The Eye of the Storm

"What about you?" Liang Sizhe collected himself, looked up at Cao Ye, "I play the violin so badly, but you knew it was "The Devil's Trill" as soon as you heard it. You must play the violin well, right?"

"I'm far behind," Cao Ye curled his lips, "I'm not blindly humble...I've been impatient since I was a child, so although my mother always wanted to train me to be a genius violinist, I'm obviously not that kind of material, I can only be regarded as... I can listen to it."

Cao Ye was telling the truth. He inherited his mother Li You's musical talent. He memorized the score quickly and grasped the rhythm very accurately, but he just lacked patience. He couldn't sit still and practice hard since he was a child. I couldn't bear to lock him in a small dark room to practice.Cao Ye's interest in the violin was not that strong either. Every time he was sent back to the country, without Li You's supervision, once he played wild, he usually stopped practicing in a month or two.After practicing intermittently like this until now, Cao Ye's violin level can only be regarded as more than inferior than inferior among his peers.

During the conversation, the dishes were almost ready, and the table was full, and the seven glasses of drinks alone took up more than half of the table.There were still a few dishes that could not be opened, so the waiter dragged a small mobile table and put it next to it.

"...Can you finish it?" Liang Sizhe asked as he looked at the table full of dishes.He really has no appetite right now, and he doesn't feel any hunger in his stomach.

"Almost?" Cao Ye also felt that he ordered too much, but he refused to admit it.He picked up the chopsticks, stuffed a piece of salmon into his mouth, swallowed it and said, "Hurry up, too."

Liang Sizhe also took a piece and chewed it slowly.

Cao Ye brought a glass of Grapefruit Blackcurrant to his face, bit the straw and drank half of it.

"Would you like to try this?" He took another cup and pushed it to Liang Sizhe, "It's delicious."

"Thank you." Liang Sizhe took it, pulled out the straw and put it aside, held the cup and took a sip.There is a faint taste of alcohol, but the sweet and sour taste of raspberries is very strong, covering the bitterness of alcohol.

Liang Sizhe thought of something, looked up at him: "Are you sixteen years old?" Just drink?

"This isn't a bar, it doesn't taste like alcohol." Cao Ye squeezed the straw to stir the grapefruit particles at the bottom of the cup, "Besides, even if it's wine, it doesn't matter if you drink it? Don't you really want to take care of me for Uncle Yin? ?" When he was talking, he smiled and looked at Liang Sizhe, as if he was sure that he was too lazy to care about himself.

Zheng Yin took him to eat at this Japanese restaurant last time. At that time, he ordered a glass of grapefruit blackcurrant. Zheng Yin asked the waiter whether it contained alcohol or not. Allowing Cao Ye to drink a small amount, he took the cup over without any explanation, and drank the rest himself.

Cao Ye likes this taste, so this time, taking advantage of Zheng Yin's absence, he ordered all the drinks of the same series in one go.

"It's up to you," he guessed right, Liang Sizhe really didn't bother to care about him, "Just don't get drunk and go crazy."

"How can this thing get drunk..." Cao Ye muttered.

The plate looks like a lot, but the serving size of each plate is not large.Cao Ye was probably really hungry, and he cleared several dishes in a short while.But as he ate, he noticed that Liang Sizhe seemed to be in a really bad mood at the moment.

Although Liang Sizhe's expression on the face was the same as usual, Cao Ye still noticed the subtle changes in him.Liang Sizhe's slightly trembling hand holding his wrist, the two drooping eyelashes, and the last look he looked at him in the bathroom cubicle flashed through his mind.

Is it so sad not to be able to play the violin?He thought that if he couldn't play the violin, he would probably be sad for at most two days, and he might even feel relieved afterwards.Then he felt that the analogy to himself seemed unscientific, after all, he didn't like the violin that much...

How about the analogy to his mother Li You?Cao Ye thought, it seems to be really serious... His mother's hands are said to be insured for tens of millions, and it's hard to imagine what will happen to Li You, a violinist who can't play the violin...

"Actually, you could have rushed in and beat him up at that time." Cao Ye said suddenly without beginning or end.

What he said was unclear, but Liang Sizhe understood that what he said was the Beijing accent they overheard. "I was dumbfounded at that time," Liang Sizhe laughed self-deprecatingly, "It's useless to think about hiding in the cubicle now."

"What does it have to do with cowardice..." On the contrary, Cao Ye excused him, "You don't want them to see you like that, do you?"

"Perhaps." Liang Sizhe whispered.Yes, I am afraid that the fragile and useless self-esteem exposed at that moment will look like a joke that has nothing to do with myself in the eyes of others.

"If you want, I can help you lure that person out, and you can beat him up to vent your anger." Cao Ye offered him a bad idea.

"Forget it, it's not proper to eavesdrop on other people's private conversations." Liang Sizhe smiled and shook his head, "However, thank you." Compared with Zheng Yin's apology, it is obvious that Cao Ye's proposal suits him better Mind.

Seen by Cao Ye, Liang Sizhe's mood is really terrible at the moment.

For Cao Ye, the violin may only take up a few tenths of his life. If he can't play the violin, his life will not be affected much.However, for Liang Sizhe, the violin played such an important role in his previous life that it can even be said that the violin is his entire life and the most important part of his life.Suddenly he couldn't play the violin anymore, and there seemed to be a big hole in his life, and the cold wind was pouring into it, empty and cold, and it couldn't be filled no matter what.

"Do you really want to be an actor?" Cao Ye asked curiously.He drank a glass of grapefruit blackcurrant, took another glass of sparkling cherry, picked the cherry at the bottom of the glass with a straw, and ate it.

"Not really." Liang Sizhe shook his head and said.He thought that what made him feel bad was probably not that he couldn't be an actor, but that the road he thought he could start again turned out to be a dead end...

And as for the idea of ​​becoming an actor... probably because Cao Xiuyuan asked him to be an actor at the right time, filling the part of his life that was missing because he couldn't play the violin.

If someone came to the door at that time and asked him to be a singer, a painter, a cross talk talk, or a cook, in short, to give him a hand, maybe he would follow.

"Whether you can talk about cross talk has nothing to do with whether you can play the violin." ——If someone said that at the time, maybe he would follow suit now to talk about cross talk.This self-deprecating thought appeared in Liang Sizhe's mind.

Forget it, if this is the case, the actor's path is blocked, so let's do something else...

When the thoughts came here, Cao Ye just asked, "If... I mean, if you can't be an actor, what are you going to do?"

Yeah, what to do?Liang Sizhe felt really confused.All these years have been spent practicing the violin, and he never thought that one day he would never be able to play the violin again.

There are some retreats, such as going back to school and taking the college entrance examination, but he has always been escorted by the status of an art student during school, so it is a bit confusing to mention cultural classes.He was called to leave by the music high school for the high school entrance examination, and as for the college entrance examination that he didn't have time to take, if it wasn't because of his broken finger, he should have been recommended to the conservatory of music by now-he had already obtained the admission qualification before the incident happened.

Or accept Zheng Yin's kind proposal and ask him to introduce some acting opportunities for him?But according to what Zheng Yin just said in the door, he doesn't seem to be a good actor, and seeing Director Cao's reaction at that time... Liang Sizhe's mind came up with the expression of Cao Xiuyuan sitting behind the monitor—frowning lightly Shaking his head lightly, he probably felt that he was mistaken when he picked himself.

Or just do some ordinary work?For example, moving bricks, selling insurance, being a bodyguard?This fucking can always be done...

Liang Sizhe sighed and thought, I'm so fucking useless if I can't play the violin...

"I haven't thought about it, maybe I'll go back to Rock City." Facing Cao Ye, he said lightly, suppressing the emotions in his heart.

Cao Ye saw that Liang Sizhe's fingers holding the cup were tightly tightened, and blue blood vessels were exposed on the back of his hand. It could be seen that he was holding the cup very hard, exactly the same as when he was holding his own wrist.It's just that Liang Sizhe looked more fragile at that time, but now he seems more decadent.

Just go back like this?He has never seen Beijing, okay... Cao Ye looked at Liang Sizhe, and had this kind of thought for no reason: He was thrown on that dilapidated narrow street when he arrived, and what he saw was the most filthy and filthy in the city side.Do you just go back like this?

Suddenly Cao Ye had an idea, he wanted to take Liang Sizhe out for a stroll.Maybe he thought it was a good place, so he stayed here and never left?He couldn't explain why, but it seemed that he really didn't want Liang Sizhe to leave here.

"I'll take you out for a stroll some other day?" Cao Ye asked as he thought about it.

Liang Sizhe looked up at him, and said perfunctorily, "Well, let's do it another day." On the way to Beijing more than half a month ago, he had thought about taking a good look around, but things had developed to this point, and he was really not in the mood.

Oh, Liang Sizhe couldn't go out for a walk, and Cao Ye's interest that had risen just now fell again. He had to stay in that dilapidated alley without Cao Xiuyuan speaking, and he had to continue to stay there for the so-called experience of life.

Cao Xiuyuan is really greedy.Cao Ye then came up with this idea, isn't Liang Sizhe more beautiful and impressive than Zhang Minghan?Why Zhang Minghan can be his protagonist but Liang Sizhe can't?

He didn't know what to say to comfort Liang Sizhe - he didn't even seem to have a position to comfort Liang Sizhe, so he couldn't die, why did they become a competitive relationship?And it's still the kind of life and death.

How about giving up this opportunity and giving it to Liang Sizhe?This thought flashed through Cao Ye's mind, but he felt a bit of a headache. Cao Xiuyuan thought he was an unsupportable Liu Adou. If he gave up the opportunity now, he might not even be Liu Adou in his heart. It can only be Liu tadpoles, the kind of tadpoles born by the frog at the bottom of the well.What's more, even if he withdraws, will this opportunity definitely belong to Liang Sizhe?Judging from the conversation inside the door, it seems that more people think Zhang Minghan is more suitable than Liang Sizhe—are they blind?

It was the first time in Cao Ye's life that he had a taste of entanglement. In the past, he didn't need to be entangled. If he couldn't play the violin well, he would become an actor. If he couldn't, he would go back to school. He did not do well in school, so at least he could apply to a good university with his family background.No matter how bad it is, even if you are an idle dandy, you can enjoy yourself in this life.

However, Cao Ye, who has always been relentless, has suddenly changed his mind in the past few days since he was scolded mercilessly by Cao Xiuyuan that day. There is only one thought left in his mind, which is to convince Cao Xiuyuan and let him admit that that day What he said was that he had misread it, otherwise he wouldn't have stayed in Lanyan to read the script obediently for the past two weeks.So at this moment, he sighed the first dull breath since he was born: It's really tangled...

When Liang Sizhe was in a bad mood, he couldn't eat a bite of food.

And when Cao Ye was in a bad mood, he just focused on eating.

The sky outside the window gradually darkened, the night fell, and the street lights gradually came on.The crowd returning home from get off work was in a hurry, Liang Sizhe looked out of the window and thought, maybe in the near future, he will also be an inconspicuous one among these rushing crowd.

And about the violin, about being an actor, one day it will become one unrealistic dream after another, beautiful, turbulent, once upon a time, close at hand and out of reach.

It's a bit sad that fate makes people feel helpless.

Liang Sizhe stared out the window in a daze for an unknown amount of time, and the thoughts in his head went in a big circle. When he came back to his senses, he found that Cao Ye, who was opposite him, was lying on the table and hadn't moved for a while. up.

No way?Eat yourself to sleep? ... Well, after all, he is someone who can numb half of his body in a waking state.Liang Sizhe looked at the plate on the table, the other party only ate half of each dish in a very educated way, and kept the other half for him, but he still had no appetite.

Now that you've finished eating, let's leave. Liang Sizhe stretched out his arm and patted Cao Ye's arm across the dining table: "Let's go?" One arm shifted to the other - didn't wake up, slept soundly.

"Hey, I'm awake." Liang Sizhe was a little helpless, and continued to pat his arm, and then felt something was wrong after two more pats—the small half of Cao Ye's face looked very red, which is what appears on the face of drunk people. That peculiar blush.

……No way?Just drink yourself to the ground without a sound?Can that thing really get drunk?Liang Sizhe took his hand away from his arm and moved it to the half glass of wine in his hand, wanting to take a look at it.

When he was about to take the wine glass out of his hand, Cao Ye seemed to be aware of it. He squeezed the glass tightly with his hands, but his eyes were still closed, and he muttered protectively: "Don't take mine."

"Are you really drunk?" Liang Sizhe looked at him, "Cao Ye, wake up first."

Cao Ye didn't move, didn't open his eyes, and didn't speak.

Liang Sizhe withdrew that hand, clenched a fist against his lips, and looked at Cao Ye with a slight frown. He realized that things might be a bit difficult--although he hadn't seen the prices on the menu, from the decoration and service in the store, Judging, the money he brought probably wasn't enough to pay for the table full of dishes.

If Cao Ye hadn't just generously bought him a pair of trousers this afternoon, Liang Sizhe would almost have wondered if this was a skilful order evasion operation.