With Love and Time

I know that there will never be another person who sang "I Just Like You". just like you. I can't help it; and I won't love you again. This is his choice.

Standing in the corridor of the hospital, watching Ji Guanxin's figure disappear from sight, I really felt the pain of the skin. This is not a simple breakup. It may be the difference between life and death.

Luo Xiangdong didn't know when he came to me. He didn't say anything, just pressed my head. Let me lean in his arms.

Ji Si said that Ji Guanxin's operation went well. At least more than four hours. From such a long time alone, one can imagine how complicated the surgical process will be.

But for the first time, I felt that the length of the operation was not a problem. Even if he does it for fourteen hours. For forty hours, as long as the doctor can ensure that he comes out safely, I will wait for him.

Cheng Lin. Zhang Danqing. Mai Jiahui and Zhou Mengyi went to the door of the operating room. Ji Guanxin's family is in the ward, and Luo Xiangdong and I. Sitting on a bench in the corridor, this wait is several hours.

During the period, Luo Xiangdong received several calls. Some of them were picked up when he sat next to me. The content was Zheng Zeyu and others. Luo Xiangdong said that Ji Guanxin was undergoing surgery.

There were a few calls, and Luo Xiangdong got up and went to pick them elsewhere. I am now full of thoughts on Ji Guanxin's operation, and I have no time for him to care.

At around eight o'clock in the evening, Ji Guanxin's eldest and second brothers came out of the ward. Seeing Luo Xiangdong and I were sitting outside, they greeted us to eat first.

I shook my head: "It's okay, wait until Guan Xin comes out."

Both of Ji Guanxin's eldest and second brothers had red eyes, and they cried a lot. Luo Xiangdong said to them, "Don't worry about us, she won't go to dinner until Ji Guanxin comes out."

Indeed, in my current mood, let alone food, I can't swallow the golden pill for me to live forever.

Doing nothing, simply waiting is a difficult thing, not to mention the fear in the process. I think all of us are in the same mood. We both hope that time will pass quickly and that time will not pass so quickly, because we are all afraid and wait for the final result.

Last night, Luo Xiangdong went to war to propose to me on my birthday, and I don’t need to think about it. The domestic news media will definitely blow up today. My cell phone was almost blown up. I turned it to silent, but when I saw the phone of my family, I walked aside to answer it.

My mother asked me excitedly on the phone: "Zijin, where is it? Mom read the news, but she broke my tears. You were crying too exaggerated. You spent all your makeup..."

She chattered endlessly on the other end of the phone, but my end couldn't stop the soreness in my heart, gritted her teeth but choked.

My mother was taken aback, and then said: "Zi Jin, what's the matter?"

I cried first, and then tremblingly said, "Mom, Ji Guanxin has surgery today..."

My mother immediately uttered an ‘ah’ question, and then said: "Ji Guanxin? What happened to him?"

With immense fear and helplessness in my heart, I said aggrieved: "He has a very serious heart disease. The doctor said that the chance of a successful operation is less than 20%."

I hid in the bathroom, people squatted down against the wall, reaching out to cover his face.

Don't mention the shock on the other side of my mother, and she was silent for a while before saying: "How could this happen? I never heard that this child has a heart attack before."

I cried bitterly while holding the phone, and my mother was choked up there too. She advised me: "Zijin, don't cry first, Guan Xin hasn't finished the operation yet, how is it now?"

I said, "I don't know."

My mother said, "I said why my right eyelid started to twitch when I got up today, thinking that there can be nothing wrong with you and Xiangdong. I didn't expect to be on Guanxin's side..."

I cried and said, "Mom, go to my nanny's house and beg the Buddha for me, bless Ji Guanxin this time. As long as he is okay, I will eat three years of vegetarian food, and I will donate to the disaster-stricken areas and poor children. Do good..."

I don't know what to say anymore, it feels so helpless that I can only look forward to the gods and Buddhas.

My nanny is dedicated to the Buddha, so my mother quickly said: "I'll go, I will go there now with my clothes on. Don't worry, the child Guanxin has a good heart, there will be nothing wrong."

After crying and confessing to my mother, I took my phone and squatted in the bathroom crying.

The door of the bathroom was pushed open. I was afraid that I would frighten others again, so I looked up. I didn't expect Zhou Mengyi to come in.

Her eyes, which were also crying, were red and swollen, almost indistinguishable from the original appearance. She was standing in front of me at this moment, staring at me condescendingly.

I want to stand up, but my legs are sore and numb after squatting for too long. I had to bear the pain to support the wall, and then barely straightened up.

I don't want to fight with Zhou Mengyi at this time, I just want to avoid it. As a result, Zhou Mengyi spoke first, her voice was hoarse and dull, and said: "Liang Zijin, I really hate you!"

I didn’t say a word, and planned to pass by her, but she said again: “If you don’t show up and make your heart hurt, I’ll hate you for granted. But what are you doing now? Want to tell us, do you still care about Ji Guanxin?"

I still didn't speak, people had already walked to the door of the bathroom.

Zhou Mengyi stared at me with a pair of red and swollen eyes, and said, "Why can you be happy, but Guan Xin can't?"

auzw.com What she said finally turned into a knife, and it hit my heart hard.

My raised hand paused, my chest was stuffy, and it seemed to be short of breath.

After a long time, I turned around and looked at Zhou Mengyi and said, "He must be able to come out well, and he will be happy in the future."

Zhou Mengyi’s tears fell in big drops. She looked at me and said, "Liang Zijin, you don’t know how much I bother you, and you don’t know how much Ji Guanxin loves you. I told you that night in the imperial court. After speaking, he became ill in the private room and was in a coma for several days, almost unable to live."

Zhou Mengyi said that I don't know how much Ji Guanxin loves me, maybe I really don't know.

But she also doesn't know how much I feel sorry for Ji Guanxin. Even if heartache is not love, heartache can cause harm.

This empty joy with no ending, we all tried.

"He said that if he comes out alive, he won't love me again."

Zhou Mengyi gritted her teeth and said: "I don't care who he loves now, I just want him to come out alive..."

Live, yes, just live.

We all only have the simplest but most extravagant wish, and hope that Ji Guanxin is still alive.

I stood in the bathroom with Zhou Mengyi, less than two meters apart. For a long time, we have not spoken. This was completely impossible before.

I don’t know how long it took, but I heard a rushing knock on the door outside the bathroom, accompanied by Luo Xiangdong’s voice: "Zijin, are you there?"

I was standing by the door, and the knock on the door really surprised me. After a pause, I stretched out my hand to open the + door.

Faced with Luo Xiangdong's face that rarely showed panic, I suddenly missed a beat.

Sure enough, Luo Xiangdong looked at me and said, "The people who came out of the operating room said that Ji Guanxin's heart and blood vessels were torn and he was bleeding..."

His voice fell, and my eyes were instantly pale, and even my ears were roaring.

In a trance, a figure hit my shoulder, staggering forward. When my vision returned to normal, I only saw Zhou Mengyi's back.

I also wanted to run out, but my legs were disobedient, as if they were nailed in place. I was stunned that I was holding Luo Xiangdong's arm, trying to lift a heavy leg, and then ran out with his help.

When Luo Xiangdong and I arrived at the door of the operating room, many people were already standing there. Ji Guanxin's mother was supported by her two sons, but she looked like she couldn't stand still.

Ji Guanning simply squatted on the ground, letting her two sister-in-laws bend over and drag her, she couldn't get up.

Zhou Mengyi grabbed Mai Jiahui's arm and cried, "What's wrong with Guanxin? What's wrong with him?"

Mai Jiahui didn't say a word, his face turned sideways, his eyes flushed.

Zhou Mengyi pulled Zhang Danqing's arm again and cried out, "Brother, tell me what happened to Guanxin, how is he..."

With that, Zhou Mengyi slid along Zhang Tanqing's arm to the ground.

Cheng Lin grabbed Zhou Mengyi to get up, Zhou Mengyi lay on him and cried.

Seeing this scene, I seemed to be extremely sad and desperate. On the contrary, I lost my voice and couldn't cry. I just stared at the silver cold surgical door with my eyes wide open.

Being separated by a door, is it really a goodbye to life and death?

We stood outside for no more than twenty minutes. The silver surgical door was separated to both sides, and a little nurse wearing a mask came out from the inside. She said in Japanese: "The patient's bleeding has stopped, but the operation time will be extended. Director Ando tells you not to worry about it."

After speaking, the little nurse turned back and the door closed again.

But her words undoubtedly gave us a boost. I saw that Ji Guanxin's mother was leaning on her eldest son, and the children around her were comforting.

This is Ji Guanxin's struggle on the verge of death, and it is also a struggle to test our psychological endurance. The Ji Guanxin inside was nine dead, and we were exhausted outside.

Jisi originally said that the operation should be smooth for more than four hours, but the operation time was prolonged because of heavy bleeding in the blood vessels near the heart.

Ji Guanxin entered the operating room at 6 o'clock in the afternoon, and it was 11:30 in the blink of an eye, but the door of the operating room that only received one patient from Ji Guanxin today has never been opened.

Ji Guanxin's two sister-in-laws accompanied Ji Guanxin's mother back to the ward, leaving a group of us waiting outside the door.

There are not so many people sitting on the benches outside the door, even if they can sit down, it is impossible to sit together in our kind of scissor and chaotic relationship.

So the only two benches, one is Ji Guanning and Zhou Mengyi sitting, the other is me sitting alone. Including Luo Xiangdong, everyone else was standing.