and the days of Apollo herding cattle

He got it.

Apollo's brain was blank, only these three words remained.

very quiet.

At that moment, Apollo entered a very magical realm, so quiet that there was no sound, whether it was wind, water, Enoch, or his own voice, all disappeared at this moment.

"Boom-thump-thump-"

Even though his heart was beating so fast, Apollo really...couldn't hear anything.

The heart seemed to be grabbed, something was cut open, and then, something poured in.

So cold.

It hurts.

"I don't want it anymore. Apollo, then I don't want it anymore." Enoch's voice was very soft, as if talking to himself, but it was very firm.

"..."

Apollo opened his mouth, but no sound could come out of his throat.

Are you going to... watch me leave like this?

Don't keep it, don't fight for it?

Enoch seemed to know what Apollo wanted to say, he smiled softly, the smile was very shallow and faint.

"Apollo, as I said before, I like you more than anything else. But like and love are different. Like is a matter of one person, but love is a matter of two people, One person can't do it, three people can't do it, only two people, only the two of each other can do it."

"It's not that I want to give up, but, Apollo, if it's not two people, it can't be done."

One less person is not enough, and one more person is absolutely impossible.It can only be two people, and it can only be two people.

"Apollo, I like you, I like you very much, but liking someone doesn't mean you have to become a lover with him. It's not only between lovers that you can say you like it."

Enoch loves Apollo, but if he doesn't want it, then he doesn't want it.

Enoch was waiting.

There is no other external conflict between him and Apollo.They love each other more than anyone else in the world.

But the love between them seems to have been a mistake from the beginning.

Enoch wanted to correct.Apollo corrected if he didn't want to.

The two of them are now trapped in this deadlock.No one compromises with anyone.

Compromise and non-compromise seem to be an extremely simple matter, but at the same time it is an extremely difficult matter.

Apollo couldn't remember what happened next, and he didn't even know how he got back.

After that day, Enoch's attitude towards him seemed to have settled down. His smile towards him was different from everyone else's, but it was the same as everyone else's. One part was polite and three parts alienated.

Apollo suddenly didn't know what to do.

anger?It does not seem.

sad?Seems to be more complicated than that.

relief?how can that be possible?

That's Enoch, that's his Enoch, he's letting go, he's leaving, how could he feel... relieved?

All kinds of emotions are intertwined, but it seems that there is no emotion at all.

feeling bad.

It's hard, Enoch...

why?why am i so...

The heart was overloaded, and the heartbeat that was more palpitating than Thor's was trembling in his ears.

Love is a spice of life.

The life of the gods is too long, there are no obsessive things, no rich entertainment life, they are neither workaholics nor things that must be done.

boring, blank...

In a long life, there needs to be something to fill.

Love seems to be a necessary thing at this time. As a condiment, it is qualified, sweet, warm... enough to kill time.

But it is precisely because it is a spice, so it is not necessary, as long as there is love.No matter who the other party is, whether it is one or two, just enjoy the love indulgently.

Yes, this will do it...

Really...is that all right?

"Because I have faith in my heart, so the road ahead is a broad road! Apollo, I am different from you. I can't see the road ahead, but you are different, Apollo. If you think about it, then go for it, Apo Your path is always under your feet, so you are always moving forward." In addition to messing around, Apollo and Enoch often said some irrelevant words.

"Enoch, I can't see clearly." I don't know when it started, the road under my feet has become blurred.

original……

Is that so...

Enoch, has the world you see always been like this?

Apollo couldn't tell what he felt. At that moment, his brain seemed to be running at high speed, but nothing seemed to be there.

Nothing.

There is an extra "neighbor" in the life of Apollo, the city builder. Starting from his house, he walks through a forest and a sea of ​​flowers, and there is a farmer named Enoch there.

The folk customs of the small village are simple, and the gentle and polite farmers quickly integrated into this environment.

Enthusiasm, gentleness, kindness, enthusiasm... In just a few days, farmer Enoch got along well with the people in the whole village with his good temper.

Although it is only a superficial relationship.

"Are you talking about that stupid farmer on the side of the mountain? Go, go, his big dog seems to have killed a wild boar. I'm going home right now, and I'm going to take something to visit his house. Hehe, that kid is very deceitful, no matter what you bring as a guest, he will always treat you well! It’s a fool not to take advantage of it!”

When the villagers heard the news that Enoch was going to kill a pig, they were all as excited as if there was that foolish slave who wanted to share the money.

you do not say!Enoch is hospitable and hospitable. He has two big dogs who are good at hunting, and they can get some prey from time to time. In hot weather, meat cannot be kept. The villagers plausibly said that they would help him solve the problem of meat rotting. , but in fact, they just want to take advantage of it.

Apollo frowned.

Enoch has been the most popular person in the village recently, because he has a good upbringing temperament, and he can't be raised by ordinary people. Although his appearance is ordinary and his family is poor, he can often get a lot of good things. Tall and tall, he is a good candidate for many girls and young people who want to have a spring breeze.

After that day, Apollo's mood was disturbed, and he almost avoided meeting Enoch.

But seeing no one, another more complicated emotion gnawed at his heart.

It's subtle, but it can't be ignored.

It's so thin that people seem to feel a little scared.

When will fear collapse, when will fear be eaten away, when will fear disappear.

He has been depressed these days, and his mood is not very good. Although the source is Enoch, but listening to these people using such thoughts to take advantage of that person, listening to these people laughing at Enoch's kindness behind his back... …

anger.

A surge of anger suddenly rose from Apollo's chest.

Very angry.

This is me being angry.

Apollo was conscious of this, and then he rushed over, and the hand that used to play the music that moved the world just hit the human face like that.

Scarlet blood flowed from the man's mouth and nose. The man was stunned for a while, then woke up by the pain on his face, screaming and rushing to show Apollo!

"Crazy! Stupid and dirty low-class people!" Blood spurted out with saliva.

Apollo looked at the man coldly, his eyes were cold, but the anger in his body was like a flood that broke the embankment, and it couldn't stop growing wantonly.

Why do such a thankless thing?Will these people treat you sincerely after eating your food?No, no.

Your kindness, your kindness, your sympathy for human beings always come for no reason and overflowing.

But whether you are a god or a human being, your kindness is stupid to these human beings.

A group of people gathered around, Apollo seemed indifferent, but also seemed indifferent and contemptuous.

He just looked at them coldly, and then wrestled with them as they rushed up.

Apollo, the sun god, is invincible, but Apollo, who is a city-building laborer, has to pay a price if he wants to win an enemy whose number is ten times or even dozens of times that of him.

Apollo knew what that price was.

But he doesn't care.

It seemed that a string called reason in his mind was burned by anger. Apollo was extremely calm, but also seemed surprisingly angry.

The two emotions were intertwined and brought him into a very wonderful realm.

He couldn't hear a sound, couldn't see anything, couldn't think of anything, he just waved his fist blindly, without skill, without rules, he just waved his fist mechanically and repeatedly.

"Okay, Apollo, it's ok." Hearing the noise, Enoch rushed over, and when he saw Apollo surrounded by dozens of people beating him, his heart almost stopped at that moment.

The folk customs of the village are simple and honest. This word can be understood as the people in this village are easy to get along with, but it can also be understood as the village protects its weaknesses and excludes others.

Apollo is a "newcomer" who just moved here. He has no foundation and has not given any favors to the villagers. Everyone is indifferent to his existence.

As soon as today's incident happened, no matter what Apollo's purpose was, others would only see that Apollo beat the people in their village.

At this time, if people want to survive, they must stick together. If one person is beaten, then everyone who sees it must help, and everyone in the village must help.

When Enoch rushed over, Apollo's opponents had at least thirty people, and they were still increasing.

Can not use divine power.

Apollo was punished by Zeus. Enoch came to live here as a human being, and he had already disobeyed Zeus's order. If he revealed his identity as a god at this time, it would be difficult for Zeus to explain.

With his strength sealed, his body is only at the average level of an ordinary young man. Fortunately, he has a little sense of fighting, and he can barely push through the crowd and enter the "central zone".

"Stop, stop, everyone!" Enoch was punched and kicked several times, and finally squeezed into Apollo's side and pulled away the few people who were beating him, but Apollo was extremely uncooperative.

Apollo's current appearance is quite miserable. There are other people's blood on his face, as well as bruises from the beating, and even his own blood.There was blood oozing from the corner of his mouth, his long hair was messed up like a knot of wool, and he was in shocking embarrassment.

"Let go!" Apollo struggled to fight again.

"Well..." Enoch took a few punches from him, and his expression changed.

"Enoch..." Enoch's voice was in his ears, and Apollo slowly woke up now, with a face that was as funny and pitiful as a palette.

"Why are you here?" Apollo said sadly, "Don't you want me? Why are you here?"

Enoch moved his lips, was silent for a while, and then said, "Apollo, let me bandage the wound for you first."

Apollo stared at him, a pair of blue eyes completely reflected Enoch's face: "Enoch, why? Why do you like humans so much? Should you say that you are too kind? There is no reason So much kindness to humanity. But ah, Enoch, but—”

"No, Apollo, there is nothing without reason." Enoch interrupted Apollo, and then hugged Apollo gently, "No, not without reason. Apollo, just like me Like you, I also like human beings. Whether it is kind or despicable, what I like is not just a certain human being, nor is it just a hating certain human being. I just like human beings. Just like I like you, just Like I love you. Whether it’s the proud you, the conceited you, or the unreasonable, arbitrary, arrogant you, I love you all..."

Apollo couldn't hear anything clearly, and didn't want to hear anything anymore. He held Enoch tightly, and there were a pair of deep blue eyes under the blood-spattered eyelids.

"Say it again, say it again, Enoch, say it again." Apollo stared at Enoch tightly, "Say, say you love me."

At that moment, Apollo suddenly understood.

What does Enoch want in love.

Apollo thought he couldn't give it, he thought that this kind of love, this kind of innocent and selfish love, didn't belong to him, but after going around and torturing himself——Apollo realized that the one who can't lack love is himself.

Because of possession, because of existence, so I can't see clearly.Apollo didn't see his love for Enoch.

When Enoch expressed his desire to leave, Apollo panicked, but he knew vaguely in his heart, how could Enoch leave him?How could he?

Possible, really possible.

Enoch will leave him, and when this concept is truly realized by him, Apollo really has a sense of crisis that he is about to lose.

"If you can't see clearly, Enoch, then use your emotions to perceive it!"

How ridiculous, obviously he once said it, but he himself forgot.

On the contrary, Enoch, who once laughed at Apollo for being too emotional, really sorted everything out with his emotions.

"Enoch, say it, say it—" Apollo stared at Enoch, as if Enoch couldn't say what he wanted, he would run over and bite Enoch It's like swallowing and eating.

Enoch just said: "Apollo, get up first, you are injured, I will help you bandage first."

"Enoch, tell me, tell me..." There was a little blush in the blue eyes, not like the scorching sun, but a rare fragility.

Enoch froze.

Fragile, this kind of word doesn't seem to match Apollo at all.

But when it does appear, it seems so natural.

"Apollo, I'll take you home, let's go home."

It is very comfortable to be with Enoch. Compared with physical pleasure, the two often have ideological collisions.

Although this kind of collision is often more sparks that ignite.

The two seem to be two extremes, but because they are extremes, the collision is more intense. Apollo and Enoch almost keep the frequency of these three days of small quarrels and five days of loud quarrels.In the past, Enoch's good temper seemed to be aimed at Apollo's disappearance.

Apollo was really angry sometimes, but the quarrel between the two was a quarrel, and Enoch always treated him like that.Sounds weird, but it's true.

Regardless of whether the two had a quarrel or a cold war, Enoch never deliberately ignored Apollo because of this.

Angry is still angry, cold war is still cold war, cooking is still cooking, the two of them even do things in bed as usual, but no one talks to anyone, Apollo will never call Enoch even when he is most comfortable name.

Both sides are trying to figure out a way to make the other party bow first, as if calling the other party's name first is like losing.

At that time, it was to earn a breath of air to annoy the other party, but in retrospect, those childish and irritating behaviors seemed to have turned into fun.

Apollo looked at Enoch who was busy for him, and his mind immediately flew to that time, when they were still together, arguing and playing together.

"Enoch, I'm not hungry, please sit with me for a while." Apollo sat on the threshold of the door, pulling Enoch and staring at him.

"Enoch, do you like being lonely?" Apollo asked after a while of silence.

"Ok?"

"You are always alone, drawing a line between yourself and others, not accepting others stepping in, and never stepping out. Do you like this feeling of being alone?"

Enoch was stunned for a moment, and then smiled softly: "Apollo, no one likes alone. I never like being lonely."

"But you have to get used to loneliness..."

"No one, no one can stay with me forever. Some things, you have to learn to be used to it, and you have to learn to be patient. Even if you are afraid, even if it is difficult, but the time of the gods is very long, you can slowly get over it of."

"It's just... getting used to it."

Just be patient, just be patient.

Just as Apollo was used to striding forward, Enoch was used to it long ago.I am used to being alone, I am used to waiting quietly, watching, and then turning around and leaving.

When I was young, I still felt resentment and cried, but it will be fine once I get used to it.

Nothing is impossible to get used to.

Enoch stretched out his hand, and the sun in front of him seemed to be able to be held tightly in his palm, but it was indeed so far away from him.

Apollo's gentle and powerful body leaned over, and the long golden curly hair left a trace of warmth on his skin.

"Enoch, from now on, just try to get used to me..."

Enoch was silent for a while, then stretched out his hand and put the palm of his hand on the back of Apollo's head, the touch of the fingertips of the palm was so real.

"Apollo, from today onwards, let's date like real lovers." Enoch said softly.

No more fear, Enoch thought, as long as he held this man's hand, no matter what was in front of him, no matter what was under his feet, he would have the courage to go forward to some extent, right?

The author has something to say:

In fact, I wrote the extra episode a long time ago, and I was going to post it when the comments were closed, and then I was going to wait for the comment system to return before releasing it, and then——I forgot, yes, I thought I had already Just finished it, but it turned out that it was only done in my dream? !Sorry sorry, very sorry.

There are a total of two extras, but it is said that there are as many as 1w6+, because they are put in the comments, so for convenience, I directly made two extras.One is decades after the end time, and the other is the modern side story, both of which are daily sprinkles of dog food.

Finally, in the stable update of my own article "[Comprehensive] Moldy God's Love Daily", the deposit of the manuscript has been completed, so don't worry about the data being bad and abandoning the pit.

"[Comprehensive] The Thousand-Layered Routine of Heroes and Braves" will be launched in mid-December, and I will wait until I save more manuscripts, and then start after the salted egg article is over.

"[Comprehensive] Advancing Personality" will take a long time for the comprehensive main attack. It is destined to be a cold circle. It can be regarded as a power generation for love. It will not be opened until it is all written (in order not to be affected by the data)