Conan: After being rescued, I just want to die quickly

"I look uncomfortable and that's fake."

--not real.

"I just want to let myself be self-willed. I'm tired of pretending all the time."

—he was just tired.

"Besides, Jing Guang hasn't gone back yet, so I won't presume to do such a dangerous thing."

--lie.

"So Brother Jingguang, I'm not in pain, I'm just a little tired and want to rest."

Qian Yuanxi's lie has no flaws, Zhu Fu Jingguang watched it for a long time, but he didn't see any flaws.

Zhu Fu Jingguang still wanted to say something, Qian Yuanxi moved to the side, and then he patted his hospital bed: "Brother Jingguang didn't rest well, let's rest together."

"Xiaoxi, you should rest well."

……

Seeing the two getting along, the world consciousness breathed a sigh of relief.

Sure enough, the gentle Zhu Fu Jingguang is still needed.

but……

The world consciousness thought of what Zhu Fu Jingguang had done, and he suddenly began to panic.

Once a gentle person has an emotional outburst, it is also a sharp sword.

What's more, the current Zhu Fu Jingguang doesn't remember many memories, and the most important thing is that he hasn't remembered yet.

This is a double-edged sword.

The world consciousness wanted to remind Qian Yuanxi, but after seeing Zhu Fu Jingguang take off his coat and shoes and go to bed, Qian Yuanxi directly hugged Zhu Fu Jingguang and fell into a deep sleep.

The world consciousness shut its mouth.

He couldn't interrupt Qian Yuanxi's sleep at this time.

Besides, this is also a rare time that Qian Yuanxi took the initiative to rest, and the world consciousness looked at him with a somewhat complicated expression, and his expression was full of exhausted Zhu Fujingguang.

……

[Ominous feeling. ]

[Isn't this how Qin Jiu got along with Xiaoxi before? ]

[I said why it feels so familiar, the gin from the last caregiver hasten to stay away.If you don't know how to take care of others, you still want to go up and say that you want to pay back the favor. I think you just want to torture Xiaoxi more. ]

[Tired, I also want to sleep. ]

[I already feel that Xiaoxi is desperate, wants to die, wants to live...he doesn't have this idea. ]

[The world consciousness is a scumbag, agree with raising your hand. ]

[My Xibao has no home!He forgot his way home! ]

[? ]

[Fuck, knife. ]

[To put it bluntly, I feel that the world consciousness is quite selfish. He doesn't allow his mistakes to be exposed, so he wants to trap Xiaoxi here, and at the same time make up for it to make him feel less guilty. ]

[Gin Jiu doesn't want to take care of others at all, taking care of Xiaoxi means paying back favors, does Xiaoxi need you to pay back favors?He just wants to go home!What's wrong with him! ]

[Xiaoxi has a very good saying, if a person is saved, the world is perfect, and his value has been drained, what is he doing here? ]

[Is there a possibility that the world consciousness lied to Xiaoxi from the very beginning. ]

[Xiaoxi doesn't want to be the savior, he just wants to save six people, but the more he saves, the more he saves, and finally dies and suffers from addiction. ]

[I think euthanasia is better, it’s too painful to live. ]

［I figured it out. So far, only one co-author, Scotland, has apologized seriously and from the bottom of his heart, and other people’s problems have come out.

1. The world consciousness talks about compensation, but in fact it is just selfishness. He wants to erase his mistakes. As a world consciousness, mistakes are not allowed, and compensation is only incidental.

2. Qin Jiu didn't want to take care of people from the bottom of his heart. He took care of people first because he wanted to repay the favor, and second, because he didn't want to have weaknesses. Although he made changes, it was just to get closer to Xiaoxi. ]

[Oh shit. ]

［Fuck, I can feel it too. Although the world consciousness is calming Xiaoxi's emotions, but the tone is so condescending, and Gin is also condescending. ]

[So far, only Zhu Fu Jingguang has seriously apologized. If a gentle person like him breaks down emotionally, he will be crushed. ]

[That's why Xiaoxi sticks to Scotland, refuses to stick to Gin, and even backhands are just a big mouth. ]

[Fuck, don't make me cry and laugh for a while, I feel like I'm about to split. ]

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Qian Yuanxi originally just wanted to close his eyes and rest, but he didn't expect that he fell asleep next to Zhu Fu Jingguang.

It's just that he had a nightmare.

He didn't hate Zhu Fu Jingguang, or even what Scotland had done to him in the organization.

Because he clearly knew that everything Zhu Fu Jingguang did was not intentional, and he wasn't that bad in his bones.

How could it be so bad.

He died countless times, but the number of times he died at the hands of Scotland was very few. Different from the torment of gin sobriety, Scotland suffered an extreme emotional breakdown every time, crushing his nerves.

And every time he faces Scotland, his biggest emotion is guilt. He feels guilty about facing Scotland.

—because he didn't save Bourbon.

Chihara Nozomi remembered very clearly what Scotland did to him, and he didn't have the fear of facing gin.

He just knelt on the ground again and again, apologizing to Scotland.

——"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I didn't protect people well, it's my fault."

——"Qianyuanxi, since you don't have the ability to protect people, don't say you can protect us!"

--"sorry Sorry."

When he faced Scotland, the most he said was "sorry".

Guilt weighed down his spine, and he never looked up from Scotland.

He couldn't look Scotland in the eye again and again, couldn't boast that he would protect them all.

Qian Yuanxi is like a mouse in the sewer, hiding and losing too much.

……

The world consciously watched Qianyuan Xi fall into the nightmare again, and he pulled people out of the nightmare without hesitation.

But even so, he watched Qian Yuanxi muttering to himself in his sleep, hugged Zhu Fu Jingguang, and then he whispered sorry over and over again.

Zhu Fu Jingguang was right, he couldn't ignore the guilt in his heart.

And so is he.

—how could he ignore the guilt he felt for Scotland.

Qian Yuanxi hugged Zhu Fu Jingguang, shaking uncontrollably, Zhu Fu Jingguang pursed his lips, feeling unstoppable bitterness in his heart.

Then he saw Qianyuan Xi's mouth opening and closing, as if talking about something, he lowered his head and moved closer.

Then he heard "I'm sorry".

"I'm sorry" echoed in Zhu Fu Jingguang's ears like a curse, he remained silent, holding Qian Yuanxi's hand even harder.

——What are the shackles.

Zhu Fu Jingguang thinks he already knows that he and even everyone are trapped in the shackles that Qian Yuanxi can't get out of, their tone of voice and even their actions will affect Qian Yuanxi's emotions.

Thinking of this, Zhu Fu Jingguang lowered his head, and Qian Yuanxi was muttering to himself.

He said slowly: "Please, let Xiaoxi not be so painful."

He begged, hoping that God would let Qian Yuanxi go.

These words fell into the ears of the world consciousness, and the world consciousness paused for a moment, and then he glanced at the two people who were tightly hugging each other.

He heard Qian Yuanxi's muttering to himself, and Zhu Fu Jingguang's heartfelt plea.

[Although I didn't let him go, I will let him go, forgive everyone and start a new life. 】

The world realizes that it is also easy to handle now, and he looks at the two people who are embracing each other from above.

Up to now, he still thinks that he can let Qian Yuanxi live a normal life. In his opinion, Qian Yuanxi just lost his temper.

There are no purely good people in this world.

He thought... maybe one day when Qianyuan Xi asked him for money, happiness, and future, it would be Qianyuan Xi who forgave him for his mistakes.

He was waiting for Chihara Nozomi to ask for the world consciousness, but Chihara Nozomi did not hear the words of the world consciousness in his sleep.

Because of this rest, it was rare for him not to continue dreaming.

Chapter 025 Rotten to the core

"Do you only fight in the face?"

When Qian Yuanxi woke up, she fell into silence when she saw the two people sitting beside his bed.

He hid behind Scotland, deliberately avoiding Gin's eyes.

Qian Yuanxi didn't cover up his actions too much, he showed it directly, which made Gin's face darken a bit, and Bourbon next to him saw this but didn't taunt Gin.

Everyone was caught in a weird atmosphere, but it was Zhu Fu Jingguang who broke the deadlock, "Xiaoxi, Bourbon and I have decided to go back to the police."

"Xiaoxi provided us with what we needed in the USB flash drive, and we gave it to our superiors, who also gave us instructions to go back."

Zhu Fu Jingguang's tone was so gentle, what he said made Chihara Xi couldn't hide his happiness, and his dull eyes lit up.

He is really happy from the bottom of his heart.

"Really! You are going back!"

He finished speaking happily, and then he was a little worried: "I heard that the police are in chaos. Will you be suspected if you go back like this?"

"It's okay Xiaoxi, we've already inquired about it." After Zhu Fu Jingguang finished speaking, he saw Qianyuan Xi pinching his fingers, as if trying to test something.

Zhu Fu Jingguang just laughed out loud, and then poked Qian Yuanxi's palm with his finger, as if making some response.

Qian Yuanxi was a little shy when he felt it, but he still couldn't hide his joy, "Are you really going home?"

"Really." After Zhu Fu Jingguang said this, his eyes warned Bourbon, who was about to speak, and Bourbon closed his mouth a little aggrieved, and didn't say much.

"Is Xiaoxi happy?"

"Happy!" Of course Qian Yuanxi was happy, if he hadn't been unable to get out of bed, he would have come down for a few laps.

"Have you packed your luggage? You can go home with peace of mind. Nothing will happen to the organization. I will explain to that adult."

Qian Yuanxi said so, he poked his head out from behind Zhu Fu Jingguang and looked at the silent Bourbon, he still wanted to ask why Zhu Fu Jingguang suddenly changed his mind.

Zhu Fu Jingguang seemed to have expected it a long time ago. He lowered his eyes and looked at Qian Yuanxi who poked his head beside him, "I thought about what Xiaoxi said, and I think it makes sense."

"Besides, we'll make Xiaoxi feel uncomfortable if we stay."

After Zhu Fu Jingguang said this, he thought of Qian Yuanxi's appearance when he was sleeping.

With them by their side, it was painful for the boy to even breathe.

Zhu Fu Jingguang also knew that they couldn't force Qian Yuanxi all the time, they had to let go appropriately, as long as they ensured that no accident would happen.

Qian Yuanxi didn't know his small movements after falling asleep, and he would not ask the world consciousness what happened after he fell asleep, his curiosity was not serious.

What's more, he believed Zhu Fu Jingguang's words.

If believing in gin and relying on gin is a forced addiction, then believing in Zhu Fu Jingguang is a trust from the heart.

"Then after you leave..."

"But is Xiaoxi going to the hospital with us? Yan Er seems to have dropped his leg and is in the hospital."

Hearing Zhu Fu Jingguang's words, Qian Yuanxi, who was still in a good mood, turned pale, "Is it an explosion?"

[No, it's——]