The Eye of the Storm

When the fist was swung down, there was a commotion in the audience. No one thought that Liang Sizhe would really dare to strike in front of so many cameras.

Zheng Yin, who was standing aside, hurried over to stop him, but the little man had already been punched twice.

Xu Yunchu rushed over from the backstage, and several staff members blocked the area: "Don't take pictures, don't take pictures! Please put down the cameras first! Don't take pictures!"

Liang Sizhe was quickly stopped by Zheng Yin, and it seemed that he hadn't lost his mind, he just wanted to hit that person with two punches, but he quickly stopped after punching him.

He took the laptop that had been turned off on the table, broke it in half, and threw the keyboard heavily against the wall.

"I want to call the police!" The little reporter covered the beaten shoulder with one hand, and took out his mobile phone with the other hand, "I'm going to call the police now, do you know that beating someone is breaking the law?"

Liang Sizhe walked towards the backstage, and threw a sentence: "I'm waiting in the backstage."

Within a few minutes, this explosive headline was published on the entire network - "Liang Sizhe made a black face throughout the press conference, and then beat the reporter to provoke public outrage."

The police quickly rushed to the scene of the press conference. After learning about the situation from various sources, they brought Liang Sizhe and the little reporter to the police station to take notes.

Liang Sizhe didn't attack too hard, he only left a bruise on the reporter's body, which didn't constitute a minor injury, and he didn't need to be detained, only a private reconciliation was needed.

The reporter Shizi opened his mouth to ask for financial compensation, Liang Sizhe agreed without saying anything, but the reporter also asked him to cooperate with the video website's request and record an apology video, but this condition was not negotiated, Liang Sizhe refused to record.

The headlines in the next few days were all related to Liang Sizhe, and the public's attention quickly shifted from the "Cao Xiuyuan molested Zhang Minghan" incident to the "Liang Sizhe beat someone" incident.

"Liang Sizhe beat a reporter and was taken away by the police", "Liang Sizhe refused to apologize for beating someone", "The reporter of 'Star Broadcasting' may sue Liang Sizhe to court"... All kinds of news about the "Liang Sizhe beating" incident are overwhelming on the Internet Spread the word.

Related videos of Liang Sizhe's birthday party the night before also streamed out. Passers-by on the video called Liang Sizhe's name, but he passed through the crowd expressionlessly, and no one responded, so accusations that Liang Sizhe was playing big names quickly spread. Come.

Almost everyone, regardless of whether they were interested in gossip in the entertainment industry or not, are paying attention to this matter. More and more media have begun to badmouth Liang Sizhe. The film king, compared with Liang Sizhe who waved his fist at the reporter, said that he "drives high and walks low" and "plays a good hand poorly".

That year, Liang Sizhe had just turned 23 years old, and he seemed to be walking on a very thin steel rope, with the moon above his head, and he was shrouded in a bright mist.Everyone looked up at him, and the thinner the rope was and the more it swayed, the more attentively and fully they looked.They were waiting for him to fall headlong from a high place and perform a good show of plummeting from the clouds.

But now Liang Sizhe really fell.

The beating incident caused a great uproar, and Liang Sizhe's audience popularity dropped drastically. "Star Broadcasting" took advantage of the warmth of its own reporter being beaten, and planned a poll, saying that if Liang Sizhe's new film was released, would you choose to buy a ticket to watch the movie? 74% of people voted "no" option.

The capital market is turbulent, and the direction of the wind is changing faster than all other fields. Liang Sizhe is riddled with negative news, and the number of film contracts is reduced immediately. Any film that wants to make money is waiting to see the audience's true attitude towards Liang Sizhe. No one dares to use it at this moment. He is the protagonist.

It was only later that Liang Sizhe realized that subconsciously he used "Wangchuan Zhichuan" as his escape route. He trusted Cao Xiuyuan very much and believed that even if Cao Xiuyuan had no accident, at this point, he would not care about the opinions of the capital market.Cao Xiuyuan has only one criterion for using an actor, that is, whether this person is suitable for the role in the film.

Cao Xiuyuan is so defiant and proud of his talent, but perhaps it is also because of this that he can become a genius director who is not influenced by anyone.

On the way to the airport, in the carriage, Zheng Yin turned his head and asked Liang Sizhe if he regretted holding the press conference that day.

Liang Sizhe smiled, turned his face to look out the window and said, "There is nothing to regret."

He thought that if Cao Ye had acted in "Thirteen Days" back then and accepted Cao Xiuyuan's guidance and advice, Cao Ye would have realized that Cao Xiuyuan, who is not a father, is a full-fledged genius. Judge him for what he does.

But fate tricks people, and it just pushes them to different paths of life.

Before boarding the plane, Liang Sizhe called Cao Ye again. He called a few days ago, and the voice kept telling him that the other party was in the middle of the call. Liang Sizhe guessed that Cao Ye had blocked his number, but this time when he called, the voice reminded the other party The phone number is down, Cao Ye probably abandoned this number.

That’s right, Liang Sizhe thought, Cao Ye gave him the chance to act in the first place, and now he has offended the media and the public because of Cao Ye, and almost killed his acting career halfway—this probably It can also be counted... two clears, right?

A hopeless relationship should be cut off rationally, rather than allowing oneself to fall into hopeless emotions.Liang Sizhe understood this truth better than anyone else.Is it possible that he is going to be like his parents, facing a relationship that is at the end of the road, but still waiting for it to recover again with a fluke mentality?

Let the past go, Liang Sizhe thought, there will always be new people and experience new things, and no one has to do anything.

When we arrived in a secluded small town in the north, there was no grand opening ceremony in the past. After all the staff were in place, the production crew quickly started the production. Cao Xiuyuan sat behind the camera and yelled "action", and the production crew immediately threw themselves into intense shooting. status.

The plot of "Wangchuan" is not complicated. Two small-town youths who lived in the countryside since childhood, Lu Hechuan and Guo Zhen, had sex out of curiosity. No one said they loved anyone, but they had nowhere to vent their excessive desires. Let them maintain this relationship in secret.The two graduated from high school and worked with their elders in the village for two years. One day, Lu Hechuan got a broken truck and said he wanted to take Guo Zhen out to earn money, so the two started to make long-distance deliveries together.They smoked, quarreled, and had sex on the long journey, until one day Guo Zhen's father was seriously ill, and the great god in the village suggested that Guo Zhen get married and choose an auspicious day to give his father "Chongxi", so that his condition would improve... So the whole story revolves around "Chongxi" "This incident fully presents an absurd marriage.

Liang Sizhe played the role of Lu Hechuan in the film, co-starring with newcomer actor He Xinze who played Guo Zhen.He Xinze is about 1.7 meters five, with a thin body, and his looks are not very outstanding in the entertainment circle, but he fits well with this role and his acting skills are not bad.

The filming went smoothly at the beginning. Guo Zhen, as a newcomer, did not have the problem of using too much force on the newcomer. Although some emotions were not well grasped, it was natural, and with Cao Xiuyuan's touch, the filming progressed smoothly. .

But three months later, Cao Xiuyuan became dissatisfied when the scene where the two of them ran a long distance was filmed. Originally, a scene could be passed three or five times, but now it is often impossible to pass it after three or fifty times.

"CUT, I don't have enough emotions," Cao Xiuyuan said behind the camera, "This scene does have to be closed, but your emotions are for that sake, you love him, and you love him too," he pointed at Liang Sizhe and He Xin Ze, "You are in love with each other but neither of you shows your sincerity, but are you in love now? Don't just use skills to act, it's too fake, don't try to use skills to fool the past if the relationship is not in place, don't shoot it yet , to brew some emotions."

The plot of that scene was that when he was running a long distance to deliver goods, Guo Zhen suddenly said that he would not run long distances in the future, and that he was going home to get married.Lu Hechuan didn't respond, and even made a joke, saying that you boy has been fucked by men for a long time, can you be hard on your wife in the future?Guo Zhen seemed to have been a little humiliated, so he remained silent and didn't answer.Lu Hechuan suddenly stepped on the accelerator to the bottom and drove for more than ten miles on the highway. He didn't stop the car until he was about to collide with the car in front of him.He pulled over to the side of the road and lit a cigarette to smoke.

This scene was shot more than a dozen times, but Cao Xiuyuan was never good.Everyone present could see that the problem was with Liang Sizhe. Guo Zhen was a rookie, so Liang Sizhe had to bring him into the scene in this kind of rivalry.

But Liang Sizhe himself didn't seem to be able to get into the show either.Liang Sizhe also knew that he had a big problem. Before that, the films he had made were either teenager's secret love, or drama films with a dark emotional line, or romantic films with a comedy style, and he had never been in the film. experienced such strong emotions.

Even in his life, he has never experienced such a relationship. His few relationships are hasty, and he can't say how much he loves them. Due to the failure of his parents' marriage, he is jealous and pessimistic about relationships, as if he has lost his investment in a relationship. capacity for emotion.

This scene was filmed for three days, and Cao Xiuyuan finally lost his temper on the third day.After working together for four years, this was the first time he lost his temper at Liang Sizhe.

"Ask yourself, do you believe that you love Guo Zhen?" Cao Xiuyuan dropped the script, "How can you make the audience believe something you don't believe yourself? How many times have you said it? It makes you look very fake! Haven’t you ever been in love? Is it for nothing? Then go talk now. I don’t care who you are looking for. Half a year or a year is fine, don't continue to waste the crew's time here! How can you act in the future if this scene doesn't make it through?!"

After saying this, Cao Xiuyuan really gave the whole crew three days off.

That was the most painful period for Liang Sizhe. He stayed in the hotel every day to read the script, trying to immerse himself in the character and get into Lu Hechuan's emotions.But he couldn't find the status no matter what.

He went to find Zheng Yin, Zheng Yin let him sit on the sofa opposite, looked at him and sighed, shook his head as if in disbelief and said softly: "How could you not know what it's like to love someone?"

That tone seemed to be saying something ridiculous.It seems normal that others don't know, but Liang Sizhe is born to know how to love someone.

Liang Sizhe didn't know what was wrong with him, this film made him extremely painful.He thought maybe he wasn't suitable for this film. Mr. Cao just saw the wrong person at the time. Even a genius will occasionally make mistakes.

He is naturally strong, and he has never conceded defeat since he practiced the violin, but the pain caused by filming this scene made him almost want to give up this role.

He even wondered if Mr. Cao could find out as soon as possible that he couldn't play Lu Hechuan well at all, and then decisively replace him and replace him with someone else.

In this way, he can be worthy of everyone, Cao Xiuyuan, and Cao Ye.

As soon as this idea came out, he thought of Cao Ye again.He had been avoiding thinking of Cao Ye for three months, but at this moment Cao Ye reappeared in his mind uncontrollably.

He suddenly realized that even if "Wangchuan" was the last way he had no choice, when he was walking on this way, he still couldn't help but look back at the boy who told him "don't cooperate with Cao Xiuyuan".He still doesn't know if he made the right choice at the time.

Liang Sizhe suffered from insomnia that night.

Cao Ye had a face-to-face meeting with him in his mind, and Liang Sizhe couldn't seal him up again.

He couldn't help thinking about the time on Yinsi Street, the tall and slender boy holding his dog majestically, and the way he played the violin and sang "Little Star";

The appearance of the first wet dream, the appearance of sleeping on the stomach, the appearance of being touched on the head and about to explode;

They were walking on the stairs, he hooked his neck, turned his face and said, "Are you acting in my movie or my dad's movie";

When filming "Thirteen Days", he suddenly came to the crew and looked lost;

The way he joked with his friends backstage at the premiere;

And the last time he saw Cao Ye, the young man looked pale and on the verge of collapse.

Liang Sizhe suddenly realized that even if he deliberately ignored his attention to Cao Ye, he could still remember every appearance of Cao Ye he had seen in these years.

They're like old movies that have lost the "pause" button, playing incessantly in his head.

It turned out that he didn't "little like" Cao Ye, he lied to himself, he was actually very longingly, hopelessly, watching from afar, secretly loving his young man.

Since when?Probably since Yin Si's time, he couldn't help falling in love with his boy.At first he couldn't accept that he liked the same sex, but later he was afraid that his liking would be discovered by the other party.

So he kept hiding. He admitted that he liked Cao Ye, but he kept deceiving himself that he didn't like Cao Ye that much.

——It’s okay without him, it’s no big deal, life has to go on, who can’t leave whom?

In this way, he even deceived himself.

Only by avoiding this emotion can he protect himself, prevent himself from falling into it, live a normal life, and fall in love normally.

But now Cao Xiuyuan let him sink into Lu Hechuan's emotions and let him show his true love, he couldn't hide it anymore.

He had to cut himself apart, and take out the emotions he had loved, because at that moment Lu Hechuan loved Guo Zhen so eagerly and hopelessly.

The next day the crew restarted the machine, and when they filmed this scene again, Liang Sizhe only took one shot and passed.

When filming the bed scene in the afternoon, the crew cleared the scene, and in the narrow small hotel room, two naked men were entangled together.Lu Hechuan pressed on Guo Zhen, their bodies moved, Lu Hechuan's voice was very low, he lay next to Guo Zhen's ear, and asked him when he would do business, what kind of girl she was, what plans he had in the future, and whether he would be needed on the wedding day Go be his best man.

They talked like whispers, and Lu Hechuan suddenly began to exert his strength, as if he wanted to finish all the things that were too late.

After it was over, he didn't speak any more, but hugged Guo Zhen tightly and said, "Then shall we meet again in the future?"

"See you later." Guo Zhen said.

Lu Hechuan let out a "hmm".

After the scene was filmed, Cao Xiuyuan yelled "cut", Liang Sizhe still didn't let go, his arm was only around He Xinze, and he didn't relax his emotions for a long time.

He Xinze hurt from being hooped by him, and it took a while before he called out "Brother Si Zhe".

Liang Sizhe looked up at him, as if waking up from a dream, and suddenly remembered the young man calling him "Brother Sizhe" with bright eyes, and then realized that this was in a play, and the person he was holding was not Cao Ye.

That night he had a dream, a charming and moist dream, he was entangled with Cao Ye, just like Lu Hechuan and Guo Zhen.

After waking up, he stared at the ceiling in a daze for a while, so he had a desire for Cao Ye, he thought.He has never liked a man, never had a desire for a man, and when he liked Cao Ye, he only thought he was cute, and he never thought about it in other directions.

But now he suddenly discovered that he longed for Cao Ye not only spiritually, but also physically.

In the night, he reached down his hand. He liked Cao Ye for so many years, but this was the first time. He thought of Cao Ye to relieve his desire.

It’s ironic, life may be an absurd drama, after the end, Liang Sizhe thought a little out of focus, he lost Cao Ye because of "Wang Chuan", and it was because of "Wang Chuan" that he found that he actually loved him deeply, but if he followed Cao Ye is gone, and if he doesn't play "Wangchuan", he doesn't need to immerse himself in Lu Hechuan's emotions. Will he be able to lie to himself in his life, convincing himself that he doesn't really like Cao Ye that much?

Liang Sizhe had been very painful in the subsequent filming of "Wangchuan".This kind of pain was not brought by Cao Xiuyuan. In fact, after he found the state, he took every shot smoothly, and there were no more dozens of bad shots.

But being immersed in this hopeless emotion for a long time has caused him too much consumption.He had no way to protect himself and avoid falling into his emotions. His own emotions and Lu Hechuan's emotions were superimposed, making him extremely depressed every day.

He seems to have returned to the time when he was filming "Thirteen Days", he was in the scene every day and couldn't make a play.

In the second half of "Wangchuan", he completely entered the role of Lu Hechuan, and his emotions drove him to act in the role, so that he didn't even know what he was playing. Cao Xiuyuan said that he passed it, and he couldn't do it like before. Get out of the role and judge how well you are acting.

So half a year after "Wangchuan" was finished, Liang Sizhe couldn't believe it when he heard that he had been shortlisted for the best actor in Cannes.He didn't know what he was acting the whole time, but this film gave him the highest honor.Life is so wrong.

After "Wangchuan" finished, Liang Sizhe tried to find Cao Ye and contact his friends, but they all said they didn't know where Cao Ye was or what he was doing.

Liang Sizhe tried to accept other films, but he found that he couldn't get into other roles at all. "Wang Chuan" has too much stamina, and that hopeless emotion is always pulling him, just like the water plants at the bottom of the water, tightly entwining him, wanting to take him to the bottom of the water.Several times in his dreams, Liang Sizhe dreamed of Cao Ye, and dreamed that he backed up and said those few birthday wishes. After waking up, he felt like he was drowning because of difficulty in breathing.

He couldn't get out of his emotions, so he couldn't take on new roles and enter new emotions.

One time when he was having a drink with a friend in the industry, he came across a script by chance. The script was immature, and it was written by an amateur screenwriter. The story was not interesting either. The story of the separation and reunion of Yue opera actors.

No one thought that Liang Sizhe would be interested in this story, but he did quickly decide that he would be a director and make this film.This decision made him very decisive. He bought the copyright of the script, changed the script after obtaining the consent of the original screenwriter, and changed the name to "Liang Sheng Zhu Meng".

After this news was exposed by the media in China, many people said that Liang Sizhe's eyes were too high, that he was not a good actor, but he wanted to transform into a director.

But Liang Sizhe ignored these comments, he invested his own money, found people familiar in the industry, and formed the main cast of the crew, not using famous actors.

The brokerage company did not agree with him being a director at this time, and it happened that the five-year contract period had also come to an end, so he broke up with the company and fought alone with Xu Yunchu since then, without joining any company.With such freedom, he doesn't like being bound by a brokerage company.

"Liang Sheng Zhu Meng" is still in the preparatory stage, Liang Sizhe is busy with the crew, and at the same time attends the director's class of the Chinese opera.The media frequently photographed him wearing a mask on the campus of Chinese opera, and his appearance of bowing his head to take notes in class, so more and more people began to believe that Liang Sizhe was really going to make a big move to become a director.

The film is still in the preparation stage, and Liang Sizhe received the news of the awards at the Cannes Film Festival.He arrived in Cannes by plane, without any careful preparation, he didn't think he could win the award, after all, he didn't even know how the film turned out.

Sitting under the stage, when he heard the award presenter pronounce his name lamely in French, he felt like he was dreaming at that moment.

He didn't even prepare the award speech, hugged Cao Xiuyuan, Zheng Yin, and Xu Yunchu one by one, and then walked to the awarding platform to receive the trophy.Standing in front of the standing microphone, the light was dazzling, and he couldn't see anyone in the audience clearly through the light fog.But it doesn't matter, Liang Sizhe thought, the person he most wanted to see was not there anyway.

He raised the trophy, and only said a speech: "Thank you, my mentor, Director Cao Xiuyuan." After speaking, he bowed to the audience, then he straightened up and stepped off the stage.

The people who stood on the awarding stage were talking fast, afraid that they would not be able to finish the long list of thanks, but Liang Sizhe felt that he had nothing to thank. He had no father or mother, and he had never received help from any friends except Cao Ye. .

Standing on this awards platform, the only thing he would like to thank is Cao Xiuyuan, who was the one who asked him to act in this film.But he forgot that this time he was obviously the one who helped Cao Xiuyuan turn around, so Cao Xiuyuan should thank him.

On the way back to the hotel, Zheng Yin turned around from the co-pilot and asked him: "You know the news of Li You's death, right?"

"When did it happen?" Liang Sizhe couldn't hide his shock. In the past two years, he seldom paid attention to news in the entertainment industry, especially avoiding news related to Cao Ye.

"During the filming of "Wang Chuan"," Zheng Yin said, "Director Cao took three days off to attend Li You's funeral. He didn't tell you about it for fear of disturbing your emotions."

Liang Sizhe didn't respond, and hadn't recovered from the shock: "When did Teacher Li You get sick?"

"I only found out after asking Director Cao. When she returned to China that time, she was already seriously ill. She passed away three months later. The secrecy work was done well, and the media didn't report much about it."

"Oh." Liang Sizhe replied in a daze, so Cao Ye's situation when he came to find him was even more sad than he knew.He was alone, clinging to himself like a driftwood, but he didn't grab the hand he had stretched out for help.

"Yesterday, on Li You's memorial day, Cao Ye announced her suicide note, you can read it." Zheng Yin handed over the phone, Liang Sizhe took it and read it.

Li You clarified for Cao Xiuyuan in her suicide note, saying that she and Cao Xiuyuan separated a long time ago, and there was no fraudulent marriage in their marriage. Cao Dao was in a normal relationship with Zhang Minghan at that time, and there was no obscene behavior.

This suicide note was published by Cao Ye. Liang Sizhe looked at the words "Cao Xiuyuan's only son" on the title. Cao Ye hated Cao Xiuyuan, but according to Li You's last request, he published her suicide note and laundered it for Cao Xiuyuan on the eve of Cannes. Exonerated.

That soft-hearted young man must have come out, right?Even if he hadn't been the piece of driftwood that pulled him ashore, he had floated ashore by himself.

Back at the hotel, Liang Sizhe put the trophy on the table. He sat by the bed and looked at the golden Palme d'Or trophy under the lamp.

He used to think that this trophy was out of his reach, but now that he really got it, he didn't seem so happy.

It's like climbing to the top of this mountain road, looking at the white sea of ​​clouds in front of you, and suddenly discovering that the person who once set off at the foot of the mountain with you has long been separated from you, and you can't find him if you look around .

The sea of ​​clouds is beautiful but inaccessible. He appreciates the beautiful scenery that most people in the world cannot appreciate, but suddenly there is a sense of emptiness and loneliness that cannot be vented in his heart. Is he going to spend the rest of his life like this?It's been a long, hard journey.

Liang Sizhe turned off the light, lay down on the bed, and closed his eyes.

Just sleep and you'll be fine, he told himself.

Then he fell into a dream.He dreamed of the elevator surveillance screen again, Cao Ye stood in front of him, he could only see his lips opening and closing, but couldn't hear what he was saying.

The elevator doors closed slowly, and he anxiously wanted to hear what Cao Ye said. He wanted to step into the elevator like Cao Ye, but he couldn't move his legs as if he was nailed in place.

At the last moment when the elevator closed, he heard clearly what Cao Ye said, it wasn't saying "Don't make Cao Xiuyuan's movie".

The boy looked at him helplessly, and cried out to him for help:

——"Liang Sizhe, stand by my side."

--"I need you."

——"You walk with me for a while."

——"Come to my side, will you?"

Liang Sizhe felt like he had fallen into a nightmare, he wanted to wake up but couldn't.

The soreness in his chest made him feel so uncomfortable that he couldn't stretch his body, so he could only curl up as much as possible.

It took him a while to wake up. After waking up, he stared blankly at the air for a moment. After his breathing calmed down, he got out of bed, walked to the suitcase, bent down and took out a hard drive.

Since he got the hard drive, he has never looked at its contents.But no matter where he went, he always took it with him.

Now he suddenly wanted to see Cao Ye.He hasn't seen him for two years, and this is the only video material he has related to Cao Ye.

He connected the hard drive to the computer in the hotel, and the monitoring screen popped up, and Cao Ye's voice suddenly came to his ears: "Do you know what it looks like when two men have sex? They remind me of those two Dogs are disgusting."

He clenched the mouse tightly and stared at the boy on the screen. The boy backed away step by step, getting farther and farther away from him until he exited his world.