Yu Xingyue Hunts the Evil Me

Human beings' definition of monsters is distorted appearance and inhuman form.

However, now facing Kazama Yu in human form, Laiyue Subaru's impression of him now is that of a 'monster'.

It was not a random act, but Laiyue Subaru saw it with his own eyes.

After the Sloth Archbishop of the Witch Cult was headshot, and after Parker appeared in the form of the eternally frozen beast, the scarred Kazama Yuu arrived at the end of Subaru's last life. Lai Yue Subaru saw the black mud blooming from his body with his own eyes.

The pungent smell brought by the burning earth, the hot air coming from the pavement, the twisted black mud shape that made people extremely sick just by looking at it, and the cold touch of the silver-haired girl's corpse in his hands.

The five senses brought a huge impact to Lai Yue Subaru's last death, tearing and impacting his thinking.

Lai Yue Subaru wanted to scream but was unable to do so. His throat was firmly restrained by invisible and cold hands.

The hand touched his heart, squeezed it, and then everything disappeared, and everything related to Lai Yue Subaru fell into darkness.

At this moment, he may want to thank the mysterious God of Death that is attached to him, the God of Death that strangles him tightly and prevents him from telling the truth about himself.

Let him not have the ice sculpture break into pieces because of Parker's anger and hatred, let him not have the flowing black mud wrap around his body, and his body and soul be burned. Instead, he committed suicide by paying for his sins.

"Lai Yue Subaru..."

The calm voice in his ears once again brought back Laiyue Subaru's shattered thoughts.

The monster in front of him was watching him, and Lai Yue Subaru subconsciously wanted to run away, but he did not do so.

He could still tell the difference between goodwill and malice. Feng Jianxi, who was a monster, and Feng Jianxi, who had given him great help, split into two parts.

At least, it's still the latter now

"I'm fine."

Lai Yue Subaru shook his head. After seeing his end once again, the reverberations of despair and fear that echoed in his ears slowly disappeared. Lai Yue Subaru's heart returned to calm, although it was as calm as dead water.

He whispered When he opened his mouth, he was surprised at why he could be so ordinary.

Soon, during his self-analysis, he got the answer.

"Just a little tired."

Lai Yue Subaru silently walked into the alley on the street and sat down on the cold steps. The shadow of the alley separated the sunny street outside into two worlds. The darkness here is very suitable for being far away from the hustle and bustle of the street. Today, the young man is still standing in front of him, looking up at the young man in front of him, Lai Yue Subaru smiled bitterly.

"Kazama, now I suddenly realize that your advice makes sense."

From the beginning of what happened around the badge, Feng Jianxi advised him not to get involved easily.

But he didn't care and still shamelessly returned to Roswaal House with Emilia.

In Feng Jianxi also mentioned this when she was at Roswaal's house, but she still didn't listen to it. It was not because she didn't know that she was embarking on a difficult road.

If you overcome death, you can overcome all the remaining difficulties.

However, it is still too simple to think about acting ugly at the King's Selection, being beaten half to death by Julius in the school field, embarrassing Emilia, and violating your relationship. Emilia's promise. Because of the consequences of his misbehavior, could he really do anything?

Before he saw his end, Lai Yue Subaru had such doubts in his heart. After getting rid of these confusions, when he wanted to break through the confusion and find meaning again with the girl, he suffered a heavy blow, and even the original meaning no longer existed.

The girl was not happy about his return. It was clear that his return had gone through many obstacles, even passing through the blockade of the White Whale.

Emilia's attitude was so angry that it even caused cracks and rifts in the relationship between the two.

Emilia could not understand Lai Yue. Subaru's behavior was just that of Lai Yue Subaru's random behavior again and again.

The confusion of his beloved made Lai Yue Subaru difficult to accept, but it was normal. The ability to return to death allowed him to return. In the past, he also experienced countless different futures. But the girl did not remember any of the future he had experienced and the experience he had with the girl.

People are lonely. No matter how many relatives and friends are around them, they will be alone when they die. On the road alone, there is no one to accompany him.

Laiyue Subaru has experienced this kind of loneliness countless times, but every time he comes back, he sees the people close to him, including Kazama Yu, Ram, Rem, and Roswaal. , and the girl and Parker are still around, but it turns out that it is just an illusion, and the fact that he is lonely has not changed.

He took it upon himself, and no one could understand that he suffered such pain just to save everyone.

If he could tell the people around him about his death and return, it would relieve Subaru's overwhelming pain.

But even this. He couldn't do it at all. This was what made Lai Yue Subaru feel desperate.

When faced with the girl's doubts, he broke into his heart and tried desperately to tell the truth, even at the risk of disobeying death and returning to the god of death.. But the final result was that the girl who heard the truth died tragically in front of him.

Looking up at the sky, he suddenly felt relieved at the world that had been looking down on him. In the eyes of the world, everything he has experienced must be a boring and meaningless experience. 1

But this meaningless journey can finally end, and the answer to the problem that troubles Laiyue Subaru is. It has always been in front of him.

Since he is tired of seeing corpses and is afraid of being betrayed by the consequences, he has always wanted to avoid the worst consequences by returning to death, but in fact there is a more thorough outcome. Method. Just completely avoid this matter.

"I don't want to go back. I want to leave the royal capital, but not back to Roswaal House. I don't want to stay in this miserable place for a moment."1

"That's it, I understand what you're thinking."

Feng Jianxi's voice came from beside me.

My change of attitude must be very sudden and confusing in the eyes of others.

He is such a considerate guy....

Lai Yue Subaru couldn't help but think in his mind

‘However, there are some things that even the most considerate guy will not understand. '

Lai Yue Subaru thought in his heart.

Just as he was thinking this, Feng Jianxi's voice continued to reach his ears:

"Enduring the pain of death for others...Taking pleasure in one's own pain and the beauty of others is inherently contrary to human nature"

"There is nothing shameful about giving up, or rather, it is a wise choice."

Lai Yue Subaru suddenly raised his head and looked at Feng Jianxi

"What did you just say?"