Bai Yueguang wants to help me raise a baby

Hearing Lu Hanzhi's words, Jiang Yue's chopsticks stopped for a while, wanting to slow down the pace of eating for a while, so as to listen carefully to what Lu Hanzhi said.

But just as she stopped, Lu Hanzhi picked up the chopsticks and fed her vegetables. Jiang Yue had no choice but to open his mouth to take it, but his eyes still stayed on her.

Lu Hanzhi's tone was particularly calm, as if what he said was not a big deal.

"It's just that there is a part in the back of the script—"

"The heroine's mother found out that she likes women, and used various methods to separate her from the person she likes. I don't quite accept it."

"Is there really no way to reach a consensus on this matter?"

When Lu Hanzhi spoke, he didn't know what to think of, his eyes were empty, and his voice was a little weak.

Jiang Yue glimpsed a flash of resistance from her expression.

"Then... have you communicated with the crew?" Jiang Yue asked tentatively.

Lu Hanzhi twitched his throat, glanced to the side, and answered after a while: "I said it, but the director and screenwriter are trying to persuade me that this development is the most normal, no matter it is the current social situation or the real situation. —there is more resistance to gay people in this society than we think.”

"However, most of the injuries suffered by such people are not from outsiders, but from their own families."

"Their parents will feel that they are perverts and abnormal people because they can't stand their sexuality, or they will resort to force, thinking that as long as they are tragic enough, they can make their children change their minds, or they will use softer means, such as 'you If I go this way, I might as well die. I have worked so hard to raise you so big, and I have done something wrong to be punished by you.”, “I worked hard to raise you, not to make you embarrass me, to let I can't hold my head up in this society, what kind of eyes will my relatives and neighbors look at me in the future'..."

"Even, they will still insist that this is a sick idea, sending their children to those informal mental institutions, expecting a doctor to use godlike means to cure their children, no matter what they are psychologically Yes, as long as you look normal on the surface, like everyone else, that's fine."

"Don't you think this is ridiculous? Children choose to tell their parents about this because of trust, wanting support, or looking forward to hearing the voice they want to hear in their hearts, but what they give back is likely to be Is the shadow of a lifetime."

Lu Hanzhi murmured.

Her expression was no longer as gentle as before, and even her peach blossom eyes, which were always beautiful and charming, were cold, like a three-foot-frozen pool, or the coldest glacier in the extreme.

In the black eyes, there is only a little persistent light shining.

The rest are dark colors.

Jiang Yue listened to her almost talking to herself, and suddenly noticed something.

She remembered writing in her diary that Lu Hanzhi's mother died when she was in college.

is not it……

Such a dialogue also appeared between her and her mother?

Otherwise, why would Lu Hanzhi resist entering this scene so much?

She can feel uncomfortable, painful, and even depressed, but she will never resist it, as if once she enters, she can't get out of that state.

Jiang Yue slowly stretched out her hand, and when she touched the corner of Lu Hanzhi's clothes, she suddenly speeded up, pulling her into her arms, and said in an unprecedentedly gentle voice, "It will be different."

"It's rare, but there will be, Zhizhi."

Jiang Yue doesn't have a deep impression of her mother. What she remembers is that she lives with her sister and father. Even if there are no two people in the 23-year-old world, Jiang Yue is sure that if they are still there, Come out to them yourself, although you may experience a period of incomprehension.

But in the end, it will definitely not be such a tragic ending.

Jiang Kun, who is also a young man, will definitely be surprised for a moment, but if she knows how serious she is, she will definitely smile and scold her, and then say to her, "Don't be foolish with your father, I will help you first." You keep it secret, we will take it slowly, but you have to make sure you are serious, not just playing on a whim."

where's dad...

Maybe he would strongly object at first, but he wouldn't think that there was something wrong with his daughter's spirit. At most, the atmosphere at home was depressed for a few days. In the end, if Jiang Yue insisted, he would still give in.

Jiang Yue thought about it, and suddenly found that she missed them a little.

I also miss the two children Ranran and Qiqi.

Since she lost her memory, she has absorbed a lot of warmth from the two children. Although they are only children, they can support her and give her a feeling of being extremely solid and stable, so that Jiang Yue clearly feels that she is Tragic, but lucky.

……

Lu Hanzhi gently leaned his head on Jiang Yue's shoulder.

She closed her eyes, recalling Jiang Yue's gentle voice just now.

I don't know how long it took before Lu Hanzhi spoke again:

"In college, I tried to talk to my mom about it."

It is precisely because Lu Hanzhi was still ignorant when they met, that Lu Hanzhi missed getting along with Jiang Yue more, but as he got older, Lu Hanzhi gradually understood what he thought of that high classmate at the beginning. psychology.

She confirmed that she likes girls.

As for boys, she has never liked them and doesn't know.

When was it?

Lu Hanzhi can’t remember exactly, but one time when she came home during summer vacation, she was sitting on the sofa in the living room doing her homework. After finishing the housework, her mother picked up the remote control and tuned the TV station, saying, “These actresses are all good now. Pretty, I just like to watch their plays, I don't have any feelings for those little fresh meat, so handsome, so handsome male stars."

"I used to like to see other girls dressed up beautifully. They looked energetic. Zhizhi, you are the same. Don't think that you don't pay attention to your usual attire when you are studying. Dressing well is a kind of politeness. Even if you are a student, don't make yourself sloppy."

Lu Hanzhi was brushing his English to read, his left ear went in and his right ear went out, and he only uttered: "Yeah."

After a while, she heard the voice of the TV series.

"Oh, is this Xu Yinghou? Why hasn't she changed from when she was young? Once she comes out, her aura is different from other women, so pretty."

Lu Hanzhi had nothing to do, so he answered casually: "Mom, do you like looking at beautiful women?"

The person on the sofa next to her nodded: "A beautiful girl is not only liked by men, but also by women."

Lu Hanzhi suddenly stopped writing, and looked up jokingly: "What a coincidence, Mom, I also like pretty girls."

Lu's mother only thought that she was echoing her words, she was smiling, and there was no strangeness in her expression.

For some reason, Lu Hanzhi suddenly said that sentence: "Mom, what I mean is, I want to live with a girl in the future. If possible, we can go abroad to get a certificate and support each other through our lives like a husband and wife."

As soon as this is said-

Mother Lu, who was still watching TV, had no time to take back the smile on her face, and looked at her in surprise:

"Zhizhi, are you joking with mom?"

There was no smile on Lu Hanzhi's face, and he looked very serious: "No, Mom, I'm serious."

"Do you agree?"

Mother Lu was stunned for a full minute.

Immediately afterwards, she suddenly hugged her head and screamed, looked at her in disbelief, and said to her, "Why? Why do you like women? What's your problem? Is that Weng contacting you?" What did he instill in you? Did he brainwash you?!"

Lu Hanzhi took the time to say: "No, it has nothing to do with him."

"That's the people around you? What kind of friends have you made recently? Don't believe what they say, Zhizhi, you can't believe such disgusting things, gays are so dirty and perverted!"

Lu Hanzhi: "..."

She gradually found it difficult to speak, especially when facing her mother's suddenly hostile and frightened eyes.

"It's not a pervert, Mom—"

Mother Lu stood up, turned around a few times, and said brokenly: "I know...it must be because of that person, right? You are his daughter, and he hurt me. I thought I had escaped from this life. He, he never thought that in the end, my child would harm me like him...Zhizhi, did mother treat you badly? I managed to put you through college, how could you treat mother like this? "

"Zhizhi, don't think about it again, don't tell me about it again, forget about it."

"You don't like women, and your mother won't let you like women. You can't become as disgusting as Weng. He is also a pervert who even plays with men... You can't, I won't allow it."

"Lu Hanzhi! I will never allow you to become that ghost!"

In the end, Mother Lu rushed in front of her with a sharp voice, swept away her English question, and yelled this sentence at her almost like a yell.

I don't allow it.

Absolutely not.

That's perverted.

……

Lu Hanzhi came back to her senses, and said to Jiang Yue: "I didn't mention this matter to her later, she was ill, and I haven't met you again, so I don't think this matter is important."

"But... do you know what she said to me before she left?"

"She said, Zhizhi, promise mom that you will never become like your father, okay? If you become like him, even if I die, don't come to see me on my grave, it's disgusting gone."

Speaking of this, Lu Hanzhi's eyes suddenly shed tears.

There was no tremor in her voice, even if she expressed the deepest fear in her heart that she had never shown.

Even when she was in tears, there was no sadness in her expression.

But Jiang Yue felt a kind of suffocation for no reason.

She immediately understood why Lu Hanzhi was unwilling to join the play, because she was afraid to imagine that her mother, like in the script, inflicted unbearable harm on her daughter in the name of love.

She didn't want to speculate about her mother who had left in this way.

At this moment, Lu Hanzhi asked again: "If...she hasn't left, will she become the kind of mother written in the script?"

Jiang Yue pursed her lips and replied subconsciously: "No—"

Lu Hanzhi answered first, she smiled and said to Jiang Yue, "She will."

When he said this answer, Lu Hanzhi's eyes were obviously smiling, but Jiang Yue saw the heavy rain inside, as if he was instantly entangled in the soul by the thin strands of rain, exuding wisps of chill.

Jiang Yue and her looked at each other.

My heart twitched, thinking, my Zhizhi was sad.

So Jiang Yue hugged her again, and asked gently, "Zhizhi."

"Are you going to make it public?" she asked.