jump up and kiss you

"You don't make a sound in the dormitory. If two people squeeze into one bed, aren't you afraid of it collapsing? You still pull the curtain and push your shoes under the bed. What are you doing, old couple? Is it necessary? Didn't you just come back from home?" Why did you roll on the same bed with Zheng Xiyu again?"

"Ask you, you said you were in the library, and I said what's so interesting about finishing the exams? Well, I really ran away with someone. I understand that you two have something to say today, but don't say it all outside. After so long, why did you bring someone back to the dormitory to talk, let’s talk, why did you still hug me? Did you kiss, did you kiss!"

The two fired a machine gun, and they were used to quarreling and quarreling on weekdays. This time, no one would listen to the other, and they would first throw their complaints at the other side.

Tang Tiantian spoke a little longer, and in the gap between Ruan Ruan's mouths, the two questions about whether they had kissed were very resounding.

Ruan Ruan glanced at the door of the dormitory, staring at her with wide eyes.

"Listen, can't you hear me?" Tang Tiantian scratched his head, his eyes wandering, "Everyone has gone home, there are not many people left."

"Kiss." Jiang Xue said suddenly.

Ruan Ruan: "!!!"

Jiang Xue raised her hand and pointed her finger on Ruan Ruan's cheek: "I kissed the cheek."

"Fuck blah blah..." Tang Tiantian sighed.

She crawled down on the ground with hands and feet, Zheng Xiyu couldn't do anything, and helped her in a mess.

"What's the matter with you two?" Tang Tiantian asked while crawling, with an excited expression, "I've seen it anyway, so why don't we meet honestly."

Jiang Xue was about to speak when Ruan Ruan pushed her back, "Go back."

Jiang Xue: "I can't live anymore."

Ruan Ruan: "The hotel next to the school is generally recognized as safe."

Jiang Xue pursed her lips.

Ruan Ruan: "If you don't have money, I'll call you on WeChat."

Jiang Xue lowered her head, turned around and walked out without saying anything.

The dormitory door opened and closed, Ruan Ruan exhaled, Tang Tiantian was about to go up to gossip, the door opened again.

Jiang Xue rushed to Ruan Ruan and said, "Then... call?"

Ruan Ruan: "..."

Jiang Xue looked at her, her hand holding the door didn't relax at all.

Ruan Ruan: "OK."

The door closed again.

This time Tang Tiantian waited for a long time, making sure that Jiang Xue would not come back again, and then said, "What's going on, has she been impaled?"

Zheng Xiyu put on his coat and bid farewell at the right time: "I'm going back, see you tomorrow."

Tang Tiantian quickly grabbed her hand and shook it: "I'll go with you tomorrow, don't go alone."

"Yeah." Zheng Xiyu patted her head, then nodded to Ruan Ruan.

The door of the house opened and closed, and now only the proper people are left in 4520.

Ruan Ruan went over and locked the door behind her, and then went to the bathroom to wash up. Tang Tiantian followed her behind, waiting for her to tell a story.

Ruan Ruan rubbed the facial cleanser into rich foam and circled her face, she looked at herself in the mirror: "It's not like you weren't there during the meal."

"I know that kiss, you are cheap." Tang Tiantian concluded.

Ruan Ruan paused her hand, but did not refute: "Later, the dinner ended unhappily, and she automatically followed me."

Tang Tiantian: "Yeah, yeah."

Ruan Ruan: "Then we chatted."

Tang Tiantian: "Yeah, yeah."

Ruan Ruan: "Then it was too cold and we chatted outside, so we went into the library to chat."

Tang Tiantian: "Yeah, yah, are you really in the library?"

Ruan Ruan: "When have I lied to you?"

Tang Tiantian: "When you said you didn't like Jiang Xue."

Ruan Ruan froze there, didn't speak any more, the boiling water washed away the foam on his face, and started brushing his teeth again.

Tang Tiantian watched her process item by item, until Ruan Ruan finished trimming her eyebrows by the way, and finally waited for Lafayette to continue speaking.

"I can't tell." Ruan Ruan said.

"Then speak slowly, I have experience in this." Tang Tiantian pushed her aside, "Wait for me for 10 minutes, and we can talk in bed."

Girls always have this kind of time, when they need to break up the thoughts they understand and don't understand with their girlfriends in the dead of night, and tell the truth and the false in detail.

When Ruan Ruan was waiting for Tang Tiantian to come over, she was still thinking that many things were uncertain, so don't rush to talk about them.

But when Tang Tiantian and her lay down head to head, the lights in the dormitory were turned off, and there was silence everywhere, Ruan Ruan thought of Jiang Xue's face, and came out: "She changed because of me."

In this school, many times, Ruan Ruan felt that no one knew Jiang Xue better than her.

Before the water return incident, understand her unique temperament and attractiveness, and after the water return incident, understand her flaws and contradictions.

She grew up in an environment that required her to be regular and perfect, and she became a regular and perfect child and student, but deep down in her heart she longed to break this perfection.

It's like a tug-of-war with yourself of the same weight, like a round eggshell cracked with an irreparable seam.

"That's why she hugged me," Ruan Ruan said, "I'm fat and loose, I can't control myself when I look at it, I have a kind face because of low requirements, anyone hugs me, I will smile back .”

"She envies someone like me, she longs for someone like me, she likes but hates someone like me, she wants to be but resists being like me. Every time I appear in front of her, she wants Pull out those neglected issues and whip them again, every time I laugh with her, she is struggling on the edge of the safe zone, not daring to make a decision easily."

"That's why she was indifferent to me at first."

"Later I didn't want to talk to her. She was naturally guilty, but guilt and apology were not enough to make people like her approach me day after day. To break the rules engraved in my bones, I had to care deeply about myself. The power of strength. She looked at my back and asked herself, what have you lost, what will you never have, why do you feel hesitant and painful..."

"Because of freedom."

Ruan Ruan smiled: "I really didn't expect that one day I would become someone else's Statue of Liberty, but some people are so funny. After nearly 20 years of growing up, their self-awareness has finally awakened, but they just want to find an excuse for themselves." , find someone to cling to, or you’ll be like a toddler, not knowing how to walk.”

"I can't just open my eyes one day, suddenly I don't want to be clean, I don't want to eat healthy food, I want to laugh, I want to cry, I want to talk."

"I can't convince others, and I can't convince myself either, so, Dengdenlenden~~" Ruan Ruan put his hands together, with a complicated smile on his face, "For one person, for me, it's so logical."

Tang Tiantian held her hand and stared at her: "Do you think maybe your thinking is too complicated?"

Ruan Ruan threw her mobile phone over: "It's not that I think it's complicated. This is what Jiang Xue said by herself. I don't know how long I wrote the essay. I finished the draft and wanted to recite it to me. I still didn't That's it, so I sat on the stairs of the library, and she directly copied and sent me WeChat."

Tang Tiantian looked at it, except that Ruan Ruan's acceptance speech for the Statue of Liberty was written by himself, what he said earlier was pretty much the same.

Tang Tiantian took a closer look and found that they were more than similar, they were exactly the same.

Human feelings are something that will always make human beings have mixed tastes.

Tang Tiantian returned the phone to Ruan Ruan and said, "You almost recited all the messages she sent..."

"Don't blame me." Ruan Ruan said, "I said in the library that I didn't believe it, and then she read it to me several times."

"How many times???"

"Four, five or seven times." Ruan Ruan frowned, "She is really sick. She said that she was too emotionless the first time. She said that she was stuck the second time. She said that she was too emotional the first time. It’s not sincere enough, let’s do it again..."

Tang Tiantian: "..."

Ruan Ruan couldn't help standing up, and looked at Tang Tiantian with the expression of an old man on the subway looking at his mobile phone: "She has to overcome her obsessive-compulsive disorder, and she still feels that she is very good and has made great progress. Do you think she has sick???"

Tang Tiantian couldn't refute, so he tried to find an excuse: "Maybe she just wants to confess her love to you a few more times, so that you can understand her intentions?"

"Use it? I'm not illiterate," Ruan Ruan said, "You haven't seen her like that. If you saw her, you wouldn't feel that way. I saw her serious face reading her inner monologue, and felt that I'm sick too, and only when I'm sick can I think she's so damn pretty..."

"Eh?" Tang Tiantian grasped the point and widened his eyes.

Ruan Ruan lay back down again: "I'm talking about the past."

"What about now?" Tang Tiantian teased her.

It took Ruan Ruan a long time to reply: "Now I'm in a complicated mood, I can't put it into words, I think I've been mentally unhealthy since I started to lose weight, I was such a pure, kind and good girl before, now all I think is It's a mess of things..."

"What kind of mess?" Tang Tiantian put his head above Ruan Ruan's head and stared at her, his eyes sparkling, "Is it the colored one?"

Ruan Ruan's expression of disgust almost flooded into a river.

But she disliked Tang Tiantian for a while, then turned around and began to dislike herself: "I think it's worse than the colored one."

"Longing for color is still a normal psychology at our age. I think now..." Ruan Ruan paused, and then said, "Abusing her."

Tang Tiantian: "Wow."

Ruan Ruan: "Wow, shit, I saw her tossing like that, and I didn't want to let her go. I just wanted her to do something that her obsessive-compulsive disorder couldn't do. I unbuttoned her coat and staggered it up and down. In order to prevent her from recovering, I pulled her out to eat grilled sausages outside the school gate, and drank iced milk tea in winter. She said that she did not live in the school, and the rented house expired today, so I took her away. I'm back, and I'm going to let her sleep in Tongzi's kennel."

Ruan Ruan paused: "But what are you guys doing! What are you doing!!! Hiding on the bed and making no noise!!! It's too wretched!!!"

Tang Tiantian also shouted: "My two daughters are unmarried, unmarried, serious, legal, and intimate!!! No one like you has two points. One excuse is to break through the self to find freedom, and the other is to revenge and revenge. To prove, the result What you do is all about stealing and eating tofu with a human face and animal heart!!! Can you face up to your heart, can you boldly say love, I see that you haven’t lost much weight, and your courage has lost.”

Ruan Ruan: "Fuck?"

Tang Tiantian: Arms on hips.

Ruan Ruan: "I don't have the guts, I don't have the guts, I don't have the guts to fuck."

Tang Tiantian: "Prove it to me."

Ruan Ruan stood up: "I can't kill you."

Tang Tiantian hurriedly shrank back, and laughed quackily: "Why are you messing with me? I have someone messing with it. Little Princess Jiang is lonely and cold in the hotel now. You have the ability to mess with her."

Ruan Ruan threw the pillow on her face, lifted the quilt and got out of bed.