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The garrison troops in charge of maintaining the military training base sent teachers and students back to Belvedere by car. It was the kind of large green leather canvas truck that transports troops.

Lin Yanxing refused to sit in the business car brought by his family, but insisted on this one. When he got in the car and saw the hard wooden bench, he felt proud!

Pointing to the military training uniform on his body, he said: "I will also wear real ones in the future. With my physical fitness, it is no problem to be a special soldier, right?"

The sports students cheered in unison: "Of course you are fine, and we are fine too!"

Chen Yan was terrified when he heard this, and thought to his ancestors, you can't!

You drill into that wild mountain ditch, train all day long to carry wood, shoot guns, eat bugs and roll in mud pits, or there are drug dealers ambushing on the border, what the fuck should I do?

I fucking have to go too!

Do not go or not, I am spoiled.

Chen Li closed her eyes and dozed off, so as not to worry about it.

Teacher B was sitting next to him, and suddenly said something to him, but he didn't hear clearly, because the truck was noisy and he had to shout at the top of his voice.

Teacher B then shouted: "Chen Yan, I think you are a good seedling!"

"Huh?" Chen Yan was puzzled.

"I am optimistic about you! As long as you work hard, you will be admitted to a good university!" Teacher B said, "In the future, if you don't understand anything in your studies, just come to me! I mainly teach physics, but I can also teach other science subjects!"

Teacher B’s surname is Guan, and he teaches physics in Class 2 and Class 3 of Senior One. He just graduated from a 985 university this summer, and he is still very young.

"Thank you, Teacher Guan!" Chen Yan asked loudly, "Can I trouble you?"

Chen Lin didn't plan to take the university entrance examination because he couldn't afford the university fees, but he also didn't want to take the last exam every time, because his reputation was too bad.

"Yes!" Teacher Guan was very straightforward.

He said: "Chen Yan, you are different from other students! You are kind, precocious, responsible, and considerate! For example, today, when Teacher A and I lost patience and complained to each other, you clearly Already exhausted, but you still know how to stabilize our emotions, ease the atmosphere, and encourage the injured teacher A all the way! You are not like a fifteen or sixteen-year-old boy, and you are even better than us! You are excellent, I hope you have A bright future!"

Chen Yan stared at him with wide eyes.

Teacher Guan said with a smile: "It's good that you are in my class, and you will be my physics class representative."

"..."

Chen Li was moved.

Of course he is different from others. He is actually thirty years old and has suffered a lot. Of course he is more tenacious and rational.But the teacher's evaluation was hot, which made him feel hot all over.

He knows that people who listen to good words are vulgar, but how lacking is his affirmation and praise, especially from the teacher!

He seemed to be belittled and suppressed from birth, no one needed him, no one liked him, superfluous and humble.

He is the child of a street gangster, the stepfather's gas bucket, and the neighbor's pointing oil bottle.

He is the idiot that his younger siblings ridicule at will, the poor ghost that the head teacher always wants to drive away, the target of malicious bullying by his classmates, even his mother abandons him, he seems to have never been cherished!

Yes, he was loved as an adult, but that was because he was good-looking, and when he showed up at night, even in a work vest, he was so handsome that people turned heads.

He knows that most of the people who say they love and like him regard him as prey, just want to get this wonderful body into bed.

Those are all fake, but the teacher is aboveboard and true!

He said Chen Yan, you are very good, you are excellent, and you are a good seedling!

Chen Yan lowered her head, her nasal cavity was sour...

Lin Yanxing suddenly rushed over and sat beside him, he turned his eyes, Lin Yanxing was taken aback: "Why are you crying?"

"I didn't cry." Chen Yan said.

"You are crying." Lin Yanxing said, "If I don't come over, you will be crying in the next second. What's wrong?"

Chen Yan blinked vigorously and smiled.

At their age, boys are always happy to express rebellion, tyranny, anger, etc., but are ashamed to express gentleness and joy, for fear of being called a sissy.

Chen Li is different, he is a person who has died once, he can say whatever is on his mind.

He leaned into Lin Yanxing's ear and shouted: "I'm happy, the teacher praised me!"

Lin Yanxing raised his eyebrows: "I'm going to cry if I praise you?"

He was raised in the palm of his hand, not to mention boasting, there are countless people kneeling and licking him.

"Because I've never done it before." Chen Yan said, "I'm such a worthless person, but I'm also praised by the teacher, of course I'm happy!"

"You have advantages." Lin Yanxing said seriously.

"Which point?"

Lin Yanxing couldn't describe it.

Is Chen Li doing well?To be honest, it's pretty bad.

Does Chen Li look good?

To be honest, he was as pale as paper, thin and small, with a pair of black eyes and a pointed chin all over his face, which did not meet the standard of handsome and sunny boys in those days.

Is Chen Li doing well in class?

...He doesn't show at all, he exists like air, if Lin Yanxing is not at the same table with him, he probably doesn't know him after a month of school!

Lin Yanxing felt that Chen Ren's advantage was "making him comfortable", but how could this be considered a compliment?

"Okay, if you can't hold it back, don't hold it back," Chen Yan said with a smile, "I understand."

Lin Yanxing said: "Don't worry, don't worry...um...uh...well, save all the good things for me, and let me tell you if you save too much."

"Thank you buddy." Chen Yan said softly.

Lin Yanxing grinned, revealing a standard smile that would be highly praised in the future.

He is really a treasure, sharp-edged, heroic, with a pair of sharp and bright eyes, but his smile turns into deep tenderness.

Chen Yan couldn't smile so brightly, it was a talent.

"Let's play." Chen Yan seemed to coax her son.

Lin Yanxing really went to play, this heartlessness is also a talent.

From the military training base to Licheng No. [-] Middle School, a distance of [-] kilometers, the truck drove for two hours and arrived late at night.

The teacher and other students went home one after another, but Chen Yan couldn't go home, so he went alone to the dormitory where the lights were turned off.

The dormitory is still the same, his and Yu Ming's things are neatly stacked, both of them love to be clean, and there are few people in the dormitory, so it looks empty.

Thinking of Yu Ming, Chen Yan felt very uncomfortable, especially in today's matter, that guy really didn't have any intentional elements?

It was fine for him to target Chen Li, but it hurt the two teachers, especially Teacher A.

The results of the hospital's filming have come out. Teacher A has confirmed that the fracture has been broken and his muscles and bones have been injured for a hundred days. Although he climbed the slope and fell by himself, if there is no Yu Ming blindly directing him, he would not be able to cross the mountain.

"...What do you want to do?" Chen Yan stared at Yu Ming's bed and asked in a low voice.

Forget it, go to sleep.

Things will be tidied up tomorrow, and clothes will be washed tomorrow. I'm so tired these days that I'm falling apart, but it's still comfortable to sit in the classroom!

As soon as Chen Lin took off his shoes and went to bed, a black figure crashed into the door.

Chen Li sleeps and locks the door. Only three people have the key to this dormitory: him, Yu Ming, and the dormitory manager.

The dormitory supervisors are two middle-aged women who work in shifts, and if there is no serious emergency, they will never break into the boys' dormitory at night, so Yu Ming is the only one left.

Yu Ming stood close to the door, his expression couldn't be seen clearly in the dark, he just felt emotional.

Chen Yan sat up.

"It's not me..." Yu Ming said hoarsely.

Chen Eun asked: "What?"

"It has nothing to do with me, it's not me..." Yu Ming said, "I didn't mean to point the wrong way..."

"Then you did it on purpose?" Chen Ren's voice was cold.

"No!" Yu Ming rushed to Chen Ren's bed and said eagerly, "Really not, please believe me!"

"Teacher A has a broken bone." Chen Yi said, "It's your fault."

"I... I didn't mean to..."

Chen Yan interrupted: "Are you here to admit your mistake? Why don't you just stop talking, go out, or go to bed."

Yu Ming choked, and then continued intermittently: "I... I did see Lin Yanxing at that time, but it was far away, he was so fierce to me, I dare not approach... There are many trees on the mountain, there are many of them, and After staying at the fork in the road for a few minutes, I couldn't see clearly..."

"I...maybe I really misremembered, and my junior high school classmate didn't correct me! He's the same as me, he can't see clearly from such a distance! Even if there is a mistake, it's not my fault alone, is it, Chen Ren?"

Chen Yan looked at him silently, and finally said: "It's okay."

Yu Ming Yixi: "You believe me?"

"I don't believe it." Chen Yan said, "But I don't care."

Yu Ming hurriedly grabbed his arm with both hands, and the two looked at each other, Chen Ren's eyes were so strange that it made people panic.

"You... why are you looking at me like this?" Yu Ming asked.

Because what Chen Yan looked at was not Yu Ming, but himself 15 years ago, so he was sad, sympathetic...and a little resentful.

Yu Ming would not admit his mistakes, and he would not have done so then.

Shirking responsibility may be one of human instincts. If a two-year-old child knocks over the water glass on the table and sees his mother staring, he will also say: "It was the puppy."

Mom will teach him: "If you do something wrong, you have to say sorry, and you are a good baby if you admit it bravely."

And if a child is often blamed since he was a child, he will not only be trembling, but will also deny and argue almost shamelessly.

Because if you admit your mistakes, you will be punished, and if you are punished, you will be scolded, beaten, and starved, so you can't admit it, even the slightest mistake.

When this child grows up, this trait will make other people extremely disgusted, because he dares to act but not to act, he can only shirk, only hide, only rely on, he is a dark, cowardly liar.

Fifteen years ago, Chen Yan was such a liar.

Those so-called classmates discriminated against him unscrupulously, laughed at him, insulted him, and later framed him and beat him, because they knew that there was no consequence for bullying him.

He has no family, no friends, even if he couldn't bear to seek help from the outside world, no one would believe him. Every word of the liar is "the wolf is coming".

It took Chen Li a lot of effort to get rid of the habit of lying and denying.

It was really big. He was scolded and beaten for it. When he first admitted his mistakes, he always shook like a sieve, his teeth cut his tongue, and he almost peed all over his pants.

Then it got better, he gradually became like a normal person, and then like a man.

How much does a person have to suffer before he can learn to deny it, and how much does it have to suffer before he can correct it?

Chen Yan looked at Yu Ming with almost desolate eyes.

"Chen Yan, you scared me." Yu Ming was afraid.

"It's okay..." Chen Yan said softly.

Yu Ming asked: "Do you believe that I didn't do it on purpose? Including the day I splashed water on the bed, and you were..."

"Don't explain, it's unclear." Chen Yan asked, "Aren't you going home?"

"I want to go back... I heard that you had an accident with the teacher and sneaked out from home. My parents don't know about it yet." Yu Ming said, "I'll go back to sleep and come back tomorrow."

Chen Yan nodded and whispered: "Then go back, pay attention to safety on the road."

Then he turned his face away and ignored him again.

Yu Ming dawdled for a while, and finally left.

Chen Yan sat alone in the dark, he thought a lot, those memories that he had deliberately forgotten had never disappeared, every detail was as clear as yesterday.

He was like an invisible bystander, looking at the cruelly treated boy with pity, but he couldn't help at all.

In the first semester of high school, in the last two months before dropping out of school, Chen Li seldom was not injured.

His face was bruised from being slapped, his calves and waist were kicked, and there were countless scrapes and bruises.

If he doesn't drop out of school, it will be difficult for him to keep his eyes, because people keep shining laser pointers on him.

... green, red, so concentrated and bright beams, only a small spot of light on the object, and they wanted to use that to shoot through his pupil.

They know that stuff blinds people.

……

There was a small stone hitting the glass with a click.

Chen Yan woke up from the memory, and glanced at the small luminous alarm clock on the table, the hour hand pointed to twelve o'clock.

"Sleep and sleep." He exhaled the foul air in his chest, thinking that he would have class tomorrow.

The second pebble arrived, and this time it went through the window and landed on the table, bouncing a few times.

Chen Yan went to the window and looked downstairs, thinking it was Yu Ming again, but Lin Yanxing was clearly standing under the street lamp.Even though the dormitory is on the second floor, his way of throwing stones is accurate enough.

"..."

Lin Yanxing yelled softly with his mouth closed: "I knew you weren't asleep!"

Chen Yan's eyes widened: "You...why are you running to school in the middle of the night?"

"I can't help it," Lin Yanxing asked, "Is my bag with you?"

That's true!Chen Li quickly turned her head to look for Lin Yanxing's travel bag, which was placed on the empty bed near the door.

"Can't you get it tomorrow?" He said in a low voice.

"My MP3 is in the bag. I can't sleep without listening to songs." Lin Yanxing said, "I have a spare at home, but I have to download the songs again."

Chen Yan scolded: "You are really a fucking young master, wait, I will send it down for you!"

He went downstairs with Lin Yanxing's bag on his shoulders, ducked to avoid the dormitory's window, climbed over the iron railing and ran towards him.

Lin Yanxing raised his hands high and waited to receive the bag, but suddenly retracted his arms and asked, "Why are you crying?"

"..." Chen Yan said, "I didn't cry."

"Nonsense, you are absolutely crying." Lin Yanxing asked, "Why? Who praised you again?"

Chen Yan smiled: "Not this time."

"Then why?"

Chen Eun said, "Stop asking, just take your bag and go home."

As he said he wanted to leave, Lin Yanxing grabbed his wrist.

"Just tell me if you really treat me as a friend." Lin Yanxing said, "Otherwise I won't leave."

Chen Yan bit her lip and glanced at him, there was already moisture in her eyes.

"Who the hell bullied you?" Lin Yanxing asked.

"Don't ask." Chen Yan said, then lowered her head and began to cry.

He hates the night, the night makes him emotional, makes him vulnerable, turns out his emotions that have been desperately suppressed, and airs them in front of Lin Yanxing again.

He couldn't help crying.

It was only then that Lin Yanxing realized that Chen Yan was completely silent when crying, no whimpering, no sobbing, no movement, just shedding tears silently.

This is a very wronged way of crying, so wronged that...even the people around him feel wronged for him!

Lin Yanxing's heart throbbed, he had never felt heartbroken for anyone when he grew up, and today it happened twice, for the same person.

He asked in a low voice, "What's the matter?"

Chen Yan raised her tear-filled eyes, and said the same sentence: "Don't ask me? I can't help it... just for a while..."

"...Okay." Lin Yanxing nodded.

Chen Nian stunned, Lin Yanxing stood in front of him, pressing his head to his chest.

Such a small, round, and beautiful head, the hair is slightly longer and softer.

"It's okay, I'm here." Lin Yanxing said softly, "Who the hell dares to bully my buddies in front of me, you have to weigh it."

Chen Yan finally let out a soft, moist, wronged voice: "... idiot."

"Rebound!" Lin Yanxing said.

Chen Li cried for 5 minutes and stopped.

He was like this, he didn't even dare to break down for more than 5 minutes, as if someone was pinching the stopwatch for him, if the time was exceeded, he couldn't get better.

"Are you finished crying?" Lin Yanxing lowered his head slightly and asked.

"Hmm...you're so hot, you're almost scorching me to death." Chen Yan was still muttering.

Like a long summer day, like densely intertwined lights, how warm he is!

Lin Yanxing scratched the back of his neck, yes, he is a small stove.

Chen Yan gently pushed him away: "Okay, don't hug me anymore, I didn't have time to take a shower, it smells bad."

"??" Lin Yanxing said, "I can't smell it."

Chen E then discovered some imperfections of Lin Juxing and Chaoxing - this guy probably has rhinitis.