Yoshikage Kira will save Renri

At this time, you shouldn't interrupt, and you don't need to tell whether your feelings are different, just listen to her words quietly.

"As if to make up for this imperfection, people whisper and do all kinds of things while hugging.

Even so, it didn't help, and knowing this, I fell in love with the sea.

I want to be embraced forever by the icy cold water that feels so real.Every time I am in the sea, I will have an illusion, as if I am a fish mistakenly born as a human. "

Lixiang curled the corners of his mouth unknowingly, his eyes reflecting the starry sky looked childlike, as innocent as a baby who had just seen this world.

"When I first entered junior high school, I went to the southern islands with my parents, and I learned the basic skills of breathing while snorkeling.

Then, during the summer vacation when I was about to enter high school, I received professional training and finally obtained the qualification for diving in the sea.

My mother is also a good swimmer, a champion swimmer when she was a student and a regular swimmer after marriage, so I had no problem diving with her as a partner.

So every holiday, I like to go swimming in the sea with my mother.Every time I go to the sea, I feel that we are not divided into mother and daughter. Apart from the peace of mind that there is someone swimming beside me, there is no relationship between people. I think my mother thinks the same way.

Everyone is lonely in the sea, just like in the primitive world, where silence is more important than language, existence is more important than movement, and there is a sacred atmosphere in the sea. "

It's like listening to a poem. No matter how ordinary life is, people will always find the transcendent thing they want at a certain moment.

It's like the soul has been fueled to live endlessly. If human life can be summed up not only in words, it can actually be very exciting.

"I became part of the sea, like a tiny splinter in the blue water.

But when I suddenly looked to the side, my mother who was supposed to be by my side disappeared. After my partner was no longer by my side, my thoughts suddenly became confused. The more I fell into the situation where I couldn’t find my mother, the more flustered I became. , had to surface to take off the respirator, and then dived into the water again in one breath.

Later... I found her curled up in the sea, but at that time... I didn't distribute oxygen to my mother. "

At this point, Lixiang was silent, and Kira finally opened his eyes a little bit, and the moonlight shone in his eyes, giving Kira a sense of purity as a child listening to an adult telling a story.

"I guess...it's not without reason?"

"Hehe... There is indeed a reason, because I didn't have much oxygen left at the time. If it was distributed to my mother, she and I might be able to save both, but it is more likely that she and I will die."

Before this night, Li Xiang hadn't told anyone about it, and it should have been a past event that she would bring into the coffin.

"The cause of the accident was that my mother's automatic breathing apparatus failed because she was renting it temporarily. But in fact... I regretted the decision at that time countless times."

From here, Kira had a dialogue with Tachika, and Kira wanted to taste the girl's thoughts tenderly if possible.

Soft and tender, but full of bitterness and sourness, more attractive memories than unripe green apples.

"Do you regret not giving oxygen to your mother?"

"No, I regret why I didn't give her oxygen directly... Although I like all kinds of beautiful fairy tales and heroic dramas, I never think that reality will definitely favor me.

The chances of my mother and I surviving after the oxygen distribution are probably less than [-]%. In that case, I can only choose between myself and my mother.

I told myself that I didn't choose that because my mother's situation looked as bad as it could be.But... what is really at work is the desire to survive that I can't get rid of no matter what. "

There is no doubt that the mother deserves a child to abandon everything for her, but no matter how clearly Lixiang thinks about it, her inner desire to live will still overwhelm all her thoughts related to self-sacrifice.

"Maybe your mother, like you, thinks it's easier to find herself in the sea than on land, so her desire to survive has dropped."

"As a daughter, even if I think so, I can only feel that I am brazen....

The comatose mother was sent to the hospital for emergency treatment, and it took quite a while until the death was confirmed. "

Lixiang still remembers very clearly that when the red light was on in the operating room, her father was so anxious that she couldn't speak a word, but she couldn't help but want to cry when her father yelled at her. Afraid to cry.

Because she knew what she had done, she couldn't cry, anyone could cry but she didn't have the right to cry, and she wouldn't tell anyone what she was thinking at that time, that's what she decided at that time.

"Kirara, have you ever had someone who didn't start to feel that they knew each other a little bit until after the other person died?"

"...had, but not particularly intimately."

"That's fine, it won't be too painful. I... Once, in order to go in to see my immobile mother, and to negotiate with the attending physician, I even took a person who claimed to be an old friend but whose origin was unknown. Take her to the hospital to see her."

"...."

"That man left a bad impression on me, he came here without contacting me or my father beforehand, and my mother never mentioned his name.

But I didn't expect that he grabbed my mother's hand as if ignoring my existence, and then leaned close to her ear and called her name.

At that time, my mother was in tears.It was just a coincidence, and the doctor also told me that it could only be a physiological phenomenon.But I didn't dare to investigate who the man who looked like a child who did something wrong was.

As time passed, I chose to forget about it, and what I finally waited for...was the news of my mother's death.My mother seemed to be telling me that she couldn't tell me more things in person. "

"It's really amazing, this is not a love triangle story, what I can feel... is the helplessness that you can't further understand a dead important person.

I didn't expect such a role to exist in my mother's life. "

"So I often dream, if I am on the other side, will I be able to understand my mother and Matthew further. They have left me, so should I just agree that death is the end of everything."

Picking up the wooden knife, Li Xiang stood up, tonight is destined to be her sleepless night.

"I'm going to live, and then... just a little bit, I'm going to live and complete the missing pieces of my life."

Chapter 30: Walking in the Way of Man

"I'm really like a child. I actually waited until now just for you, the one who escaped in the last confrontation."

Ba Yuqian was sitting under a tree. The battlefield here has never been cleaned, or there is no need to clean it, because soldiers will clash here from time to time, and the number of corpses is only increasing day by day.

There are no villages around here, so no one cares whether the rotting corpses of soldiers here will cause plague.

"Hmm... Although I don't quite understand it, to be honest, even if the master trains her personally, I don't think she can beat you."

Beside Ba Yuqian, Changwei Jinghu lightly tossed a piece of bone, it was a piece of broken bone that she casually took out from the wound of the soldier's corpse, even she had to act like a child during the boring time of these few days Stop losing bones and continue playing to reduce the feeling of suffering.

"Don't you have confidence in your master...Kira Yoshikage, Echigo's military god?"

"If you want to talk about his strength and madness, then I am absolutely confident that he is no longer the category of perverted scum that can be described by humans or gods~.

But... Even so, if he doesn't do any cheating transformation directly, it is possible to turn a little girl who only knows how to wield a knife like a stick into a warrior who can beat you in a few days. "

Nagao Jinghu didn't say anything strange, but just said the truth in this world, don't say a few days, it's months or even years, if you can become a hero if you just work hard for such a long time, then the whole world There are already heroes everywhere.

"And... I remember that the master came here before, and the time I told you about your appointment with her seems to have passed."

It has indeed passed, according to the time Kira said at the beginning, Fujimaru Tachika should return to this battlefield where the obvious corpse smell has begun to be emitted early this morning, and fight Ba Yuqian for a showdown.

"It's indeed passed. If you look carefully, the sun is almost setting... Generally speaking, um, generally speaking, this is regarded as being released as a pigeon?"

Waiting from early morning to dusk, this kind of thing is said to be releasing pigeons, but Bayuqian is still waiting here, just like an honest wife waiting for her husband to return from the battlefield.

"But it doesn't matter if Ba doesn't leave or not. Ba, who is here now, doesn't belong to pan-human history, nor does he belong to the heroic swordsman. Of course, he won't wishful thinking that he is a creature of this strange belt."

"For you...is this the only meaning left in life?"

"Besides... I don't seem to need anything else. How should I put it, this is the so-called Dawu? Or... I really only have an empty shell?"

Now Ba Yuqian understands that she is just an existence destined to disappear. As a heroic swordsman, she has obtained the will of Ba Yuqian, but the meaning left by her is nothing other than a showdown with Fujimaru Tachika. thing.

"So I'm going to wait, and keep waiting."

For her, all she should do now is wait, waiting here for the arrival of Fujimaru Tachika, who is the challenger.

"Sure enough...it's still hard for me to understand."

Jinghu can't understand this kind of outlook on life. Although the current Ba Yuqian has the personality of Ba Yuqian, he is just a child who was created by Ashiya Domitsu and liberated from magic for some inexplicable reason.

This means that she is already a human being, and maybe other humans will not admit it, but in Jing Hu's eyes, she is a human being, because she looks no different from other humans.

Why would such a person sit in this place like a seeker, just waiting for a duel with someone who might not come at all.

The meaning of life, in the eyes of Jing Hu during his lifetime, has always been a way of deceiving others, because life will only end forever at the moment it disappears.

"Actually, I also thought it was stupid, but yesterday when Mr. Kira...Kira Yoshikage came to me and told me the date when Tachika would come, one sentence made me sober."

Ba Yuqian smiled, she just waited like this now, so she wouldn't feel that she was wasting her time, and from this point of view, it was indeed a pretty easy life.

"Human beings... can't live without being attached to something. He said that including himself, if you don't be a slave to something, you can't feel alive."

"So now you...are you also a slave?"

"Everyone is the same, so... I am human, right?"

What he said at the end was like a question sentence, but the tone sounded like an affirmative sentence. Jinghu understood that even if Fujimaru Tachika did not come, Ba Yuqian would continue to wait on this road that she must pass until she arrived , or at some point, when the world comes to an end.

"Master, please... Let that kid come over, it's time for a showdown...!"

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"Ugh...!"

Li Xiang, who was lying in the grass, opened her eyes suddenly. Until just now, she was still like a baby on this mountain that was not suitable for sleeping, obsessed with sleep without dreams.

It wasn't until that moment just now that he opened his eyes as if instinctively feeling something was wrong, and then saw the sky that had sunk into the setting sun.

"I am asleep?"

"You see, you know. Really, you couldn't sleep the day before the duel, and fell asleep directly on the day of the duel. How did your nerves grow?"

Kira, who sat on the tree and watched Lixiang all the time, and drove away the approaching beasts, asked with a wry smile. He never thought that Lixiang would just fall asleep like this, and he would sleep until almost night.

"How about it, how do you feel after sleeping beautifully but find that you have wasted a lot of important time?"

"Hehe...hahahahahaha!"

Hearing Kira's words, Lixiang, who knew how long she had slept, covered her face and laughed, but it didn't sound like a helpless laugh, but more like a joyful laugh.

"Ah, I lived another day, that's great, I lived another day! Hahahahaha!"

"Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa!"

Seeing the girl's happy smile, Kira didn't know why he wanted to laugh together. Even though he hadn't solved any problems, he still laughed because he had lived another day.

"...that's funny, what am I?"

Knowing that such a big event is not good and wasting a lot of time that shouldn't be wasted, but Li Xiang just wanted to laugh, because he had slightly postponed the period of dying and wanted to laugh.

"I'm so small, you can laugh at me as much as you want, Kira."

"Don't say that, I also laughed very happily, you are really a child who makes me happy, Lixiang."

Lixiang stood up, she was no different from the previous two days, except for a few tricks taught by Kira, she hadn't improved much.

"But... the confusion has disappeared, and now I... seem to be able to accept any ending."

Picking up the wooden knife beside her, now she only has this piece of wood she sharpened as a weapon.

"Ba Yuqian, even though she doesn't stand out at all among the various powerful enemies she has encountered in the past, even so... she is still a warrior worthy of respect by people like me.

If fate wants me to die...then I have nothing to regret when she is my opponent in the end, on the contrary...it is fortunate. "

"Have you become detached in your heart? Let me, a cheap teacher who has only taught you for a few days, see how much progress you have made, Lixiang."

Jumping down from the tree, Ji Liang walked in front, leading Li Xiang to go down the mountain to find Bayuqian.

At this time, Lixiang's words were trying to be brave, and Kira didn't know, because in the life described by Lixiang before, what was reflected was how terrifying her desire to survive as a human being, and because of this The regret caused by the desire to survive that only death can make up for.

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"It's coming... I really didn't wait in vain. Even if my heart is empty, I still can't help but look forward to it..."

Ba Yuqian, who was sitting under the tree, slowly opened her beautiful eyes. What she saw was the figure of the man who passed her by electricity before, and the man who followed behind him. He chose to escape in embarrassment before, but now he is holding his head upright. The girl with the breasts approaching here.

"Sorry, I overslept just now, Bayuqian."

"Pfft...hahahahaha!"

Seeing Lixiang approaching, the first thing that happened was that Ba Yuqian, who lowered his head and apologized, was going to say something, but he was amused and forgot what he wanted to say before.

"Look, I said she won't keep running away, Your Excellency Nagao Jinghu~!"

"If this is not a lie, it means that you have really slept like this until now?

Really, are you brave or an idiot? "

Jing Hu narrowed his eyes and said with a smile, Li Xiang's previous behavior of running away was not shameful in her eyes, on the contrary, in her eyes, weak people should do this, and it was only natural for weak people to choose to run away.

"Let me tell you first, I will help you keep that knife well, it is really a good knife, even if it may be a monster knife, but its quality is definitely a treasure sword worth fighting for by countless swordsmen.

It's just... I won't give it back to you now, and it's okay if you think I keep him for myself. "

"It doesn't matter, I was the one who left Wuming Village with you. In the battle with you, I only planned to use him from the beginning."

Lixiang grabbed the handle of the wooden knife with his prosthetic limb, pointed at Ba Yuqian and said.

"Heh... It seems that the preparations are more adequate than I imagined. Yes, then let's start when you are ready."

Facing a wooden knife, Ba Yuqian showed a happy expression, even if it was just a wooden knife, it was enough to kill someone, and the strength at this time was also coming with the mentality of wanting to kill her.

"That's fine, Lixiang... But, since I've been your teacher for a few days now, I still have to ask you some questions."