Korean entertainment life reset

Growth is never an easy achievement.

For Zhang Xianyu, the failure in "Big Stick Debut Record" and the pressure of the title of "Sixth Man" made his character gradually become firm. After his debut, the care and care from members and fans made him overcome There are many psychological barriers in emotional expression. The death of his father made him learn to take on more responsibilities and mature quickly. Only after experiencing some things can he understand and improve himself.

For Li Qiguang, the failure of his solo debut eliminated the frivolous and impetuous elements in his character, and made his attitude towards people and things much more humble and calm.If you just calculate the ratio of giving and getting, he seems to have earned compared to Zhang Xianyu.

But life is not as simple as calculating what you get.

"I have a feeling that after the real group is formed, I will be isolated."

Cube’s series of actions during Li Qiguang’s solo debut are all laying the groundwork for the establishment of the boy group. Zhang Xianyu, Yin Doojun, Liang Yaoxie, and Long Junheng are all determined to join the new group. What is going on now is the selection of members. It's better to say it's a facade selection.After Ahn Jae-hyo left, Cube, which originally had limited trainee resources, couldn't find someone with both strength and good looks. Recently, although there was a Sun Dongyun who made rapid progress, he definitely couldn't talk about joining the group.The inseparable trio of Long Junheng, Yin Doojun, and Liang Yaoxie all have bad views on Li Qiguang. After forming an army, if the company really continues to allocate resources to Li Qiguang, the contradictions will definitely continue to increase.

"What are you going to do?" Zhang Xianqian asked.

"Don't do anything", when Li Qiguang said this, he looked at the ground with a gloomy expression, "I'd better do my own thing first."

Li Qiguang's previous actions have indeed severely stimulated the trainees who were backup candidates for his debut but could only be backup dancers on stage, but from another perspective, Li Qiguang did not intend to hurt, saying It is too much to say sorry to anyone.What's more, the relationship between Yin Doujun and others and Li Qiguang is just colleagues, not to the level of friends, even if it is for the dignity of a man, they will not bow their heads easily.For Zhang Xianjue and Li Qiguang, he could take the initiative to apologize. For other people, Li Qiguang knew their attitudes, and he didn't want to admit his mistakes in person and ask for forgiveness.

This is a very difficult road, and it is difficult to see the effect, but even Zhang Xianjiao, who knows the future, cannot give better suggestions.The elimination of contradictions, like its accumulation, cannot be done overnight.

Before Li Qiguang's activities as AJ were completely over, news spread that the company would still launch a boy group.But because most of the candidates have been confirmed, the shock caused by this news is limited. The rookie development department has nothing to confirm. The only thing is whether to add a facade and change the five-member group to six. Zhang Xianyu and the others have already started filming their debut program at the same time , After the shots of the other five people were finished, the newcomer development department decided to come down, and the speed was very fast.

"Isn't this golden opportunity coming again? I will try my best and never give up."

Facing the camera, Zhang Xianyu said with a smile.

Big's great experience is still unavoidable, and his feelings for this experience are still complicated and cannot be fully understood.But what runs through his life and soul more deeply is not these sour things, but love, to the stage, to life, to the people who love him.Only love can beat in Zhang Xianju's chest as always after going back more than [-] years.

In fact, it is very difficult to come up with something new in the debut program. Although Zhang Xianyu knows a few good ideas that will appear in the future, he has no plans to keep them for himself.He has no plans to develop in the direction of the show's pd. Besides, can a good-looking debut show make Beast get rid of the title of "reuse group" and make his debut?

After the first episode of Beast's "Debut Memoir" aired, "Recycling" was firmly tied to them.Sometimes you can’t blame the antis for deliberately finding fault. Yin Doujun who was eliminated in "Hot-Blooded Boys", Zhang Xianyu who was eliminated in "Big Stick Debut Record", Long Junheng who used to be a member of the Xing group, practiced in jyp, and played in jyp Liang Yaoxie, who sang a duet in the mboat group, Li Qiguang, who just debuted as a solo singer a few months ago, received a lukewarm response, and Sun Dongyun, who practiced for two years and became a trainee. Lenovo.At this time, even those who pay attention to the entertainment industry will inevitably associate "eliminated" with "weaker strength". Beast first set a precedent, and later successfully changed from "reuse combination" to "rediscovery combination". It broke this mindset.

beast was once burdened with the title of "reuse combination", and later gained more recognition for breaking people's inherent impressions, which can be called a blessing in disguise in a sense.Therefore, in the face of bad comments from the outside world, Zhang Xianyu's mentality is much more stable than at this time in his previous life, and he even has time to explain to the members.

——He didn't seem to have done this kind of thing more times in the past few decades than he did in the past three years. Sometimes Zhang Xianyu would have such thoughts.

But my friend was in a bad mood, and I thought about the wording, I can’t just keep watching, Zhang Xianyu thought helplessly, and at the same time his hands were not idle, he snatched the phone from Yin Doujun’s hand: "I seem to understand why there is The company will ban newly debuted artists from using mobile phones. Don’t look at it, Dou Jun, if they know that their messages have affected the captain of Beast, how happy those antis will be.”

"Then please keep it safe for me." Yin Doujun actually knew that it was not good for him to do so, so he had no plans to take back the mobile phone from Zhang Xianyu for the time being. He stood up on the ground and stretched his limbs facing the mirror in the practice room, "Xian Jiao, how did you do it?"

"what?"

"What you missed was the big one, and you were the only one who was eliminated at that time, unlike me and a few other brothers and sisters. It stands to reason that your pressure should be the greatest. How did you adjust so well?"

Can I say it because I know what's coming?

Zhang Xianyu couldn't find any other reason. With his stubbornness and sensitivity, apart from knowing the future, there was no other factor that could make his mentality so stable and peaceful at this time.After squatting on the ground in a daze for a while, he could only reply falteringly: "I, I don't know, maybe it's because I think I can finally make my debut?" The sense of anticipation takes up the vast majority.

"That's right. You have been a trainee for more than four years. I have only practiced for two years. Maybe I think differently." Yin Doujun lowered his head and smiled bitterly. "The captain was the last to start practicing. I'm afraid I'm the only one like this."

"Hey, it's Sun Dongyun who is trying to catch up with the average in the practice room, not you. What's the matter Yin Doujun, don't tell me you were really scared by the comments on the Internet." Yin Doujun has a strong personality, and he is rarely so unconfident In the previous life, he and Yin Doujun were not very close at this time, and Yin Doujun hadn't revealed these emotions to him, so Zhang Xianyu was confused now.

"I feel... I don't seem to be very suitable to be the captain. I don't have the advantages in terms of qualifications and strength. You also know that my personality is too strong and careless." Yin Doujun sighed rarely, "I'm worried that I won't do well. ".Yin Doujun is well aware of the problems in himself and in the group, and it is because of this that he rarely feels confident.

It turns out that Yin Doujun also had times when he wanted to take the lead...it was almost as rare as standing up and being the leader.

First recalled what happened when he first debuted, and then Zhang Xianyu said: "The outside world's opinion is not what we need to care about. As for the group, Junheng and Yaoxie have always had the best relationship with you. Are you worried that I will make trouble for you? , or Qiguang and Dongyun?" Even if the relationship is distant, Li Qiguang and Sun Dongyun, as the two best-tempered beasts, will not be the kind of people who make Yin Doujun feel uncomfortable for no reason.

"Don't think too much, Dou Jun."

In this period of his previous life, most of Zhang Xianju’s energy was on himself, and the huge pressure was buried in his heart. He had no time to take care of other things except practicing and resolving it. Until this life, more than [-] years of experience have served as confidence for him After most of the pressure was relieved, Zhang Xianju realized that the internal and external problems of the beast had grown to a shocking level.

There are mostly bad reviews on the Internet, anti is several times more than fans, internally Sun Dongyun joined too late and it was difficult to integrate, Li Qiguang was isolated, and even the hard-line Yin Doojun’s mentality was shaken... It’s almost everywhere except the strength of the members. question.

Fortunately, Yin Doujun's wavering came suddenly, and it didn't take long for him to think about it.Once he decides to take on the responsibility of the captain, who is generally careless and bold, he immediately puts away the care and patience that he usually put aside to arm himself, and suddenly calms down a lot.

But before Zhang Xianjue had time to rejoice, he was stunned by a request from Yin Doujun: "Xianjue, after the company said that after my debut, besides Qiguang, I also want to develop in the direction of variety shows. When I announce it, can you represent it?" ?” Cube usually uses the strategy of one or two members to drive the whole group. In Beast, besides Li Qiguang who first debuted as a solo and then has resources for variety shows and film and television dramas, Yin Doujun is also one of the targets of resource tilt.

"Why me?" Zhang Xianyu was stunned for a moment.

Isn't Long Junheng the position of "deputy captain"?

"Why not you?" Yin Doujun was also very surprised.

Determined to be a good captain, Yin Doujun summed up in detail to Zhang Xianju the advantages of him being the "deputy captain" to assist Yin Doujun: [-]. He is only younger than Yin Doujun, has the strongest singing and dancing ability, was the first to enter the cube, and has enough age and qualifications.

[-]. The relationship with the other four members is good. If internal conflicts arise, they can be coordinated.

[-]. Although he doesn't talk much, he is polite and steady. He is not a heartthrob, but he will not cause hatred for no reason.

[-]. He asked the company and the agent and they all think this idea is good...

"Stop, stop!" Zhang Xianju stopped Yin Doujun, and now he felt that his brain was not enough.

[-]. Regardless of age, his singing and dancing ability is the best and he entered the cube the first time because he was reborn.

[-]. He has a good relationship with Long Junheng, Liang Yaoxie, Li Qiguang, and Sun Dongyun, because he was reborn. If he didn't know that they are his future teammates, Zhang Xianjiao would never take the initiative to approach them.

Three, being polite and steady, after living for so many years and experiencing so many things, he will always improve a bit.

[-]. Is this the rhythm of cooking raw rice and cooked rice...

All in all, the fact is that if he hadn't lived for more than 20 years, this job would not have fallen on Zhang Xianyu's head.

But Zhang Xianjue is still Zhang Xianjue, just by living a few more years, can he take on the responsibilities that he couldn't bear before?Zhang Xianyu's stubborn nerves couldn't turn the corner for a while. He couldn't question the points Yin Doujun said, so he could only find another reason: "I don't want to do it...I don't take the initiative to deal with people."

"are you serious?"

Yin Doujun's voice sounded a little disappointed, and Zhang Xianyu's thoughts could not help but waver, and he no longer had the confidence to speak: "When did you see me standing in front? I will be afraid if I have more responsibilities, and I am worried that the members will have conflicts." I will help to reconcile, can you change the leader when you are not around?"

No matter what Yin Doujun said, Zhang Xianju would not let go. In the end, Yin Doujun had no choice but to take a step back: "You solve the internal problems, and I will let Jun Heng do the external negotiations. This way the head office will be fine."

"...Okay." Zhang Xianyu said.

I finally got the promise from Zhang Xianyu, although it was different from what I expected, but Yin Doujun knew that it would be hard for others to understand Zhang Xianyu’s stubbornness because he really didn’t want to do anything, so he was satisfied with the result, but only thought of Zhang Xianyu’s responsibility for "leadership". Yin Doujun couldn't help making a joke, avoiding the performance like a snake and a scorpion: "Xianjiao, I don't know why, sometimes I feel that you just want to stand in the back and do your own thing, and then wait for the group to become popular."

Of course Yin Doujun was joking. In his eyes, even if the contract says that all the benefits of the members should be shared equally by six people, the more personal announcements are naturally the better for long-term plans, not to mention the prospect of the group is not optimistic now. It is time to fight for opportunities and seize opportunities.

Only Zhang Xianjue knew that Yin Doujun was telling the truth.

The trajectory of his previous life is similar to what Yin Doujun said. In the two years since the debut of the group, he basically had no personal schedule, did not participate in external communication, and did not even have much sense of presence when working with the group. Until the end of 2011, the company It is planned to launch a mixed voice group, and let a member of beast join forces with Jin Xuanya. The positioning of the man is very suitable for Zhang Xianyu, and Zhang Xianyu seized this opportunity that can be reached by reaching out.At that time, the members joked that Yin Doojun and Li Qiguang worked hard to make Beast famous in the early days of their debut, but Zhang Xianjiao had already become a blockbuster without singing, and one song overwhelmed the limelight of other people.Of course, this is just a joke. Zhang Xianju didn’t do nothing on purpose during those two years. His personality is really not suitable for variety shows, and he lacks aura in creation. Even the singing and dancing he relied on for his survival also had problems such as unstable treble at that time. Everyone knew about this, so Zhang Xianjue was not burdened too much.

Restarting his life again, Zhang Xianyu subconsciously chose the same route as before. Before aker, he only planned to win some shows such as "Immortal Famous Songs" and "Challenge a Thousand Songs" to show his singing skills, as well as auditions for musical dramas. He never thought about it. My responsibilities in the group should be changed. This is a kind of subconscious inertia, but it is also due to Zhang Xianyu's nature. His character is not suitable to be a team leader, so he never takes this responsibility. own shoulders.

——even if the advantages brought to him by the extra time can already offset the disadvantages in his personality.

The 20-year-old Zhang Xianyu can never afford a team, can the 40-year-old Zhang Xianyu do it?

This problem makes Zhang Xianyu very upset. He doesn't do many things, either because he doesn't have the responsibility, or because he doesn't do well and it will drag him down. In the past, he stayed quietly among the members most of the time in Beast, and it was because of the latter. .But if his conditions are enough for him to do more things than before, as a member of beast, can he still watch Yin Doujun and Li Qiguang running around all day, waiting for money in the dormitory?impossible.

The crux of the problem is that Zhang Xianyu's weakness is not only his inexpressive personality, his talent in singing and dancing has been evaluated as "no aura" by YG, he can only be regarded as low-medium talent, not only did he not want to be distracted in his previous life, but he also had no Ability is distracted, whether he has enough ability now, Zhang Xianyu is not sure.It is this uncertainty that is the source of the trouble.

All kinds of thoughts filled Zhang Xianjue's mind, and sometimes he couldn't figure out whether he was seeking stability or being lazy.

When Jin Xuanya walked into the coffee shop, she happened to see Zhang Xianyu sitting in a corner in a daze, with the straw still in her mouth, her round eyes narrowed into a line, and she didn't know where she was looking.Jin Xuanya took a few steps towards Zhang Xianyu, and couldn't help being a little surprised when she found that Zhang Xianyu hadn't noticed it.In front of her, Zhang Xianyu is usually more restrained and will not be particularly enthusiastic, but Jin Xuanya can feel that Zhang Xianyu is paying attention to her. This feeling is very strange, but Jin Xuanya cannot deny it.

Driven by some unknown force, Jin Xuanya walked over and waved her hand in front of Zhang Xianyu.

"Ah, Xuanya", Zhang Xianzhen, who finally noticed the existence of Jin Xuanya, was obviously stunned for a moment, but he was not nervous or flustered, and even laughed, "Well, am I going to call you senior now? ".

"I don't know, just ask the company. I think we should only add 'senior' when referring to us on camera. Isn't the newly established small company meant to reflect the love of the family?"

"That's right." Zhang Xianyu said with a smile.

"What were you thinking just now? So engrossed." Jin Xuanya leaned on the back of the sofa opposite Zhang Xianyu, and did not sit down.

"Debut", Zhang Xianzhen's trust in Jin Xuanya is deeply rooted, and there are few things that he can hide. Fortunately, he still remembers that his relationship with Jin Xuanya is "delicate friends". The impression of the other party being unobtrusive, "Dou Jun wants me to take the lead when he is not around. I think this task is too heavy for me..." Zhang Xianyu smiled awkwardly, "I don't really want to do it."

Jin Xuanya's pupils suddenly tightened, she bit her lower lip and thought for a while, then asked a little hesitantly: "If you don't think it can be done well, why don't you do it?"

"It seems to be like this. It's okay to be responsible for what you do. Wouldn't it be bad if you drag others down?" Zhang Xianyu said, "Do you buy coffee to take away or drink here?"

The sudden change of topic made Jin Xuanya a little unaccustomed, and she subconsciously told the truth: "Drink here."

Zhang Xianyu glanced at the sky outside through the window glass of the coffee shop: "Have you had dinner yet?"

"No."

"Wait a minute," Zhang Xianyu put the half-drinked coffee on the table, and ran out by himself, and after more than a minute, he ran back with a small box, "It seems that we should treat guests when we are about to debut. But now I don’t have so much money, so I have to ask for this.” He tried hard to keep his expression serious, but a gentle smile overflowed from the corner of his eyes, “I’ll go back to practice first.”

Zhang Xianyu picked up the plastic cup that was half filled with coffee, and walked straight out.Jin Xuanya didn't play any routines of seeing off, she sat down, opened the box Zhang Xianyu put on the table, and a small cake came into view.

Will buy her a cake, but will not say "drinking coffee on an empty stomach is not good for the stomach", this is Zhang Xianyu's sense of proportion.

One second made her feel that he liked her, and the next second she had the opposite idea, and then the endless loop, that kind of scale.

Jin Xuanya brought the coffee and put it aside, ate the cake in small bites, without any expression.When she finished eating the cake and took a sip of coffee, bitterness and sweetness suddenly collided in her mouth, the mask on Jin Xuanya's face finally shattered, and the expression on the surface was complicated and unspeakable.

Why should I care if he likes me or not? I still try to give him a reasonable explanation for his behavior. Even if he is afraid of the consequences of being in love, so what? Jin Xuanya has never been chased before, so I care What does a person's confession do.

Jin Xuanya couldn't help but think of when she watched mkmf with Zhang Xianyu two years ago, when she just received the confession, her mentality was calmer and more open-minded than now. Be a good friend.” In the past two years, Zhang Xianzhen seems to have not changed except that he has become more restrained in his expression, especially his response to Jin Xuanya has never shown any special expectations, but Jin Xuanya’s mentality is not the same as before. Gradually, I wanted to know the underlying reasons for Zhang Xianju's behavior, and confirmed it over and over again, and even felt a little uncomfortable because he had "no desires and no desires" for himself.

Is this like it?

Absolutely not, how could I fall in love with him just because he likes me?

Jin Xuanya drank the coffee in the cup in one gulp.