Why does the Ruined King still fall in love?

It's not that I don't want to rely on the current Komachi, it's better to say that I really want to do so now.

People can only seek support from the range that can be reached and supported.

Once this range is exceeded, those who rely on it will also fall down.Let me give you a simple example: you can't be a joint and several guarantor for a loan for a friend you don't have deep acquaintance with.

So if it is a family member, and if it is my cutest sister, it is enough to be my reliance.

Komachi has already proved this point.

Without her help, the problems that the service agency faced for the first time could not be solved.In order to protect that home, I also found a grandiose reason for those times.

That's for Komachi.

It is precisely because of this reason that I cannot mention it to Komachi.If Komachi asked me to solve the problems of the present and Yukinoshita, how would I go about it?

There is no doubt that Hikigaya Hachiman will not refuse his sister's request.

But should the problem between Yukinoshita and Yukino really be resolved?

Her resolution was made, and her last association with me was that of the giver and the recipient of orders.And she doesn't intend to continue this wrong relationship.

For Yukinoshita like this, if I forcefully contact her again, it will only make her more troubled, right?

Or, suppose I should fix it.Can I really use Komachi as an excuse?

A big question mark enveloped me along with the darkness.

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Many students are still in the classroom, and it seems that there is no way to satisfy them in a day without waves.The team headed by Hayama Hayato and Miura Yuiko are particularly eye-catching.

Tobe, Ooka, and Yamato were chatting one after another unnutritious words as before. Hayama sat by the window, looked out with his cheeks on his hands, smiled from time to time, and nodded in response to their words.

Miura and the others next door were also chatting about other topics.

As always, it is a matter of course for them everyday.In the future, they will not commemorate such a normal day.

They may not know that every day spent without feeling like this may become an irreplaceable time in the future.

This kind of time will be engraved somewhere on your body in the future, until it is discovered one day, stimulating your painful senses unreservedly.

I can't choose to touch again, because I don't know when I will be wrapped in emptiness, like a person groping for a way out by a cliff at night, as long as he takes a step in the void, the whole person will immediately fall into the bottomless abyss.

And now I'm at the bottom of that abyss, the same under the snow.

This kind of reality, for Ye Shan and others who are still praising their youth, is an existence that they never want to touch.

I'm not interested in them. The only thing I don't agree with or dissatisfied with the daily life staged in that place today is:

Yuigahama is not in her proper place.

She didn't talk with Miura and Ebina as usual.Not because she was excluded, but because her own existence was erased.

It has been three days.

I did not go to the service club again, nor did I go to see Yukinoshita, nor did I meet Yuigahama.

She didn't come to school, and naturally she wouldn't go to the service club, and Yukinoshita had to deal with the rest of the dance, so she wouldn't appear there.

Otherwise, you might be very worried about Yubihama. Of course, the possibility that Yubihama told Yukinoshita about her current situation is not ruled out.

Because that Yuigahama guy is always gentle and won't do things that make others worry.

Maybe just ask Miura or Ebina, and you will be able to know Yuigahama's current situation.

always gentle...

"I'm not as gentle as Xiaoqi thinks."

On that snowy day, a girl once said this to me, and it was the first time I saw a sad expression on that beautiful face.

I didn't dare to recall, didn't want to think deeply about the meaning of those words, and even saw her shed tears, I just blindly escaped.It's always been like this, always...

"Hachiman, Hachiman."

A familiar call interrupted my thoughts, and there was only one other person besides Komachi who could make such a voice that moved my heart.

I turned around and saw Totsuka standing behind me with a shy expression on his face.Just standing there, the dust in the air turns into particles of light, which is very charming.

He stretched out his tender little hand and poked my cheek lightly.The tone was a little worried.

"Hachiman, are you alright?"

Totsuka probably felt embarrassed by this frivolous way of greeting, and he smiled shyly.I also remembered that such a move was out of concern for me.Ahh, it's so healing...

I feel sorry for Komachi, but I declare that Totsuka is the cutest person in the world right now.Anyone who has even a little bad intentions towards Totsuka should be hanged!

If Totsuka can say "Welcome home" to me wearing an apron, and give me this perfect smile, even if it is the overtime hell of social animals, Hiki Valley Hachiman can also consider it.

"I'm just thinking about something, what's the matter, Totsuka?"

I tried not to lose my temper too much, because Totsuka in front of me was too overwhelming.

Totsuka pouted suddenly, and turned his head to one side. This was the expression of a newlywed wife when she found out that her husband had forgotten their anniversary.

Oops, I actually forgot the wedding anniversary with Totsuka?No, I actually forgot about marrying Totsuka?Unforgivable, Hikigaya Hachiman, you can forget such an important thing!

"Didn't you, Hachiman, make an appointment to play tennis with me? You clearly said you would never forget it."

Totsuka's somewhat angry voice called back my thoughts.

By the way, this is what Totsuka promised before the dance meeting, and there is someone else present, it seems to be some classmate of Chuan.Ah, speaking of which I still haven't remembered her name.

It seems that she also promised her to visit Xiao Jinghua when the time comes. What should I bring to Xiao Jinghua?eel?

"Hachiman!"

Totsuka shouted loudly, his face was a little flushed, it was not good, he was lost in thought, and actually forgot about Totsuka's existence.

"Ah, I'm sorry, I'm a little distracted. Is our appointment today?"

I quickly responded, if I don't respond, if Totsuka hates me, it's not just a matter of Totsuka's anniversary, maybe I won't be able to see this healing smile in the future.

That was no less terrifying than Komachi not calling my brother anymore. Of course, neither of these things could happen.

Because my younger sister is the cutest younger sister in the world, and Totsuka in front of me is an angel who can heal me.

Totsuka reacted like this, so I must have forgotten today's promise.

Unlike Zaimozuo, who came to pester me on an unappointed day and thought it was a good prank, it was simply unforgivable, Zaimozuo was really disgusting.

Unexpectedly, Totsuka shook his head.

"Not today, Hachiman."

What?Not really?Could it be that Totsuka also learned to play tricks?Want to play tricks on me?Simply too cute!This is something that only couples can do, Totsuka, you are an angel.

"Because I feel that Hachiman has no energy recently, so..."

Totsuka looked a little awkward, as if he was a little embarrassed.

My heart skipped a beat, why was Totsuka the first person to let me open up?Because at that time, I was pursuing something, a sense of existence.

The real sense of presence is not that the other person wants to find you when he needs it, but that he can easily find you when you need it.

So far, Totsuka has found me more than once. It was with Yuigahama, when the service club was in crisis, and Hayama.

Totsuka Ayaka was always there when Hikigaya Hachiman needed him the most.

So Totsuka Ayaka is a special existence to me, not comparable to Yukinoshita, Yuigahama, Isshiki or even Komachi.

I also dreamed of having this kind of relationship with someone, but it never happened.

Even if it is wrong, evil, and we all look down on it.

Thinking of this, I picked up my schoolbag and disappeared with Totsuka into the crowd after school, as if I had no connection with this place anymore.

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That door is still cold, and the door leading to the Service Club is still as cold and lifeless as in recent days.

I took a sip of the Max coffee in my hand, trying to drive away the cold air.

During the days with them, I have forgotten the fact that I was alone.

In common values, people worship lone heroes more than millions of lions.

Heroes, absolute loners, human yearnings, but our longings are nothing but expectations for ourselves.

So I used to be complacent about being alone, but that was just a kind of self-satisfaction.

I used to think she was like me, that she and I had something in common.

That was just my expectation. When the expectation failed and the facts came to fruition, everything became a self-deception of Hikigu Hachiman.

I have met her thousands of times, but we are always strangers.

I can't forget that night scene, the sea of ​​light formed by countless lights is shining brightly, like a starry night sky.

Appearing in front of the castle was Yukinoshita wearing a pure white coat and smiling with a weeping expression.

Such a noble and fragile posture made me forget to breathe for a moment.

She let go of the armrest and held my cuff, and their skin touched inadvertently.At this moment, my heart seemed to be pulled.

The feeling of weightlessness like falling into a bottomless valley finally hit.

The words of that day still linger in my mind to this day.

"Bikigu-kun."

"One day, come and save me."

I thought, that was the first time.

Under the snow, he showed his weakness to others.

"Senior? What are you doing here?"

I turned around and looked at the owner of this very familiar voice.

"Yukigahama-senpai probably didn't come here...or are you waiting for Yukinoshita-senpai, senior?"

Yi Caiyu tilted his head, and his flaxen hair shook.Under the slightly messy uniform is a cardigan vest with too long cuffs, and her fragrant shoulders can be clearly seen.

Her small hand stretched out from inside and poked her cheek with a puzzled look.

It's not good, there is even a touch of cuteness.

I realized again that Yishiroyu in front of me is a junior who is one year younger than me, and also a cute girl.

By the way, she acted like a lost kitten just now. Could it be because of this Yukinoshita that she has been petting her more recently?

"No..., you should be very clear, Yukinoshita should still handle the rest of the dance for you, the irresponsible student president, in the student union."

I tried my best to keep myself calm. If this younger generation finds out that I am just moved by seeing this normal outfit for her, I am afraid that I will be teased by her in the future.

"What is an irresponsible student council president? Senior, I disagree with your statement!"

Isshiki moved his face closer, puffed out his cheeks, and glared at me.

"Will a competent student council president go to the service club when he encounters trouble?"

There was a hint of panic in my voice.

It's too close, this distance is too close, doesn't this guy Isshiki have no sense of distance between men and women?

At this distance, with her outfit, some parts below the neck are too exposed.

Pink, maybe.

"Indeed, there are indeed too many things to trouble seniors and the two senior sisters."

Isshiki stuck out his tongue and lowered his head, looking guilty.

So despicable!

What do you mean mean?Of course, if you bow your head like this, you will not be able to enjoy the scenery you could have enjoyed!

"I will definitely repay the seniors. I will try my best to satisfy any requests from the seniors in the future. Didn't I say that? I am happy to help the service agency."

Isshiki raised his head suddenly, looked at me squarely, and his tone suddenly became smaller.

"Especially, Senior, you..."

"What did you say?"

"It's nothing, I just feel that seniors are the most troublesome, so seniors' requests should be fulfilled first, not because seniors have a special status in my heart."