With Love and Time

I was anxious. I wanted to go home directly. Luo Xiangdongfei wanted to take me to dinner before going home. I was absent-minded when I was eating. Luo Xiangdong saw this. He said: "What is there to worry about? The child is born, and we can't afford it or what?"

I couldn't tell what it was like in my heart, and it took a long time to say: "Is it too urgent?"

Luo Xiangdong said: "What's too urgent? We have known each other for two years. We have been together for one year."

Finished. He glanced at the ring on my left ring finger again, and said provocatively: "You have accepted all my rings. Do you want to remarry?"

I took a look at him. He didn't understand the anxiety in my heart.

Many women have dreams of getting married and having children. And I only have the dream of getting married. As for children... I don't like children very much when I play children.

And I always feel that I have just turned twenty-five years old. There is still a long way to go in life. Now that I get married and have children, will my life for the next few decades revolve around my children?

I am not a friend who hasn't gotten married and had children. But they all told me to varying degrees. Regret it.

You shouldn't let yourself be a mother so early. It's not that the child is not good, but that the child will get in his way.

Maybe I'm still very selfish. I don't want to stop my life too early, and I don't want to start walking around my husband and children so early.

Luo Xiangdong put me a chopsticks spicy potato chips. By the way, he gently tapped the side of the lower plate and said to me: "Don't think about it, eat first, maybe you are not pregnant, but are you uncomfortable in your stomach just eating vegetarian food?"

I said: "Bless you to open your mouth today."

Luo Xiangdong didn't say anything else, just picked me up vegetables from time to time.

The food I was meant to eat for this meal was tasteless. After I drove home, the door was just opened. I immediately changed my shoes and ran to the bathroom with my pharmacy shopping bag.

This is the first time in my life that I have used something like a pregnancy test stick. From opening the box to taking out the instructions to read carefully, the whole process is comparable to the foreign language test of the year. It is also the first time that I find Chinese so difficult to understand.

For fear that I might have read it wrong, I read it several times carefully, and I was sure that it was correct, and then I started sitting on the toilet and preparing.

Luo Xiangdong did not know when he walked to the bathroom door, his voice suddenly came out: "How is it?"

I was taken aback, and couldn't help saying: "Wait a moment."

Luo Xiangdong just stood outside the door and did not leave. I followed the instructions carefully step by step. I took the pregnancy test stick in my hand and placed it horizontally. After waiting for more than ten seconds, the test paper began to smudge, and then at a certain stage, a purple horizontal bar appeared in the middle of the test paper.

I held the manual in my left hand, and compared it with the bars, bars...one, one is negative.

My eyes glanced at the middle of the pregnancy test stick again. At this time, the test paper was smudged to four-fifths, and another horizontal bar suddenly appeared there.

I sat on the toilet, carefully, seriously, tossing over and over to read the instructions.

The above explanation with pictures and texts: two bars, no matter one deep, one shallow or two deep, as long as there are two, it is positive.

Positive... Am I pregnant? !

Luo Xiangdong at the door waited for a while, he simply reached out and opened the door: "Why is there nothing?"

I still sit on the toilet with my pants half-folded, but the instruction manual and pregnancy test stick have been thrown away. Looking up at Luo Xiangdong, I saw tears in my eyes in two seconds.

He asked me again: "What's wrong? Are you pregnant?"

I cried loudly with a ‘wow’.

Luo Xiangdong stepped forward nervously and looked at me: "Don't cry, what's the matter? Are you pregnant?"

I cried and shouted: "It's over, I'm pregnant..."

Luo Xiangdong pulled me up from the toilet, helped me put my pants on, embraced me with one hand, and wiped my tears with the other. He said: "I'm pregnant when I'm pregnant, why cry? Don't cry, it is said that the mood of pregnant women will affect the fetus."

When I heard this, I wanted to cry, but subconsciously bit my lip to hold back.

Luo Xiangdong looked at me with a forbearance of grievance, but said with distressed eyes: "Come, come out."

We now live in a 70-square-meter duplex apartment, and the area of ​​the bathroom is limited. Luo Xiangdong took me out of the bathroom, and I was the master bedroom.

I was sitting on the side of the bed, still unable to get out of the ‘strike’ of pregnancy.

Luo Xiangdong took a tissue to wipe my tears, and persuaded me: "Do you want to give me a baby or what? The first time I saw pregnancy scared a woman like this, it's not that we can't have a baby now, I think the time has come. , Otherwise you won’t survive after two years? Can someone else replace you?"

I understand, I understand everything Luo Xiangdong said. It's just that he doesn't understand, a woman needs only the courage to love someone from a girl to a woman, but from a woman to a mother... I am not ready for this.

Falling on the bed, I dared not cry, but the tears kept running down the corner of my eyes and couldn't stop it.

Luo Xiangdong sat on the side of the bed and coaxed me for a long time. He was silent for a while when he saw that I didn't say a word. Then he asked aloud: "Then what do you want? If you really don't want to have a baby, don't have this child?"

He was questioning, waiting for my meaning.

I choked and replied, "Isn't that killing?"

Luo Xiangdong said: "Do you still know? I think you are like this, I really think you don't want it anymore."

auzw.com I moved my head to Luo Xiangdong’s thigh, resting his leg, I frowned and said, "Xiangdong...I am afraid."

Luo Xiangdong stretched out his hand and stroked my face, and said softly, "What are you afraid of, I am."

This is really unexpected news. It can be regarded as one of the top five incidents in the twenty-five years of my life. No, it is one of the top three incidents.

If it wasn't for Luo Xiangdong to tell me calmly, this kid must have it because it belongs to him, otherwise I really don't know what to do for a while.

After being languid in bed for nearly an hour, I suddenly turned over and sat up.

Luo Xiangdong asked me: "What are you doing?"

I said, "Go and try again."

I took another pregnancy test stick and walked into the bathroom. A minute later, Luo Xiangdong opened the door and saw me put on my pants with disappointment.

He calmly said: "Or two bars?"

I nodded.

Luo Xiangdong immediately took out his mobile phone. After a while, I heard him say: "Mom, I will tell you something."

I turned my head to look at Luo Xiangdong. After Luo Xiangdong glanced at me, as if afraid that I would regret it, he turned to continue and said, "Zijing is pregnant... Well, I just tested it with a pregnancy test, both are ."

After hearing Luo Xiangdong's dialogue with Guan Lin, I knew it all.

Once my pregnancy shocked the elders of the two families, no matter which side it was, the child in my stomach would definitely stay.

In fact, I am not a cruel person, let alone this child is mine and Luo Xiangdong, I just can't accept it for a while, I want to be a mother.

Luo Xiangdong was terrible and I regretted that I didn't want children, so I acted first and got angry with Guan Lin.

After talking a few words with Guan Lin, he handed me the phone and said, "My mom will let you pick it up."

I took the phone in anxious heart, my attitude improved immediately, and I yelled, "Auntie."

There was a dullness of crying in his voice.

Guan Lin’s voice came from the phone. She had a good attitude towards me, but now she said in a warm and tense yet soft voice: "Zijin, pregnancy is a happy thing. Xiangdong said that you are emotionally unstable. Listen. As for the aunt, don’t cry. It is not good for a pregnant woman to cry."

I resisted the soreness of my throat, made a ‘um’, and then said, "I know Auntie."

Guan Lin couldn't hide her nervousness on the phone. She said to me: "Zijin, prepare with Xiangdong. Your uncle doesn't know about this. He must be very happy when he knows. You wait for my call. , I will contact the hospital, and I will pick you up later, we have to go to the hospital for a good check."

Guan Lin spoke vigorously and violently, and I didn't dare to say no words, so I had to accept it.

After I hung up, I fell back on the bed. Luo Xiangdong immediately came over from behind and hugged me, whispering in his mouth: "Ancestor, be careful, you are not alone now."

Listening to what he usually said to me not easily, I could not help but frowned: "Okay, Luo Xiangdong, you only have children in your heart, right?"

Luo Xiangdong said, "What? I love you first, and then love the child."

I said: "I am an ancestor with a child. Why didn't you call me an ancestor before?"

Luo Xiangdong said: "You didn't say that you wanted to hear me call this sentence before. You said I called it a long time ago."

For some reason, I was very anxious and played with Luo Xiangdong for a while. Luo Xiangdong went out and tried to beat me patiently, no matter what I said or did, he just followed me.

Not long after, Luo Xiangdong's cell phone rang again. He held me in one hand and picked up the cell phone in the other. He said, "It's my dad."

As soon as I heard it was Luo Zhenye, it was as if a mouse had seen a cat, and immediately disappeared, sitting cross-legged beside him, afraid to be him.

Luo Xiangdong answered the phone and said, "Dad."

Because I was very close, I could clearly hear Luo Zhenye's voice on the phone, with unbearable excitement and even cheering: "Xiangdong, your mother said that Zijin is pregnant?"

Luo Xiangdong calmly replied: "Yes."

"Have you checked in the hospital?"

"No, I just tried it on the pregnancy test at home."

Luo Zhenye said: "Then what are you waiting for? Get ready now. Your mother and I will go out and take her to the hospital for an examination."

Luo Xiangdong said: "Which hospital to go? I will take her there."

Luo Zhenye said, "That's okay. Let's see you at the hospital. You let Zijin wear more clothes when you go out. Now it's cold and windy outside. Don't let her blow the wind..."

Luo Xiangdong answered, "Okay, I see, let's hang up first."

After he hung up the phone, he looked at my lips and said, "Now I call you ancestor not only, but when I look back, my dad must call you ancestor."

I said angrily: "Go up and go."

Luo Xiangdong smiled and hugged me, but didn't use much strength. I heard his soft and warm voice, saying word by word: "Zijin, we are going to have our own children."