Artoria the Big Liar

Having said all the words, I can only continue to ask.

"What fear?"

"Fear is separated from father, but has to be separated."

"Why should we separate?"

"Because you are going to go out independently. You have to live your own life. You are no longer a child who exists around your father. But how is it so easy to let go of the past? What's more, you had a quarrel with your father , Father left you and kept a distance from you. You yourself have been wondering whether it is right to do so, and as a result, you are immersed in this world with nothing, and you can’t get out at all.”

I pursed my lips, trying to think about her words with what little rationality I had left.

It's easy to understand and there's nothing difficult about it.I was just stuck in a dream in a dream, not really stupid.

"...In other words, am I avoiding?" I smiled self-deprecatingly, and I kind of understood why the other one kept looking down on me. "It's bad enough to be confused about the future, nostalgic for the past, and hesitate in the present."

"It's good that you understand. You're not that powerful in the first place." The other me commented, "Then, it's up to you to choose now. Do you stay in this dream and never go out, or enter a deeper one Go back to the memory of the past in a dream, or wake up and face the confused future?"

"Ah? If I sleep here, can I enter a deeper dream?"

"Of course. It's just that you will no longer have any possibility to know that it is a dream. You will be trapped there forever, and you will never be able to escape-vegetative people exist, you should know. Vegetable people just fall into a dream and cannot wake up. You are always lying on the hospital bed. Your situation is a bit special, and you have to enter a dream, a dream, and a dream to be like that."

"If that's the case, then I have nothing to hesitate..."

In this dream within a dream, I took the initiative to forget the past, proving that I don't like the past.

In this dream within a dream, I live an extremely dull life, proving that I don't like to hesitate.

In this dream-within-a-dream, I lacked a picture of the future, an independent reason to justify that there was something I needed to do.

I may have lost my memory, but I have not lost myself.I will never escape, even if it is the most dangerous, troublesome and difficult thing to do, I will do it.

Because this is the life creed taught to me by my father.

It is precisely because of this life creed that my father and I have come to the present.

The other I raised my eyebrows. She sensed the ripples in the space, and felt that the dream in the dream became unstable, and her smile was not so contemptuous and mocking: "It seems that you are about to wake up. It's not bad, it's better than I expected It was earlier. I thought you were going to come to the battlefield of Kamlan in person, seeing yourself slashing your father's head with a sword, and then piercing your body with her holy spear while holding your father's hand, it hurts both physically and mentally It’s impossible to get more, and you will wake up from here!”

"This is the reason why I can become the heir to my father." I smiled confidently, staring at the echo of the Purple God, feeling sincere gratitude in my heart. "Thanks to you, I was able to wake up earlier... Judging from this, Lily must be trapped in a dream and cannot wake up?"

"Yeah. You have to wake up Lily." After a pause, Zishen reverberated and said to me with a smile: "You don't need to thank me. I am indeed another you. But don't fall in love with me? Although Purple God's attraction is indeed strong, but attraction is better for other people, it's better to attract yourself, I'm not interested in Narcissus."

I shrugged, not paying attention to her teasing words.

With Lily by my side, I am content.My father and I are very dedicated people.If it wasn't for Jeanna's willingness to sacrifice her rights for the sake of her father, her mother and Mei Lin would not be in their current state.But Lily is very different from Jeanne. She is actually quite strong in her heart, and she will never allow me to have other people.

"Yes, you are right." The reverberation of the Purple God was connected with my mind, knowing what I was thinking. "Father has warned you. You must take responsibility and handle your relationship with others well. Otherwise, your end will be miserable."

"...Is there anything else you want to tell me?" I asked her.

"It's nothing. I'm just a reverberation, the weakest of the four reverberations. So, I'm just your tool and your strength. You can't do it with this attitude towards tools!"

"Your attitude is not like the attitude of a tool to its master."

She snorted coldly, shrugged, and disappeared from my sight without saying anything.

My connection with memory was fully restored, and I fully realized that this was a dream.

With a feeling of weightlessness, I opened my eyes...

Chapter Six: The Truth That Surfaces

◆Mordred◆

The endless sea of ​​flowers, the sixteenth-century English-style buildings, the blue sky, and the golden sun.Everything in the field of view is no different from the outside.I almost thought I had come to the wrong place.

However, consciousness does have a sense of being disturbed.It shows that this place is indeed the Court of Frustration.

There may be no reason for everything in the pan-human history, because the storage space of the spiritual sub-band provided for the pan-human history is very large, and it is so big that the “chaos effect” can appear just like the climate.However, the storage space of the Oddbelt is probably less than one ten-thousandth of the pan-human history, so in order to save concepts and energy, everything in the Oddbelt has a clear reason and track that can be queried—including the real name, as well .

These are all the information Mei Lin told my father and me face to face.

Following this line of thought, I began to analyze the reasons for the appearance of the Court of Frustration, and why this is the entrance to Paradise.As long as you know the reason and deduce it logically, you can understand its structure, and then know Lily's position.

Sitting on a wooden bench, I analyzed it for a long time, but I couldn't figure it out.

"I wish I had the knowledge of magic like Merlin. Then I can know why."

I was raised by my father according to the standards of knights and kings, not by my mother according to the standards of a magician. I lack the corresponding knowledge. Even if I am good at mathematics, most of the mystical concepts are ambiguous and cannot be analyzed.

After wasting a lot of time, I stood up and planned to search for Lily's sleeping position in the Garden of Frustration.

However, at this moment, a familiar fragrance of flowers floated into my nose.

Looking at the source, a woman with long silver hair is smiling at me.

Familiar white robe, clean white hair, jewel-like pink eyes, and a disgusting smile - there is no doubt that she is Mei Lin.

"Good evening, Mordred. I didn't expect you to wake up from your dream before I came."

"I am the heir to my father. If I can't even wake up from this kind of dream, it would be too cheap."

What else did Mei Lin want to say.It is estimated that I wake up, so there is no need to explain【&[

She looked at me normally, as in the past, without any prejudice, but full of prejudice.

I don't like the Merlin in front of me, nor the Merlin who is hiding.I don't like any Merlin.

"Well, in fact, I don't have any important things to come here. I just came here because I thought it was necessary to help you."

"I don't need your help. I can find Lily myself."

"However, with my help, the search will be much faster, right?" Mei Lin kept her smirk that made me sick, and continued: "Mordred boasted that he could forge before dawn. Create a new holy sword, and then use that holy sword to defeat the worm of Naraku. If you don’t hurry up, you won’t be able to fulfill this promise, right?”

"I don't need you to worry about my affairs. Don't make it look like we have a good relationship, Meilin."

"Although it's a bit shameless for me. However, I still want to say—" Merlin paused, and casually made a chair from vines opposite me, and then sat down. "Mordred, the past has passed. Our relationship was bad in the past, but that doesn't mean it must be as bad in the future? Arturia made me understand what love is. I'm different—and aren't you, too?"

"It's in the past. It doesn't mean I've forgotten all about the past." My voice cooled down.

"Then let's get down to business - Mordred, since you woke up from your dream, it means that you really bid farewell to the future, and no longer live for Artoria, but live for yourself In the future, the distance between you and Artoria will only get farther and farther. Although it is indeed a father-son relationship, the nature of the relationship between a father and an adult child has changed. To be honest, according to Artoria’s plan, this The time point should be six years later..."

I frowned slightly, and I was a little tired of hearing it, so I said bluntly: "Say what you have to say quickly. Don't make your thoughts so important. The past has proved that you are just a big talker."

"...cough." She coughed dryly, knowing that she had a habit of telling riddles, she said directly: "I just want to confirm, do you really have the awareness to grow up early?"

"I saw a movie in my dream. In that movie, it took eight years for an artificial human to learn knowledge that a normal person would not be able to learn in 16 years. I thought it was absurd at the time, but It still happened."

"Okay. Then I will confirm this. I have communicated with Merlin in this world. He will not reveal any information, even if you go to the paradise and cut off his head with a sword. But I am different. Like the holy sword materials, the location of the furnace, Lily's original fate...anything you want to know, just ask me directly."

I thought I would reject it cleanly, but with the information and clues at my fingertips, I hesitated.

Finally, I sighed and said, "Say what you think you can. I don't know how to ask."

Merlin didn't mingle with me. This time, she told me the situation of the Lost Belt from the beginning to the end according to the timeline.

Basically, it's the same as what my father said, the key lies in Lily's birth and her real mission.

I was shocked when I listened to it, but when I finished listening to it completely, my mood was unexpectedly calm.

She was still as long-winded as ever, and I had to refine the information and shorten it into a summary.

"So, Lily is essentially an information collector, collecting the hopes of the goblins. When she rings all the bells of the tour, her characteristics will be liberated, and the goblin shell will be shed in the so-called melting furnace. It becomes the holy sword itself. What the holy sword needs to eliminate is not the disagreement, but the alien star god who uses the fantasy tree to make the belt of strange stories continue. After defeating the alien god, the belt of strange stories will be completely over—— this mean?"

"Yes. The so-called shedding of the shell is consistent with the transformation of the goblin into Moss. The loss of body, the loss of soul, from a living thing to a dead thing. She is no longer Altori from the Lost Belt, and she is no longer you My Lily is just the Holy Sword."

Taking a deep breath, I tried to calm down and think about what to do.

But I can't think.What I think of is not the future, but the past, the impatient and angry eyes of my father.

"Did the king know from the beginning?" I asked.

"Yes. Before Lily was born, Arturia had already predicted this trajectory."

"Then she also knows what choice I will make, but she can't accept it anyway, right?"

This time, Mei Lin answered unexpectedly slowly.

I waited for half a minute before she finally said, "... yes."

"Tell me what I will do, and I will think about whether I can avoid it."

"I thought you'd say no."

"If you tell me what you want to say, just say it! If you don't want to say it, go away! Don't waste time in front of me!"

My heart is completely irritable.I even suspect that in order to stop this trajectory, the father will use the authority of the Dragon King to cleanse the goblins on the island-she must have thought about this idea, but in the end she didn't implement it.

A strange sense of guilt brewed in me, fueling my irritability.

Even the phrase "Mordred, do you like that goblin so much!" rang in my ears.

"Actually... Mordred, you should know what to do, but you just don't want to admit it."

"I don't know anything now! Tell me the plan! Otherwise, if you don't go, I'll go!"

With that said, I stood up.That irritability made me close to losing control.

I can only try to control my thoughts, don't think about the future, don't think about my father, only think about myself.

Just think about it for a moment, and I lose all courage and can no longer move forward.

Because I've realized that I'm doing something [-] million times more cruel than Kamran...

"Hurry up!!!" I almost yelled out, just to interrupt the thoughts in my brain.

"...Replace Lily. Contribute all my feelings, memories, and hopes. Abandon the shell of Mordred, use my soul as a flame, use my emotions as steel, and turn myself into a holy sword. Mordred, you have held the scabbard for a long time, and the magic power has also been transformed into a space attribute by the scabbard, you can do it."

"Wait a minute!!!" I yelled, and the unprecedented panic almost made me gasp.

Merlin froze for a moment.Then at that moment, her eyes widened and her mouth opened.

Why did the father suppress the anger in his heart?Why didn't she force me to stop?

This female magician thought she was very smart!Why don't you even understand this key information!

The forging of the holy sword did happen 4000 years ago, but for the father, that still didn't happen!The power of her wish is too strong, which gave her a lofty status, and naturally gave her a more lofty mission!

I tried to take ten deep breaths, managed to maintain my rationality, and then said: "Father has emphasized the importance of me to her more than once. So far, she has allowed me to make free choices three times. The first time was an expedition. Before Rome, she determined her own ending. The second time was before the Holy Grail War, she divided her spirit. Before leaving Miyama Town, she traveled to Europe, this is the third time... Merlin, do you understand what this means? "

"I, I..." Mei Lin fell into a greater fear than me, and couldn't finish her words.

"...Fuck!" I kicked my chair aside violently, yelling for the first time.

"No...it's not like that! The situation shouldn't be that critical..." Mei Lin started to fantasize and dream, and didn't dare to face the future. "With Jeanna here this time, I won't repeat my previous mistakes..."

"It is because of Jeanna's presence that she dares to truly give her all!" I growled fiercely. "Did you forget during the Holy Grail War? Didn't she betray her dignity and bottom line? She told you in person! Do you think she changed her attitude later because she felt that she did something wrong? No! She won't Denying what she thinks is right! Including that she divided herself into two parts! She just thinks that the situation is so good that she doesn't need to pay for those things! How stubborn is the father? It's been so many years, don't you know!"

Mei Lin's pupils trembled, she covered her mouth with her hands, her body and pupils trembled in unison, extremely terrified.

This woman is just so unreliable.I adjusted my breathing, paced slowly, and thought about countermeasures.

The king's father hid it too deeply, not only me and Mei Lin, but also my mother and Jeanna were deceived.

It means that she has already planned to do this, at least the plan has been made, and the evaluation of herself has been completed-yes, it is the evaluation.Her mother taught her to learn to love herself, but she simply lacked this ability from the very beginning!Because she will not be afraid, let alone angry!It was only when I was born later that this feeling was reborn!

"Father's will is essentially a kind of loan. Any loan must generate interest. The interest that father needs to pay is one mission after another. When she cannot pay the interest, she will be bankrupt and liquidated. Her Traces will disappear from the universe, and each of us will change accordingly. The father is not a strong person, her actions are driven by the outside, becoming a king is to fill the stomach, and maintaining the operation of this country is for me. Becoming Mitt is to allow Na to survive... Her father anchors human reason, and these things anchor her father. Therefore, for these things, she can sacrifice and dedicate without restraint, using herself as a utensil. Mother I observed this phenomenon, but I didn’t understand the underlying logic at all! I only understand now...that’s how my father is like..."

"And then!" I said aloud, trying to flow the logic through the act of speaking. "Father actually doesn't hate Lily! She is actually jealous of Lily, jealous of someone who can complete her mission in her place! Father can only rely on her, she is alone from beginning to end, even if Jeanna comes! So... so..."

I can't go on.My train of thought stops here.I just can't think about it anymore.

This is beyond the limits of my abilities, the limits of my intellect.I'm stuck in this crisis and don't know what to do.

Even in the depths of my heart remorse arose!If I hadn't been hacked...

In an instant, I exhaled in panic, then inhaled quickly, like a person about to drown.

I look at Merlin.This useless woman has lost the ability to think and can only stand there in panic.

"...I know what to do." After thinking about it for a long time, I said calmly. "I don't know what Inak will experience, but judging from the earl's description, it was not a good experience. However, combining all the previous cases, although there is no complete solution, we can find ideas...Father The king is very stubborn, so stubborn that he is unwilling to use the strength of others. Therefore, each of us must become the strength of the father...I understand."

Mei Lin raised her head and stared at me with those panicked and dazed eyes.

After all, he is just a useless magician who has no plans for important things.

"I will surpass my father, and I will forge the holy sword before her, instead of transforming myself into a holy sword. Only in this way, will I have the energy to help my father repay the interest she must pay...Since fate has decided so, I You can't simply resist fate, but surpass fate... Take me to find Lili. This time, I will not lose to fate, nor will I lose to my father again."

What would happen if I failed?

I don't know, and I can't possibly imagine.