Why does the Ruined King still fall in love?

So, I went to ask Hiratsuka-sensei about this.

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"Don't you know what to do? Just do what you want to do."

The thing I most want to do...

yes!I want......

I want to change, change everyone, change this wrong world!

With this in mind, I applied to Hiratsuka-sensei and established the Ministry of Service.

Light and dark, conflict and peace.

Sure enough, everything has two poles. I met a man who was completely opposite to me.

At first, because of guilt towards him, he was allowed to join the club.

Originally, I thought that I would not have a deep connection with him, but in the contact again and again, I was attracted to him unconsciously.

I used to think that I could do everything well by myself, but now I want to rely on him for everything.

Snow is no longer snow, and I have lost my position to look back.

That day was December [-]th.

There are not a few days until Christmas, and Yuigahama-san is busy preparing for Christmas.

Since I didn't have any other commissions, I read the hardcover book as usual.

That person was borrowed by Miura-san just like when there was no entrustment.

Christmas seems to have an unusual significance for couples.

As Miura-san's lover, he must have worked hard too.

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On the way home that day, I was suddenly stopped by someone.

"That, Yukinoshita-san."

Looking back, standing there was a boy from the same school.

Who is it?

Saw it at school.

Classmates, that's all.

Usually, not many people would say hello to me, even among my classmates.

Not to mention boys.

Turn your gaze to the boy standing nervously.

A restless, hesitant look.

Not interested, go back.

After confirming his identity, I started walking in the direction of my home.

"Please, please wait a moment!"

The boy ran up to me.

He looked at my face, but immediately looked down again.

"That, can you date me...me? That, I... like, like you."

dating?

Considering the meaning of the word, he refers to a romantic relationship between a man and a woman.

The boy in front of me wants to build a relationship between him and me.

After understanding the current situation, I couldn't help thinking of the dark history of my love that that person exposed.

I originally planned to find a reason to decline, but changed my mind.

Answer him directly.

"I don't want to associate with you."

I replied, turning my gaze to him again.

Maybe he was a little surprised by my answer, and he was a little dazed.

"Well, can... can you tell me why..."

"It's just that I don't want to associate with you."

"That's it... But this result is within my expectations. The reason why I came to confess is that I hope Yukinoshita-san can know my heart."

He lowered his head and sighed with emotion, and then showed a relieved expression.

"Mind?"

I'm a little interested in what he has to say.

"Just let me understand your mind, are you satisfied?"

I voiced my doubts.

"Of course I won't be satisfied, at least I don't have any regrets. Thank you, Yukinoshita-san."

Different from the nervousness at the beginning, he finished speaking freely and went back along the way he came.

However, the meaning of this boy's last thanks to me is somewhat unclear.

When I first entered school, things like this happened many times.

But because I rejected many people in succession at that time, almost no boys dared to confess to me after that.

From my point of view, this is a pretty good development.

But, as I got closer to graduation, things like that increased a little bit.

Like, this word leaves a subtle feeling in my mind.

How would I react if that person confessed to me?

The answer doesn't need to say, I can't deny that person's request.

For now, I have a kind of dependence on him.

If entrusted by him, the judgment made by simply accepting that person's position may be carried out without thinking.

However, that person would never make excessive demands.

Even until the last moment, he will not take the initiative to rely on me.

That person has been watching Miura-san all the time, as if only Miura-san has color in him, I really hope that person can notice me.

Yes, if possible, I hope he can keep watching me.

And this hope is actually being realized on many occasions.

Every time we solve a commission together, he is always looking at me, and I can make eye contact with him without hindrance.

While I'm happy about this, I'm also a little bit sorry.

Speaking of the reason, the emotion that emerged in his pupils was not what I expected.

Thinking of this, my thinking stopped.

What am I looking forward to?

At this time, in my mind, the figure of that person kept flashing.

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Don't risk your life to save the dog, the first acquaintance in the service department, use your body to help me block punches, the resourcefulness to solve the entrustment, the inadvertent thoughtfulness...

He obviously has dead fish eyes that hate reality, but he guards the service department with all his heart.

What the hell am I thinking?

When I looked back, I realized that it was already late at night.

Liberate from complicated thinking and lie on the bed.

Staring at the ceiling, feeling a little melancholy.

Yes, I look forward to getting closer to him.

Therefore, it is unlikely that he will be regarded as an ordinary friend.

Wanting to be with that person, to touch each other, to feel that person's presence.

I imagined being next to that person, holding hands, talking to him.

Thinking about it this way makes me feel a little happier.

However, this is not a good sign.

Because there will never be any progress between me and him.

That person has the girl he loves and is willing to give everything for it.

Even I want to cheer for the will he showed.

Inadvertently, I thought of the boy who said he wanted to date me today.

He made it clear to me that while he was undoubtedly disappointed by the results, he got them.

In the end, he was at least mentally at ease.

But my feelings for that person are a secret that can never be revealed.

Even if you say it, it will only add trouble to that person...

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After school the next day, I read the hardcover book in the department room as usual.

Everyday as always.

It's just that Yubihama went home early to prepare for Christmas.

In the club room, only him, who is also reading, and me are left.

"Yukishita, have you decided on your graduation wish?"

Unexpectedly, he actually broke the quiet atmosphere.

"That... I haven't decided yet..."

I answered somewhat reluctantly.

In fact, my arrangement after graduation was decided by my mother a long time ago.

My mother arranged for me to study in England.

And Hikigu-kun, Yuhihama-san, and Miura-san have all decided to go to higher education, and agreed to take the same national liberal arts university together.

I have never once discussed this matter with Hikigaya-san or Yuhihama-san.

"Is that so..."

He closed the book and leaned back in the chair.

"It would be nice if the university can still read books here."

Hikigu-kun looked at the ceiling and sighed thoughtfully.

This sentence set off a huge wave in my heart.

Could it be that Mr. Biqigu is reluctant to leave the service department?