please don't tell him

No one knows where Song Xi went during those days when he disappeared, but obviously he overturned Xu Chenyuan's conjecture. Maybe he did go on a trip to relax, but the last stop he went to was death.

The reason why he chose to die at home instead of outside was probably because he didn't want outsiders to see the terrifying side of him after death. If he died at home, the first person to find himself should be someone he knew.

That way, the verbal and written criticism after his death should be lighter, and don't let him walk on the road to the underworld, surrounded by endless scolding from others.

But in fact, Lu Xinglan said that he didn't look ugly at all when he died, his face was very white, lying quietly in the water, he didn't wear glasses, so he didn't cover up the thick long eyelashes that couldn't be seen normally. .

The whole person is the same as when he was still alive, handsome and gentle.

The funeral was over, they didn't guard Song Xi's first seven days, Tian's family was busy during the month of May, and it took two days to deal with Song Xi's funeral, which was already a waste of time for farmers.

As for the people who came to help with the funeral, Xu Chenyuan overheard a few words, only Song Xi's mother, one of his elder brothers, and the rest were middle-aged people from the same village.Although in that kind of small village, every household is very familiar and related, but there seems to be no sadness or regret in their words, just doing what they should do with a straight face, driving, contacting the cemetery, crematorium, Finally, send this man who they talked about the most after their leisure time for the last time.

It was the three unrelated outsiders who were really sad and couldn't help but shed tears.

Xu Wei didn't follow to the cemetery, he stood under the sun, the sunlight almost burned through him, Lu Xinglan leaned far away under the tree to smoke, and couldn't see his face clearly.

Xu Chenyuan hugged Xu Wei tightly in his arms, and said distressedly: "Baby...don't hold yourself back, just cry when you're sad."

Xu Wei raised his head and stared blankly at Xu Chenyuan, with his mouth flattened and nose red, with a heartbroken expression, but no tears: "Brother Wish...my eyes hurt, I can't cry... ..."

Xu Chenyuan kissed his eyebrows, the corners of his eyes, and his cheeks, and finally kissed his lips and licked them with the tip of his tongue. This was a loving and comforting gesture. Xu Wei's nose soured, and tears finally fell down.

"Why, why is Teacher Song..."

"Why did he die..."

"He said he wants to see me happy, so why doesn't his words count?"

Xu Chenyuan hugged him tightly and said, "I apologize for Song Xi, he missed the appointment. But he is in too much pain, can you forgive him?"

Xu Weiwen cried even harder, holding on to the corner of Xu Chenyuan's clothes tightly, crying heartbreakingly, the corners of his eyes and head were hurting violently, and shouted one after another: "I don't forgive him, I don't Forgive him... he comes back, he comes back..."

Can't come back, Song Xi's past friendship, his past love and good life, as well as his life, can't come back.

Xu Wei didn't cry for too long, the tears ran dry, and what was left was the sharp pain in his chest and the pain in his brain due to lack of oxygen. Xu Chenyuan looked at his little Wei standing under the tree, quietly looking at the sun Disappearing into the western sky, he suddenly discovered that he seemed to have grown taller recently.

He has grown taller, and Xu Wei is growing his body the fastest. When we first met, it didn't reach the tip of his nose, but now it's almost reaching his eyebrows.

When he grows up, he can no longer bury his face in Xu Chenyuan's chest and rely on acting like a baby, but Xu Chenyuan feels that the little figure is still so lonely, with a thin body, clear clavicle and butterfly bone on the back, still It was so beautiful, but it hurt his heart.

Sometimes Xu Chenyuan can't help but wonder if he is his evil star, why has Xu Wei hardly done anything good since meeting him?

The once strong desire to protect him and prevent him from being harmed has now become a doubt. The wind and rain that are destined to hit him, no matter how big Chen Yuan's wings are, cannot help him cover them.

Am I being too self righteous?

He thought that he could live and grow up carefree, even when he was an adult, he would still be that innocent boy, but it was only now that he realized that he could do nothing.

In fact, human beings seldom have the mentality of "empathy". They may not be sincerely happy because one person is living well, nor will they be satisfied with the life in front of them because others are living poorly. Sarcasm, just watch the fun.

To Song Xi, Xu Chenyuan could not feel satisfied, nor would he sneer in his heart. He just felt sad when the rabbit died and the fox died, and his lips were dead and his teeth were cold.His tragedies are repeated countless times in this world every day, and Xu Wei is also one of the many "family members of the deceased". The pain he has experienced has been experienced by others, but Xu Chen Yuan still cares, why is it him? Xiaowei, why should he face these.

He is obviously only 17 years old—in fact, he is not yet 17 years old. Separation, betrayal, death, any of these elements can be taken out to write a whole novel of blood and vulgarity, but he is obsessed with Xu Wei. with.

Xu Chenyuan didn't know if Xu Wei would resent this fucking life and fate in his heart, but he resented, why Xu Wei.

Is God planning to make Xu Wei some kind of big man who changes the dynasty, so he has to work hard.

Xu Chenyuan walked up to Xu Wei, gently wiped away the tears on his face, knelt down in front of him, and said, "Xiaowei, I will never give up on you, now I'm stuck with you, and I can't turn back." , only you give up on me. My life is also with you, if you give up, you will kill me. "

Xu Wei lowered his head, looked at him blankly, then shook his head vigorously: "I won't give up on you, brother wish, never."

Some people say that the best relationship is always someone else's, but the worst is also, no matter who it is, I wish Chen Yuan thought, it will never be his.

When Song Xi came, he didn't know what the scene was like, but when he left the stage, he couldn't hide his desolation. Even God would not give him a face to cry for him. This sunny day, from the day he left, has been strong until he left. When it was buried.

Perhaps only Xu Wei felt sorry for him, and he didn't want to pursue Fang Yun anymore. At the moment when he heard the news of Song Xi's death, he thought of doing everything he could to ruin his reputation and destroy his family. Now that I think about it, it's really a bit middle two.

It is impossible not to hate, the teacher must have closed his eyes with this hatred at the last moment, people are doing the sky, at least Xu Wei still believes that the retribution will come sooner or later, but the time has not yet come.

It was said that Song Xi fell in love with a man, he was immoral and unseemly, he was not a decent person at all, and he was to blame for this situation.

But what is seriousness, it is seriousness to start chaos and abandon it all the time, and it is seriousness to betray one's faith?Even more unscrupulous things are still there with great fanfare to organize the wedding that Song Xi has dreamed of for more than ten years, so why is no one poking him in the back and scolding him?

It's a fucking world.

Xu Wei has been completely exhausted these days, living like a walking dead, Xu Chenyuan is trembling with pain in his heart, how dare he blame him, but he doesn't know how to comfort him.

There is no cure, the harm caused by others may not be offset by his love.

The direct result of being inattentive is that his academic performance has dropped a lot. His grades in several quizzes were not so ideal, and even a little ugly. Although his mother usually ignored him, she would still blame him for the decline in grades.

"What's going on with you recently? Why have your grades dropped so much? Are you in a relationship?"

Xu Wei sat on the sidelines and thought casually that he had already fallen in love.

"You are a student now, and your job is to study. Why do you think about those messy things every day? Will you stop learning English after Mr. Song is gone?"

Ms. Li Xueyan can sometimes go to make a wish with Ms. Chen Liping, the mother who made Chen's wish, and she can always accurately and sharply poke the most painful wound in her son's heart.

"Did you hear that? Can you say something? You're not dumb."

Xu Wei said, "Yes."

After getting angry here, Xu Wei felt unhappy, so he went to find Xu Chenyuan to act like a baby, and called Xu Chenyuan, moaning and saying that his mother scolded him.

Xu Chenyuan said: "It's okay baby, learning is your own, you have the right to study well, get the first place in the school, and you also have the right to be the last one. It's not like you don't have that ability."

Xu Wei was laughed at by him, giggled for a long time, and said, "Why are you always so willful?"

"It's not me being willful, it's you." Xu Chenyuan sighed dotingly, and said, "You said you are willful or not? Arguing with the family, and then come to act like a baby with me."

Xu Wei murmured: "I didn't argue with her, it was she who babbled one-sidedly, and let me go when she said she was tired from stand-up comedy."

Xu Chenyuan also felt that Ms. Li was too dissatisfied. If Xu Wei was Chen Liping's son, she would probably be able to praise Xu Wei to heaven.

On the other hand, no matter where you go, it’s a problem that adults don’t like it. I guess Ms. Li is definitely not willing to change, and it’s a terrible loss.