hold this little monk

The night came as promised, the night market lit up the night, complementing the silver moon, two thin boys wandered around the night market like headless flies, they ignored the pretty female voice and the rough male voice next to their ears. Lanterns have become their background.No matter how lively the surroundings were, the two were silent.

After saying such straightforward words, Bi Kong was probably a little shy, so from dusk to night, he didn't say a word, but his ears were red again.

Seeing him like this, Xiaoxuan felt very strange. He suddenly had an urge to make this person the size of a thumb, and then hide him in his arms to cover them up, so that no one would disturb them again.

This strange feeling made him unable to help but start to recall the past, thinking of the earrings that fell on the ground at the beginning, thinking of the rejection that he personally came to the door later, thinking of things that seemed to have passed for a long time, and those memories stayed in the capital, so Not for anything else, just for those wonderful youthful memories, he probably wants to go back to Beijing to retire.

But what are they going to do when they go back?

If Bi Kong really sat in that position, would he stand beside him and accompany him to overlook the beautiful country?Will the world agree with such sentiments?He can embrace him with his back against everyone for the sake of feelings and love, regardless of all opposition, or he can stand in front of him to overcome all difficulties and take all the infamy on himself.

He was a stubborn person. He lived in the basement in his previous life and never compromised with the school. He was not afraid of gossip or dirty worldly knowledge. This is the benefit of dying once.

But now it's a little different, he's not alone here.

The difficulties he faced were not caused by his love alone. He could persist, but the rumors and rumors affected two people after all.

At that time, will there be gaps or deterioration in the relationship that maintains their relationship?It's like a young couple who have overcome all difficulties for love, but failed to survive the ordinary bits and pieces after marriage. They buried their love in a long-lasting grave, and finally changed from deep love to death. The holes are difficult for each other.

In addition, some conservatives at that time will try their best to say "good advice"-even if Bi Kong doesn't care about those hurtful words, wouldn't he hate himself for adding all these pains and troubles to him? ?If love is to give people happiness, then what should they do with their love that is destined to be sad from the basic tone?

Once upon a time, when this kind of trouble did not appear on him, he would only think: If you really love each other, you can be happy together, why should you care about other people's feelings.

Now that the needle was stuck in his body, he suddenly knew what the pain that penetrated into the bone was.

This is almost an unsolvable deadlock. If you fulfill the Buddha, you will not be able to fulfill yourself. There is no dual perfection method in this drama in this world.

"If one day, I don't want to stay by your side, or say I like others, what will you do? Will you let me go?" Xiaoxuan held his hand tightly and asked with a smile, "I said If I'm just talking, you can just think about it casually and don't take it too seriously."

He was really afraid that the child would cry suddenly, and his guilt could send him to the King of Hades.

Bi Kong glanced at him without changing his expression, as if to say: I know what you have been thinking.

The light reflected half of his face, and the other half fell into a shadow. Bikong squeezed his hand and smiled: "Do you know why I have been listening to you all today, but I didn't say a few words myself?"

Haven't you been unable to speak?Xiaoxuan thought to himself.

"I just heard them say that, suddenly there are so many messy things in my mind," Bi Kong turned his head away, hiding all his expressions in the shadow, "I didn't deliberately think about it before, if I got to that step , what will become of the two of us, mother reminded me of one thing today."

"Remind you what?" Xiao Xuan faintly had a bad feeling.

"Remind me..." Bi Kong's expression was secretive, but his voice was morbidly sad, "I can't leave you a way out, or you will really leave."

What's very interesting is that he has always been able to easily read Xiaoxuan's mind and understand what he is thinking. This sensitivity has nothing to do with his childhood experience, has nothing to do with his intelligence, and just purely likes someone At the extreme, I can't help but spend twice as much energy on him, so that I can easily understand his eyes and movements.

And Xiaoxuan's eyes and movements clearly told Bi Kong: He was afraid of everything in this relationship, even joy was cautious.

The melancholy after the nights of entanglement, the tranquility after the sweetness, and the fear after all the tenderness are hidden deep in Xiaoxuan's heart. He rarely opens the negative box to listen to those voices.

It's not that he's not good at disguising, he's good at disguising, it's just that it's too difficult to hide these emotions from the person next to him.

"But what are you afraid of? Are you afraid that the criticism you get for speaking out this different feeling will hurt me?"

Yu Xiaoxuan already understood what he was trying to say, and the remaining relaxed expression on his face disappeared suddenly, and he could be regarded as serious as an old father and said: "Do you think that those people can say whatever they want, Let's just live ours'?"

He said that because he thought the same way before, but unexpectedly Bi Kong shook his head.

"No, I just want to tell you that you will never hurt me. If you are worried about this, there is no need at all."

Xiaoxuan was stunned for a moment, unable to realize the meaning of this sentence.

"As long as you are by my side, you will never hurt me, even if it is physical pain, it doesn't matter, but if you leave, the accumulated accumulation will double. Words are the most painful." He said the words that had been suppressed in his heart for a long time in one breath, paused, looked up at him cautiously, and asked cautiously, "Do you understand?"

You can't hurt me, but you are the only one who can hurt me.

This relationship is complex and beautiful, and the contradictions really exist.

The dense darkness hovered above their heads, and the unexplained low pressure made people feel mixed feelings. Before Xiaoxuan asked that question, he was only worried that Bi Kong would be sad, but he didn’t expect that the person who wanted to cry in the end was himself, without any reason. Want to cry, not wronged, angry, ugly, afraid...

But he couldn't restrain his sore nose, and the tears kept drilling into his eyes, and it took all his strength to hold back.

"Forget it, let me stay alone for a while, don't follow me, go back and arrange your family's affairs first, and I will come back."

After speaking, the last line of defense in his heart collapsed, and he could no longer sustain the strength of confrontation, turned around and walked towards the place where the crowd was surging.

Xiaoxuan walked aimlessly, weighed his money, picked a brightly lit inn at random, and went in. He would go back, but not tonight.

He didn't want to go back and see any reaction from Yi Wang and the others, whether they accepted it or insulted him, he didn't want to see it.

For a moment today, he hated himself for being a man. If it weren't for the barrier of gender, they might be happy to confirm their relationship now.

This is a very cowardly and compromised idea, but people are fragile, and they need to come up with such cowardly, fragile, and perverted ideas to see clearly their own inferiority, otherwise how would they have the courage to face it.

Xiaoxuan was lying on the bed, curled up into a ball, he wanted to force himself to sleep, but his brain couldn't be clearer, all kinds of things and people came from all directions, although it was chaotic, Liu Ling's voice was always clear.

as long as you are by my side...

you won't hurt me...

will you leave me...

Remember what you promised me...

understand?

……

The familiar voice circled and repeated in his mind over and over again, becoming more and more gentle and sad.

"I might as well have died on that bed 20 years ago." He lay flat on his back, emptied himself, staring blankly at the bed curtain, his vision gradually blurred.

"You can't die 20 years ago, that's your mission."

Suddenly a male voice sounded, and Yu Xiaoxuan sat up in fright, staring blankly at the uninvited guest in his room.

A young man in black sat on a chair. He took off his mask, and there was a little helplessness on his delicate face carved out of jade.

Xiaoxuan hugged his head in collapse: "Ah——Yuda Shanren, can I ask you to knock on the door next time? Do you want to scare me to die young?"

"Are you having trouble with him?" Yu Gu said to him, "Do you still remember what I told you?"

Xiaoxuan was speechless, and said in a low voice: "Why are you so picky about your timing? Do you think my state is enough to talk to you right now?"

"Since my family took over the aliens, every alien has fulfilled his mission. Either he was cunning and dead, or he committed suicide because of a broken heart or made too many enemies and was assassinated. None of them ended well. I know your heart now. It’s a mess, but have you seriously considered what impact your arrival will have on this place?”

Is it not enough to bring you so many types of paintings?

Xiaoxuan resisted the urge to complain, and began to think seriously. Yu saw his sloppy expression, and it was written all over his face that a child cannot be taught.

"Do you still need to think about it?"

"...You don't want me to instigate Liu Ling to reform and make homosexuality legal?" Xiaoxuan laughed, that was indeed a mission.

"Why not?" Yu didn't understand why he was smiling.

"Ah!" Xiao Xuan nodded as if understanding, "It's no wonder everyone didn't end well."

"..."

"To be honest, Yu, do you think this relationship between me and him is normal?" Yu Xiaoxuan got off the bed and asked excitedly as if he had been pumped.

Yu looked at him and shook his head honestly and silently.

Expected.

Xiaoxuan said again: "Why do you think it's abnormal? There are boys in big families."

"..." Yu felt that he couldn't torture Xiao Yi Wang and turned to torture him, "But most of those people have wives and children, and you seem to have no intention of interfering with other people. No one would know that the media is marrying a man into the house, so in this way, don't you even have a wife in your genealogy?"

"Why does the wife have to be a woman? Why do two big men have to be entangled in who will marry whom? Why do we have to interfere with others when we are living well? Can't I adopt if I have no children? All orphans in the world so Many, is this considered a good deed?" Xiaoxuan said it all at once.

Anyway, Yu has seen all kinds of anecdotes and strange things, at least he will not be frightened by him like ordinary people.

Yu was silent for a moment, and finally digested his words. After all, Yu is a young man, plus he is already smart, and his ability to accept new things is much better than ordinary people, but he accepted his words after a while: "You are right."

"You...why did you accept it so quickly!"

He also thought that it would take a hard struggle to change the look of this seemingly pedantic young man in front of him. If everyone was so enlightened, it would not be impossible to build a large-scale LGBT equality here.

Seeing his tangled face, Yu rubbed his brows helplessly and said: "You help him ascend the throne, and then the king of a country will speak well, who can do anything to him? You think too complicated for such a simple thing, or Said that you are worried that if he did this, he will leave a bad reputation in the future? Since you want to be with him well, don't be afraid of difficulties."

"It's definitely not going to last forever, I think it's about the same," Xiaoxuan thought about the modern situation, "but..."

Said it was so easy to fight for the throne, did Yu misunderstand his ability?

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The sand sculpture in this chapter is very different from the previous chapter?