【Xu Run】Laoshizi

Xu Feng came back happily holding the wood, and Runyu was already tired of staying in the yard.Seeing that there was no one in the yard, Xu Feng was a little anxious. She wanted to put down the wood and go into the house, but after thinking about it, she went to the well in the backyard to wash her hands and wipe the sweat off her face.

Then he ran into the hut.

Runyu was on the bed, and the peony flowers warmed by his spiritual power were placed on the head of the bed together with the vase. He lay half-lying, staring at the blooming peonies in a daze. Beside him, the fluffy and snow-white sheep and rabbits were all in peace. Lying on the bed.

Xu Feng stood in the front hall for a long time, hesitating whether to disturb such a peaceful and peaceful time—the look of disappointment on Runyu's brow made him unable to leave.He just stared blankly, watching.

He really wanted to talk to Runyu, even if he was reprimanded by Runyu with a gun and a stick, but he didn't say anything in the end, turned around and walked out.

——Maybe God helped him. At this time, there was a muffled thunder in the sky, and a continuous spring rain just fell silently.Xu Feng was taken aback for a moment, then he looked back at Runyu.

Runyu was also staring at the drizzle outside the window in a daze, wondering if he was like Xu Feng, thinking of the continuous drizzle they had seen together in Xuanji Palace?

Xu Feng went outside the house, dragged the wood to the eaves, sat on the porch and slowly broke the wood again, making it into the shape she wanted.Whether it was intentional or unintentional, the small window beside Runyu's bed was right behind him.Xu Feng was doing the swing, as if he had no other intentions, but there was a heavy force pressing on his chest, which made him feel a little out of breath for some reason.

After sitting like this for a while, I suddenly heard Runyu waking up in the room and said: "You...why did you go out just now?"

"I think brother is thinking about something." Although most likely he was thinking about how to make Xu Feng look good, Xu Feng still smiled and said, "I don't want to disturb you."

"Don't want to disturb?" Runyu's voice floated out of the small window, very close, and it sounded full of doubts, "When we were young," Runyu said, "you always came to me, and you couldn't help but say nothing, and you didn't care about me. What are you doing, sometimes it’s raining and you can’t go out, and you clamor for me to watch the rain with you, and I will think, what’s so interesting about raining.”

It turned out that I was really thinking about that time, but in Xufeng's view, it was a happy memory, but in Runyu's view, it didn't seem to be the case at all.Xu Feng was silent, and was about to apologize, but Runyu suddenly said: "But then I thought, what would I be doing, what would I be thinking if I didn't have you to accompany me on such a quiet and cold rainy night?  … ..."

The two brothers were silent at the same time again, and today I don't know what happened, they changed their usual way of getting along with each other: usually Xufeng kept looking for something to talk to, while Runyu didn't talk when she could; now the situation was reversed. For a short time, Xu Feng was silent, but Runyu kept talking: "If you think about it this way, you won't feel irritable, but you will be happy to see you, and even look forward to seeing you, but when you come, I don't care about anything." No, I can't give you anything, so I feel troubled and restless, I hope you don't come."

"You keep giving me warmth, but I can't give you the corresponding thing," Runyu said, "So I think, if one day, I will give you what you want."

Xu Feng's heart ached, and he muttered, "I don't want anything."

Runyu chuckled a few times, not knowing whether he was laughing at Xufeng's innocence or his own overthinking, he said, "Really?"

Xu Feng said: "You think I'm the one who accompanied you, but in fact it was you who accompanied me...Brother, I didn't want anything else at that time. I had everything. I just want someone who understands me, who can't make fun of me, and who can't laugh at me." The person who raised me harshly just needs to accompany me a little... just a little bit every day."

After hearing this, Runyu didn't speak for a long time.Xu Feng's words actually touched his secret mind: the night when he fainted outside the Nantian Gate and found out that he was pregnant, in fact, at the beginning, before the Snake Immortal threw a stick to lure him to the Dongting, he was Those who had the same idea: not only did he need Xu Feng, but Xu Feng was also deeply attached to him and needed him. They were two intertwined vines, supporting and relying on each other.When he went to Beichen, he took away the support of the young Xu Feng in the heaven.Even Xu Feng's bad temper later on, hating him and resenting him all came from himself.

Hearing his silence, Xu Feng suddenly said eagerly: "Brother, since this is the case, why don't we start over—here, you and I, accompany each other, okay?"

All he got was a long silence.

I don't know how long it took before Runyu said: "Xufeng, not everything can be restarted."

"but I……"

"You threatened me with the lives of the Dongting aquarium."

"At that time..." Xu Feng became more and more wronged, and gradually became angry, "Do you want me to watch you and the mother god fight to the death?"

As soon as his words full of gunpowder came out, Runyu's voice gradually calmed down: "You still torture me."

Xu Feng suddenly lost his temper - he made thousands of mistakes, and the most irreparable thing was that he personally tortured Runyu with thunder and fire. Since then, they have been strangers, and Runyu hated him deeply.

"...I am different from that time." He could only say in a low voice, "I... the thunder and fire of the sky have been sealed by me at the bottom of the cliff, and I will never hurt you again."

"Brother," Xu Feng begged, "Give me one more chance, okay?"

"Xufeng." Runyu's voice sounded exhausted, "I...I'm scared."

"You are very powerful, you are not afraid of the sky, you are not afraid of the earth, there is no force in this world that can restrain you." He said slowly, "I... I can't do anything against you. You know where the most painful part is when you tortured me In my heart. I am not afraid that you will hurt me and kill me, but I am very afraid that you will let me know that what I have believed in is just a phantom."

"But have you ever thought that this is unfair to me?" Xufeng said painfully, "You...Runyu, I have done many unforgivable things. I am innocent and cruel, and I act recklessly, but I am not born That’s it, I’m not like this from the beginning! You don’t like it, you get angry, you can tell me from the beginning, you are not someone else, you are my brother!” Maybe it’s a few days of depression The pain and pain made him really unbearable, and he finally spoke out all the thoughts in his heart.

Yes, he regretted so much, he wished he could go back to the past, hold his hand, and lead him to the right fork in the road again and again, but was it all his fault?

"You pampered me, you spoiled me," he accused full of despair, "it's not the father, the mother, the gods, it was you who helped me and watched me get to this point step by step, but you didn't say anything at that time, You're my brother, why don't you say it? You never told me you were unhappy, unhappy, until one day you decided enough was enough and you just walked away and left me... If you couldn't Bear with me for the rest of my life, why didn't you help me get better earlier?!"

After he said these words, his cheeks were gradually stained with blood, but his lips turned white and cold—he knew that his words were preposterous, but he still thought, why didn't you say it?

Since Runyu was a teenager, he knew that his younger brother had a "bad temper" and was treated lightly. He was obviously sad, but at that time he chose to remain silent and leave.

If any one time, God's will never teases people, and Runyu doesn't get depressed and dodge, will he become a better person?Is it necessary for him to kowtow until his head is broken, his parents, elder brother, all these people can't give him a little reminder?

Chunyu continued to fall, but Xufeng and Runyu stopped talking, and the two fell into a long silence.After an unknown amount of time, Xu Feng said, "I'm sorry."

"...Why?"

"I...shouldn't have yelled at you just now." Xu Feng was in a low mood, as he was always like this, he did things with enthusiasm, and felt regretful after finishing, "You and I have different identities and standpoints, and I blamed you... to deal with it in another place, probably I can't do much better."

"You are already very good," Xu Feng whispered, "You are the best, the best, the best."

Runyu still didn't make a sound, the inside and outside of the house were separated by a thin wooden wall, but it seemed like two worlds, inhabited by two completely different but equally scarred people, Xu Feng thought, he had already Very good, very good; but Runyu thought blankly, for the first time in this life, Xu Feng said, you are already very good.

Before that, he said, you are not happy, why don't you say it?Although it seems like a question evading responsibility, his intentions can also be heard from the pain in his tone—maybe he has never underestimated Xu Feng's character, and also underestimated his own weight. He thought that if he said clearly that he was unhappy, if he bluntly said that what Xu Feng did made him uncomfortable, Xu Feng would not get the obedience he liked, and he would just leave.However, what if what Xufeng said is true?If he is not such a person who only hears the words of obedience, if from the very beginning, when Xu Feng was still an ignorant child, someone was willing to teach him, help him, and tell him what is right and what is wrong. No, Xu Feng will change into another look?

It was clearly a heart that had been reduced to ashes, but at that moment, it felt the pain of suffocation again, and came back to life from the ashes.

"What's the use of talking about it now." Runyu said, "It's too late, Xufeng."

"It's not too late, I don't think it's too late!" Xu Feng said, "This is a matter between the two of us. As long as you and I think it's not too late, who has the right to say it's too late? Yu'er, please..."

Runyu laughed out loud in the room: "Xufeng, why are you so persistent?"

Xu Feng heard him laugh, and followed him, as if thinking something was funny, he laughed and said, "That's right, why? Brother is so smart, don't you really understand?"

"……I don't know."

"You're pretending to be confused." Xu Feng said, and suddenly heaved a long sigh, "It's okay, we will get married after you tomorrow."

Runyu remained silent, Xufeng felt that his consciousness was getting tired and foggy, he leaned against the wall and turned his face sideways.

"You...have a good rest." Before he fell asleep, Xu Feng murmured in a low voice, "Tomorrow...we will get married."

"The third quarter of the unitary hour is the good day and time I chose."

"We...get married, we...start over..."

He tilted his head and finally fell into a long-lost sleep.Behind him, the cabin seemed to vibrate for a moment, and a bright white light appeared, and then everything returned to calm.

Xu Feng had a long and deep sleep this time. In his dream, he traveled through time and saw himself and Runyu when he was young.

The two children were lying in front of the window of Xuanji Palace. It was raining continuously outside the palace. The younger one stretched out his hand to catch the rain, with excitement written all over his face; He grabbed his brother's belt for fear that he would fall out.

The whole world is contained in one eye, and only the other party is contained in the other eye.

——This is his life with Runyu.

He didn't wake up until the next afternoon.It rained all night the night before, but the weather on the second day was exceptionally clear, and the air was filled with the vitality of spring.

When Xu Feng woke up, he found that the rabbit and the sheep were squatting in front of him, staring at him with two pairs of black eyes.

Xu Feng looked at them for a moment, his consciousness gradually returned to his original position, and a feeling of extreme fear suddenly rose in his heart.

He thought, why didn't these two beasts cling to Runyu anymore?

Thinking of this, he stood up abruptly, scrambling towards the door, but timidly stopped before pushing the door open.

He began to think, what should he do if he opened the door and Runyu had already escaped?

Can he accept one disappointment after another?

Is Runyu safe in heaven?

But there were so many things to worry about, that he didn't even dare to open that door for a while.In the end, he just trembled and knocked on the door.

At first, there was no movement in the room, but then, there was the sound of cloth rubbing against each other.

"...What's the matter?" Runyu asked through the door.

Xu Feng's nose was sore all of a sudden, and he was about to cry for nothing: "Brother...you...you didn't..." He sniffed and swallowed those useless words, "I want to see you. Open the door, okay?"

"……no."

"Why?"

"I thought..." Runyu said, his voice was full of uncertainty, "...Aren't we going to get married today?"

Xu Feng's heart beat wildly: "Really?"

"...Didn't you say so?"

"Yes, yes..." Xu Feng stammered, "I just..."

He just didn't expect that after one night, Runyu would accept this setting just like that?But he didn't dare to say anything more, for fear of waking up the sweet dream.Runyu said again: "We can't meet each other on the day we get married."

"is it?"

"should be."

"That's it." Xu Feng felt like a fool now, what Runyu said, he would just say yes, he didn't know anything, "Then, then I won't bother you..."

But he felt that he had nowhere to go, and finally said: "Then I, I'm right outside the door."

"..." Maybe he was so stupid that Runyu had no choice but, Runyu said, "It's up to you."

Xu Feng walked slowly to the porch and sat down again, and suddenly found that the wood she got last night was gone.

"Brother." He ran to the door and asked, "Have you seen my wood?"

"What wood?"

"Make swings."

"...I threw it away."

"what?????"

"'Ah' what?"

"It's nothing, nothing." Xu Feng counseled, "You can rest."

He thought about it, and returned to the porch with his tail between his legs and sat down resentfully, because there were still a few hours left, and he really had nothing to do, so he turned back into his real body, touched the hair on his stomach and sighed: "I'm so soft. "

Runyu ignored him, and he just talked to himself. A big round bird was sitting on the porch, stretching out its two little feet to bask in the sun, very leisurely.

But this evil way is to damn him not to let him live in peace.

When it was getting late, an unexpected visitor came to the courtyard.It might be a little rude to say that, but for Xu Feng, there is no one in this world who is more suitable for the word "uninvited guest" except her.

Shangyuan Fairy Kuang Lu stood outside the barrier and fell to her knees.

"Mozun—" she pleaded, "I beg you to save Jin Mi!"