I, who can only be reborn 12 times, travel in Zongman

"Because Brother Kaos must have his own considerations."

"Little Rada is indeed a sensible and good boy."

"hey-hey."

"It's true that I still have some food here, and if I take it out, it can make everyone survive for a few more days, but just a few days is not enough, Rada, you can understand."

Kaos didn't lie. He didn't have many things on his body. The old clothes were destroyed like that, and many things were also destroyed.

There were only some sweets left, and loaves and sandwiches.In fact, Kaos also saved some 'dark cuisine' made of light.He thought the smell was quite pungent, but he also scrapped it.

After seeing Lada nodding, Kaos continued.

"The current Chernobog has just entered such a state, and there are still some food left in the area outside this, so we should look for those resources more before the rescue arrives. My side Just treat it as a resource that is used only when there is no other choice. This way at least you won’t be driven to a dead end easily, do you understand this?”

"Rada understands."

"Then, starting tomorrow, Rada must start eating seriously. If the body collapses, no amount of food can be found to save it."

"But……"

"Otherwise, I'll pull Lada out every night, secretly feed Lada, let Lada eat all the food, and when the time comes, everyone will have nothing to eat and can't take it out."

When Kaos said this, Rada became anxious for a moment. She widened her eyes and nodded desperately while holding the half-eaten sandwich.

It was obviously something that was beneficial to her, but in the end she showed fear instead.

However, in the end, Lada looked down at the slightly bulging pocket, and asked Kaos tentatively.

"Um... these candies, can Lada share them with everyone?"

"OK."

After getting an affirmative answer from Kaos, Lada showed a happy smile again.

In the dark alley, sitting beside Kaos, eating quietly.

At the same moment,

On the corner of an alley some distance from Kaos and Radha.

There was a figure holding a fire ax tightly in both hands against the edge of the wall.

It wasn't until she heard the conversation and the laughter on the other side that she slowly put down the fire ax in her hand.

Without making a sound, he quietly walked back to the small warehouse.

As if she had never been here.

But, before returning to the little warehouse,

A figure came out of the small warehouse.

She looked at her and said softly.

"Sonia, there is something I want to talk to you about."

"...Anna."

2st Summary Origins: Chapter 27 survived at least

Only a faint light leaked from the half-open door of the small warehouse on the other side, illuminating some of the darkened areas.

There is no way for moonlight to shine into the passage between buildings and buildings.

Here, it is darker than the rest of the place.

But even so, Sonia would not mistake the partner who appeared in front of her.

She should put the books that never leave her body in the warehouse.She crossed her arms in front of her chest, looking a little cold.But even so, she followed out.

The long light blue hair was braided into a braid around the back and hung down in front of the right shoulder.It wasn't clear enough in the dark, but Sonia knew she was wearing some star hair accessories.

She was wearing a school uniform style different from Sonia's.

The eyes under the monocle don't look like they just woke up sleepy, on the contrary, in the dark, those eyes show a breathtaking sight as if they can glow.

At first, Sonia thought she was the same as herself, because she heard some movement, and then got up because she was worried about Lada's safety, but she made Sonia realize that was not the case at all.

"...Anna..."

Sonia called out her name softly.

But Anna Morozova did not respond.

Sonia exhaled softly. She is not a stupid person. Even though she is a little irritable, unreasonable, and even careless, in fact she also has the qualities that a girl should have. Delicate thoughts.

It just doesn't usually show up.

Ever since she left Peterheim, she had realized that sooner or later a conversation like this would happen, or never.

It's just that the unexpected time will come so soon.

Thinking of this, Sonia turned her head and looked to the side of the passage.Looking there from here, you can only see the darkness beyond the corner, and the side where you can't see anything else.

Gently exhaling the breath in her chest, she raised her chin slightly towards Anna who was waiting there, and signaled Anna to go back, closer to the small warehouse instead of this side, so that the voices of the two people would not be heard from this side. direction to go.

Seeing this, Anna had another reaction. She nodded slightly, turned around and walked back towards the small warehouse.

Sonia held the fire ax in one hand, but it was not for vigilance or defense, but in a very relaxed posture, followed behind Anna.

The two came to the small warehouse, not close to the door, but close to the light overflowing from the small warehouse.

Instead, they leaned against the wall of the small warehouse that had sunk into the darkness on this side, and the two of them leaned close to each other at a shoulder-to-shoulder distance.

Unanimously lowered their voices, trying to speak in a voice that only two people can hear, and will not be heard far away in the dark.

"Sonia, you are running away."

Anna rubbed her shoulders, as if this would make her body more relaxed.

She didn't look at Sonia beside her, but stared at the ground and said softly.Following her words, white gas spewed from her mouth and quickly disappeared into the air.

"You want to hand over the position of leader, don't you?"

Probably because of the darkness, Sonia showed a bitter smile that she seldom—at least not since reuniting with Anna.

Because as a leader, or in other words, as a chosen leader, she does have the ability to lead some people to live, and she has indeed achieved this step, and she cannot show this lack of confidence in front of those who believe in her. Promising smile.

Anna is a very smart person. Although she doesn't speak much, and more often just stays quietly watching, but she sees many things more thoroughly.

For Anna, there are many things she would not choose to say even if she has realized the truth.

Here, Sonia's deepest thoughts are directly pointed out in such direct and even vicious words.It's not just that her relationship with Sonia is now closer than imagined, but it's probably because Sonia's idea of ​​giving up makes her feel uneasy, even dissatisfied.

Sonia... She is not very confident about the relationship between people, to be precise, the trust between people.Thus, even though she may indeed have some capacity for being a leader, she has never been able to gather a self-centered society until now.

She is always alone.She only needs to do what she wants to do, she only needs to be responsible for herself, and she doesn't need to care about other people, and she can already live a good life.

In fact, even now, there are not many who can make Sonia trust her.

If someone asked Sonia, there were so many people gathered around her, why only these four were left in the end.Sonia would probably not answer as the person who asked the question imagined: because I trust them.

Her answer is more likely to be: because they are smart enough to not do anything stupid.

But it was Sonia who was pushed to the position of leader in the end.

A lot has happened since Sonia was pushed to be a leader and is still a leader until now.

As far as they are just high school students, the word leader is a bit too sharp in terms of just interpersonal communication.And too much emphasis on the position of leader is enough to highlight some kind of abnormality.

When Sonia's leadership position was shaken, and when Sonia even showed a tendency to give up her leadership position, Anna became anxious.

Anxiously, she found an opportunity, and immediately came to Sonia to ask her.

Even... questioning her.

"...Because, I am not a qualified leader."

In the darkness, Sonia also did not look at Anna beside her, and also stared at the ground and said softly.

The two of them were so close, but none of them wanted to look at the person beside them.

It was as if a thick barrier had appeared between the two of them, separating the two of them like this.

From the origin of neighbors in the past, to the reunion after a long absence, and to living and dying together, the two of them have a friendship and trust in each other far beyond ordinary people's imagination.

But at the same time it exists.It is two people who are afraid to see each other.

Trust each other more than anyone else, and believe that the other party can achieve your expectations more than anyone else.

But it was because of that trust, and because neither of them lived up to their expectations, that they finally realized they had let each other down.

None of them became who they imagined to be.

"...Until now, I still think about that day, and probably never forget it."

Sonia's voice was trembling slightly, and she tried her best to suppress this shaking, but if the person next to her was Anna, then it seemed okay to say these things, so in this shaking, her voice still kept her The mood stands out.

A brief silence.

Anna did not comfort Sonia.

In other words, she didn't know how to comfort Sonia, and she couldn't comfort Sonia.

All she could say was when it was right in front of her eyes.

"At least I survived and we survived."

2st Summary Origins: Chapter 28 That's right, Anna.

"Yes, at least we survived."

Sonia knew that her thoughts might be so simple, and she also knew that when necessary, she would never hesitate and show mercy.

But Sonia knows better what is right and what is wrong, what should be done and what should not be done.She will not find an excuse for her behavior, find a reason, and deceive herself.

"But it shouldn't have been the only ones who survived."

It seemed to be getting colder, and the school uniform couldn't block the chill of the night, not to mention that Anna didn't even have gloves, and the lower body of the school uniform she was wearing had no other clothes except knee socks.

His legs were numb from the cold, and the school uniform and some small movements could not resist the biting cold.

But Anna couldn't tell whether the chill came from the outside world or from somewhere in her body.

A conversation like this seems to have happened once before, but this time, what the two said was completely reversed.

"Anna, you are right. If there hadn't been that fire, if I hadn't done such a thing, everything would not be what it is now. My reckless actions not only did not dispel your worries, but also made your wishes It fell through."

Did you do such a thing just because you were 'not a qualified leader'?

Even handing over the leader position of the team that was so hard to maintain to the present?How many people do you have to protect and hand over to others for protection?

The answer is more than that.

No one can be perfect and be able to make 100% correct choices, and so-called leaders never use this condition to distinguish whether they are qualified or not.

What really made Sonia make this choice was that her confidence in being a good leader like Anna imagined was completely gone.

Sonia felt that she had indeed protected something, that she could be trusted by others, and began to feel that she could become a real leader, just like the heroes in those novels.

But all of this followed a fire in the end, and the chaos that followed the fire was enough to overturn everything, completely tearing Sonia apart.

"Anna, do you know that at that time, I was most afraid of what you would say to me?"

"What I am most afraid of is that you tell me that you are wrong. Then, what I am even more afraid of is that you say that I am wrong."

In the darkness, Anna's lips moved slightly. She wanted to say that she had never blamed Sonia for this, but such a thing had already been said last time, and it would not make any sense to say it now.

Anna asked herself, did she really blame Sonia?Until now, she still feels that if at that time, if Sonia could discuss with her before taking action, then the matter would not have developed to that point, even if the situation would still appear to be very difficult, and it would not be for the students. Fighting with differences removes obstacles.

And she...wouldn't do that kind of thing anymore.

Even if he said that he didn't blame Sonia, he still felt a little bit of complaint in his heart.

But even if Sonia did discuss it with her, could she come up with a solution to the predicament?If she really has a way, how far will things go?

Perhaps, she was just escaping.In this way, make yourself feel better and make yourself feel more like an innocent person.