White Hedge Dream

Chapter 148 Let’s talk again

This sentence made Zhou Jingyun a little confused.

When he asked Zhuang Li to return to the capital first because he wanted to arrange for Mrs. Zhuang, he and Zhuang Li almost didn't even see what each other looked like.

When he finally returned to the capital, the two had a chance to be alone together.

A lot of things happened at that time. Perhaps to explain, Zhuang Li introduced himself to him and told him what kind of person he was.

He still remembers her saying that "she is not a very good person" and that being born with an ominous nature brings bad luck.

He didn't believe this.

"I lied to you at that time." Zhuang Li said, "In addition to killing my mother, which is considered unlucky, I also have other weird things that have caused me to be feared and disliked since I was a child. I am regarded as a monster."

Weirdness? What's weird? Zhou Jingyun was puzzled.

"Now through your words, combined with what I know myself, I roughly know what Shen Qing and the others want to do to me." Zhuang Li said and smiled, "They want my body."

Wanting her body sounded even weirder. Zhou Jingyun was silent for a moment, thinking of what Shen Qing had said. If the queen's thoughts are not dead, the queen's person can be reborn. He also thought of the face he saw on Zhuang Li's face that morning. .

"This is ridiculous!" he said flatly, "Whoever is the one is who, how can the body be snatched away!"

"Because I am different from others." Zhuang Li said, looking at Zhou Jingyun, "Your Majesty, actually the me you see now is not me either."

Zhou Jingyun was stunned, why did he mean that she was not her, so who was he seeing?

"What you see is the appearance of Zhuang Li that you unconsciously imagined based on those characteristics you heard from other people's introductions."

"Others, my maid Chun Yue, my mother, and my family members all see me as they imagine me to be."

"If you draw me in your eyes, you will see that I am like a thousand people with different faces."

Zhou Jingyun felt his ears buzzing. How could this be possible? What did he see that wasn't her true appearance? Doesn't everyone see the same her?

This is ridiculous!

She was standing right in front of me, thin, elegant, fair-skinned, with thin eyebrows and cherry lips. How could this not be her?

"It's me, but it's not me. You can understand that my true appearance is covered with a mask. This mask is based on your imagination of me and the imagination I guided you. For example, I told you that I Chunyue is a bit like that.”

A bit similar to Chunyue, Zhou Jingyun looked at Zhuang Li subconsciously. The woman's face seemed to be slightly swaying, clear and blurry. She did look a bit like that maid...

The thought flashed across his mind, and Zhou Jingyun was startled. He couldn't help but look away, and Zhuang Li's voice continued to sound in his ears.

"I was born without a soul, and my body and mind were empty. Mr. Zhuang said that I was like a mirror. When people look at me, they can easily see their own desires."

"When I was a child, because I couldn't control myself, many people looked at me and were frightened by their inner greed, anger, and obsession, and went crazy. That's why it was said that looking at me would be unlucky in the future and always lead to accidents."

"After following Mr. Zhuang, I learned to control my soul. I can fine-tune it according to other people's thoughts without scaring them crazy anytime and anywhere."

"Do you still remember the arrest document from the Board of Supervisors that you got back earlier? Actually..."

When he said this, Zhuang Li looked at Zhou Jingyun.

"I look a lot like my sister."

"But unless I want to, people can hardly see what I really look like."

Zhou Jingyun turned back to look at her with a shocked expression.

Zhuang Li was still holding his hand, and he could feel Zhou Jingyun's hand getting cold.

Zhou Jingyun said before that Shen Qing said some ridiculous things to him, but what she said to him now was no better than Shen Qing's.

"Your Majesty, I am not crazy, and you are not crazy either. There are indeed strange people and things in this world."

She said softly, holding Zhou Jingyun's hand tightly.

Feeling the soft warmth of his hand, Zhou Jingyun took a deep breath: "So, Shen Qing and the others want to turn you into... her?"

Because she has many faces in the eyes of the world, can she be turned into Empress Chiang Kai-shek?

This is still ridiculous! Even if the appearance has changed, it is not that person. It is just making the illusion that can only appear temporarily become more permanent, and conjuring up a person who can look like that person to fool the world.

But that person is dead and gone, and it’s not her with the same face. This is still an illusion.

Zhuang Li was silent for a moment.

"Yes and no," she said. "If I think I am her, I am her."

She thinks…

Zhou Jingyun looked at her.

How could she think she was someone else? "Because my mind is unstable, others see me as someone I am not, and I will also...forget that I am me." Zhuang Li said softly, "I encountered danger before, my mind was separated, and I could hardly wake up again."

"That old disease?" Zhou Jingyun suddenly asked.

Zhuang Li smiled at him and nodded.

"I thought I was able to wake up because Mr. Zhuang sacrificed his life to save me." She said, laughing at herself, "It turns out that it was not me he sacrificed his life for. He and Shen Qing wanted me to become..."

She looked at Zhou Jingyun.

"Empress Chiang."

"But they didn't succeed."

"I'm still me."

"The surviving little daughter of the Bai family."

That's why Shen Qing told him that he was the one who wanted to take Bai Li away. Zhou Jingyun was silent, seeming to understand what Zhuang Li meant, but it was so ridiculous that he was confused.

"Then they didn't succeed last time, and now they are going to..." he said, looking at Zhuang Li, and suddenly thought of something, "You wrote to Mrs. Zhuang because... you feel... uncomfortable?"

After hearing such a ridiculous thing, his confusion was visible to the naked eye, but he still thought of it from the chaos... Zhuang Li looked at Zhou Jingyun and nodded: "Yes, you saw it on my face... She, I saw it too arrive."

Who was she talking about? Zhou Jingyun knew it. He was shocked again. She also saw it?

"On my face." Zhuang Li said.

This... Zhou Jingyun felt that his thoughts were even more chaotic, and he thought of Zhuang Li's words in the confusion.

"It doesn't mean that when others see you, you see what you want to see..." He murmured, "If you see yourself, you become someone else..."

Isn't that what she said, forgetting who she is?

Zhuang Li nodded: "Yes, so I knew something was wrong with me, and I asked Mrs. Zhuang for help..."

When she said the word "ask for help", her voice sounded a little sad.

Unexpectedly, the letter was hijacked and Mrs. Zhuang was also controlled. Zhou Jingyun thought, and suddenly thought of something, and looked at Zhuang Li: "You know?"

Only then did he come back to his senses. Why did he speak about Mrs. Zhuang just now? Zhuang Li's reaction was not to ask. She didn't even ask a word. She rushed over to hug him and said, "I thought you were like them." .

He clearly knew this, and seemed to think that he...

"I saw it." Zhuang Li nodded and smiled, "Take my letter to Mrs. Zhuang and hide it under the book."

Zhou Jingyun was stunned, thinking of that day when he took the letter handed over by Shen Qing and hid in the study because he was too shocked and overwhelmed. When he heard Zhuang Li suddenly coming, he subconsciously hid the letter...

It turns out she saw it.

She was suffering from physical problems at that time, and she must have been very anxious. She asked several times if the letter had been delivered.

He said he had delivered it, but in the blink of an eye he saw the letter hidden by him.

What would she think?

Shocked, sad, angry...

How did she face him during those days...

Zhou Jingyun felt mixed emotions.

"It was so sudden. Shen Qing took out the letter. I was shocked. He spoke strangely. I didn't believe him and just wanted to confirm it myself."

"I sent Jiang Yun to Dengzhou, and I thought I would tell you after confirming it. Otherwise, I don't know what happened, and you would be confused after hearing this, and you would not be able to solve the problem."

He paused here, looked at the hand still held by Zhuang Li, and held it with his backhand.

"I'm sorry I made you sad."

Half a chapter.