The Eye of the Storm

No one chatted with anyone along the way, Liang Sizhe drove very fast.

When passing through the congested section, Liang Sizhe turned his face and asked Cao Ye if he had any cigarettes.Cao Ye didn't stop him from smoking this time. He handed him a cigarette, lit it for him, and then lit one himself.

He obviously only met Xiao Xiaobai a few times, but now that he heard that its condition is not very good, Cao Ye felt like his heart was sinking.

The air pressure in the carriage was very low, several times Cao Ye couldn't help turning his head to look at Liang Sizhe, and he could always see him frowning slightly, and the boredom was written in the furrowed eyes.

Ever since he reconnected, Liang Sizhe seemed to be at ease all the time, and his emotions were hidden so deep that it was difficult to guess his thoughts. Even when he mentioned his parents' memorial day ten years ago last night, his tone was very calm and harmonious. expression, but now he rarely looked agitated.

"The light is green." Cao Ye reminded.

Liang Sizhe came back to his senses, let out an "um", stepped on the accelerator, and drove the car through the intersection.

Cao Ye saw that he was not in the right mood: "Do you want me to drive?"

"It's okay, we're almost there." Liang Sizhe said, turning the steering wheel and driving into another lane, passing the car in front.

The car stopped at the pet hospital. Liang Sizhe took a baseball cap and a black mask from the back seat. He put the baseball cap on his head, pushed the door to get out of the car, and put on the mask while walking.

He walked very quickly, Cao Ye followed quickly, and followed him to the independent inpatient ward.

Xu Yunchu was sitting next to the hospital bed, lowering his head to deal with work on his mobile phone. When he saw them coming, he got up and told about Xiaoxiaobai's situation: "It vomited after eating for several days. I was afraid of delaying your mood to join the group, so I haven't talked to you all this time." He said that he brought him here for an IV drip every day for the past few days. But today it’s really bad, it suddenly became very serious, and it was foaming at the mouth...I’ll call the doctor and let him tell you.”

"En." Liang Sizhe responded, squatted down, and looked at Xiao Xiaobai lying in the cage.

The cage door was not closed, and probably the hospital staff knew that it didn't have the strength to stand up and run around.

Xiaobai was lying on his side on the mat, and was getting an infusion. Liang Sizhe pulled off the mask, stuck it to his chin, and raised his hand to pat its head.Xiao Xiaobai half-opened his eyes weakly, raised his head and opened his mouth when he saw his master, probably wanting to scream, but seemed to have no strength, so he just snorted in his throat and lay back down again.

The previous few times when I saw Xiaobai, he was in a good state of mind. Only now did Cao Ye notice that for a dog, ten years old is already a dog's twilight years.But now Xiao Xiaobai's half-opened eyes are dull and cloudy, exhausted, and look full of signs of aging.

Xu Yunchu brought the doctor over, Cao Ye straightened up, Liang Sizhe also stood up.

The doctor shook hands with Liang Sizhe and said in a respectful tone: "I have seen your dog many times, but this is the first time I have seen you in person. It may be inappropriate to say this now, but I am really your movie fan and have liked you for many years. .”

"Thank you," Liang Sizhe was a little tired of dealing with all the communication, but still maintained basic politeness, "Let's talk about the dog's situation."

"To be honest, it's not very good." The doctor glanced at Xiao Xiaobai, "Half of my stomach was cut a year ago, and now I have to continue to cut it, but it's old, and the success rate of the operation... Let me tell you the truth, even if the operation is successful, the postoperative recovery may not be able to survive.”

"You are a professional doctor," Liang Sizhe nodded, "I want to hear your advice."

"Now there are two options, one is to maintain the status quo, but it can't eat anything now, so it can only be infused every day. According to this situation, it can survive for two more months, but it is actually quite painful to live. I can't move even after eating, and I may spend most of my time in the hospital..."

"It sounds like you don't recommend this kind of solution, what about the second one?"

"The second option may be cruel to you, but it's the best choice for dogs. Euthanasia," he said, carefully observing Liang Sizhe's expression, seeing that Liang Sizhe's expression did not fluctuate, he continued with confidence. "Your dog has now lived for more than [-] years. In fact, it is no different from the end of life. It is also a struggle to continue to live. It is better to let it go without pain."

Liang Sizhe lowered his eyes and turned his head to look at Xiao Xiaobai.It looked listless. It had been up for more than a week, and it was so painful that it was hard to blink, as if it had been exhausted from life.

"Well," Liang Sizhe raised his hand to put on the mask, and said the second half of the sentence through the mask, his voice sounded a little dull, "I'll think about it again."

After the doctor left, Liang Sizhe squatted down again, looked at Xiao Xiaobai, stroked its head, and shook its paws.

When Xiao Xiaobai had the surgery years ago, he was still filming abroad and couldn't make it back in time. It was Xu Yunchu who came to accompany him to perform the surgery.Since then, he has been mentally prepared, knowing that Xiao Xiaobai may leave at any time this year.But when this moment comes, there is still a lingering sense of powerlessness and exhaustion.

Life is really helpless. Ten years ago, my parents who accompanied me passed away suddenly. Ten years later, even my only dog ​​who accompanied me will leave.

Suddenly, I received a call from Qin Yizhuang ten years ago to inform him about the birth of Xiaobai. Same as before.

He still remembered that under the dim streetlights in Yinsi, he carefully picked up the little little white like a meat ball, and laughed out loud. Cao Ye said he named it "Little Little White", but he didn't expect it to be Looks so much like Caesar.

Counting back, when he was filming "Red Man Red Girl" in Beijing, he went home every day, and the night scenes were often filmed very late, and Xiao Xiaobai was also hungry with him. I don't know if the stomach problem fell at that time. root.

After each drama was finished, taking Xiao Xiaobai back from Xu Yunchu was like a ritual of life separation.When he's not filming, he doesn't go out often, without Xiao Xiaobai to accompany him, life doesn't know how boring it would be.

Unexpectedly, these ten years slipped away so quietly, and the days of being with each other came to an end in the blink of an eye.

Cao Ye squatted down with Liang Sizhe, looked at Xiao Xiaobai, and then turned to look at Liang Sizhe.

Compared to the restlessness when he was driving, Liang Sizhe seems to have put his emotions away again now, as if he has accepted the ending when the dust has settled, but Cao Ye always feels that there is a kind of repressed and deep sadness in him.

"I'll take it home," Cao Ye said softly, "I'm in Beijing, so I can take good care of it, maybe the situation will get better."

"Will you?" Liang Sizhe asked.

"I will." Cao Ye comforted him, but he didn't know what to do in his heart.

"Si Zhe, your flight departs at eight o'clock in the evening," Xu Yunchu reminded from behind, "Go to the airport after eating something early."

"Well," Liang Sizhe looked at the watch on his wrist: "It's time to go." The crew is about to start, he has to arrive early, get into the mood, and be fully prepared, it is impossible to be accompanied by a dog for ten minutes The year's dog staggered the steps.Both the media and the audience say that he is headstrong, but he has never been willful when it comes to filming. He has always known that the time and efforts of hundreds of people in the crew cannot be wasted.

"I'll take you there," Cao Ye said, "I'll come back later to pick up Xiaobai." He also knew that once the start-up time was set, if Liang Sizhe changed the plan temporarily, he would not know what kind of scolding would be caused.

"I'm here to watch," Xu Yunchu said, "Sizhe, go there with peace of mind."

"En." Liang Sizhe responded, looked down at Xiaobai for a while, then patted its head, said "Thank you" in a low voice, and then got up and walked out of the ward.

Cao Ye followed him out, out of the pet hospital, Liang Sizhe walked to the side of the co-pilot, opened the door and sat down low.

"What do you want to eat?" Cao Ye sat in and started the car and asked.

"Eat whatever you want." Liang Sizhe said.

The pet hospital is not far from Luomeng. Cao Ye called the head chef of the club ahead of time and asked him to prepare some dishes.

After arriving in Luomeng, several dishes were served quickly, but Liang Sizhe didn't eat much, he only drank a bowl of porridge, and the rest of the dishes only moved his chopsticks twice symbolically.

There was more than half of the food left on the table, but neither of them had much appetite, so they left for the airport after staying for a while.

It was already dark when we went to the airport. Liang Sizhe took a black hooded jacket from the back seat and put it on. He pulled the hood up, put on a black mask, leaned on the back seat, and kept looking sideways. Looking out the window.

He covered his face tightly and didn't speak. Cao Ye turned to look at him while driving, but he couldn't see the expression on his face.

Cao Ye had never seen him like this before, so he couldn't help but call him when he stopped at the intersection of traffic lights: "Liang Sizhe."

After a while, Liang Sizhe responded, "Huh?"

"Don't worry too much, I will take good care of Xiaobai."

"Ah."

The red light changed to green, and a vehicle passed by on the other side of the lane. The headlights of the car passed Liang Sizhe's side face, but the light quickly disappeared from his face again.

For the rest of the way, there is no more words.Cao Ye didn't know how to comfort him, Xiaobai's departure seemed to be a foregone conclusion, no one knew whether it would be intolerable or cruel to let it live for a few more days.

At the airport, Song Qingyan had already contacted the airport staff in advance, opened the VIP channel, and waited for Liang Sizhe at the entrance of the channel with the airport ground staff.

When he reached the security checkpoint, Liang Sizhe stopped, turned around and looked at Cao Ye: "Go back, pay attention to safety on the road." His voice sounded a little hoarse, showing exhaustion that could not be ignored.

He was wearing a hood and a mask. The hood was a bit wide, casting a large part of the shadow on his face.The two stood facing each other, and Cao Ye looked at him. Only then did he see Liang Sizhe's expression clearly. The straight bridge of the nose held the mask high, and he looked up at the slightly sunken eyes, which were slightly red at the moment.

My heart seemed to be pulled suddenly, and it hurt a little.Before the brain made a decision, the body had already reacted instinctively. Cao Ye stepped forward, raised his arms to hug him, and patted his shoulder twice: "Liang Sizhe is fine, Xiaobai will be fine."

Liang Sizhe let out a "hmm", raised a hand to wrap around his shoulder, lowered his head, and rested his forehead on his shoulder: "Drive slowly on the way back."

"I know."

Several ground crews were waiting to watch them, and the staff not far away took out their mobile phones, as if they wanted to take pictures.

This hug seemed out of place, Liang Sizhe noticed this, quickly let go of Cao Ye, and took a step back: "I have gone through the security check."

"Yes." Cao Ye said.

When he turned around, Liang Sizhe took a look at him, that look was hidden under the shadow of the hood, maybe it was an illusion, Cao Ye felt that the look looked very deep, as if hiding an indescribable emotion.

He stood there watching Liang Sizhe go through the security check, his mind was full of Liang Sizhe's slightly red eyes just now, and the look he gave him when he turned around.

Liang Sizhe passed the security check, took his coat and waved at him twice, Cao Ye also waved at him.

The VIP passage seemed very empty. Cao Ye looked at Liang Sizhe's back. He was obviously accompanied by airport staff and Song Qingyan, but Liang Sizhe looked lonely and alone.

In the past, she would sleep on the plane, but this time Liang Sizhe couldn't sleep.

The warmth in his arms didn't seem to have completely faded away. The moment Cao Ye leaned over, he exerted great restraint so that the movement of hugging back didn't look too forceful.At that moment, he really wanted to hug Cao Ye, hold the temperature in his hand, and prevent him from escaping.

His little boy was really kind to him. Back then, he was willing to bow his head to the two people he least wanted to face for him, and now he was willing to turn back and not have a girlfriend for his prodigal son. Now he can hold back the discomfort in his heart when he is weak , leaned over to give him a hug, but just refused to face his own heart, and insisted on being ordinary friends with him ten years ago.

If we go one step further, will even the last bit of temperature in life be taken away by the heavens because of my greed?

Cao Ye said that he would win another Best Actor with him, but even if he won ten more Best Actors, what would it mean to him?

He became famous at a young age, stepping from the lowest point of his life to the top step by step. It seems that he is the luckiest one in the world, but because of this, although he has many friends in the circle who can chat and drink, but there is only one bosom friend who can really talk to each other. nothing.

With Xiao Xiaobai gone in the future, how should I entertain and pass the time between filming?Every year before and after the parents' festival, there will be an unresolvable sense of loneliness. It seems that the several relationships I have experienced happened during this time, but this year I can't talk about relationships, because Cao Ye is not happy that he is in love... Liang Sizhe closed his eyes and sighed He took a deep breath, and he was really going to be forced to become a saint.

Being successful and famous, and being alone, maybe this is his own destiny.

People cannot escape their destiny.The gears of fate have been turning with a bang since he was 17 years old. Everything in the past, including Cao Ye, seems to be pushing him towards this seemingly prosperous but doomed homeward journey.