got married, right? Then you should be considered a rich man, and this small amount of money is nothing to you Well, it’s Gu Yanzhi, it’s really a huge disaster for him when you two get divorced. Oh yes, and you,” said Li Xiangnan, gloating obviously behind his glasses, “As the two of them It's the trigger of divorce, you have to be prepared for eternal doom. Gu Yanzhi has never been a magnanimous person, he has a small belly, and he loses his wife and loses his army all at once. I don't know what he can do. Irresponsible at all."
……
I went back to Gu's house at ten o'clock in the evening.
I rarely come home this late.There has never been a time when I returned home so late without notice.Li Xiangnan's car stopped at the intersection, and I slowly walked back along the road. Sure enough, I saw the butler who kept looking around from a distance. After seeing me, he hurried over immediately, with a somewhat anxious expression: "Where is Miss Du going all day today?" What? Why is the phone always turned off?"
I walked forward with my head down, and answered absent-mindedly: "The battery is dead."
He obviously disapproved of the tone: "At least find someone to call back. This has never happened before. The young master has been waiting in the study all night today. After 08:30, he started calling everyone he might know. They said they didn’t see anyone on the phone. Ms. Ye Xunxun’s cell phone is also turned off, and the young master is afraid that something will happen to you.” He paused in the middle of the conversation, and added, “It’s good to be back now. Have you had dinner? Don't ask the kitchen to make some more supper?"
"No. I'm not hungry."
As soon as I finished speaking, someone grabbed my wrist.The strength was not strong, and the voice above his head was even mild: "Where did you go without saying a word, and you are only coming back now."
I look up.Gu Yanzhi stood on the steps, still looking like the light-colored linen long trousers he was wearing when he left in the morning.Under the light, he was tall and straight, and the hair on his forehead was gently brushed by the breeze.The facial features are deep, with a little tenderness between the eyebrows and eyes, as rich as jade.
I watched him for a while.Only then did he look away, and said casually: "I just chatted with others. I talked about it now before I knew it."
He lowered his eyes and looked at me.My heart beat like a drum.He squeezed his palms and maintained his composure.After a while, I heard him speak softly: "But I haven't eaten dinner yet."
My courage seemed to be easily taken away by half of his words.
looked up at him.His eyelashes were deep and long, and his eyes were filled with softness, and no other emotions could be found in them.I struggled between apologizing and being cold.This is simply a battle between heaven and man.After a while, I finally gave up across the board.
Taking half a step forward, he hugged his waist carefully, without noticing any rejection, and hugged him even tighter.He said in a muffled voice, "I'm sorry."
His hands passed through the gap between my handbag and my body, and his upper body was tightly pressed into his arms.There was the familiar temperature of his fingertips on his back.I pressed my cheek against the buttons of his clothes, closed my eyes, and took two deep breaths.Feeling that the top of his hair was rubbed, Gu Yanzhi said with a smile: "Going to try on the wedding dress tomorrow?"
My lips hurt from being bitten by myself.
——Yan Yu told me this afternoon that the so-called psychological control is nine points true and one point false.Slowly and imperceptibly.Gu Yanzhi cannot know this fact, but apart from him, you have to be as consciously aware of it as I am.Harden your heart and be meticulous.This is your own business, and you are the most important thing.Of course, you can also choose to be weak, this is your right.It doesn't matter if I go back to City A now.But if you, as an adult, can't bear the consequences of your decisions, don't start talking about them.I don't like people who quit halfway.Du Wan, if you want to work hard, then try your best, okay?
After a while, I said nonchalantly: "But tomorrow I'm going to find Ye Xunxun."
"Then the day after tomorrow?"
I said, "Brother."
He hummed with a rising sound.
I distinctly felt myself having difficulty breathing.The voice was unusually calm: "In three days, I have something to tell you."
He hummed again and said, "It must be three days later?"
I said, "Yes. In three days."
There are always some things in this world that are not as expected.Specifically, it can be manifested in many ways.For example, the person you like doesn't like you.People you don't like like you.People you don't like don't like you.And, the person you like likes you, but you can't be together.etc.
The degree of pain of these four kinds of things, in general, should be like a fish drinking water, knowing whether it is warm or not.For me, what I understand deeply now is the fourth type.And it is a little more painful than the fourth kind, that is, the person you like likes you, but not only can you not be together, but he will also hate you because of your subjective reasons.
Even Li Xiangnan, when he first learned of my plan, couldn't help persuading me quietly, Du Wan, why bother.
In fact, if I think about it again, I don't really need it.
After all, as a dying person, if you plan more for yourself and plan less for yourself, the shelf life is the same, and there is no difference in the end.From this point of view, it is natural to make more plans for the living people you care about.Now the person I care about is naturally Gu Yanzhi.I don't want him to die with me, nor do I want him to do anything too abnormal for the rest of his life, so that the result can only be that I do some abnormal things myself.Of course, it is impossible to do these things without heartache, but heartache is not cancer after all. Although everyone does not like heartache, it will pass after all.Especially in the face of terminal cancer that cannot survive, this heartache can actually be ignored.
I was convincing myself like this, and by the way, I tried to convince Li Xiangnan who stayed with me in the hotel room and refused to leave.He was silent for a while with a disapproving expression, and in the end he probably couldn't find a perfect testimony that could convince me, so he sighed, and then fell silent indefinitely.Outside the floor-to-ceiling windows, it was dusk in T City. Looking out from such a height of more than [-] floors, the gray and red of the sky were very clear.There is only the last corner of the sun left, slowly sinking, and finally disappearing.I turned my head and looked at the clock on the wall. The hour hand barely moved past nineteen o'clock.It has been ten hours since I left Gu's house in the morning.
According to what Yan Yu said, the possibility that he can overturn Gu Yanzhi's memory and make him believe that I never liked him is basically zero.This is not something that simple hypnotic control can do.Unless it was hit by a car, or some other reason caused a severe head injury, and the severe injury happens to be such a place as the hippocampus, such a miracle can occur quickly.
So I can only settle for the next best thing, and forcefully open a gap quickly from Gu Yanzhi's firm belief that I will not change my mind.Although this is the principle of mind control, it is actually different from mind control.The analysis of the specific intermediate process is complicated, but the final result is to compress the time as much as possible and quickly convince Gu Yanzhi that although I still like him, it is human nature to like the new and dislike the old. In addition, Li Xiangnan himself is not bad, and we are the same age. It may be because of more common language, so compared to Gu Yanzhi, I like Li Xiangnan more now.
Yan Yu was going to add this false fact to the memories I told him earlier.The specific details include that he saw me date Li Xiangnan many times in City A, once half a year ago, and again a few days ago, and that I talked and laughed with Li Xiangnan and drank a drink together, etc.Last night he told me all this vividly to the end, I finally couldn't help it, raised my hand and interrupted him: "Okay, I get it, you don't have to tell me the details. Do you have anything else to say? What you didn't say Can we just stop and go home?"
Yan Yu obviously couldn't get enough of what he said.Sighing, he said to me: "Are you sure you don't want to hear it? I have been arranging such a wonderful love triangle story for two whole days without sleep. The details are so detailed that Gu Yanzhi can believe it. I made up the story so ups and downs. Believe it or not, it moved the mountains and rocks?"
I looked at him blankly: "Actually, this is not what you arranged, it is your personal experience, right?"
"..." Yan Yu lowered his head and slowly took a sip of water, raised his head, and said gently, "Please get out, okay?"
I stayed in the hotel for three days, and basically didn't drink water or eat at ease. Besides, I almost bit through all my fingernails.I walked back and forth in the room, and finally Li Xiangnan had to stand in front of me, grabbed my arm and pressed it hard: "Du Wan, don't do this."
"I didn't do anything. I was just a little worried." I looked up at him eagerly, "How much do you think Gu Yanzhi hates me?"
Lee Sang Nam said, "Maybe he doesn't hate you. He just feels sad."
"But if you are betrayed, don't you feel angry and disgusted?"
Li Xiangnan lingered on my face for a while, and finally gave up reasoning with me, and said instead: "How much do you want him to hate you?"
"Will he take the initiative to ask me for a divorce?"
"Maybe, maybe not."
"Will he never get in touch with me?"
Li Xiangnan looked at me again for a while.Quietly said: "No matter what kind of form he hates you, or divorce, he just hates you. Isn't this your purpose? If you still feel reluctant, you can call Yan Yu now. You still have Turn your back on your chance, Du Wan."
His tone was a little cold.I was stunned for a while, and finally he was sober.
It was cloudy and hot outside.It was already the afternoon of the third day.Yan Yu said that he would call to inform the result in the afternoon of the third day at the latest.Li Xiangnan and I faced each other silently.I felt more and more anxious, but didn't say a word.Until the clock on the wall passed two o'clock, I suddenly remembered the ringing of the phone in my hand.
I grabbed it, and the caller showed Yan Yu's name.It was connected immediately, and the hands even trembled slightly.
Yan Yu's voice came in, unhurried, with a concise and calm tone: "Congratulations, Miss Du. You succeeded. Gu Yanzhi believed at least half of what I said. Now you can go back to Gu Zhai."
I heard the low hum of the air conditioner in the room.After a while, I slowly heard myself oh.
Yan Yu's tone was as if she was staying out of the matter: "You have the final say on whether you want to get a divorce or what to do next. Of course, if you want to make the effect more realistic, you can also ask Li Xiangnan to send you back. It's okay to kiss in person. It's all about Gu Yanzhi I have received enough shocks in the past three days, and I don’t care about one more.”
This time I did not answer for a long time.
Obviously thought it would be such a result.When it really came to this moment, it was still difficult to deal with it calmly.I just felt a little cold all over my body, my brain went blank, and my heart constricted violently.I stood there a little bit tottering, but Li Xiangnan held my arm firmly so that I wouldn't fall down.Yan Yu over there paused for a moment, and his tone softened: "Regret?"
My voice was soft: "No."
"Is that what hurts your heart?"
The phone was taken away, and Li Xiangnan said into the microphone: "Isn't that a little too much?"
"I'm just preparing her mentally." Yan Yu replied coldly over there, "My words are nothing. When you see Gu Yanzhi later, you should tell Du Wan not to break down while acting."
It was already night when I went back to Gu Zhai.
I didn't actually notice the night falling.Including how to leave the hotel, how to get into the car, and how to be recalled by Li Xiangnan, the memory is the same.When the car came to a slow stop and there was a light at the entrance of Gu's house not far away, Li Xiangnan leaned over and helped me unbuckle my seat belt.There was a light click, and I was shocked and reacted.
Li Xiangnan asked: "Do you need me to go in with you?"
I made up my mind.Opening the car door, he said, "No need."
I imagined what Gu Yanzhi might look like.He may have a cold face, may question me angrily, or may not say a word and just regard me as air.But from an objective point of view, in fact, no matter which of these reactions, there is no difference to me.
However, the real fact is far from any kind of appearance I expected.It was very quiet when I walked into the living room. Gu Yanzhi was sitting on the sofa in light-colored home clothes, flipping through a magazine.The gesture of the finger resting on the centerfold is casual.He raised his head slightly when he heard the noise, and his face was calm the moment he saw me.With a faint tiredness.Then slightly raised the end of one eyebrow.
His tone was the same as his expression: "Come back from Ye Xunxun? Have you had dinner yet?"
I opened my mouth.He didn't use a single word he had prepared for many days. He remained silent for a moment, and only passively answered his question: "Not yet."
Five minutes later, Gu Yanzhi and I sat face to face in the restaurant.I just watched him bring the egg custard from a distance in front of me, and moved the plate of cauliflower aside from my hand.This is the action he has always been used to.Doing it today is no different than usual.His brows and eyes are always calm, just as calm as ever.When I was in a daze, he put a piece of beef in my bowl: "Taste to see if the taste of today is different from usual."
I held the chopsticks and poked in the bowl for a while.Whispered: "I have something to say."
"We'll talk about it after dinner," he said.
I raised my head and looked at his nose, lips, eyebrows and eyes.Every inch seems to be exquisitely painted, so beautiful.After a while, I said softly, "Gu Yanzhi, we're getting a divorce."
His movements finally stopped.Turned to look at me.There was still a calm expression between his eyebrows and eyes.After a while, he said calmly: "Don't mess around."
"I'm not messing around," I said, "I don't want to be with you anymore. After all these years, don't you feel the slightest bit of boredom? I don't think the feeling between us is the same now. I don't want to Go down. I'm in love with someone else."
I spoke firmly, without any pause or hesitation.This time he looked at me carefully for a while.His eyes were warm and calm.Finally asked in a low voice: "Li Xiangnan?"
I said, "Yes. Li Xiangnan."
He said lightly: "I don't believe it."
When he said this, he was still holding a piece of butter cut bun in his hand.The fingertips are trimmed and rounded, and the fingers are slender and beautiful.
I almost suspected that Yan Yu was lying to me.Gu Yanzhi didn't seem to believe my words at all.Maybe Yan Yu's so-called psychological control has not succeeded, maybe the person in front of me at this moment has already guessed my plan, maybe even he conspired with Yan Yu, or forced to ask Yan Yu's truth, now I know it well, just wait Then expose me step by step.I was flustered by random thoughts, until I saw Gu Yanzhi put down the pastry, picked up a small towel beside him and wiped his palms leisurely.
My heart that was hanging high suddenly fell down.
"It's true. Li Xiangnan likes me no less than you like me. You may think that Li Xiangnan is not as rich as you, and he may not have as much experience as you. But after all, he is younger than you. What you have now, he may not be in the future won't have it."
My tone was understated: "What's more, he respects my opinion more than you. He also understands me better. In these years, many things have been decided by you, and whatever you say is what you say. You may be very gentle on the surface, but in reality In fact, you can't be questioned and refuted. I actually don't like you very much. In fact, I have a lot of ideas that are different from yours. But I bury it in my heart much more than when I say it. And, I don't like you either I have always been so busy. You are out many days a month, and you will deal with many people. You may think that the time you allocate to me is already a lot, but for me, I spend more time alone. Of course, I can't blame you for this, I can only blame myself. You just treat me as a bad person, I don't have concentration, and it's not worth your troubles with me. Gu Yanzhi, we're getting a divorce."
I have been with him for so many years.You may still not be familiar with his way of managing the company, but you are already as familiar with the weakness of his heart and all the little habits as you are familiar with the length and width of his collarbone and the temperature of his palm.No one in this world knows better than me that when he is unsure, he will always hold any object at hand, and no one knows better than me the only two possible weaknesses in our relationship that he cares about-age The gap, and the time spent with each other.
It used to be love talk we discussed before we cuddled up to sleep.At that time, we crossed our fingers, kissed each other, and murmured in a low voice.I don't think Gu Yanzhi thought that one day I would use them as a sharp sword.My tone was serious, not a joke. In his eyes, it probably seemed like a real complaint when the relationship broke down.
Gu Yanzhi looked at me silently.His eyes were dark and deep.After a while, she slowly said, "Wanwan, if you don't like a person's shortcomings, you can tell them, and he will correct them. Husbands and wives always quarrel, this is a very normal thing. But this is not a divorce. reason."
I avoided his eyes and whispered: "I know what you mean, but you should also understand what I mean. You know I'm not arguing, I'm talking to you seriously. Some things endure to a certain stage , there is no point in correcting it. I don’t think I like you anymore. I will return the property transfer you signed before marriage to you intact in these two days. I hope we can divorce as soon as possible, I Will leave with nothing. That's it."
He put down the cutting bag in his hand, and said in a low voice: "Really, what is the initiative when you came back from City A a few days ago?"
"I just feel a little guilty for you."
He was silent for a moment.He suddenly said, "Wanwan, what happened to you?"
My heart skipped a beat.looked up at him.
His eyes were dark, dull and dull.I grabbed my palm tightly, turned my eyes away, and replied nonchalantly: "It's nothing. I just think that the previous decision was a little too reckless. Maybe, I shouldn't marry you so early. You were right before, I I was too young to have your insights, and I did a lot of things without thinking about the future and the consequences. I didn't know what I wanted before, so I wasted a lot of your time. Now I know, I think I The mistake should be corrected in time. It shouldn't take your time any longer. That's it."
He said: "A person will always encounter some things that feel new, and occasionally have a wrong obsession, which is not uncommon. But the heat will pass one day, and after calming down, you will know that the previous decision is not reasonable and correct. Wanwan, divorce is a serious matter. It is not an impulsive decision. Some things should not be said lightly, and it may be difficult to redeem them. I don't think today is the right time to talk about this matter. Let's talk about it another day Let's talk again."
He said to stand up.I said quickly, "I think I've thought it through carefully and thoroughly. I don't think we need another day. Brother, the old me was wrongly obsessed with you. It's not me and Li Xiangnan."
He made up his mind.Turn your eyes to see me.After a while, he turned and left.I heard his faint tone: "Wanwan, what you said is cruel."
(End of this chapter)
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