cover me

"Scary?" Lin Yanxing repeated his words.

Chen Yan nodded, her eyes were heavy: "Yes."

"Why?" Lin Yanxing was a little flustered.

He loves this person, wishing he could hold his arms and kiss him every day. He wants to do too many unspeakable crazy things to this person, and now he saves up a fortune, but this person actually says those things are terrible , what should he do?

Chen Yan lay on the bed with her arms and legs spread out, looking at the ceiling, there was a rather luxurious lamp on it, and she could feel the fluorescent light as she moved her gaze, like a star.

However, through it, Chen Yan saw the 25-watt incandescent light bulb in the kitchen of his stepfather's house. It was dim, greasy, and had a kind of gloomy and dirty look.

He is willing to tell this story to Lin Yanxing, but it needs a little preparation.

"Lin Yanxing, when you were young..." He suddenly stopped.

Lin Yanxing will not have the same experience. His parents have separated since he was born. When he was six years old, his mother abandoned her husband and son to go abroad. No matter how many young lovers Mr. Lin raises outside, he will never bring him back. At home, Mr. Xu will not be able to.

Forget it, just say it.

"When I was five years old, I married my mother to my stepfather's family named Sun." Chen Yan said slowly, "I was too young at that time, and I was very afraid of moving to a strange place. I always cling to my mother, like a little follower , I dare not sleep every night, I want my mother to accompany me."

"Sun Guoguang hates me because of this," Chen Yan looked at Lin Yanxing, "Because he's going to do that at night, you understand?"

Lin Yanxing moved to his side and stared at him intently. The two squatted and lay down very close.

Chen Yan lay on his back and continued: "Every time he wants to do that, he picks me up from the bed and shuts the door outside. He doesn't give me anything in summer, but in winter he gives me a blanket and lets me sleep on the sofa..."

"How dare I sleep, I'm so scared to be alone in the dark living room. Once I huddled by the door, there might be some noise, and suddenly I heard the sound of the bed inside stopped, and Sun Guoguang rushed out without even putting on his clothes." He came out and kicked me, slapped me several times, said I was eavesdropping, said I was disgusting, I knew how to play hooligans at a young age, and I will definitely be a reformed prisoner when I grow up."

"No..." Lin Yanxing's eyes were full of pain, the pain was so painful that his heart couldn't even beat hard.

Chen Li smiled bitterly: "I was beaten so badly that I almost fainted, but my mother didn't come out to take care of it, maybe because she... didn't have any clothes on."

"Later, I squatted in the kitchen. The kitchen is on the north side of the whole house. It is colder and smaller. There is a 25-watt incandescent lamp on the top, which is suspended by wires and hangs above people's heads, like a will-o'-the-wisp..."

"I can't reach the light, but I can reach the switch. In the coldest and darkest night, when I can't stop shivering, I will turn on the light for a while..."

"But only for a while, because Sun Guoguang pays the electricity bill at home, and he is very fussy. My mother often forbids me to turn on the lights, so after I go to school, I finish my homework outside before going back, so as not to use his electricity. "

"Later, my mother gave birth to a younger brother and younger sister, and I couldn't enter the room at all. I put a bed in the kitchen, which made me feel better. But the old house is not soundproof, the door panels are thin, and there are transom windows on the door, so occasionally I can still hear."

He asked Lin Yanxing: "Do you think it's scary? I'm so afraid to hear those noises, men's, women's, bed, every sound is like a slap in the face, you know how disgusting that dog of Sun Guoguang is. Is it like..."

Lin Yanxing suddenly covered his mouth: "Stop talking!"

Chen Ren looked at him with eyes as deep as the sea.

"Don't say it!" Lin Yanxing frowned fiercely, "Forget it!"

Chen Ren turned sideways and pulled his hand down.

That hand suddenly grabbed the back of his neck domineeringly, slid down his smooth spine, stopped at his waist and tightened, with undeniable strength and regret.

"Don't remember this," Lin Yanxing begged delicately, "I beg you, brother, please, don't remember, forget it!"

Chen Rian raised her arms to cover her face.

He didn't understand at that time, but he could remember things—children who had an unfortunate childhood could remember things very early, because it was not an accident, but an injury, and each pile was scratched on the skin with a knife and fire and burned between the bones and blood, leaving behind The invisible and unhealed scars were oozing pus over the years.

He finally understood this matter later, and began to fight against human instincts. He was cold and lonely, gentle but never sympathetic, neither loving nor being loved, and the ice on the top of the snow mountain was warmer than him.

But he couldn't escape his instinct. He tried it once when he was in his 20s. It wasn't voluntary, but it wasn't forced either.

The other party was very hardworking and dedicated, and praised him like crazy. He was indeed extremely beautiful at that time, flexible and slender, lying on the bed like a piece of suet jade.

He felt it, but ran away as soon as it was over, because he was still scared.

Looking back now, he really went too far. He would take off his pants when he came, and he would deny recognition when he put them on. That's scumbag.

"Okay, I'll forget about it now." He withdrew his arms and smiled at Lin Yanxing with a blurred vision, "I just think..."

Lin Yanxing suddenly pressed his head against his neck, and the hair on his short hair made him feel painful and itchy. He wanted to let go, but Lin Yanxing clasped him tightly with both hands. His big body was hot and firm.

He struggled a little, but if the other party didn't let go, he went limp.

"What's wrong?" He gently rubbed his face against the other's hair.

He knew that this action was too intimate, but he couldn't help it, Lin Yanxing was hot, but he was cold, and he needed to rely on Lin Yanxing to melt the ice in his heart.

Lin Yanxing raised his head, his handsome eyes were full of water, and he actually cried.

Chen Yan was startled and wanted to stand up, but was pushed down again, firmly pressed on the Simmons mattress.

"Let Lin Yanxing go..."

"Have you forgotten?" Lin Yanxing asked guiltily.

"Ok?"

"Forget about that." Lin Yanxing said with reddened eyes, "I'll count down tens of seconds, ten, nine, eight, seven..."

"Mr. Lin," Chen Yan forced a smile, "Even in sci-fi movies, it's not so fast to erase the memory with a device, why don't you give me a sap?"

Lin Yanxing wanted to suffocate him, not with a stick but with his mouth, kissing his cold and light lips until he was almost breathless, his brain was unable to recover from the lack of oxygen, and the place in charge of that memory was suffocated and necrotic. , Anyway, in the next life, I will raise him myself.

He finally understood why Chen Yan loved to cry, because there were so many tears in his heart, and they would ooze out with just a little poke.

I heard from this person that he never cried before meeting him, what was it like before?Broken teeth and swallowed tears?

Daughter-in-law hey...

Lin Yanxing lowered his head again, his shoulder blades stood upright, suppressing the burning heartache in his eyes.

He is so fucking painful, and so fucking loving, why didn't he meet this person a few years ago and fish him out of desperation?Why wait until high school?

"Don't cry." Chen Yan said softly, "If I can say it, it means that I have seen it."

Lin Yanxing said, "I didn't cry."

"Look at my eyes." Chen Ren said.

Lin Yanxing raised his head, Chen Yan did not dodge, but stared at him, his dark pupils were shining brightly: "Look, I'm not afraid to look at people now. In fact, I used to be very timid, and I didn't dare to talk to you when I was old." When I was in junior high school, many students in my class didn’t know what I looked like after they graduated. They asked me who this person was after they took their graduation photos. "

He raised the corners of his mouth: "That's me, because I sit in the first row, and I usually sit on the seat to read a book, never speak or look up, so they don't know each other."

"Scared since childhood?" Lin Yanxing lightly brushed his cheek with his fingers.

Chen Ren nodded: "I'm really afraid. I'll be scolded for holding up my job, scolded for taking a shower, even if I didn't do anything, I'll be hit suddenly. A little trouble can kill me. It stands to reason that my own father used to be from Licheng. Famous bastard, sometimes there are hundreds of people under his command, I shouldn't have such a timid character, but I only dared to sneak a peek at people from the corner of my eye until I was in junior high school."

But he was actually calm in junior high school.

It was one of the worst junior high schools in Belvedere, it was full of assholes, they were rebellious, angry, violent, biting each other, their future was bleak, but they didn't bully the weak, especially the weak like Chen Ren who had nothing to contend with .

When Chen Li was in elementary school, he was pushed and beaten by his classmates, who said he was a bastard and a fool, but in junior high school, he was no longer there.

Occasionally, he was cornered by someone asking for money, and he was threatened to beat him, and he was rescued by a passing gangster, saying, why are you bullying him?He is quite pitiful, he is being beaten by you now, and he will be beaten by his stepfather when he goes back, don't be wicked, let him go.

The students who blocked him let go, and he was shaking with fright, bowed his head and ran away.

Chen Li regretted this incident later, and should have been braver at the time, and thanked the classmate who rescued him.

It was many years later that he found out that this person was dead. He was stabbed to death in a street dispute. His death was useless and boring.

But as far as Chen Yan is concerned, he speaks out of righteousness and is a fair person, so when Chen Yan grows up, when he burns paper for his biological father every year on Qingming, Death Day, Ghost Festival and New Year's Eve, he also burns a copy for him. Ramblingly exhorted:

Dad, take care of Zheng Jiawei; Zheng Jiawei, follow my dad well, my dad had more than a dozen places under his control back then, and there was always a place for you to settle down...

He turned his face slightly, and asked Lin Yanxing: "Do you know what the bravest thing in my life is?"

"What is it?"

"I rebelled against Sun Guoguang and my mother, and came here to study in high school." Chen Yan said, "I bet my life on it."

But what was his high school like?In purgatory on the surface, he was really bullied from the so-called prestigious No. [-] Middle School.

But there is no need to say these, it has been erased, and he is fine now.

Lin Yanxing felt very uncomfortable, he knew all this, his wife came to high school hungry, she had a stomachache and almost fainted.

His daughter-in-law was slapped by the shrew proprietress of the beef soup shop, her face was covered with blood, just for asking for 600 yuan.

His wife treated him to a bowl of clear soup birthday noodles.

His daughter-in-law ate hard without saying a word at his birthday banquet, as if a starving ghost had been reincarnated...

After a long time, Chen Yan patted him lightly, "Lin Yanxing, let me get up, I don't feel like this."

He was bound too tightly, although he was not out of breath, but there were scratches on his body, and it hurt after being touched.

But this is just a reason that can be said. What can't be said is that Lin Yanxing's warm and strong breath enveloped him, and the low and magnetic voice hit his eardrums at close range. Soft.

He was overwhelmed, and gradually began to long, and he was suddenly struck by the fact that he was still afraid of it hitherto, but not hopelessly.

He likes the smell of Lin Yanxing, it smells so good, it makes people intoxicated and throbbing.

He is apathetic, even reading a small reed book may not be warm, it is difficult to taste the throbbing feeling, but Lin Yanxing can cure him.

He even wanted to hook the back of Lin Yanxing's neck to pull him down again, sticking to the closest, entangled, melted under the other's fiery hands, and evaporated like a puddle of water.

But not now—they leave the door wide open, and Aunt Li, the nanny, can come in anytime and anywhere.

Not this relationship either.

He knew that Lin Yanxing was kind to him, but he was afraid that it was kindness, sympathy, and righteousness between buddies.

He wants to wait for a chance to explain this feeling clearly in the future, saying that I like you, I want to accept you, and you come and cure me of my heart disease...and that hidden disease.

If Lin Yanxing said it would be cured, he would roll him on the bed with his arms around him and try the old Lin family's ancestral medicine.

If Lin Yanxing is scared away, he scolds you crazy while running, I am a man, you are also a fucking man, we are not in the same way, I still want to be a big star, how can I let you touch my golden bird?Old Chinese doctors are posted on the poles at the school gate, just find one and try!

Then he will not be cured.

X is indifferent, and he won't kill anyone.

"Let me get up." He begged again.

Lin Yanxing raised his elbow, and Chen Rin moved out from under his arm, and sat in the middle of the bed with his knees spread out. The scratches on both knees had begun to scab, the color had turned darker, and the skin had hardened, making his whole leg bruised. taut.

He started to change the subject: "This bed is really big, 1.8 meters long, right? It's a fucking waste of you sleeping alone."

Lin Yanxing's hands suddenly became empty, and he was feeling lost. Hearing this, he stared at him blankly, thinking: "It's not big, I'll add you in the future."

Chen Yan turned to the window again: "Let me go and see your balcony, what's on it?"

Lin Yanxing stretched his arms around his waist, and easily got him off the bed: "It's nothing, a pair of chairs and a round table. My dad just threw them to me when he didn't want them."

Chen Yan was startled by this action again: "Lin Yanxing, don't keep..."

Now is not the time for medical treatment, don't keep making unnecessary movements, and you can prescribe it when you are asked to prescribe it!

As a result, Lin Yanxing suddenly went to lock the door behind him, and then began to undress.

In the late summer of September, when there were few clothes to wear, he just peeled off his school uniform top, followed by his trousers, which fell to his feet and kicked away, and then pressed the edge of his underwear.

Chen Yan asked in surprise, "What are you doing?"

Lin Yanxing stared at him, hesitant.

Chen Yan shouted: "What are you doing? Don't take it off!"

Lin Yanxing flung off her underwear cruelly!

Chen Yan was so frightened that he fell on his back and fell down. Fortunately, there was a bed behind him. He sat up on the bed and asked calmly, "Are you hot?"

To be honest, the two of them used to look at each other and made all kinds of outrageous jokes when they were taking a bath in the school bathroom, but now and then, Lin Yanxing's mentality changed, and then Chen Ren.

Chen Li was really afraid that he would mess around.

"I'm not hot." Lin Yanxing stood up straight, "Look at me more, I'm pretty. After seeing me, forget about the ugly, smelly, and disgusting ones, and just remember me!"

"..." Chen Yan was dumbfounded.

Lin Yanxing is indeed good-looking, he is young and strong, with a bulging chest and hard abdominal muscles, slender and strong limbs, not to mention he has a stunning face.

He is handsome, outstanding and rich, he looks like a painting, but now he is crazy, he is an exhibitionist at home!

Fortunately, he was still ashamed, his face was blushing, but he still held his head up and said, "Look at me!"

"Okay, I got it, you're beautiful!" Chen Yan's ears were pink, she grabbed the pajamas on the bedside and threw them to him, "Put it on!"

He picked it up, but persistently asked: "Do you remember me?!"

Chen Yan bit her lower lip, her lips were flushed, she could only say in embarrassment, "Remember it!"

"How much do you remember?" Lin Yanxing would only put on his pants if he had a word from his wife.

Chen Li had no choice but to say the famous three words: "I'm fine."

"What is good?"

"Your uncle! Put it on quickly! I'm so good!!"