Sleepless Doctor

"Brother, are the days after marriage really so hard?" Chu Zhixi asked Wu Mian's hand with some worry.

"That man was really not easy just now." Wu Mian said, "In the current situation, many parents help to get the down payment, the husband and wife work hard, and the monthly payment is hard. If the parents can't help, they have another illness and need Often hospitalized, life must be harder."

　　 "I usually visit the doctor when I am in the hospital, but I don't notice this."

　　 "Do you still go to the theater without seeing a doctor?" Wu Mian smiled, "It's okay, get drunk, relax, and things will pass. As for the future, whether it is good or bad, it has to be overwhelmed."

　　 "But..." Chu Zhixi didn't know how to describe it.

"You mean there is no hope, do you." Wu Mian understood Chu Zhixi and said for her, "The alarm clock has already rang in the morning, but I still have to get up to work; the tiredness of working overtime yesterday hasn't gone, so take them with you. To crowd the bus, crowd the subway; doing routine work day after day, year after year, no growth, in the days to come, I can see the head at a glance, I don’t even know where the road will be cut off, etc. It’s unemployed for one's own sake."

　　 Chu Zhixi’s parents are also employees of public institutions, earn a lot, and are not very busy. She had never been in contact with this kind of life. Hearing what Wu Mian said and substituting herself in, she immediately felt that the whole person was beginning to feel bad.

　　 "After paying wages, excluding the money and mortgage for the elderly, there is not much left; the couple wanted to go out to eat something delicious to celebrate on their wedding anniversary, but no one was willing."

"elder brother……"

　　 "Most people live like this." Wu Mian said, "Everyone hopes that life can be a little easier, and feel that they have worked very hard, but life is always so hard."

　　 "You don't want to read all kinds of chicken soup texts, but chicken soup texts are everyone's favorite. Why? Doesn't it give people a faint hope even if it is false."

　　 "Brother, what if you are in his place?" Chu Zhixi asked.

　　 "Hehe." Wu Mian smiled, "Remember when I was in Xiehe?"

"what's up?"

　　 "I had a headache once, and you were still undergoing surgery. I ran to the overpass opposite the hospital. You looked for me for a long time."

　　 "Remember, that time I was frightened, thinking you were going to jump off the overpass. Find a big truck and stuff your head..."

"Don't talk about it in detail, I start to have a sense of the picture." Wu Mian tried to mess up Chu Zhixi's hair and laughed, "I was really uncomfortable that time. My brain hurts like someone was piercing me with an awl. His head was so hard that he was trembling when he walked in pain."

　　 Wu Mian felt the girl grasp her hand tightly.

　　 He responded softly, saying, "At that time, I was on the flyover watching the cars coming and going, and there was a lot of people.

Pedestrians after get off work are tired or expressionless; besides the public toilet, they see children who are doing homework on a small table, and they ask their parents who are doing cleaning at the same time; there is a thin woman who is holding a pile of With his own bottles and cans, his eyes are still staring at the passersby around, to see whose pure water bottle is empty. "

　　 "I thought I was the worst person in the world before that."

　　 Wu Mian recalled his feelings at the time and wanted to smile to make Chu Zhixi lighter, but the smile condensed on his face, a little dull and stiff.

"That was the fifteenth day after the teacher said that I was a young marshal in the field of surgery in the future. Everyone thought that I was infinitely beautiful, only you and I knew that I was almost unable to survive at that time. I feel uncomfortable and go crazy every day. Sometimes I I wonder if I should go to become a monk. Maybe under the ancient Buddha, I am chanting the same scriptures every day. Maybe I can be better in that way."

"and after?"

　　 "I can't bear you." Wu Mian said seriously, "I can't talk about love, but I just can't bear you."

"Almost everyone is very hard. Living with these two words has done everything in the world. Day after day, year after year, it is so difficult to have a little bit of harvest. Every harvest is very joyful. It's about to be crushed and smoothed by life, and there is nothing left."

"I was sitting on the sky bridge that day, watching the crowd below, and Mr. Yu Hua's "Alive" appeared in my mind. I always thought that "Alive" and "Farewell My Concubine" are the two best movies in our country, with many fates.舛, life is hard."

　　"Then unknowingly began to recite the "Living" by Yu Hua.

　　 Teacher Yu Hua said that the two words to live are full of power in our Chinese language. This is a vocabulary that only we can understand.

　　 Its power does not come from screaming, nor is it uncomfortable to attack, but to endure, to endure the responsibilities that life entrusts us, to endure the happiness and suffering that reality gives us, boredom and mediocrity.

　　 Our people are kind as long as they can let themselves live and they can tolerate anything. The meaning of this kindness is too heavy and the price is too great.

　　 What makes people sad is that these kind-hearted people are still standing upright like Fugui, smiling to realize the meaning of life. "

　　 Chu Zhixi could not understand the thorough meaning of Wu Mian's words without a single word and every word~www.wuxiaspot.com~ But she was holding Wu Mian's hand, but she knew what her brother was expressing.

"I felt like I was struck by lightning for a moment." Wu Mian said with a serious expression, watching the crowds of people in the distance, "So I decided to contact me about going abroad. To walk you all over the world."

　　 "Oh, that's the case, why didn't you tell me?"

"I don't know how to say to not be negative. It is better not to instill these negative energies. Although the conclusions I draw from it are relatively sunny and positive... Hahaha, I can't say it. Remember what I said about Meidi ?"

　　 "I can't kill you!" Chu Zhixi said with a smile following Wu Mian's words.

"Yes, stay alive, stay strong, don’t pretend to understand the true meaning of life, just live stubbornly. I am miserable, and others are no better than me. I don’t have to look at my bad things. I am optimistic about the place. For example, if I have done a good operation, my diagnosis is unparalleled in the world!"

　　 "Hahaha, my brother is right."

　　 "I will endure no matter how difficult it is later. In fact, I thought about going to death many times before then. If you were not there, I guess the grass on the head of my grave is already tall."

　　 Listening to Wu Mian's description, Chu Zhixi was a little scared, although she also knew that it was all in the past.

　　 "Don't worry, I can't kill him!" Wu Mian grasped Chu Zhixi's hand, with a look of stubbornness and stubbornness in his eyes, looking at the sky and clouds in the distance.