Conan: After being rescued, I just want to die quickly

His host is the savior, but he is not, he is just the patron saint of the savior.

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Qian Yuanxi had a physical examination in the hospital, during which Qian Yuanxi was unwilling to leave his grandfather.It looks very clingy, the old man is afraid to touch his grandson when he sees it.

He held her in his arms distressedly, and comforted him softly, "Don't be afraid, Grandpa is always here."

When System 3 was conducting inspections outside, he was also nervous for a while. He is a system, and the problems he inspected were more or less different from those detected by humans.

He nervously waited for the doctor to say the final result, when he heard that he could get out of bed and walk normally without any sequelae.

Only then did System 3 feel relieved, he was worried that his host would be affected, so he put all his energy on his host.

His host wants to live in good health.

Live happily with your loved ones.

System No. 3 was about to continue retracting, but the next second he heard his host whisper something.

"Thanks for everything you have done for me."

When System 3 heard this, he thought he heard it wrong, thinking that his host was thanking the doctor, but his host repeated it again.

"I know, you are in my heart."

Hearing this, System 3 hurried out in fright, and then began to explain that he was not a weird kid.

[System No. 3: Xiaoxi!first meet!I, I, my name is a dog, ah no!I'm not the dog of world consciousness no no no, I mean I'm the dog, no no no I'm the system! 】

[System No. 3: Xiaoxi!I am a good boy!I will protect Xiaoxi!I will definitely protect Xiaoxi!Although I am stupid, I will work hard!Don't dislike me, okay? 】

System No. 3 explained, and after he finished speaking, he was a little annoyed. Did he explain too loudly just now, and would it make his host even more upset.

But he was really nervous!

He was afraid that his host would dislike him for being stupid.

However, Qian Yuanxi, who had finished the examination and was eating fruit in the ward, was stunned. He glanced at the doctor outside the ward who was talking to his grandfather about the situation.

Shaking his head slightly, Chihara Nozomi then lowered his head: "I don't despise you for being stupid."

After finishing speaking, Qian Yuanxi didn't know what to say, so he said slowly: "So you were with me before?"

[System No. 3: Because I don't have enough energy to change people, I can't even change animals, I can only comfort Xiaoxi in Xiaoxi's heart, Xiaoxi blames me for not being good! 】

"Don't feel bad." Qian Yuanxi comforted, and then he held his quilt nervously, his eyes were tense, and he didn't know how to say hello.

"That... What is the price for you to let me come back? Do you also need to save the world?"

At this point, Qianyuan Xi pursed his lips, as if he was thinking of words, "Then can you wait for me for a while, I am very uncomfortable now, and the rescue will fail."

"When I'm better, I'll go save it, okay?"

As soon as Chihara Nozomi finished speaking, System No. 3 in his heart froze, and then he reacted and panicked.

[System No. 3: Xiaoxi!I'm not that dog thing!I won't let Xiaoxi save the world!I'm here to protect Xiaoxi!Make Xiaoxi happy! 】

[System No. 3: Xiaoxi, you can trust me, but can I hug Xiaoxi? I ​​read in the book that if you don’t feel safe hugging, you will feel safe. 】

The words of System No. 3 surprised Chihara Nozomi. The words spoken by this system are completely different from that world consciousness.

Even the way he treated him made him a little uncomfortable, but Chihara Nozomi pursed her lips when she heard the last sentence.

"Should I open my arms to the air so you can hug me?"

After saying this, Qian Yuanxi still couldn't hold back, he just raised his hand and then took it back suddenly, his ears turned red instantly, and he muttered softly: "I'm even more stupid doing this."

Seeing Qian Yuanxi's appearance, System No. 3 became excited instantly. He has not hugged his host a few times from the beginning until now, and there was even only one post not long ago.

His host doesn't know yet.

Other people's systems have hugged the host closely from the beginning, but he doesn't even have a hug now.

As if sensing the emotion of System No. 3, Nozomi Chihara was about to speak, when System No. 3's voice rang in the next second.

[System No. 3: Xiaoxi, don't be afraid when I show up later, okay, I don't look good. 】

"I don't discriminate against looks." Qian Yuanxi promised firmly with a small face, then he turned his head and looked at the door.

……

He waited for the person who pushed the door in for a while, and then summoned up courage in his heart, thinking about how to thank him later.

But he watched for a long time, and even his grandfather told him to go shopping, but no one else came in.

This made Chihara Nozomi frown, he was about to raise his hand to rub his eyes, the next second he felt something touching his arm.

Looking down, all he saw was a gray mouse, and the mouse touched him with its paw.

After he looked over, the mouse stood up, then waved its hand shyly, and finally greeted Qian Yuanxi under the stunned gaze.

"Xiaoxi, that... can I give you a hug?"

Qian Yuanxi felt that he had never seen any big scenes. He had saved the world so many times, and he should not have seen other things in the world again.

But now, he looked at the mice who stood up and waved and even greeted him.

At that moment, Qian Yuanxi felt that he had never seen such a scene.

……

One person and one mouse looked at each other, and a feeling of tension permeated in the middle. It was the mouse that retracted its paws after regaining consciousness and nestled down obediently.

"That...Xiaoxi, are you afraid of mice?"

"No, I just haven't seen a mouse that can stand up and say hello." After Qian Yuanxi said this, she still stretched out her hand and hugged the small group of mice.

He held the mouse in his arms, and then his eyes were more curious, and he poked the mouse's belly with his fingers: "Why do you want to be attached to the mouse."

"Because there is not enough energy."

System No. 3's voice sounded particularly aggrieved, Chihara Nozomi was silent for a moment, and then he scratched the mouse's stomach with his fingers.

"Actually, mice are pretty good too."

"It's cute, even though you're gray...but cute!"

After Qian Yuanxi finished speaking, he looked at the mouse with drooping ears, and smoothed its hair, "Thank you for protecting me all the time."

"I can feel that someone is protecting me, but at that time I couldn't thank you anymore. It shouldn't be too late for me to thank you now."

After Qian Yuanxi finished speaking, he broke free from the mouse in his arms, then he turned around, grabbed the edge of the quilt with his paws, looked up at Qian Yuanxi.

Then he said in a very excited and serious tone, "Xiaoxi did nothing wrong, and protecting Xiaoxi is what I should do, Xiaoxi is the best!"

"Xiaoxi is the invincible and best Xiaoxi in the world!"

Seeing the mouse finished speaking like this, Qian Yuanxi was stunned and did not reply. System No. 3 also realized that he was too excited, and shook his head quickly: "I don't mean to blame Xiaoxi, I really like Xiaoxi."

"Xiaoxi, don't be afraid of me, why don't you continue to touch my fur. In fact, my possession of the mouse still has a little effect."

System No. 3 said so, he approached Qianyuan Xi cautiously, and then put his paw on Qianyuan Xi's hand, "My hair is very slippery, and my fur is fragrant."

Qian Yuanxi watched, and after a long time he laughed, the laughter was very small, and he rolled his eyes.

Those dull eyes are gradually becoming brighter and smiling.

"You also said that I am stupid, and you are also stupid. I really can't help watching you talk. Don't be angry."

After Qian Yuanxi finished speaking, he stretched out his hand to grab the mouse, and then he lowered his head and smelled it: "Why does the hair on your mouse smell like oranges?"

When System 3 heard this, he didn't struggle, his limbs drooped, and he explained: "The book says that the smell of oranges and lemons is very refreshing, which makes people feel relaxed and stress-free."

"But if Xiaoxi doesn't like it, I can change into another flavor."

System No. 3 said this, Qian Yuanxi couldn't stop laughing, he rubbed the mouse with his cheek, "It's still the same smell, it smells good."

"You are so cute." Qian Yuanxi said this sentence again.

Hearing this, System No. 3 hurriedly said, "Xiaoxi is cuter! I like Xiaoxi the most!"

Chapter 053 The Belated Sunshine Can't Save the Withered Sunflower

In the following time, Qian Yuanxi was receiving treatment, and System No. 3 was by her side.

But he always felt that as the inspection deepened, something was wrong with his host.

After persuading grandpa to go home again, Chihara Xi hugged her body and sat on the bed, the moonlight outside shone into the room through the window screen.

It made the already quiet room even quieter, so quiet that System No. 3 could hear the beating of his host's heart.

The mouse nestled silently by the side, staring at Qian Yuanxi intently. After a long time, Qian Yuanxi opened his mouth slowly.

The boy is not happy or relaxed during the day, and even the state of his body makes System 3 feel familiar.

That is the state of being in another world.

- That's a bad state.

The voice was a bit depressing, and even sounded a little muffled.

"Actually, I know I won't get better. Even if I come back, I won't forget everything that happened and the torture I experienced."

Qian Yuanxi said, he thought of the recent physical reaction, which was a stress reaction.

He could fool his grandpa into saying it was a hangover from the bed rest he had been having, but he couldn't fool his doctor.

But no matter how much the doctor checked, there was no extra trauma on his body, no marks on his waist, and his eyes were intact.

But his strangeness had to make the doctor judge, it was his psychological problem.

But Qian Yuanxi understood that it was not a psychological problem, he was still afraid of others approaching.

He couldn't trust anyone, even though he returned to his original world, he still felt a sense of rejection.

He couldn't have the same attitude towards grandpa as before, he couldn't talk to grandpa as if nothing happened, and he couldn't even forget what happened after he heard that grandpa passed away.

"I went home, I should forget about those things, forget about those people, and even forget about all the experiences."

"Then I got up from where I fell and walked forward to live a good life with my grandpa."

"I understand all these reasons. I understand too well. I know exactly what to do. I shouldn't be stuck in a dead end at this time."

……

Chihara Nozomi said, his emotions were about to collapse.

Maybe he is really crazy.

When did he go crazy.

——The young man thought it was when he failed to save again and again, when he was abandoned again and again, and when he was tortured to death time and time again.

It is impossible for him to live as before, and it is impossible for him to forget those things just because he returned home.

How did he forget the memory that had been saved countless times, how did he forget the time of contact, the memory of the time he spent with his grandfather has been blurred.

System No. 3 also understood the sense of disobedience these days at this time, although he would relax and even make his host happy every time, and he would even tell his host about grandpa.

But every time the boy's smile didn't go deep, System 3 saw the disguise.

That was subconscious camouflage, not genuine camouflage.

—that was his host's muscle memory.

——That was the memory that his host had carved into his bones.

[System No. 3: Xiaoxi, don't be sad. 】

Hearing the sound, Qianyuan Xi raised his head and looked at the moonlight outside the window, then got out of bed and went to the window.

He looked at the familiar scene outside, and at the moonlight that made people feel peaceful.

Without the slightest wave in his eyes, he reached out and stroked the window: "I'm already working hard."

"I'm trying to learn how to smile naturally, how to make grandpa happy, and trying not to expose my own faults."

But how can those bad states be covered up? Memories, conversations, and expressions have all penetrated into his bones.

He couldn't hide it all the time, it was a fact.

Qian Yuanxi looked outside and his eyes became calm, he sighed a long time, he seemed to be regretting something.

System No. 3, he came to Qian Yuanxi's side, he was a little anxious and at a loss.

Qian Yuanxi looked sorry and smiled, "Sorry, I often can't control my emotions, which makes you worry."