There was something wrong with my past life

As a guest invited by the Dao League, and with Xu Chuyan's special status as a great singer, he was arranged to live in an independent courtyard in the Jiangcheng League Ruins.

"Leave me your number and treat Ning Ye to a casual meal some other time as a thank you!"

Before leaving, Xu Chuyan took the initiative to ask for Ning Ye's mobile phone number, with a very natural expression. It seemed that he really wanted to make an appointment for dinner later and express his gratitude for saving her today.

Naturally, Ning Ye didn't show any pretense, and the two of them exchanged numbers.

Because it was already very late at night, after saying goodbye to Xu Chuyan, Ning Ye went back with Dongfang Qingyue.

"Ning Ye, you seem to have something on your mind?"

On the way back, Dongfang Qingyue saw that Ning Ye was in a daze along the way and couldn't help but ask.

"It's nothing, it's just that after listening to Qingyue you talk about Xu Chuyan's life experience, I had some strange and confusing thoughts for a while."

After hearing this answer, Dongfang Qingyue said nothing more and could only remain silent.

She knew very clearly who Ning Ye was thinking about right now.

Because the elders in the family were family friends, and she and Xu Chuyan were similar in age, Dongfang Qingyue had known Xu Chuyan when she was a child, who came to Dongfang's house with her parents. However, as she got older, As time went by, the connection between her and Xu Chuyan, who was practicing with the sword master in Jian Peak, was severed.

Seeing each other again after so many years can be regarded as a reunion of old friends.

When it happened to Xu Chuyan, it shocked the entire Taoist alliance. She was plotted by her enemies and the demon blood in her body was stimulated. She was rescued by a highly respected Supreme Elder in the alliance at an extremely heavy price. A few years later, she A supreme elder who was supposed to have at least a few hundred years of life passed away, and the death knell within the Taoist Alliance tolled.

Although she has never experienced that situation personally, Dongfang Qingyue has heard many discussions about this matter within the alliance. Most of the alliance members have a regretful attitude towards this matter. After all, every Supreme Elder is a Taoist. An extremely valuable cornerstone figure of the alliance, but he died just to save a girl, which is really sad.

Some monks in the alliance who had received favors from the Supreme Elder, as well as some members with extreme emotions, blamed all the anger on the death of the Supreme Elder on Xu Chuyan, thinking that she was the broomstick and her fate. If you die, you will die. It is not as precious as the life of the Supreme Elder.

Life is neither high nor low. This is only true for the person involved, but not in the eyes of others.

It is conceivable how much criticism and pressure Xu Chuyan, who was still young at the time, suffered.

Due to the disorder of the demon blood in her body, Xu Chuyan's path of cultivation was completely blocked despite being suppressed and reversed afterwards. However, this may not be a good thing for her. Being able to live happily as an ordinary person is better than entering the Taoist realm. The League has been criticized and looked down upon everywhere.

Seeing this few remaining friends from childhood again tonight, recalling her tragic experience, Dongfang Qingyue naturally thought of another woman who had a similar tragic experience, Jiang Jingyi.

Just like the person beside Ning Ye, who is thinking about now.

Thinking of this matter, Dongfang Qingyue couldn't help but feel sad in her heart, and at the same time she felt envious of Jiang Jingyi.

That’s right, it’s just envy!

As the saying goes, if you have never seen the sun, you can naturally get used to the darkness.

If Dongfang Qingyue left Jianfeng and went down the mountain to experience this time, and had never met Ning Ye or experienced the beauty of love between men and women, then she could naturally accept the arrangement of fate calmly and marry into the Nangong family as expected by her family, becoming a marriage between the two major families. of ties.

However, there are no ifs in this world.

Although in the eyes of the outside world, Jiang Jingyi suffered such a misfortune and even lost her life, in the eyes of Dongfang Qingyue, at least she met someone who she loved and who loved her in the vast sea of ​​people. people.

If the roles could be reversed, Dongfang Qingyue would rather give up everything about herself to become her, even if it was only for a short day.

In the past, she didn't understand anything about love. She always thought that many things were just pure friendship, and she never thought too much about it, or in other words, she didn't dare to think about it too much.

However, so many things happened one after another these days, and she finally began to face the truth in her heart.

Dongfang Qingyue hides a secret deep in her heart that she has never told anyone.

It was a familiar dream that I relived over and over again...

In the dream, I was sitting in a wedding room full of red makeup. Then I heard footsteps outside the door. I opened the door of the wedding room and walked up to myself step by step. I lifted the red hood covering my head. What came into view was A familiar face with a warm smile...

Dongfang Qingyue looked to her side, and suddenly remembered a sentence she had read before -

The moon in the water is the moon in the sky, and the person in front of you... is your sweetheart.

"Qingyue, why are you looking at me like that?"

Ning Ye raised her head and happened to meet Dongfang Qingyue's indescribably strange look. He thought she was worried about her condition, so she smiled and said comfortingly: "Don't worry, what happened in the past is in the past." "No, I'm not the kind of person who is obsessed with the past and can't extricate myself. I will adjust my mentality. After all, I still have things to do, but I can't be willfully immersed in the sadness of the past."

"No...it's okay. Oh, um...ok, that's good."

After being caught peeping, Dongfang Qingyue lost her mind for a moment, as if the little secret hidden in her heart was discovered, and she became a little incoherent.

"Qingyue, are you okay? And the people who haven't been able to see you recently, are they encountering some trouble? If you really encounter trouble, don't hide it, it will be much better if you talk about it. , Aren’t we friends? Friends should help each other!”

Ning Ye, who noticed something was wrong with her, didn't think much about it. Instead, she comforted her and asked her to tell herself as a friend if she encountered any difficulties.

Over the past month or so, Ning Ye has indeed noticed that something is wrong with Dongfang Qingyue. She was not like this before. She would say one thing and another and not hide anything in her heart. Even though she was a member of the Taoist Alliance. He is an elder with a sword, but he is so simple and cute.

But for some reason, he seems to be worried every day and often disappears.

Is it because he has entered the rebellious period of youth? After all, judging from her age, she is currently at this age.

"Oh, I see."

Dongfang Qingyue nodded, indicating that she understood.

After having the same dream many times in the middle of the night, and seeing the same sweetheart in the dream, she gradually became clear about her own feelings.

Well, her love for Ning Ye is not just a simple friendship, but the kind of love that wants to be a lover.

After understanding this, and thinking of her current situation, she was silent for a long time.

So in the days that followed, she tried to minimize her contact with Ning Ye, hoping that the feelings in her heart would slowly fade away as time passed.

In this world, there are many people who have the right to pursue happiness in life.

However, as the Oriental family's hope for rejuvenation, she had a marriage contract with the Nangong family, but she did not.

It's like if you want to be worthy of every elder and relative around you, you can only be sorry to yourself.

"The moonlight is so beautiful tonight."

She was walking home with Ning Ye, looking at the bright moon above her head, and said softly.

Obviously she could fly back with her sword, but she didn't do that tonight. Instead, she chose to stroll home. This was her last bit of willfulness and greed.

Even though he knew that he couldn't get it and didn't even have the right to pursue it, he still greedily and stubbornly longed for this kind of warm happiness with the person he likes.

The moonlight is indeed beautiful tonight.

It's so beautiful that you won't want to leave.

I also hope that this road of returning home together will have no end.

It took a long time to write this chapter, and I paused several times with extremely complicated emotions, because I thought of someone, and the pressure on her shoulders now must be the same. Regarding Dongfang Qingyue, I actually didn't have much emotion when I first started writing, but after experiencing some things, looking back at her now, I can't help but feel very distressed. The reality is far more bloody than the novel... The author knows very well that she and Ning Ye will have a happy ending, but the author in reality is not the protagonist of the novel. The reality is really heavy. Maybe life is like this, and people will slowly accept this world full of regrets. I have a new level of understanding and understanding of the character Dongfang Qingyue. In future plots, the author will write with heart and emotion. (This chapter has been written for too long, and the next chapter cannot be made in time for twelve o'clock. It should be placed tomorrow morning. The author is in a difficult mood, and I hope you can forgive me.)