Yoshikage Kira will save Renri

"You, too, left work without authorization and came here, father."

After opening the door of the ward, apart from the mother who was lying on the bed as if she was asleep as usual, but her body was already emaciated, Lixiang saw her father who was supposed to work at this time but stayed by the bed.

"It's just... I feel a little lonely, so I just want to see her, although your mother probably can't feel that we are here now."

Lixiang's mother has been in this state for several years, and there has been no sign of waking up. Perhaps from a certain moment, the two have accepted this fact.

"Lonely?"

"...Maybe it's because you've become somewhat unfamiliar to me....

There's a feeling that...you might leave me too, Lixiang. "

Will he leave his father? Hearing what his father said, it was a bit difficult for Lixiang to say no directly.

After all, in fact, in her eyes, she hadn't seen her father for nearly two years, but in her father's opinion, it was only less than two months.

"I want to...always be with you and mother. Father...."

"..."

The nutrient solution in the drip is constantly dripping, like a second hand that is constantly turning, but it seems meaningless in this ward where time has long been isolated from the outside world and stagnated alone.

Chapter 130: The Man from the Other Side

"Mother is dead." Sitting by the hospital bed, Lixiang couldn't help thinking this. In fact, she did tell Yoshikage Kira that way, saying that her mother was dead. I killed myself.

"Mother...is still alive and well."

"Of course, the breathing and pulse are still there..."

There was nothing wrong with what her father said, and Lixiang knew it was the case. Breathing, pulse, and heartbeat, which symbolized that a person was still alive, were still well preserved in her mother.

"...I don't feel it anymore, after all, it's been six years since your mother became like this."

Lixiang's father seemed to see what his daughter was thinking, but he didn't mean to blame, because even he himself had begun to have the illusion that his wife was dead.

Just lying here, not responding to anything, as if asleep forever.

If it was a fairy tale, then no matter how many years passed, the Sleeping Beauty would not change. However, the fact is that only Lixiang's mother's skinny body can actually tell the two people who miss her the most about the passage of time.

"Can it be considered alive like this, or is it actually more painful than death. I don't understand, but I can't let her die, Lixiang..."

"I know, Father. We have to wait until the moment when Mother wakes up."

Even if she doesn't have a real sense, living is living, and she is willing to believe that when she tells Lixiang rationally, even if it brings a burden to this broken family, it still makes Lixiang feel that she can live like this if she has a mother The hope of going down is a kind of happiness.

"I'm so hypocritical...."

Obviously I caused my mother to become like this, but I prayed in my heart that she would wake up early or something. Is this a pure sense of atonement?

Lixiang thinks that not only this, she may have such humble and even despicable thoughts, but what she really hopes is that even her mother's life, which has been filled with darkness in the future, has the so-called value of continuing.

"Lixiang, I don't know many of your thoughts, you have grown up long ago. But...in your eyes, would you choose to die because you are not happy enough?"

"......Won't."

Lixiang shook her head. In fact, she didn't want herself to hesitate on this answer. Happiness is not something that everyone can continue to have, but people will still work hard to live.

She is her, mother is mother, here are ordinary people who can no longer be ordinary, a drop in the ocean of countless people who walked on the streets every day.

But this small and easily painful life is all that a human being has at birth, and it must not be easily discarded.

"Really...Sorry, just think I'm under too much pressure, and I suddenly want to ask some strange questions. Also...It's not good to leave early, so don't do it next time.

...Forget it, to be honest, I already feel that your daughter is a little strange, Lixiang. "

Since Lixiang came back from the so-called part-time job, Lixiang's father felt that his daughter had become very good, so good that he didn't feel like his daughter anymore.

Although Lixiang had nothing to be proud of in the past, at least it didn't make him feel that there was anything to worry about.

Now Lixiang doesn't matter whether she is studying or sports, there seems to be nothing she can't do, and the attendance rate is not [-]%, which is not a big problem. People who are really capable enough to be regarded as geniuses have no lack of academic qualifications when they step into the society.

"You...are you really possessed by some evil spirit? If that's the case... I hope you can tell me where your mother is now."

"Father, if I can really see it, I must have pulled my mother back."

"Pfft! Hahaha, you really answered seriously. Well, we don't need to be too heavy. Anyway, you don't have anything to worry about now. Why don't you have a meal together with the long-lost father and daughter."

Lixiang's father is usually busy with work and rarely goes home to eat. Now that Lixiang has become like this, he also wants to change his current situation a little bit.

"You don't have to force it, Father."

"It's not forced, just treat it as my father's request. And... I really want to talk to you more."

Li Xiang could feel her father's forced smile, the eyes of the man who lost his wife, apart from his love for his daughter, also had the feeling that he was looking for the shadow of his wife from her as a daughter, and took her As a bridge to the other shore.

"...Well, let's have a meal together later, father~."

Lixiang smiled, she could understand her father's thoughts, there was no need for any resistance to this feeling, no matter who it was, there would be times when they couldn't help but want to act like a baby.

But because of this, Li Xiang couldn't help but imagine, if she could really be on the other side, would she be able to know whether her mother's own consciousness still desires to live, even if she will never wake up like this in the future.

"Maybe... your mother was always on the other side."

"...Father, stop thinking about it."

What her father said suddenly made Lixiang immediately understand what it meant. In fact, there was no need to say "maybe". As a person, at least part of her mother was born in a place where neither she nor her father could touch. of.

The woman they live with is only part of her complex.

A body and a soul form a person, in a sense at least a misunderstanding caused by deliberate simplification.

A person can have many souls, and even many bodies, and the mother in her memory is only one aspect of it.

Now they are on the side of life, and part of the mother may have gone to the other side, between life and death, but this also means that Li Xiang cannot see more "soul" of her mother.

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"So... who are you, kid? Why do I bring you with me to dinner with my daughter!?"

"Uh...don't worry, uncle, I will pay for my own part of the meal!"

"Who is uncle!"

When it was time for dinner, Lixiang's father thought that he could have a quiet dinner with his daughter in a familiar restaurant, but in the end there was an extra character like Akihara who made people feel redundant.

"Hey, Lixiang, you don't have a good eye for men, this kid is not serious no matter how you look at it!"

"Woo! Did you see it at a glance!?"

When Qiu Yuan was told this, although he was a little angry, he didn't dare to be as bad-tempered as he was in school. On the contrary, he couldn't find anything to refute for a while. After all, he was indeed considered a bad boy in school, and his grades were also at the bottom of the class.

"And I remember that you liked to hang out with bad boys before. The last two seemed strange enough. Why is there another one this time!"

"It's just ordinary friends, father... Akihara, can you stop being too flustered, I won't do anything to you just because you said something wrong..."

After taking a sip of coffee, Lixiang said to Qiuyuan that she was not surprised that Qiuyuan followed her, but his reaction now was too "virgin".

"And...don't stare at me all the time, father will really attack you...."

"Ah no, I didn't stare at you!...Sorry, I won't watch it again."

Akihara hurriedly explained, but seeing Lixiang's disbelief at all, he finally chose to surrender.

It's not a nympho or something, Lixiang's temperament is indeed better than before, but it's also because she now eats with a sense of elegance and leisurely.

She is as skillful as a noble lady from somewhere, and the place where she felt a bit feminine when she hit someone before is gone.

"...Lixiang, I'm also a little curious, who did you learn this eating habit from?"

"Huh? Ah...."

Lixiang herself didn't notice that she had brought here the movements she had been indoctrinated while eating in the palaces of Rome and Uruk.

In fact, she was not so careful when eating in Chaldea, but the reason why she became like this now is that she was nervous and left her side.

"Please don't worry about it, it's fine when I suffer from the second illness."

Li Xiang didn't particularly enjoy this dinner time, because in the hospital before, when her father mentioned that a person has multiple sides, it reminded her of the past when her mother was in the hospital after an accident, because of a man's The "episode" that she couldn't forget when she came.

Next, she planned to find that person.

Chapter 140: Retaining those who have left

Unlike many other girls of the same age, Lixiang's room has no decorations, no pictures or photos, and no dolls or ornaments.

Lixiang still remembers that when she was in junior high school, there was a poster of Bruce Springsteen posted in the room, but every time her mother saw it, she frowned as if she saw a prison escapee.

Not long after that, Lixiang removed those posters, and she didn't particularly care about those things, she just wanted to make the room a little different in color, but it turned out that she didn't feel any change at all, plus Mom didn't like it, so she removed it.

But in fact, the mother's room is very similar to Li Xiang's room, it is blank, and there is nothing that can describe the interest of this person.It is also a poster of a movie that my father likes that exists by chance.

Lixiang has never been able to imagine what her mother would be like when she fell in love. Compared with women of the same age, her mother looked much younger, and she didn't look like a housewife at all.

There is no doubt that the parents love each other sincerely, but the life after marriage is completely different from the so-called love time before marriage, at least Li Xiang thinks so.

Then the appearance of that man brought a subtle twist to Lixiang's impression of his mother.From that time on, it was difficult for Li Xiangdiu to associate his mother with a simple and bright image.It is composed of multiple elements, or a combination of multiple subjects.

In the past, Lixiang didn't mind combining her mother's existence with her birth, and her life after that.Of course she also understood that her mother's life began before she was born, and it always preceded the mother she knew.

Lixiang looked around the room where her mother had stayed countless times before.A small desk, bookshelf, wardrobe, dressing table by the window.

There is a small stereo and French and Italian folk CDs on the closet, and there are several mystery novels that have not been read on the bedside table.

The appearance of her mother reading a book and listening to music in this room made Lixiang feel that she could recall that scene, and the familiar feeling in her body told her that her mother had lived here.And his mother is gone now, so Li Xiang wanted to find her here.

"That's it..."

I found an old photo album in a drawer. It was something my mother and father had before they were married. The quality of the color photos was a little bit poor.

Through the veil of 20 years, Lixiang rummaged through the memories left by her mother, and finally found the face of a man who felt handsome and confident.

"Tomioka...."

Lixiang still remembered the man's surname, which he saw in the hospital's visiting list. Scrolling down this photo album, he could find several photos of Tomioka alone.

Then I saw my mother who was a student when she was younger, with long hair, a red scarf, and a beautiful and simple dress.

What exists there is a mother that Lixiang has never known, another kind of smile that has never been seen before, and there is a man looking at her through the camera, all her beauty and loveliness are facing him.

"It's really... a special and complicated feeling."

Lixiang felt that the image of her mother in her memory had also undergone some changes, romantic and mysterious.There was no problem while the mother was alive, because the mystery was the mystery, tightly wrapped in her body and mind.

As for the letter in the other box, Lixiang didn't read it on purpose. She still needed to find the man named Tomioka, and she didn't want the idiot who was waiting outside to wait too long.

"Sorry, did I keep you waiting?"

Li Xiang, who walked out of the house, saw Qiu Yuan waiting outside, he really looked like a man waiting for his girlfriend, except that he couldn't have such a thing as a car.

"No, it's better to say...you look very anxious, Lixiang."

"He's calling him by his first name again... Forget it, if you really like it, then so be it."

Lixiang felt that it was time to get used to this boy's entanglement. She didn't hate him, but she couldn't change her mood now.

"But...do I look really agitated?...I can only answer that you are."

The mother gives birth to the child, and the unknown in her guarantees the distance between mother and daughter.However, now that his mother hasn't woken up for a long time, Lixiang feels that the sense of loss is not less than the scruples that he might lose his mother forever.

This sense of loss is not because of what is lost, but because something has come into view and is newly generated.

"I have a feeling that if this goes on, I will pass my mother forever."

"...It's a bit of a sad statement. I don't know much about it. But... Lixiang, are you the kind of person who can't help but keep the dead?"

Persuasion, after hearing what Qiu Yuan said, Li Xiang realized that she seemed to be trying to keep something.

"My mother is not dead yet!"

"Ah, sorry, I didn't mean that...."

"...It's okay, and I'm not particularly angry."

Lixiang intends to investigate the location of Tomioka, and it is estimated that a day or two is not enough, and she herself probably understands why she is so active in trying to save something now, and even hopes to talk to the person who is going to the other shore.

"Huh? Your glasses are on again."

"You really care about my glasses, do you prefer the way I don't wear them?"

If possible, Lixiang would like to go back to Chaldea again. She regretted the behavior of being completely indulging in grief at that time. If she could go back now, she would want to look for the traces left by Matthew.

Matthew has truly disappeared on the other side, and what she knows about Matthew Kyrielight is certainly not all.