[Net King] Take away my heart

It was only by accident that day that I suddenly thought of taking the textbook I had finished and returning it to Chiye.

I already remember the way to Chiye School very clearly. Chiye brought me here two or three times, and each time I would make a big circle around the campus before going back.Occasionally, I would like to go out alone without bothering Chiya. The doctor said that my treatment is going well. In the current situation, it does not matter if I am not hospitalized. I can already take care of myself.

Arriving at school with my books in my arms, I walked towards the tennis court.Chi also said that the tennis court was his revolutionary base, and he would find time to practice here whenever he had nothing to do.It is said that the university that Chiye attended is also famous for delivering sports talents. The school's basketball and rugby teams have achieved brilliant results. Although the tennis part is still vacant, Chiye said that he is very interested in becoming the school's first student. A professional tennis player is confident.

I think he will do it.

Sure enough, I found Chiya near the tennis court who had just finished practice and was wiping off his sweat with a towel.I didn't go to him right away or call him because I realized he wasn't alone there.

There is a girl who seems to have known each other, who seems to be the girl who came to the hospital with Chi Ye to help me celebrate my birthday, and is standing with him talking and laughing.

That should be Akaya's classmate, that's right.

The girl held a freshly opened bottle of mineral water in her hand, as if she was about to hand it to Chiya.But just when Chi Ye said thank you and wanted to take it, the girl mischievously withdrew her hand and poured a mouthful of water into her mouth.After drinking, she looked at Chi Ye and laughed, and Chi Ye laughed with her.

They look very intimate, like a couple.Ah, it should be a couple.

When I realized this, I suddenly panicked.I felt like I had seen something I shouldn't have seen, and subconsciously wanted to run away.

Why would I want to run away?I don't know either.Is it because Chi also never mentioned to me that he had a girlfriend?Is it because Chiya never introduced this girl to me?But so what, he was under no obligation to report this to me.

Then I finally realized that there was one thing I had misunderstood all along: Chiya had grown up, but I still seemed to be stuck in the middle school era when my memory was blank.

I always thought that in this distant country, Chi and I were the only ones who knew each other all the way and walked together from our hometown, so we would be good friends as a matter of course.But I was wrong. Chi also came here earlier than me. He has his own social circle, his own friends, and his own life, which I have never set foot in.

It was only then that I realized that I knew very little about Chiya in front of me. I didn't know who his best friend was, and I didn't know when he had a lover... That's why I'm so concerned about this One scene was a surprise, because only I was stuck in the past, stuck in a blank memory.

For a moment, my gaze collided with Akaya's.Before I had time to think about it, I hurriedly turned around and left, but as soon as I stepped out, Chiye's voice came from behind: "Senior—!"

He may have come after him.But I didn't stop because of this, but walked faster.

"Senior, wait a minute!"

The faster I walked, the faster Chi Ye's footsteps became. Seeing that I had no intention of stopping, he finally rushed up to hold me back.

"Good news!" He grabbed my arm and explained eagerly, "It's not like that!"

it's not like that……?

So what is it like...?

I don't know what to say.

"I'm just here to return the book..." I looked down at the textbook in my arms, "You don't have to chase after me...I respect you, you should have your own space."

Go back quickly, I actually just want to say this.

"It's not like that!" Chi Ye shouted, "She is mine..."

"I also feel that my position is very strange." I interrupted Chiya, and I suddenly didn't know what I was talking about, "Chiya helped me a lot, I am very grateful to you, but Chiya also has his own things to do Do it, it's impossible to stay with me all the time... Chi also should have had a girlfriend long ago..."

"What are you talking about—"

I pushed the book in my arms to his chest.

"I'm sorry." After I finished speaking, I turned and fled before he could react.

Two days later, the doctor told me I could leave the hospital.

After contacting my parents, I started to pack and pack my luggage alone in the ward.I can go back to my hometown. This should be a happy thing, but I can't get excited.

When I picked up the shattered dictionary from the bed, a huge sense of loss came to my heart.In just two days, I have considered many, many things.Whether to stay here, whether to stay here, and how to stay here, the result of some consideration is that I should still leave.

"Where are you going?"

I looked up and found that Chi Ye was standing at the door of the ward looking at me.Unlike the usual him, Chi also stared at me with a fierce gaze, and there seemed to be a trace of crimson faintly at the corners of his eyes.

"Where are you going?"

He asked again, then closed the door behind him and approached me.I turned to face him, watching him step by step towards me. With a "snap", Chiya snatched the dictionary from my hand, and then threw it on the ground under my feet.

"I'm going back." I summoned up the courage to tell him, "The doctor said I can be discharged, so I'm going back to Japan."

"No, I will never let you go." Chi Ye's tone revealed anger, "You are not allowed to go anywhere! I will not let you escape!"

escape?No, I have self-knowledge, so I chose to leave wisely.Staying in the United States to go to college is a wonderful dream, but it is impossible for me to realize.Even if I can read English fluently, so what, even if my memory is cured, there are still parents waiting for me in Japan who have worked hard for me. So hard, instead of daydreaming here all day, trying to make them pay high tuition for me again.

Chi and I are also different. He has a bright future and a bright future. He can thrive in this free land without any worries, while I have too many things to worry about.

"I have to go," I said.

I turned around and started packing my luggage.I can imagine the expression of Chi Ye behind me at this moment, he was silent for a while, this silence was terrible, a bit suffocating.

I can't deny that I envy Akaya, especially after seeing him with that girl.But this kind of envy also made me clearly realize that I don't belong here, Chiya's world is another world, and my narrow world is limited to this hospital.

Chiya suddenly grabbed my shoulder.

He forcefully turned me over, then pushed me back two steps, and finally pushed me down on the hospital bed.

While Chiya grabbed my wrist, he suppressed me with his body.When his bloodshot eyes appeared in front of me at such a close distance, I finally smelled the aura of danger.

"Why are you doing this...!"

he cried, his voice full of pain.

"I don't understand my mood at all... just run away from me, what did I do wrong? I really want to know what you are thinking...!"

An exasperated and helpless voice.

"It's hard to be reunited here, and finally have a day of success. Do you know how long I have been waiting for this day! All my efforts are to let you see me, let you recognize me, and you refuse to tell me anything , I can only guess and guess all day long... The more I guess, the more disturbed I feel, the more I don't understand you... I'm really afraid, afraid that you will remember those things from the past, although I know that sooner or later you will Think about it, but I don't want you to think about those... because you didn't like me in the past, and I don't want to go back to the past...!"

I don't talk, just listen.Chiya's beast-like aura is close at hand, and the feeling is more real and oppressive than ever, but the strange thing is that I don't feel scared, I just feel sad.

"I know I'm not good enough for you. I didn't get good grades when I was young, and the people around you are all smart people like Senior Liu... I'm very envious. I always think that one day I will become very powerful and surpass all others." People stand by your side! This day has finally come... But you want to run away from me, no matter how hard I try and study, you still have to run away... I really don't understand, you tell me! Why is it You don't want me to know you..."

Curly black hair, fair skin, and pitiful red eyes like an innocent bunny.This is the Kirihara Akiya that I remember just like the junior high school days.

I thought he had changed, but he hadn't.Chi also wants to understand me, and I also want to understand Chi Ye. It is obviously the same mood, but we are staggered inadvertently.

Anxiety, misunderstanding, uneasiness, and urgency, when all the emotions converged violently, Chi also finally broke out.I couldn't move my body, and my wrist was very painful, but I knew it wasn't him trying to hurt me, it was just Chiya's straightforward expression of emotion, pure and unadulterated, the most sincere way of expression... From It's been that way since a long time ago.

"Senior is like a goddess on the moon to me. I'm just a rabbit...a rabbit who knows nothing. A rabbit can only foolishly pound rice cakes. It's impossible for a rabbit to be favored by a goddess..."

it hurts.

"Senior... I have been to you since a long time ago..."

It broke our hearts.

The pain brought back all the memories of Akaya that were dormant in my mind.It turns out that I have never found out that although I forgot the car accident, those who left me, and the gloomy and heavy junior high school year, the memory of Chiye has never disappeared, and with the same The way anyone is clearer, has always been in my heart.

The scene of Chi Ye standing with that girl suddenly appeared in front of his eyes again, panic, and the loss covered by the panic.It turned out that it was a feeling called "jealousy". This feeling finally made me fully understand that I was liking Chiya.

I like Chiya.

Ah, so it is.

The reason why I want to stay in the United States, the reason why I want to become Chiya's classmate, is because I like him... It's not that Chiya is not good enough for me, but I feel that I am not good enough for him, and I feel ashamed, That's why I want to leave here.

When everything was figured out, I suddenly wanted to cry.But I can't cry, I know that a dead knot has finally been untied, Chi is my past, he is my lost memory, behind all the painful past, he is always the one who will never leave me Man, his feelings for me, whether it was before the car accident or after I came back to life, have not changed.

Suppressing the impulse rationally, Chiya trembled, and then left me.The weight on my body suddenly disappeared, my wrist could move again, and I was free, but Chiya walked out of the ward.

His back was engraved in my eyes like a brand.

For a long time, I lay on the hospital bed without moving, looking at the ceiling, and a voice in my heart was silently chanting.The sound became louder and louder until it dragged me out of the hospital bed.

You have to chase it out.

I have been passive, and finally decided to take the initiative for the last time.

When I walked out of the hospital, I found it was raining outside.

Not a lot of rain, but enough to obscure vision.I came to the side of the road to look for Chi Ye, and then saw him walking alone with an umbrella in the light rain.

It was a red umbrella, very eye-catching red, close to the color of Akaya's eyes.I ran towards Chi Ye and quickly caught up with him, but instead of stopping him immediately, I followed him with a distance of more than one meter, and followed him slowly for a few minutes.

Chi also should have known that I was following him, but he didn't look back, nor did he stop.After walking for a while, my hair got a little wet, so I took a few steps forward and got into Chi Ye's red umbrella.

Chi also stopped, he didn't speak, and neither did I.I peeked at him out of the corner of my eye. He lowered his head, his curly bangs covering his eyes.

"I like Chiya."

It seemed that I had exhausted all the courage in my life to say this.Then I finally cried, and the tears overflowed from the corners of my eyes and dripped down like rain.

Can I be willful once?If mom and dad were here, I'd love to ask them that.

When I was 15 years old, I lost many important things. These things may never be found in my life. Because of this blank stuck, I can no longer grow up.

But I want to grow up, I want to have my own life.I've found someone who can fill that void, and this person is standing by my side right now, I don't want to leave him, I don't want to lose him again, even at the cost of growing up, I want to be selfish again, no matter what .

Chi Ye suddenly dropped the umbrella in his hand. I watched the red umbrella roll to the side of the road, and Chi also hugged me tightly at this moment.

He made a sound that was neither laughing nor laughing in my ear.Then I realized that he was crying too. Why did this moment come so late, so difficult, and so full of emotions?

"I also like seniors. I have always liked seniors the most..."

I stretched out my hand and gently rubbed Chi Ye's hair, like comforting a cute little animal.

"I like senior, I like senior, I like senior most...Senior is mine..."

I have completely forgotten my name, and just kept calling Akaya senpai.His face was wet and it made mine wet too.But suddenly enlightened happiness surrounded us, and I seemed to return to Lihai many years ago in an instant, back to the time when we were still chasing each other in the corridor in uniform, as if the tragic car accident had never happened, as if those who were far away Those who have gone have never left, as if everything is starting again at this moment.

Chi and I hugged for a long time in the rain, and I could feel the curious eyes of passers-by staring at us——

But I don't care about that any more.

"Lianhua, long time no see."

I said this softly, and then put down a bouquet of flowers in front of Miyake Reika's tombstone.

Lianhua's tombstone is engraved with the year of her birthday and the date of her death. Only when I saw that line of words did I have a real feeling that I had been away for a long time. It turns out that Lianhua's death has passed ten years ago.

Chiye's sister drove us to the cemetery, and she was sitting alone in the car smoking a cigarette.A gust of wind blew, and the petals in the bouquet were blown away. The sister sitting far away by the car window stroked her hair. The scene was so familiar that one felt as if she had seen it somewhere long ago.

"Do you know who she is?"

When Chi also introduced his sister to me, there was a smirk on his lips.I was really taken aback because I found out that his sister was the girl who was standing with him courtside that day.My sister, who didn't know anything about it, generously gave me a hug. I was embarrassed, but we have become inseparable friends since then.

"She is very similar to you." I said to the tombstone.

Akaya's older sister is one grade higher than me, and she is studying at the same university as Akaya.She is the eldest daughter in the family, capable and sensible, enthusiastic and cheerful, and most importantly, she can subdue her younger brother.

Now Chi has also realized the first step of his dream and became a professional tennis player.After returning to the United States, he is about to participate in professional competitions, and his sister has also found a very ideal job after graduating from college - Akaya's agent.

My elder sister likes to joke that a bastard like Chi Ye is useless regardless of teaching. In daily life, the siblings always quarrel and quarrel, and sometimes fight twice, but every time it is the elder sister who wins the final victory.Sometimes when I look at my sister, I can't help but think of Lianhua, dare to love and hate, and do what I say, that is a boy-like and clear character, which I still envy to this day.

Chiye's growth today is inseparable from his sister's teaching. Although my sister likes to bully Chiye more than anyone else, she also loves Chiye more than anyone else.It is really reassuring to have such a sister.

"As for me..."

I took out a crumpled piece of paper from my pocket and spread it out in front of the tomb.It was an admission letter from the university, of course, the name of Akiyama Jiayin was written on the line of the applicant.

"I did it." I was finally able to proudly run to tell Lianhua the news, "And I have something more important to tell you..."

"Senior Miyake, we are getting married."

Squatting with me in front of the tombstone is my fiancé, Chiya Kirihara.He changed his posture, knelt down in front of the tomb, staring firmly at Lianhua's tombstone.

"I will take good care of her. I will protect her for the rest of my life and never let her suffer any harm... I will also pay for all her tuition fees and let her realize her dreams. Anyway, no matter what she wants to do, I will fully support her ... Senior, please allow me to marry her."

He bowed his head cautiously.

"Do you think... Senior Miyake will agree?" Chiya asked after raising his head.

"Will do."

I know she will.

The wind is so soft, and the sun seems to be fragrant.The breath of green grass surrounds us, everything is calm as usual, but it seems to silently evoke the memory of the past.

Just like Chiye's sister, Lianhua will definitely add a lecture after a taunt, and if she doesn't say cool, she may add a little violence, but when she is done venting, she will laugh or cry come to bless us.

"...you remember everything?"

Chi also looked at my face, he looked a little worried.

This is the first time Chiya and I have returned to Japan after being away for several years. Perhaps because I returned to my hometown, I breathed the familiar air, saw the familiar blue sky, and saw familiar things. I vaguely had a more real feeling. , it seems that I have indeed been here, and I have indeed done something here.

"Aka has cried here before, hasn't it?"

"how do you know?"

Chi also looked surprised, it seems that I was right.

"I don't remember..." I said slowly, "but... I just seem to know."

I forgot a lot of specific details like how Yeon Hwa passed away, like when we started being friends.But I just have a natural intuition, even if I can't remember, I know that Lianhua is my best friend, I know what a kind girl she is, and I even know how beautiful she looks when she smiles.

The same is true for Chi.

Aka is always worried that once I think about the past and remember that I didn't like him as much as I do now, I will question this relationship and even leave him.But what I want to tell him is that that can't happen.

I know how much Chi also likes me, this does not need memory to prove it, and it will not be changed by memory, this is what I have known from the beginning, it is my instinct, my intuition.

"senior."

When he said this, I thought he was calling Lianhua.It wasn't until Chi Ye moved his body and leaned against me that I realized he was calling me.

"What?" I asked.

"I love seniors."

After speaking, he leaned over and kissed me.

"...When will you be able to get rid of the problem of calling you senior?" I felt very embarrassed doing this kind of thing in front of Lianhua's tombstone, I turned my face slightly, "Lianhua is also your senior, this It's a strange name..."

"Yes, what does it matter, senior will always be my senior." Akaya blushed, "Senior Miyake was one of my favorite seniors in the past...but now, my favorite is only senior. "

I was so shy that I could only bury my face in Akaya's chest and close my eyes.

If Lianhua was still alive, she would laugh and boo us when she saw this scene.

Overhead, the daytime moon smiled silently.

The moon rabbit finally got the favor of the goddess. They love each other and support each other. From then on, no one is alone on the moon.

They will live happily ever after, under the soft moonlight, forever, forever.