Small Shop Owner in the 1960s

"Nannan, I know about this." Lin Qingbai said calmly, just holding the car's hand tightly. "I also know Qing Song's reason for doing this."

"You know, why did you want Lin Qingsong to do this. Xu Hong is very annoying, and I hate it when I look at her. But such a thing...too nasty."

After hearing Lin Qingbai's confession, Xu Nannan suddenly felt a lump in his heart.

She is a woman, and women are always sensitive to this matter. Especially she herself had almost experienced this kind of thing, and she can deeply understand the nasty and hatefulness of this kind of thing. At that time, she even hated herself for being a woman, so she didn't have to suffer nasty things if she was not a man, but a man.

Lin Qingbai had a calm face and didn't know how to answer. He didn't want Xu Nannan to know, Nan Nan was young and a girl, and there were things she shouldn't let her know. But now it happened to let her know again, making him a little at a loss, and he didn't know how to explain it.

Seeing his silence, Xu Nannan felt a little uncomfortable, "I will go back by myself." She felt that she had to be quiet, otherwise when she saw Lin Qingbai, she would have thought that this man looked at a woman innocently indifferent. Now facing her questioning, she can also remain silent like this. She actually hoped that Lin Qingbai could explain something.

"Nannan!" Lin Qingbai ran after him and took her hand.

"Brother Lin, leave me alone." Xu Nannan looked at him, "I have to think about it, how much do I know about my object."

Turn around and walk forward.

Lin Qingbai watched her go, thinking of the rejection in her eyes just now, clenched his fists and slammed on the bicycle.

Xu Nannan didn't get in the car, and Lin Qingbai pushed the car behind her. The two followed a distance, and still took Xu Nannan to the house.

In the yard, Grandma Yu didn't see Lin Qingbai coming to the door of the house and asked, "Why Xiaolin didn't come today."

"Just left." Xu Nannan said boredly.

"This kid is so sensible every time. I know not to enter the house casually. Xiaolin is a good kid, calm and decent. You have to get along well." Grandma Yu is very satisfied with this grandson-in-law. I was worried that Xu Nannan would hurt his feelings when he was young and played with temperament.

Xu Nannan entered the room without answering Yu's words.

Being calm is true and decent, Xu Nannan is a little bit uncertain.

Early the next morning, Lin Qingbai came again.

Neither of them spoke, nor did Xu Nannan get into the car. Lin Qingbai followed behind with a black face, without saying a word.

They didn't say a word until they got to the mine.

Xu Nannan knew that Lin Qingbai insisted on his own ideas in this way. And she couldn't accept Lin Qingbai's involvement with things like that, so the two of them acquiesced and started a cold war like this.

The key is that Lin Qingbai is the cold war in the cold war, but he still comes to pick him up and drop off every day.

He did not speak, and Xu Xu Nannan absolutely did not speak.

"Guan Yu, I have something to tell you."

When Xu Nannan left work at noon, when Xu Nannan was absent-mindedly about to go to the cafeteria to eat, he was stopped by Lin Qingsong.

Seeing Lin Qingsong, she remembered that the culprit in this matter was still this person, and the response to him before came out in her heart. I thought I was a **** before, but now I know that I can do such nasty things.

"There is nothing to say." Xu Nannan walked hurriedly.

"I'll make it clear to you, it has nothing to do with my brother. Let's talk about it."

Xu Nannan heard Lin Qingbai, did not hold on, and followed him holding the lunch box.

All the people in the mine went to the cafeteria to eat, and there was no one on the road. The two of them found under the shade of a big tree. Lin Qingsong looked at Xu Nannan's disgusting look and felt very uneasy.

With regard to Xu Hong, he took a breath before and warned this woman's thoughts. Who knew it would become like this later.

"My brother said that you know about that, and I won't keep it from you. It was indeed designed by me. But I was also angry. Xu Hong, relying on the relationship between the old man and the old lady, leaned in front of me all day, and said I want to sue me for being a hooligan. Believe it or not, I never thought I would really do something. That is to ruin her reputation. After saving her, she clashed on me. Who knows... Anyway, things are done. But my brother It’s also for me, don’t blame him. You have chilled him these days. He can’t sleep at night and sits all night long. I never saw my brother feel so sad since I was a child."

Lin Qingsong felt uncomfortable when he talked about this. I hadn't brought his brother in since I knew it. Who knows that this matter will let Yu Guan know.

Moreover, Xu Hong didn't feel anything when it happened at that time. He felt that it seemed to have exceeded his expectations, and Xu Hong really couldn't wrong him anymore. And that is self-inflicted. But after hearing the people in the mine talk more, I felt quite uncomfortable again. I feel like this is too much trouble. He hated Xu Hong very much. Even after Xu Hong threatened him, he was no longer hated, but treated as an enemy. He felt that when dealing with the enemy, he should not break his hands. After listening to the people in the mine, they felt that this incident seemed to exceed his expectations. After all, it's because the enemy is a woman.

He hadn't understood it yet, and his brother was also tired by him, which made him feel even more uncomfortable.

Xu Nannan laughed angrily when he heard what he said, "Listening to you, Xu Hong is self-inflicted about this matter, but if this matter occurs, you are not at all wrong?"

Lin Qingsong was a little bit embarrassed when asked by her.

"Why didn't she dare to rip at your brother? Why did she rip at you. In the final analysis, you are also half a cat. Lin Qingsong, think about yourself if you have any problems with lesbians. You are a man and a lot of girls. Comrades get close, you don’t suffer. But what about the lesbians like you? Do you think that Xu Hong’s incident has subsided and will be fine in the future? I’ll tell you there are too many things. She has lived it herself No matter how hard it is, she did it herself, and no one sympathizes with her. But if it is ruined for the rest of your life because of you, your own conscience is uneasy?"

Lin Qingsong's face turned pale. "Anyway, this matter has nothing to do with my brother..."

"I know it has nothing to do with him. I am mad at him for supporting you in doing this. What happened to you and Xu Hong, what happened to Xu Hong, that is your own business, but I don't want your brother to intervene like this. Things." Xu Nannan felt uncomfortable when he talked about this.

Lin Qingbai just fights with others and beat them for half their lives. She can't blink her eyes. But this kind of thing...

Xu Nannan couldn't speak anymore, turned around and walked away holding the lunch box, not even going to the cafeteria. Go straight back to the office.

People in the procurement department know that Xu Nannan is in a bad mood in recent days.

When Section Chief Xiao assigned tasks, he also tried not to assign them to her.

But Li Weiming is now busy getting married and has no time for business trips. Sister Liu is now taking care of the family and can't travel far away. There is a small Zhang left, which is very tiring.

"Chief Xiao, let me also arrange tasks. I haven't been out for a long time." Xu Nannan didn't want to affect his work because of a bad mood.

Section Chief Xiao listened to her and said worriedly, "Nan Nan, can you travel far in this situation recently?"

Xu Nannan nodded, "Yes, I've been at home for a long time, and it's time to go out to work."

"That's OK, the list of Dongyang City, you go." Dongyang City is also a province in the north.

And over there, near the northwest.

Xu Nannan thought of Teacher He. Teacher He is at the Northwest Farm. It's just time to go and see Teacher He. When opening the letter of introduction in the afternoon, Xu Nannan asked Zhu Fang to help open an additional letter of introduction to the Northwest Farm.

Xu Nannan was still entangled in whether to talk to Lin Qingbai about a business trip, but Lin Qingbai did not come in the afternoon. I ran into Lin Qingsong on the road, and she didn't have a good time to ask.

Lin Qingsong said with a sullen face, "My brother is away."

In fact, until now, Lin Qingsong doesn't know whether he should be right about Xu Hong. But Xu Nannan's words also reminded him that his previous practices were indeed absurd.

In the past, he had no idea of ​​keeping a distance at all. He felt that he had no nasty thoughts, and it seemed that he was getting close to lesbians. But what happened to Xu Hong this time... he thought, if he could be like his brother, maybe it would not be so easy for others to try to pick him up. Things that he thought were not so important before seemed to become more important.

"Yu Gu, about Xu Hong, I found that young man who is willing to marry Xu Hong. I know this is a bit shameless, but I have nothing wrong with it. I asked Xu Hong yesterday and she was not happy. Said I was not happy. To marry her, just wait for Liu Hongjun... Whatever, Xu Hong, don’t remember my brother. I am his brother, he must be protecting me. You can blame me, don’t blame my brother. My brother When I was young, I had to endure hardships. At such an old age, it’s rare to have someone with me. Don’t make trouble because of me."

Xu Nannan felt very uncomfortable thinking of Lin Qingbai. "When your brother comes back, tell him, I'm on a business trip."

Xu Nannan felt better when he got on the train. She didn't go to Dongyang City, but got in the car to the northwest.

The weather in the northwest is also hot, which is better than Nanjiang.

After getting off the train, Xu Nannan asked the way all the way. On the way, he met fellow villagers who went to the city to buy things, took a ride, and finally reached the Northwest Farm smoothly.

Xu Nannan thanked. He took out about two catties of white noodles from the bag. "Thank you so much for today."

The man who drove the car was the captain of the village, a simple and honest northwest man. Before he could speak, his wife took it over with a smile, and said enthusiastically, "Big girl, what are you grateful for? It's just a matter of course. Can you have a place to live this night? There is no place to live around here. If you don’t have a place to live, just go to Xiawan Village ahead and find the captain’s house. We don’t have any other house, and there is still a place to sleep."

Xu Nannan also meant this. This newcomer was not in the city, so I really wanted to find a place to stay. With a smile, "That's OK, thank you elder brother and sister-in-law first."

When the people left, Xu Nannan found a place where no one was there, bought some cornmeal and miscellaneous grain flour, and made ten kilograms of noodles, and went to the farm on his back.

At the gate of the farm, there were people from the local corps guarding, watching her carry things over, and said solemnly, "Who are you looking for?"

Xu Nannan smiled and said, "Two comrades, this is the Northwest Farm. I'm here to work from other places. No, a fellow asked me to bring things here."

He took out a few boiled eggs from the inside and put them in the arms of two people.

At this time, it is easy for people to refuse to give it to others, but food cannot be refused.

Especially this kind of nutritious eggs.

Those who were originally prepared to be stricter were not embarrassed to stop them.

Knowing that Xu Nannan brought something to the helper, and after asking the name clearly, someone looked for the insider.

Soon, a middle-aged man came over, and after asking the reason, he looked at Xu Nannan, "Looking for Lao He?"

When Xu Nannan heard this name, he knew that this person should have a good relationship with Teacher He. Nodded, "I'll pick him up for someone. I'll leave as soon as I meet."

"There have been quite a few people looking for Lao He recently." The man murmured, "Come with me."

Xu Nannan walked behind, close to each other, only to realize that this was Director Qiu on the farm, who was in charge of allocating the work.

The two stopped before a row of wooden houses, "Old He, someone came to see you."

"It's eating. You came by coincidence, it was time to eat." Director Qiu said.

Soon, He Qiusheng came out of it. Seeing Xu Nannan coming, his eyes lit up and he was a little surprised.

Seeing He Qiusheng's skinny appearance, Xu Nannan almost burst into tears.

Uncle He is obviously thinner than when he was in Nanjiang. At first glance, I did not work less.

"Okay, you can speak quickly, and you will have to work later." Director Qiu said solemnly, and he was ready to leave.

Seeing that he was leaving, Xu Nannan hurriedly said, "Don't go in a hurry, I brought some special products here, so I will give you a taste."

Speaking, he took out five kilograms of large white noodles in a small sack and a packet of brown sugar. They are all things that are not easy to buy.

Looking at what was in his hand, Director Qiu glanced at He Qiusheng, "Old He, who brought you this."

Teacher He did not speak yet, Xu Nannan smiled, "Who does not have three friends and four friends, distant relatives and close neighbors. Now even if you want to keep your distance, you are still relatives. If you really don’t care about it, it’s not too unkind. Director Qiu, go back and see if this is good. I'll post it to you when I look back."

"Okay, you guys have a good chat." Director Qiu carried his things and left.

When someone left, Teacher He looked at her and sighed, "You kid, who told you not to come, why did you come?"

Talking, carrying Xu Nannan's big bag, walked into the house. Xu Nannan immediately followed.

"No one in this place knows me, and it's far away, it doesn't matter. No one in Nanjiang knows that I'm here to see you. Besides, I'm helping with stuffing, can't I?" Xu Nannan dared to be so far away See people so clearly. Sometimes the people staring secretly are the familiar people around him.

"Oh, one or two, both are like this."

Teacher He sat down and sighed, then picked up the dishes and prepared to eat. At first glance, what Mr. He ate was not bad, there was corn paste in the bowl.

The farm here also provides food, but there is not much to eat. You can also cook a small stove on your own. But with their status, it is impossible to get a cooking pot.

Xu Nannan discovered that there was still a wok in this place, Mr. He. And it looks new.

"My son gave it." Teacher He watched her staring at the pot, and said with a smile. Obviously I am in a good mood.

"Your son?" This is the first time Xu Nannan has heard of Teacher He's son.

"It's a dull brat. Tell him not to come to see me, unless he brings his daughter-in-law, he still ran by himself." Teacher He smiled. I didn't mention it any more, but looked at her and said, "Why are you here? Don't come here in the future. Just pick up the stuff once. If there are too many, it won't work."

Once people can still open their eyes and close their eyes, too many, no one believes when they are unfamiliar.

Xu Nannan said, "I know, I just want to come over and see how you're doing."

"You've seen it too. It's good. Although I am free when I am not there, at any rate, I have company, and I can talk when I work."

He said lightly. When Xu Nannan heard it, he knew it was not so good. See if people are so skinny.

Xu Nannan's nose is a little sore.

Seeing her like this, Teacher He sighed, "I really have a good time, don't worry about me in the future. I help you, because you are a kind-hearted child, and he is also a hard-working and motivated child, and he is clever. It's not for you to give back. Don't always worry about it either. Don't turn around and I will help you, you just got yourself in."

Xu Nannan nodded, and she also knew that she didn't have many opportunities to see Teacher He. I can send things here in the future.

I don't know how many things can be in the hands of Teacher He, but for the sake of someone looking at things, he is kinder to Teacher He.

"Teacher He, I'm a target." Xu Nannan thought for a while, and felt that he still had to tell the teacher about this matter.

Hearing what she said, Teacher He smiled, "I am really curious, what kind of young man is so blessed."

"Before I thought he was very good, everything was good. He was decent and good to others. But later, I found out that he was actually not so decent. He knew that other people did bad things and didn’t stop them, and didn’t feel wrong afterwards. . I have some lumps in my heart again. I feel that something like that has been put on him, and I just think about it. I don’t think he should be that kind of person."

Xu Nannan finished speaking incoherently. Seeing Teacher He was silent and didn't respond, thinking he didn't understand, but seeing Teacher He put down the tableware, "You are quite similar to what my son and me said. This kid ah. He was a person who refused to admit defeat since he was a child. This time he came to me and looked pretty uncomfortable. When I asked, I realized that he said he was rejected by others."

Xu Nannan didn't know what he said about his son, but Teacher He wanted to say that she wouldn't be able to interrupt, "Why was it rejected because of his identity?"

Teacher He's son will always be involved.

"That's not the case. My business didn't affect him. It's just that someone close to him did a bad thing, and he didn't stop it. He didn't want to stop it. As a result, his subject knew about it. The subject hated him. , I think he is not as good as before, and a bit bad."

Xu Nannan moved in his heart and looked at Teacher He.

Teacher He sighed, "Nannan, to judge whether a person is bad or not is actually to see where the bottom line is. Different experiences have different bottom lines. For example, my son, who has fled with his mother since childhood, experienced things. , More than others, his bottom line is a little lower, maybe some people think he is bad. But is he bad, I don’t think. He also stretches out his hand when he sees uneven things, even more enthusiastic than others. But sometimes he does It’s unacceptable. It’s me, sometimes I feel that this child is thinking too much. But after experiencing a lot of things, I understand him."

"I had an old friend who had been a close elder of this child for many years. We went to teach in your province from Shanghai together. At that time, the two families had a good time. His wife was a poet, and he He was like-minded. But because he was favored by a female student, he was entangled, and finally was forced to disperse his wife. He couldn't stand the blow, so he jumped from the teaching building, in front of the teachers and students of the school. Use life to exchange his innocence. When I looked at his opened eyes, I hated and hated the girl student. Then I did something to seek justice for him, but in the end, I came to this place. It was one of my students who sent me here. This student did it for love. But my son also personally sent them where they should go. You said, who is bad in this matter? Anyway, this matter. Inside, we all think the other person is the bad guy."

"He..." Xu Nannan swallowed nervously, "What's your son's name."

"He Lin." Teacher He looked at her.

"Nan Nan, you should know whether he is really upright. Don't deny everything just because of his point."

He Qiusheng stood up and seemed to be ready to go out to work. Xu Nannan also stood up, noisy in his head.

"Nannan, live your life well. Everyone has good and bad sides. How to choose is up to you. He may be bad, but he is always good to you."

He Qiusheng sighed as Xu Nannan left. Xiaolinzi, I can only help you here. This temperament should be personally restrained.

Director Qiu sent it out when he left the farm.

Maybe because he took some things, he had a good attitude towards Xu Nannan. Xu Nannan asked for the specific address of this place and said that he would help people send things over in the future, and then let Director Qiu help to collect it.

Director Qiu naturally understood what was said.

He smiled and said, "It's okay, it's not troublesome for this kind of thing to go smoothly."

The two were tacitly aware.

It was getting late when I left the farm, and it took a long time to walk into the city with my feet. Xu Nannan simply went to the house of the captain of Xiagou Village that he had met before.

It is estimated that because he had taken Xu Nannan's things before, the captain's house was quite welcoming to Xu Nannan. And Xu Nannan brought some eggs, which made the captain's wife laugh from ear to ear.

Knowing that Xu Nannan was on a business trip and was a worker in the city, he was stunned to entertain Xu Nannan as a distinguished guest.

The fine grain Xu Nannan gave was something he was reluctant to take out for everyone to eat. During the meal, the captain's wife gave Xu Nannan gnocchi, and that was just one portion. None of the three children in the family have to eat. Worried that the children would be greedy and want to eat, they even let the three children go out to eat.

"Comrade, you are so delicious. I don't know if the things made by people from the countryside are in line with our appetite."

The captain's wife laughed.

Xu Nannan looked at the contents in the bowl and smiled, "I don't really want to eat this. Give it to them. I'll just have a bite to eat." Then he called the children to come in and gave the lumps in the bowl to the children. Minute.

Seeing Xu Nannan like this, the captain's wife was a little embarrassed, "Comrade, you, what are you... Well, comrade, you are a good person."

These days, whoever eats another bite can save it from his mouth and give it to others. It's just a little bit better in the past two years. In the past, it was eaten even with soil, not to mention the noodles.

Xu Nannan grinned reluctantly, and see, how easy it is to be satisfied. A bowl of gnocchi is all good people. In the future, no one will eat such a bowl of pimple.

Without experiencing these hardships, how could she understand the thoughts of these people. No matter how much I listened to before, no matter how sweet it is, it’s not as good as the real feeling this time.

Just like her and Lin Qingbai's living environment are different, she can't know what his inner world thinks. Where is his moral bottom line. But she didn't know, she seemed to understand a little bit.

He is not as magnificent as she thought. But who can say that he is a bad guy.

He is just a good person with his own selfish mind, not so fair and honest, and even a little insidious.

Early the next morning, Xu Nannan took the car in the brigade to the city. After all, Xu Nannan took a detour to Dongyang City, bought the materials according to the purchase order, and after sending it out from the post office, he didn't collect materials like before, so he went straight back to Nanjiang.