Conan: After being rescued, I just want to die quickly

When they begged Qian Yuanxi to live, what were they thinking in their hearts at that time, they couldn't deceive others.

They want to make it up!

They want to make their guilt less!

They wanted Qian Yuanxi to let go.

——Everyone is skeptical when they see the memory. They can't believe that there is such a person who will do this for them.

Does such a purely good person really exist?

Does this kind of people really exist who just want them to live well without asking for anything in return?

So the first time they saw Qian Yuanxi, the first thing they said was sorry.

Then they hope that Qian Yuanxi can survive, so that they can make up for Qian Yuanxi and reduce their guilt.

……

in the ward.

Qian Yuanxi just lay peacefully on the bed and looked at the ceiling. When he came back to his senses, Gin had already been taken out by Jiang Gu Ling and Zhu Fu Jingguang, and the two of them haven't come back yet.

he thought, looking at his hands tied to the bed rail.

He was unmoved, not even panicked.

This level of bondage wasn't enough to scare him, and even that wasn't enough to keep him from leaving.

Chihara Nozomi's mind was full of Gin's words and Gin's indifferent eyes, "Actually, I have tried very hard to ignore Gin's words."

"But Gin looks at me with that expression, I still feel so painful that I can't breathe."

Qian Yuanxi's tone sounds very light, if you don't listen carefully, you can't even hear what Qian Yuanxi is saying.

The world consciousness fell silent. He looked at the boy's deteriorating mental state. He seemed to have no intention of hiding it anymore, so he asked directly.

【Aren't human beings very selfish? 】

【I have been waiting for your request, I will agree to whatever you ask me, even I think you will let go of those bad experiences, because you already have a new future. 】

【This world is beautiful about your future, you don't need to have any pressure at all. 】

The world awareness finally came out, he didn't understand human emotions, and he didn't understand why the boy was so persistent.

At the beginning, he was just trying to coax the children to save the world, and after saving the world, he would give some compensation.

[How could there be someone who doesn't want anything in return. 】

The confusion of world consciousness made Qianyuan Xi stunned for a moment, and after realizing it, Qianyuan Xi even laughed outright.

"What, so you have been waiting for me to ask you? Have you been waiting for me to let go?"

"Is that why you keep saving me?"

Qian Yuanxi didn't know why, he suddenly relaxed, as if he knew the purpose of world consciousness.

"I asked you for death, but you didn't agree. I asked you many times."

"It's weird, it's so weird."

After Chihara Nozomi finished speaking, he spoke again, not giving the world consciousness time to answer.

"When I was in pain before, I asked you to die. At that time, you said let me persevere. After all, I have persisted until here and cannot give up."

"When I was tortured by gin and wanted to escape for the first time, you said I was fragile, just let me get used to it."

"I can't kill people. I asked you if I could help you. You said this is what I have to go through."

"I was trained by Gin to be a dog. When I asked you to turn back into a human, you chose to ignore it."

"There are many more times, but I can't remember all of them."

When Chihara Nozomi said this, he closed his eyes with a smile, and his voice sounded like he was crying.

The world consciousness obviously heard the choking, but what it saw was the smiling face of the young man.

"I asked you a lot, death, escape...you have rejected me many times, have you forgotten?"

【Xiaoxi, I can't interrupt the established facts, this is the rule, I can't make an exception for you alone. 】

[Maintaining the support of the world is my responsibility, Xiao Xi, I have already tried my best to protect you. 】

[I was also trying my best to make up for the mistakes I made at the beginning, but Xiaoxi, you refused! 】

……

World consciousness is very stubborn.

Qian Yuanxi knew it a long time ago, and he also knew that he couldn't reason with the world consciousness, he knew it a long time ago.

He closed his eyes, and the explanation of world consciousness rang in his ears again, the explanation continued continuously.

Desperately want his forgiveness and let go.

Qian Yuanxi tried his best not to let himself be affected, but the voice collided with his mind again and again.

He didn't want to hear the voice of the world consciousness at all.

——[Qualified saviors are mainly responsible for all responsibilities, and you still need to work hard. 】

——[Why are you such a waste, you can't save a few people, if you can't save it, don't promise to save it every time. 】

——【Gin hurts you, you have to get used to it, because there will be more harm later. 】

——【You can't die, this is your punishment. 】

——[Punish you for doing all kinds of evil when you were a bad person, punish you for ignoring death, punish you for selfishness, punish you for disregarding life. 】

The voices of world consciousness sounded quickly in his mind one after another. His head seemed to explode, and he opened his mouth to breathe heavily.

——【Sorry, I made a mistake. 】

——【You are hope. 】

The voices of world consciousness intertwined in the ear, and all kinds of voices mixed together, which made Qian Yuanxi feel pain for a while.

Which sentence does he want to believe.

--he does not know.

Who should he trust.

--he does not know.

He just wanted to die, and he really couldn't hold on anymore.

It didn't matter to him whether he ran away or said he was a coward who was afraid of hypocrisy.

He admitted that he was afraid of meeting people's eyes, and he admitted that he could not integrate into society.He admits that he has a lot of weaknesses, and he also admits that he has no value.

Qian Yuanxi opened his eyes in confusion, and he looked at the wrist tied to the railing.Just glanced at it, and then he moved his wrist.

Forcibly breaking free from the rope in a frightening posture, her wrist was forcibly twisted, but Chihara Nozomi didn't seem to feel the slightest pain.

Then he struggled to get up, and retracted his hand tremblingly, his bleeding wrist flowed down to the palm of his hand, and he groped for his ear.

very noisy.

Seeing that there was no scalpel around, or even any sharp objects to frown, Chihara Nozomi staggered out of bed after breaking free from the restraints.

He walked to the window, slowly but firmly.

The voice of the world consciousness in the head is more intense, but Qian Yuanxi feels noisy.

Since he can't ask the world consciousness to shut up, he can make himself unable to hear it.

……

When the people in the corridor outside heard the sound of glass breaking, Jiang Gu Ling and Zhu Fu Jingguang realized that something had happened, and they were about to run into the ward.

Jiang Gu Ling stopped: "I'm here to watch the gin, please Jing Guang."

After Zhu Fu Jingguang heard these words, he stopped and nodded: "Then I'll leave it to you, Zero."

Zhu Fu Jingguang quickly ran to the ward, the moment he opened the door, Zhu Fu Jingguang was stunned.

what did he see.

——The young man stood a few steps away from the window, and the sunlight was behind him, but the sunlight did not fall on the young man.

The boy was holding glass shards in his hand, blood was bleeding from his ear, and the blood stained the white hospital gown.

As if he heard the movement in Scotland, the boy slowly raised his head, and then looked over.

Those eyes were like stagnant water, without any emotional fluctuations, but after seeing Zhu Fu Jingguang appear, Qian Yuanxi moved slowly and hid the glass shards behind him.

"I didn't mean it. I just couldn't hold on. Don't be angry, okay?"

Zhu Fu Jingguang heard the boy's request.

Chapter 027 He Said He Will Be Happy Forever

At that moment, Zhu Fu Jingguang felt that his own breathing was about to stop.

His lips trembled, he didn't know what to say, he could only let go of the doorknob powerlessly, his eyes were full of powerlessness and self-blame.

"Xiao Xi?"

Zhu Fu Jingguang was at a loss for what to do. He wanted to step forward, but he was afraid that if he stepped forward at this time, the boy would have a stronger stress reaction.

He could only stand there, helpless.

Qian Yuanxi pursed his lips and made no other movements. He didn't take the initiative to step forward, and even his eyes were apologetic.

"It really wasn't intentional."

"He kept arguing in my head and I told him to stop and he didn't stop."

"He made me have a headache, and I can't help it."

Qian Yuanxi tried to organize his words, and he lowered his head while speaking, blood dripping from his ears on the ground.

His eyes were blank for a moment, and his hands behind his back clenched the fragments, which seemed to have cut his palm.

"Don't be mad at me, okay?"

"I'll try harder next time."

He muttered to himself, not knowing who he was talking to.

at last.

Zhu Fu Jingguang raised his feet and walked quickly to Qian Yuanxi. He didn't know where his hands fell, but his voice was trembling and choked with sobs.

"I'm sorry, Xiaoxi."

"It hurts, isn't it? I'll take you to the doctor."

Zhu Fu Jingguang stretched out his hand to take the shards of glass from Qian Yuanxi's hand, but Qian Yuanxi didn't hold her hand tightly, he let go.

Then he watched Zhu Fu Jingguang coaxing him in a low voice, while briefly bandaging his cut hand.

Then Zhu Fu Jingguang took off his coat and gently put it on Qian Yuanxi's shoulders, his movements were very light and trembling.

"Don't be afraid, don't be afraid."

"I'm here, Xiaoxi."

"I didn't die, and I didn't blame you."

Zhu Fu Jingguang spoke, then bent down and hugged Qian Yuanxi.

——That's not a princess hug, it's a posture of hugging a child.

Qian Yuanxi lay on Zhu Fu Jingguang's shoulders, with his hands around Zhu Fu Jingguang's neck, he was very quiet, but the more he did this, the more Zhu Fu Jingguang's heart trembled.

"Don't be afraid."

Coaxing like this, he walked out of the ward.

He didn't turn his head to look at Fuguya Rei and Gin behind him, he even put the hood on his coat on Chihara Nozomi in order not to let Chihara Nozomi see it.

"Don't be afraid, let's go to the doctor."

"Xiaoxi, if you don't want to hear it, then let's not listen, okay?"