Korean entertainment life reset

After becoming an artist, what Zhang Xianyu likes most is still the time when he dances his body and sweats in the practice room. The feeling of standing on the stage is a bit inferior, but it is also a kind of enjoyment. At other times, Zhang Xianyu can't let him Whether it was ing, press conferences or variety show recordings, he didn't speak well at that time, and his ability to adapt to changes was average. He was always worried that he would cause trouble, so he was often silent, and he always used four dimensions when speaking. To make a disguise, he can relax a lot in his own variety shows such as group show "idolmaid" and the cube family's "excitingcube". The video of the slip of the tongue will actually flow out. It is rare for Zhang Xianzhen to see such a situation where the artist, manager, and staff make mistakes together.

It can also be said that Zhang Xianyu prefers to do what he wants to do step by step, and hates accidents and changes.However, not everyone's life must have ups and downs, but it is impossible to keep going smoothly all the time.

After bidding farewell to the episode of "The Lie", Jang Hyun-jin's life of self-improvement behind closed doors in jyp was interrupted by another incident not long after.

"What's wrong with him?" When Zhao Quan entered the practice room, his face was very unsightly. Zhang Xianyu didn't dare to go up to touch the bad luck directly, and instead asked Park Jae-beom for news.

"You don't know?" Park Jae-bum thought about it, and Zhang Xianyu, who was taciturn and practiced hard all day, might not be as well-informed as he was, so he was relieved, "Jin Xuanya fainted in the music center today, and is now in the hospital." .

Zhang Xianxuan's heart skipped a beat, and he nodded to Park Jae-bum numbly to indicate that he heard it, then turned and walked away.

This thing finally came.

He didn't exaggerate his heartache so much that it can't be added. As an entertainer, basically anyone can tell some bitter history. He has spent so long with Jin Xuanya day and night. If he doesn't learn to look down on some things, his heart may have been broken long ago. left.

It's just that I really want to see her.

Zhang Xianyu once read a sentence in a book: No matter what kind of love it is, it will eventually evolve into family affection.The infatuation has evolved into a fetter after getting along day and night, which sounds reasonable, but it doesn't apply to Zhang Xianyu.Kim Hyun-ah who was cute, straightforward, soft and cunning when we first met, Jin Hyun-ah who was sincere, considerate, brave and passionate when we fell in love, Kim Hyun-ah who covered up his pain with silence after parting, or Kim Hyun-ah who is simple and self-willed now, smiles a lot and tears a lot. It was difficult for Zhang Xianyu to look away.

This is also the reason why he has been avoiding Jin Xuanya. In front of this woman, he can't pretend that nothing happened.His tone was regarded as a strange person when he first met him, so he might as well avoid it for now.It is certainly sad to be unable to do anything when you are so close.But after the breakup, both Zhang Xianyu and Jin Xuanya still stayed at the cube to work, bowed their heads but did not look up, and did not say a word unless it was absolutely necessary. This situation has lasted for so many years, and now he can bear it.

However, I still want to see her

Every time he met Jin Xuanya after the breakup, Zhang Xianzhu's eyes fell elsewhere, but his heart would be hooked by that person.He will pay attention to the documents signed by Jin Xuanya, pay attention to every conversation and even meeting between Jin Xuanya and other men, and pay attention to everything about Jin Xuanya.And back in 2007, Zhang Xianzhen would also listen to every word of Jin Xuanya, whether it was coquettish complaints or routine greetings, when he passed the practice room where Jin Xuanya was, he would involuntarily slow down and force himself to leave .He would watch Jin Xuanya's performance on the TV intently. Even though the youthful "Little Mustang" was completely different from the appearance when he met Zhang Xianyu later, her eyes and smiles still filled Zhang Xianyu's heart.

And what followed immediately after this incident was Jin Xuanya's withdrawal from the team. Before Zhang Xianzheng went to the cube, he had no way for her to have any intersection with Jin Xuanya, even if he looked at it from a distance.

So, a few days later, Zhang Xianyu came to the hospital where Jin Xuanya was.

The resignation from the team is a foregone conclusion. Jin Yubin, a trainee who joined the company not long ago, took the place of Jin Xuanya. The MV that has already been filmed will be re-shooted soon.Zhang Xianyu knew that it would not take much time for the traces left by Jin Xuanya in jyp and the entertainment circle to disappear completely—and how long it would take for the traces left by Jin Xuanya in Zhang Xianpao's heart to disappear completely, Zhang Xianpao himself did not know.

Zhang Xianyu was sitting on a bench in the hospital corridor, his clasped hands were wet. His coming here was not a very rational decision, but more driven by emotion.Before coming here, he told himself that there was nothing wrong with taking a look at her before she left, but now that he was in the hospital, he couldn't summon up the courage.

The state of fidgeting lasted for more than half an hour. Zhang Xianju felt that it was too much attention to go on like this, so he stood up, found a place with few people, paced back and forth unconsciously, and continued to hesitate.His heart was about to jump out of his chest, but his body gradually became sore and numb, and his perception of the outside world became more and more unreal.The tension and hesitation at the moment are intertwined with his memories, taking too much of his ambition.

"Zhang Xianyu...xi?"

Zhang Xianzhen turned his head, and standing beside him was Jin Xuanya who was wearing a hospital gown with a slightly confused expression.

All other voices disappeared at that moment, and Zhang Xianyu felt as if he had fallen into another time and space in a daze, but his brain was strangely awake.

Jin Xuanya didn't know why Zhang Xianyu appeared here, she thought she was wrong at first.Also in jyp company, Zhang Xianyu's sense of presence is not so low because of his strength, so Jin Xuanya remembers this boy who has never said anything to him except "Senior is good", but it is limited to remembering.

If someone else came, such as Zhao Quan, Jin Xuanya could treat him as a visit. Of course, Zhao Quan had already been here a long time ago.But the person who came was Zhang Xianyu, and Jin Xuanya really couldn't figure out what was going on for a moment. The relationship between the two was far from the level that he came back to visit the doctor. Is it just a coincidence?

"En." Zhang Xianjue responded from his throat, and he met Jin Xuanya's eyes without any expression on his face.His eyes made Jin Xuanya feel very strange. She had never seen such complex eyes from Zhang Xianyu or from other people. On the one hand, it was clear and reflected pure emotions, but on the other hand, it seemed to cover up With many complicated emotions.

The 16-year-old girl was stunned for a moment, but was quickly pulled back by her previous curiosity: "Why is Xian Jiaoxi here? Is anyone I know sick?"

"Yes."

"Is it from the nearby ward? Maybe I've seen it before." Jin Xuanya really couldn't understand the situation when someone he knew didn't go to visit the doctor when he was sick.

Sure enough, Zhang Xianzhen was not too surprised by Jin Xuanya's question of breaking the casserole. Jin Xuanya's character is straightforward, she can say whatever comes to her mind, and learning to get rid of her willfulness to avoid offending others is a later thing. Jin Xuanya's character was cute in the early days, but sometimes it was inevitable A little annoying.

The crux of the problem is: how should he answer?

Maybe prevarication is a good choice, Jin Xuanya doesn't know much about him now, it's okay for him to lie, but Zhang Xianyu has a deep instinctive resistance to this approach.

The shattering of trust between him and Jin Xuanya was caused by the lies told by the two people who didn't like to lie for various reasons.

Now he can't lie in front of Jin Xuanya, and he has been trying his best to avoid meeting him for this reason. Zhang Xianyu's psychological quality when facing Jin Xuanya is really not good.

"It's you." A force drove Zhang Xianyu to say such words.

"Ah?" Jin Xuanya didn't react for a moment.

"I want to see how you are doing, but because we don't know each other well, I've been hesitating whether to go in."

"Don't be kidding," Jin Xuanya still didn't believe it, "I haven't talked to you in the company, it's like a crush..." Jin Xuanya knew that she would be replaced on the farewell stage, and she was actually in a very bad mood now. At first she restrained a little After a while, and at this moment, emotions finally affected her language.

"It's not a joke, it's just a secret love." At the beginning, Zhang Xianzhen told the truth, and he stopped hesitating, and went all the way to the dark, "I like you, Jin Xuanya".

"Ha", Jin Xuanya didn't know what to say, "What happened before?"

"I dare not confess so early, because now I have no way to ensure anything. At the same time, I have no way to lie to you and pretend that nothing happened in front of you."

Zhang Xianyu didn't care about the irony in Jin Xuanya's words, his gaze was a kind of pure warmth, and what he said was obviously too old-fashioned for a 19-year-old boy, but he said it naturally and sincerely.

"So this was an accident?" Jin Xuanya realized that she was like an interrogator, especially when the "interrogation" object looked at her with such eyes, the weird feeling was even stronger, she didn't want to make herself appear too aggressive, So he squeezed out a smile, but the words he said were still not very pleasant, "So just wait, what will you do when I have a boyfriend in the future, continue to watch?"

Jin Xuanya accidentally made the point.Koreans are surprisingly precocious in love, and those who do not surrender their first love before adulthood are rare animals.Zhang Xianyu handed over his first love and first kiss before the filming of "Big Stick Debut Record". Jin Xuanya also had a boyfriend before Zhang Xianyu.Zhang Xianyu had thought about the question Jin Xuanya asked before, and thought about it for a long time.

His lips moved, and finally he let out a sigh of relief, and said, "It's really not an easy task, but I want to be your last man even more."

If he had to make a choice, he would still choose to grow old with Jin Xuanya instead of being gorgeous and fleeting when he was young.

"I hope I haven't troubled you," Zhang Xianzhen said solemnly. He doesn't want to develop with Jin Xuanya now, and he doesn't care if he is rude. Jin Xuanya is not so narrow-minded, and he won't use the first impression to characterize people, " goodbye……"

"Wait!" Jin Xuanya grabbed Zhang Xianyu, she was still sick, and she didn't need much strength at all, Zhang Xianyu stopped immediately after feeling it, "Correct me, we shouldn't see each other again, you know the relationship between me and the company The contract is over."

Jin Xuanya's voice sounded a bit sarcastic and downcast. She was replaced due to physical reasons when she debuted, which made it difficult for Jin Xuanya, who got involved in music at the age of seven and entered dance school at the age of ten, to accept it.Under the emotional instability, she inevitably has a tendency to vent her anger, otherwise, even if she has not been very euphemistic in her words, she would not say that to someone who did not offend her.

"I'll see you again", Zhang Xianyu resisted the urge to hug the girl in front of him, "Things will change from good to bad, and from bad to good."

"Really?" Jin Xuanya was noncommittal, turned and walked to the ward.

After the rebirth, the formal dialogue between Zhang Xianyu and Jin Xuanya started unexpectedly and ended in a cold silence.

Zhang Xianzhen knew that this time he made a lot of mistakes in his work. Even though he was not a particularly thoughtful person, he didn't even think about what to say when he met Jin Xuanya. It really shouldn't be.Zhang Xianyu realized the mistake in this aspect.

As for the words he said in the face of Jin Xuanya, when Zhang Xianzhen recalled them again, he didn't regret them so much.It is true that external factors are responsible for the regrets of previous lives, and the lies that one thinks are well-intentioned are also to blame. Compared with the honesty that seems abrupt for a while, it is nothing.It's good not to make fundamental big mistakes. An obsessive-compulsive disorder patient like Zhang Xianjue has long stopped forcing himself to be perfect in matters involving speaking.Jin Xuanya is not a woman who can be chased by scheming, it is better to be sincere than obsessed with details.

The countless inner sufferings in the previous life did not dampen Zhang Xianyu's love for Jin Xuanya, but it was enough to numb his sensitive nerves in some aspects. For example, he would no longer worry about Jin Xuanya's every word and every action. sleep, because what he knew about Jin Xuanya and his past experience told him that it was not necessary.This accident may leave a bad first impression on Jin Xuanya, but Zhang Xianyu's heart is not as anxious as before.

It's been so long since we broke up, why do we care about how many more years we're not together?I will always love her in a way that suits her. As for the response, there is no need to be too impatient for the time being.

Anyway, he still has a lot of time and a lot of patience.

he will wait.

Although some fans of Wondergirls protested, Kim Hyun Ah’s departure did not change the slightest. Jin Yubin joined as a new rapper, re-recorded, released the album, became popular, and broke the dominance of the men’s group since the 2002 Korea-Japan World Cup. The revival of the girl group kicked off with the popularity of wondergirls.

Kim Hyun Ah gradually faded out of people's sight, even in JYP where she used to stay, people only had the words "It would have been a pity if she stayed in Wondergirls" when people mentioned her.In addition, there is a person who has not left JYP that also fits this sentence pattern, that is Zhang Xianyu who participated in "Big Stick's Debut Record" and became the only one eliminated - once "Lies" was released, Big Stick got rid of it After debuting for a year, they have been indifferent, and now they are becoming popular together with the wondergirls.

Zhang Xianyu's popularity in jyp is not bad, but it's not that good either. His grades in the trainee evaluations have always been excellent, and he has a temperament that treats words like gold in front of strangers. Of course, there are people who don't like him. of.

"Xian Jiao, after you debut, you will call Big Bang Senior, is that okay?" It sounded full of concern, but the expression of the person in front of him was always gloating.

It’s not enough to say gloating, it’s just the kind of joy when someone who is always jealous is in bad luck. Zhang Xianyu, who thinks he is not very positive, will naturally not get along with other people’s little thoughts. Besides, he is a senior trainee, and he didn’t do anything else Excessive things.The day before, someone was talking in front of him, "What happened to Zhang Xianyu's evaluation results in our company? Could it be that there are so many people in jyp who are not as good as the one who was thrown away by yg".Zhang Xianyu replied with a blank face: "It's okay, senior big, I yelled quite smoothly."

With his sincere eyes and sincere answer, Zhang Xianzhu made the other party feel bored, and left angrily.If his expression could be stronger, the choking effect might be better. Unfortunately, Zhang Xianyu habitually maintains a state of facial paralysis if he is not in a very good mood.

On the one hand, this habit of his can prevent him from being too obvious when his mood deteriorates. On the other hand, it also makes many people who are not familiar with him have a deep misunderstanding of him.

Just like now, Zhang Xianyu was obviously not angry, but when he walked into the practice room with such an expression, even the sound of Yin Doujun's breathing seemed to become quieter.Not long after Yin Doujun joined the club, he was about to be a man with his tail between his legs. There was nothing wrong with this, but Zhang Xianju, who was used to standing behind the captain, felt very uncomfortable.

Do you think I will use this as an excuse to threaten you not to litter in the dormitory? The leader of the beast also has this time, haha.This time, Zhang Xianjue didn't reflect on whether he was laughing at the fifty steps, anyway, all kinds of appearances that he would feel embarrassed in the future during his youth were all known by everyone in "Big Stick Debut Record".

Walking to Yin Doujun's side, Zhang Xianjuan thought for a while, and decided to try to initiate a conversation: "Doujun xi, are you the only one here?" It was so dangerous that he almost spoke plain language directly.

"Hey, senior."

Yin Doujun's rigidity is clearly on the surface, which makes Zhang Xianyu a little powerless. He has lived for 40 years in his previous life and has never done it a few times. In the past, other members let himself go little by little. Come on, change the roles now, Zhang Xianyu suddenly felt sorry for the members.

He tried to make himself smile: "What's wrong with me?" How dull I would have to turn a blind eye to your expression like that.

In fact, Yin Doujun has a smooth personality, and his eyes are very quick, but he still lacks practice when he first joined the company, so he hesitated and couldn't think of any suitable words for a while.Fortunately, there was a crash on his side, but Zhang Xianyu's reaction was much faster than before: "Is it because of the comments I have received recently? If so, I am grateful for your concern." He said with a smile, "I'm fine, it's more important to practice now. ".It just so happened that the news that jyp is going to launch a newcomer has come out, and the reason is ready-made.

Hey, hey, didn't you say this guy has facial paralysis?Yin Doujun was very embarrassed by Zhang Xianyu's rare bright look, so he could only continue to smile politely.

There was no other way, so Zhang Xianyu had to practice by himself.

Although Zhang Xianjue is not very good at getting along with younger generations, the main reason why he will become like this with his teammates in the future is because this time is too special.People who don't have much contact with Zhang Xianju can comment freely, but Zhang Xianju's friends and juniors are tense for different reasons.

Because I have experienced it once, Zhang Xianjue is not as sensitive as others imagined, but even though I have experienced it once, Zhang Xianjue still feels very uncomfortable when he is in such a situation again.

Whether it's malicious ridicule, pure discussion, or nervousness due to concern or other reasons, it all shows that the label "unselected big person" is likely to accompany Zhang Xianyu through his youth again.