Will of chaos



I was sitting on a throne, dressed in elegant and formal clothes, I had a crown on my head that I couldn't take off and so I didn't even know what it looked like, the room where I was was decorated in a simple way and yet beautiful as if the room itself it was a work of art without needing anything else to complement its beauty. 

There was 1 Knight, 1 Mage, 1 Minister of Finance, 1 Advisor, and 1 Minister for Civil Affairs, I didn't even know how I knew their identities, but I somehow knew from the beginning when I appeared here. 

Just like in the last nightmare, time here seemed to accelerate, not as much as in the last nightmare where I saw the beginning and end of several worlds, but it was still accelerated making me experience 10 years living here as a King of a huge Kingdom. 

During this period of time, I never left the throne and every choice I made had consequences not only for me but also for the entire Kingdom. 

Without being able to act on my own, I only had to make commercial, and economic decisions, about food and hunger for the population, about wars with other nations, about monsters attacking the kingdom, about the nation's security by creating or changing laws, balancing the political forces within the Kingdom while still keeping an eye on the situation of the surrounding Kingdoms, facing epidemics and even revolutions. 

Everything that could go wrong for a nation happened here where I was forced to resolve it hundreds of times since it always repeats itself differently when I die or the Kingdom is destroyed, not to mention that for every decision I make I see the result inside my mind be it good or bad, sometimes it was a truly horrible thing to see like a father selling one of his children into slavery to be able to feed the rest of the family for a few more days or when the epidemic devastated half the Kingdom leaving many to a horrible slow death, each of these things was playing in detail in my mind. 

But soon someone walked through the doors as if she owned the place, her every step made everything disappear around her until there was only me still sitting on the throne and she, when I stood up for the first time in I don't know how long, I felt the clothes being different and the weight in my head disappears. 

"That might have been the last one, but did you need to be so detailed with that nightmare? Some things really were horrible to see." (I) 

"Being a Ruler is not something glorious or honorable as many people say, if the ruler thinks that he clearly does not have the mental maturity for such a position, that is something our elder sister said to me a long time ago." (Caitlyn) 

"It took me a long time to understand this since I always ran away from any responsibility and this would be a great responsibility, even so, I was the cause of the fall of some nations and the change of many others." (Caitlyn) 

"The consequences that arose in your mind for your decisions and the events you went through, they are all real, they are memories of many people that I kept inside me and each of them really happened whether good or tragic." (Caitlyn) 

"..." (I) 

The idea of all the things she made me see were real changed everything, that's why I often used the excuse of being a nightmare to console myself when I saw something difficult to bear, even though I had the emotional control to act calmly, no it means my feelings disappeared, the things that were hard to see were still traumatizing to see. 

This means that the suffering I saw was caused by the type of person who made the same decisions as me in that nightmare or something similar. 

"In this nightmare I compiled these memories to be as realistic as possible, some of these events are inevitable, there is no way to predict new diseases or natural disasters as an example, and the idea was never for you to solve all these problems perfectly because that is something impossible even for the gods." (Caitlyn) 

"Did you want me to understand how to be a Ruler? Did you forget that I already have a Kingdom within the Dungeon?" (I) 

"You put your job of governing in the hands of Nira and Freya, there are few times that you actually do something, your position is more symbolic due to the adoration of everyone within the Dungeon for you, but here things weren't so simple and they weren't There was no way to escape your responsibility." (Caitlyn) 

With everything resolved I felt the world break revealing a garden of crystal flowers, as soon as I realized this I knew I was awake. 

"With that, my part is over." (Caitlyn) 

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Pov Hela's: 

When I was reunited with Lilith and Hellyos again, the two were showing different reactions, my Familiar looked angrily at the bird and still remained silent following my signal, meanwhile, Lilith was laughing and wanted to capture the creature that was now hibernating once again as a pile of mud floating formless in space. 

"Why does this thing need to stay here?" (I) 

"He's not the only one, there must be dozens of him spread across this solar system, they serve to take care of the hordes of monsters attracted here by the miasma throughout this place and serve as a line of defense against intruders." 

"So they know we're coming?" (I) 

"Yes, but they won't interfere now that they saw that it's a Necromancer with a Skeleton Dragon and a Demon that uses curses, you can pretend to be anyone here." 

"The things I heard from the Saint of Death about this place were very bad, as we do to..." (I) 

"I don't know, but this is my stopping place, if I go any closer than that they will sense my Aura and kill everyone, which for me will just be a while of sleep before being summoned again, but for you, it will be much more than that." 

Without saying anything else, my Familiar returns to its Dragon form and we climb on top of its bones, flying towards the direction Lilith was pointing, the bird remains behind, disappearing as if it had never been there. 

We continued our walk at first without finding anything, but I could feel the miasma the bird spoke of becoming larger as we got closer to our goal. 

When we arrived at the world closest to the purple Sun, I immediately realized that it wasn't a planet, the whole thing was a spectral-type Undead, I didn't know which one, but I knew I wouldn't be able to do anything against it if it tried to attack us. 

It looked like a world in the distance, but the closer I got I could feel the spectral energy coming from the world, there wasn't even a planet, the whole of it is a Specter the size and shape of a planet, I can't even tell if this is just one entity or several of them grouped together. 

"(I am a single being, child of the Gods.)" 

"..." (I) 

I tried to move but my body was paralyzed, it took me 1 or 2 seconds to realize why, so I created a spectral projection of my Soul leaving my physical body, my movements were still slow, but with my mind racing to that level I was able to do something at least. 

"Who are you?" (I) 

"(I'm the one in front of you, I noticed you and this bird long before you entered my house.)" 

I, who was looking around, immediately realized what I was talking about and focused my vision on the world in front of me, but when I looked again there was no more planet, just a creature similar to a colossal White Serpent looking at me. 

"(You don't need to fear me, unlike many who inhabit my body, I am not evil, but I am also not like what you consider good, I will not cause you harm and I will not help you either.)" 

"Then why talk to me?" (I) 

"(Because I feel Chaos within you, a mere lingering trace that clearly does not come from you, so I wonder about the God you follow.)" 

"I am not a devotee of any specific God, the one I follow is my Father and Creator, my existence serves only him and no one else." (I) 

"(Is He a God?)" 

"..." (I) 

I didn't know how to respond to that immediately, he is clearly a Deity but is far from the power of one, he also doesn't like being associated with the Gods. 

"He is a Deity, but I would like to avoid saying more about him." (I) 

"(It doesn't matter, one day we will see each other anyway, someone with the power of Chaos is destined to come to me one day and I have eternity to wait.)" 

Before I could understand I felt a push as my vision became blurred, when I could see, I was back in my body and the spectral planet was in its place as if it had never left there, I looked at my hands as they opened and closed realizing that the acceleration of thought was gone. 

Without saying anything I remained silent while Hellyos followed Lilith's directions descending on the planet, I felt that this entire planet was a solid Spectral Body, the air was loaded with poisons, cursed energy was being emitted by the ground itself and the air was of pure death energy. 

When I stepped on the ground I was feeling great comfort and I knew that the other two were too, I couldn't help but admire the landscapes before noticing someone standing next to us, it was a person with a tail and snake eyes, just feeling his presence I knew it was a Lady of the Grave, a living existence that devours the energy of Death. 

"Welcome to Tarzor, I was appointed by him to be your guide."