I can't live, I can't afford to die

Standing in the middle of the stage, Xiao Xiao took the microphone, and he smiled and pointed to the surroundings: "If you say I am ashamed today, I came empty-handed, and I didn't even prepare a congratulatory gift. Liang will never give up."

Looking at the audience, Xiao Xiao seemed to be thinking: "What are you singing? I don't know many songs. Otherwise, I'd have the power to present a song on behalf of the bride. I wish the couple a happy marriage for a hundred years and never give up. .”

Someone from the band came up and asked Xiao Xiao the name of the song, so that they could find an accompaniment.Xiao Xiao replied softly: "No, I'll just sing a few lines."

The crowd around slowly quieted down, and the lighting teacher also very cooperatively turned off all the lights in the arena, leaving only a dim light shining on Xiao Xiao's body.

In the shadows, Xiao Xiao could tell which pair of eyes belonged to Liang Shiwei. He stared straight at that point of light, and sang with a slight smile:

"You love

have left

you asked yourself countless times

want to give up

all here

Detachment and pursuit are often mixed together

you hugged

don't always hug you too

And what I want to say

no pity for anyone

To splurge and to cherish is the same thing

what's all i have

Why bother

what an honor

Before we have to find out we'll end up with nothing

at least you can say

I know

the loneliest alive

All I have is luck

all i lost was life

when you don't forget and don't want to

I love you

......"

The moment the song stopped, I don't know if the lighting teacher intended to create an atmosphere. The lights in the hall went dark for a few minutes. When the lights were turned on again, there was no sign of Xiao Xiao on the stage.

Back at the apartment, Xiao Xiao opened the door and turned on the light.Ah Chun nestled in his own small den, already sleeping soundly, when the light came on suddenly, it was so startled that its eyes widened instantly, after seeing clearly that it was Xiao Xiao who came in, it licked its paws twice, and then went to bed again. He fell asleep on his front legs.

I don't know if it was because of drinking during the banquet, and the wind blowing in the taxi on the way back, Xiao Xiao felt his body was cool, he took a coat from the sofa and put it on, stood in the middle of the living room and looked around boredly lap.

There was really nothing to do, and he didn't feel sleepy at all when he went to sleep. Xiao Xiao thought about it, took a can of Harboe from the refrigerator, and walked to the terrace.

There was a gust of evening wind on the terrace. The weather at the end of March was not as harsh as the harsh winter. Although it was cool to the body, it was quite pleasant.

Xiao Xiao jumped onto the terrace, sat on the edge, looked down at everything under his feet, and drank one sip after another.

There are not many houses with lights on in the community, and the few windows with dim orange lights look extraordinarily warm in the dark night.

Xiao Xiaoyao looked at one of the families cutting the cake, he seemed to be able to feel the harmonious family relationship, Xiao Xiao smiled contentedly.

He suddenly thought of Xiao Lin, and he couldn't help guessing, where would Xiao Lin be now?What is he doing now?I don't know if he found the check and the painting that he hid in his bag?

Xiao Xiao took another sip of the wine, it was too cold, it slid into his stomach, his whole body trembled, and his whole body was shivering.He couldn't help shaking his legs, trying to drive away the chill.

One couldn't sit still, and his body swayed, Xiao Xiao quickly stretched out his hand to hold down the edge of the terrace, stabilizing his body.

Liang Shiwei repeatedly told him not to sit on the edge of the platform, it was dangerous.

But how could Liang Shiwei feel the feeling of sitting in such a high place, looking down on everything, that weightless but exciting joy.

Xiao Xiao supported the edge of the stage and stood up slowly. He opened his arms to face the night wind.The night wind poured into his clothes and bulged them up. He felt like he had become a hydrogen balloon, and even his heart was light and gentle, as if it was about to melt into water.

Xiao Xiao smiled contentedly, thinking, what is Liang Shiwei doing now?At about the moment of spring night, Liang Shiwei has no time to think of himself.

Xiao Xiaohu was surprised again, as if this was the first time he was standing on a high place, he didn't think of his mother, didn't think about whether his mother would think of him occasionally, would look up to look for him, he had a son who was always waiting with her?

Will it?No way?

Will they say "good night" to him in their hearts before going to bed?That's right, the "good night" that Yeye sent to Liang Shiwei before going to bed has not been sent tonight, would it be too good to send it now?

Xiao Xiao thought over and over again, he took out his mobile phone from his pocket, opened Weibo, and logged into Liang Shiwei's account.

Pressing the word "good night", Xiao Xiao thought, Liang Shiwei will open Weibo tomorrow, and he will understand when he sees it. This is probably the last time he is qualified to say "good night" to him before going to bed.

Good night, yes, the whole world is so silent, everyone is dreaming or happy or sad dreams.

How wonderful it would be if every day was a dream but could wake up every night.

Xiao Xiao looked longingly into the distance. The night was too quiet, and the night wind was getting stronger. He could hear the "chacha" sound of the hem of his clothes flapping against his body, as well as the swaying sound of the branches at the bottom of the building, which was hoarse. Yes, like the old-fashioned lullaby his grandmother hummed when he was a child, hooking his heart and soul.

Xiao Xiao yawned unexpectedly, and some familiar chaotic drowsiness rose in his mind.He subconsciously thought, he obviously took enough medicine before going out today, just for fear of losing his composure in front of Liang Shiwei, why did he start to become addicted again after only a few hours now?

He yawned again, sure enough Liang Shiwei lied to him, his addiction is so deep, how could he be cured well?Xiao Xiao smiled lowly and cursed: "Liar, always lie to me."

Another yawn, Xiao Xiao thought, sleepy, it's time to sleep.

Go to sleep, go to sleep, he turned his head and looked nostalgicly at the bedroom, which was as bright as day, and then looked back at the distance. At the end of his line of sight, the faint morning light had already turned pale, and Xiao Xiao closed his eyes.

Good night,

worldwide.

☆, (Special episode [-]) Don't look back, the world is full of fireworks (Kobayashi)

Xiao Lin got up in the morning and opened Weibo habitually. The first thing that popped up was a content posted by Liang Shiwei, two simple words: "Good night." There was no picture.

Xiao Lin felt strange. Looking at the time, it was past three o'clock in the morning.

Open the hot search, and the first item on the top is "Liang Shiwei's wedding".

Xiao Lin's uneasiness intensified a bit, his eyes moved down, and he saw the title of the second hot search "Xiao Xiao fell to his death in the middle of the night".

Xiao Lin was stunned, a little skeptical in his heart, but it seemed to be expected.He calmed down and turned around to wake Duo'er up.

Duo'er has been pregnant for more than six months, and it's the warm spring day at this time, so she can't help getting out of bed.

She was moaning and laying on the bed, and Xiao Lin advised her: "Lazy pig, get up, and accompany me to the market to buy some vegetables, you can walk around more, so you can give birth."

Duo'er asked him: "Who is watching the beauty salon today?"

Xiao Lin took Duo'er's hand and helped her to sit up slowly: "Don't worry about it, I'll take care of everything in the beauty salon. You've been a skinny monkey for so long, that bastard is white Is it right? You are doing well now, and you have trained the little boys in the store to do the same thing, you are not in vain as an apprentice."

Duo'er smiled smugly, stretched out her hands to support her back and stood up, she asked Xiao Lin: "What soup to make for your son today?"

Xiao Lin stroked Duo'er's round belly: "Let's have malt yam tripe soup, he likes it."

Duo'er smiled and spat at him: "It's still in the stomach, you know he likes to eat it? You don't even write a draft first if you brag."

Kobayashi also laughed, and rubbed his nose absently.

After everything was settled, Xiao Lin helped Duo'er to the market.

The market was bustling as usual, with the cries of hawkers, inquiries from customers, and the voices of some old ladies bargaining one after another, making the eardrums buzzing.

Duo'er stood in the middle of the vegetable area, looking around at the various vegetables on the left and right, struggling to choose: "What to eat..."

Xiao Lin also raised his eyes to look at the vegetable stand beside him, red sweet peppers, green long beans, yellow cauliflower, purple onions, he thought of the picture Xiao Xiao left in his bag without defense.The painting is also as colorful as the market in front of you. Under the bright and friendly colors, there are words left by Xiao Xiao:

"The color of this city is the original color of life. If you have lived in such a city, don't look back."

Xiao Lin felt a sudden pain in his heart, the pain was so uncontrollable that his knees lost strength. He knelt down straight and cried out loudly in the crowd.

On the day of sending Xiao Xiao's spirit, Xiao Lin and Duo'er went to the mourning hall together.They stood at the back of the crowd, listening to those who came to express their condolences whispering:

"What a bright future, I can't even think about it."

"Who says it's not? With such a high starting point, and a natural talent for acting, with a good appearance, how could you go on this path?"

……

Xiao Lin listened silently. Most people in the world are forgetful. When they are alive, all they see are the flaws of this person. Once the person is gone, any mistakes will become unfinished regrets, revealing a bit of incomplete beauty.

Duo'er heard others talking about the cemetery where she was buried, she turned her head and patted Xiao Lin's back lightly, and comforted her in a low voice: "Fortunately, Brother Xiao is also in Heyuan, and I have a company with Brother Yi, so I won't be lonely." .”

Xiao Lin nodded and helped Duo'er to leave.Duo'er suddenly pointed to a flower basket on the side, and said in amazement: "Why isn't Brother Xiao's name on it?"

Xiao Lin followed Duo'er's finger and looked over, all the elegiac couplets were named "Xiao Xiao", only the one that Duo'er pointed to had "A Chun" written on it.

Xiao Lin said in a low voice: "Maybe Ah Chun also went with Brother Xiao."

All the way back to the door in silence, Xiao Lin lowered his head and was about to take out the key to open the door when he caught a glimpse of a box in the corner of the door wall.

Xiao Lin looked at the confinement at the opposite door. He thought that only their family moved in on this floor, so he walked to the corner of the door wall and opened the top cover of the box.

"Wooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo" , a pair of huge eyes looked at Xiaolin, looked at the pink body that was bare without a single hair, Xiaolin whispered: "Ah Chun!"

☆, (Fanwai [-]) Encounter with each other with love, warmth and acquaintance (Fang Yizhe)

In whose hands do old fritters usually fall?Straightforward, enthusiastic, reckless, the unique vitality of young people, the other party can't understand any tricks, and they can't answer them. They will just look at you and say, "I like it."

Before Fang Yizhe met Luo Qing, he was such a young man who was a bit angry.At that time, he was not considered popular, but he was very popular in the circle because of his good appearance. Some rich and powerful female bosses and male bosses liked his youthful attitude, so the resource Fang Yizhe is not lacking.

At that time, he also had a girlfriend who was a member of a girl group in the circle.The two have been in a secret relationship for almost a year. The girlfriend knows that Fang Yizhe's appearance is the most unstable factor in their relationship, and also knows that Fang Yizhe is still a child with a temper and cannot calm down, so he is on guard against all kinds of ways around Fang Yizhe Women, keep it watertight.

But she was on all possible precautions, and she never thought that she would fall into Luo Qing's hands.

The first time Fang Yizhe met Luo Qing, it was Liang Shiwei's trick.At that time, Liang Shiwei found all kinds of wild ways, entrusted people to encourage him, and invited several potential investors for cooperation.

Before going to the banquet, Liang Shiwei also pointed to the photos found on his mobile phone and told Fang Yizhe, "This man is greedy for wine, you can offer a few more glasses; if this man can boast a few times, it will be enough to flatter him." ", wait, wait, chatter.

Fang Yizhe slid to Luo Qing's picture, pointed at him and asked Liang Shiwei: "Liang, this person is the most pleasing to the eye, what's so special about him?"

Liang Shiwei pondered: "Don't bother with this person, he is very difficult to get along with, and I heard that his methods are particularly sinister, let's not provoke him."

Fang Yizhe wondered, "Then you still found him?"

Liang Shiwei smiled wryly: "I didn't expect him to agree, probably because he has a deep friendship with the middleman. Yizhe, in short, you should not recruit this person."

Fang Yizhe lowered his head and remembered that elegant and kind face again, and nodded.

During the banquet, there were staggered cups and dendrobiums, and there was a lot of talking and laughing.Fang Yizhe has also experienced such scenes for a long time, and he handles them familiarly without losing enthusiasm, which made the whole group very happy.

Luo Qing came late, and when he entered the box, most of the drinks had passed.Luo Qing went in and took off her scarf, took off her coat, and threw it to the waiter beside her.

That wine-loving Mr. Shi was not happy anymore, he got up with the jug and walked up to Luo Qing, stuffed it into his hand, and scolded him: "Old Luo, this is your fault, ten times for drinking and ten times for being late , Second time, brothers, wait, why, you really enjoy the attention."

Luo Qing gently put the flagon in his arms on the table, he smiled lightly, and said lightly: "What's so good about wine? I bought some good tea, and it happened to be cheap for you today."

As he spoke, he beckoned the waiter to take a small plastic bag from his coat pocket, and then asked the waiter to fetch the tea set, and then sat down.

Fang Yizhe looked at the tea leaves in the small plastic bag. There were not many tea leaves in the bag, and a handful of green ones were deflatedly filled in the bag. He couldn't help being a little curious, and he turned sideways to Liang Shiwei and commented: "This old man really mean."

He spoke in a very low voice, which happened to be the volume that Liang Shiwei could hear clearly.Liang Shiwei grinned, then stopped laughing, and gave Fang Yizhe a sideways glance.

Fang Yizhe knew that Liang Shiwei was warning him, so he pouted, retracted his leaning body, and sat down solemnly.

The boss surnamed Shi watched the waiter come in with a frame of tea sets and put them on the coffee table resting next to the table seats. He complained disdainfully: "Have a good drink, what kind of tea do you want to make? Well, I'll make you Drink by yourself, brothers and sisters will not accompany you." As he spoke, he turned to greet other people at the table: "Leave him alone, let's continue."

Luo Qing didn't take it seriously, and continued to play with the tea set with a faint smile.

Fang Yizhe was really curious, so he couldn't help turning his head to look at Luo Qing.

Maybe Fang Yizhe took a few extra glances, and when he secretly turned his gaze to Luo Qing again, Luo Qing asked him with a smile: "Little friend, do you like drinking tea?"

Fang Yizhe felt a little guilty when he was caught peeping.He sneered, without turning his mind, he looked at Luo Qing helplessly, and answered casually: "I like it."

Luo Qing was taken aback by the straightforward and enthusiastic youthful vitality in his voice, and took a few careful glances at Fang Yizhe, smiled and said nothing, lowered his head and continued to make tea.

Fang Yizhe didn't know if he had offended Luo Qing, so he pouted and turned his head, only to find that Liang Shiwei's eyebrows were gathered together.

Afterwards, everyone at the banquet seemed to have really forgotten that there was such a person as Luo Qing, and continued to drink, brag, and talk about some jokes that are not suitable for children.When everyone was laughing happily, Fang Yizhe stretched out a hand from his ear, and put a small cup of tea in front of him: "Taste it."

Fang Yizhe looked back, Luo Qing looked at him with a slight smile, and slowly sipped a small teacup in his hand.

He was taken aback, he didn't say he wanted tea, why did Luo Qing bring it for himself instead of anyone else?

He thought ignorantly, took the teacup and put it in his mouth.

The teacup was really small, and there was really little tea in the cup. Fang Yizhe swallowed it all without feeling the tea soaked his tongue.

Luo Qing looked at him and asked with a smile, "Is it good?"

Fang Yizhe looked at the teacup and replied, "It's delicious."

Luo Qing smiled, walked back to the tea table, took another cup, and put it in front of Fang Yizhe: "You drink like you, but you can still taste the taste of tea? You have to sip your tea slowly, taste it bit by bit."

Mr. Shi booed from the side: "Xiao Fang, it's the same as drinking white wine."

Fang Yizhe picked up the teacup, carefully took a sip as Luo Qing said, it was extremely bitter, and he didn't taste any tea fragrance or sweetness. The burnt smell is tingling.

He held the teacup to his lips, pretending to smell the tea, and paid close attention to Luo Qing's eyes on him from the corner of his eye.

Why don't you go away?Fang Yizhe murmured in his heart that he really didn't want to take a second sip.

Luo Qing looked at him, and asked with a smile after a while: "Is it good?"

Fang Yizhe quickly laughed, and seemed to enjoy the answer: "It's delicious."

"Do you like it?" Luo Qing asked again, her eyes remained on Fang Yizhe's face, and she didn't take a look away.

"I like it." Fang Yizhe smiled more sincerely, looking like a close friend.

Luo Qing's smile deepened, he nodded, turned around and walked towards the coffee table.

Taking advantage of the moment he turned around, Fang Yizhe poured the almost full cup of tea into the ashtray at hand.

Putting down the cup, Fang Yizhe raised his eyebrows at Liang Shiwei triumphantly, but heard Luo Qing's voice coming over, unhurriedly: "Little friend is dishonest, this tea is brewed for the first time, only bitter, how can it taste good? The second tea will be sweet and fragrant, the third tea will be thick and mellow, and the fourth tea will be clear and refreshing. No matter how you say it, it won’t taste as good as the first tea. Tell me, are you being dishonest?”

Everyone at the table was stunned. Although Luo Qing's words were insignificant, and it sounded like he was just discussing the tea ceremony, Fang Yizhe's face was embarrassed by the two consecutive "dishonest".

Fang Yizhe dared not speak out, so he lowered his eyebrows and pretended not to hear, but his face was so embarrassing that even his neck was flushed red.

Liang Shiwei laughed, President Shi changed the subject contentedly, and a group of people began to argue with each other about a new round of conversation. It seemed that the accident that Luo Qing inserted had long been forgotten.

After the banquet, Liang Shiwei inevitably accused Fang Yizhe of acting recklessly.Fang Yizhe didn't care, originally he didn't expect Luo Qing to provide any resources after saving this meal, not to mention that he didn't offend him, at most he was not pleasing to the eye, anyway, the two bosses who were inclined to cooperate at the table vowed and clapped Having decided on the resource project, Fang Yizhe thought, it doesn't matter whether Luo Qing is happy or not.

Unexpectedly, after waiting for a long time, there was no movement from the two bosses. Liang Shiwei called, and both parties hesitated at the same time. Needless to say, Liang Shiwei also knew that this cooperation was all in vain.

He called again to inquire about the intermediary, and the reply he got was that the two bosses didn't dare to offend Luo Qing, knowing that Luo Qing didn't like Fang Yizhe, who would dare to flatter him?

Liang Shiwei was distressed, but unexpectedly received a call from Assistant Luo Qing, saying that Boss Luo wanted to ask Fang Yizhe to meet, and he wanted Fang Yizhe to act in a TV series he invested in.

Liang Shiwei was surprised, but after careful consideration, he didn't feel surprised.It's no secret that Mr. Luo likes masculinity. Fang Yizhe was born with red lips and white teeth, bright and sunny, so it's no surprise that Luo Qing fell in love with him.

Liang Shiwei called Fang Yizhe and told him about it.In the end, after thinking about it for a while, I still didn't explain Luo Qing's orientation to him, but told him: "Be careful yourself, don't drink other people's things casually."

Fang Yizhe is not the first day in the entertainment industry, he has heard of these insidious tricks, he said happily: "Don't worry, Liang, I know the seriousness."

Fang Yizhe found Luo Qing's company by himself.The company is very large, and the Chinese-style layout looks calm and elegant. The assistant led him to Luo Qing's office.

Luo Qing was not there. After the assistant brought a glass of water, he backed out and closed the door behind him.Fang Yizhe looked at the glass of water, licked his lips, got up from the sofa, and looked around the room.

There is a whole wall of lattice windows in the office. Except for a few sets of tea sets that are worth a lot of money at first glance in the middle two rows, the rest of the upper and lower floors are full of bags of tea cakes and tea pots.Fang Yizhe leaned against the window glass to identify, and the year marked on the label was not too recent.

Fang Yizhe slandered: "This old man is not only stingy, but also weird. I don't know what to do with keeping so much old tea. On the contrary, it seems that the room is dusty. There is an extra stale smell."

Just as she was thinking, Luo Qing opened the door and came in. Seeing Fang Yizhe clinging to the window glass, she asked him, "So interested in tea?"

Fang Yizhe was taken aback, and quickly stood up straight. He was about to reply, "I'm interested." Then he thought of Luo Qing's evaluation of himself as "dishonest" at the banquet that day. He opened his mouth, but he didn't say a word. .

Luo Qing looked at him and smiled, probably thinking of Fang Yizhe's embarrassment that day, but there was no unpleasant look on his face.

He waved to Fang Yizhe and asked him to sit in the armchair.

Fang Yizhe has never sat in such a Chinese-style armchair. The seat surface of the chair is very large. If it is full, the whole person will sink into the chair, which is not decent and polite; There is no one to rely on, nowhere to go, and it is really uncomfortable.

He sat awkwardly, straightened his back as much as possible to make himself look more energetic, and greeted Luo Qing with a smile: "Boss Luo, why did you come to me?"

At the beginning of knowingly asking questions, Luo Qing looked at Fang Yizhe's tricky smile, and didn't try to evade him, telling him straightforwardly: "I want to sign you to act in a drama, and I also want to support you in the future. I don't know if you have any ideas?"

Fang Yizhe was stunned, and Liang Shiwei only told him that Luo Qing had the intention of cooperating in the film, but he didn't say that he would contribute to the follow-up development. He was flattered, straightened his upper body and leaned slightly towards Luo Qing: "Really? Anyway, you're not kidding me, are you?"

Luo Qing smiled, shook her head and said, her tone was full of pampering for children: "What are you talking about childishly stupid, I lied to you for something, you are really a child."

Fang Yizhe got the affirmative promise, he was overjoyed and had a good time.

But I heard Luo Qing continue to say: "I can guarantee that you will not worry about resources, and I can also guarantee that you will be a top-ranking person, but," he paused, got up and poured himself a cup of tea, took a few sips, and then leisurely Di went on to say: "Everything has a price, I spend my money and effort, and I do my best to praise you, not just to get you a "good" word. He looked up at Fang Yizhe with a playful expression, "Do you understand?" "

Of course Fang Yizhe understood, it's not uncommon for good men in the circle, not to mention that Liang Shiwei next to him is a master of meat and vegetables, Fang Yizhe has seen him with little boys more than once.

But he still felt angry, he felt offended, looked at Luo Qing, the smile on his face gradually faded: "Sorry, Mr. Luo, we are not in the same league, it seems that this cooperation is for No way."

Fang Yizhe got up to leave, but Luo Qing didn't stop him. He tapped his fingers on the teacup and asked Fang Yizhe, "Aren't you thinking about it anymore? What a great opportunity, how many people want to squeeze in every possible way?" Come by my side, isn't it a pity?"

Fang Yizhe looked at the amber-colored tea in the cup, and he said firmly: "President Luo, maybe you are wrong, I already have a girlfriend, and we get along very well."

Luo Qing didn't say anything anymore, and watched Fang Yizhe walk out of the office with a smile.

Afterwards, Luo Qing no longer had any contact, as if the previous encounter was nothing but vanished in the blink of an eye.

The connection with Luo Qing disappeared along with Fang Yizhe's girlfriend. The teammates in the regiment only said that she was suddenly sent out of the country, where she went, and what she went to do, but they couldn't find out.Fang Yizhe called over and over again to confirm with everyone who might know the whereabouts of his girlfriend, but he still had no clue.

Fang Yizhe's various resources also disappeared with his girlfriend.Although it wasn't that good at first, endorsements, term seals, and some second- and third-line supporting roles will still continue.But now, it seems like a knife has cut these resources away from Fang Yizhe. All the businessmen and media producers have come to terminate the contract one after another, and some even pay liquidated damages.

No matter how stupid Fang Yizhe was, he knew who was making trouble. He was a little panicked and didn't know how to deal with it, so he could only ask Liang Shiwei to discuss it.

Liang Shiwei also made a guess. Hearing Fang Yizhe's account of the cause and effect, he sighed with emotion: "Luo Qing is really good at it." He asked Fang Yizhe, "What do you think?"

Fang Yizhe bit his finger and thought about it, and finally gritted his teeth and said, "Liang, we can't sit still, at least, I don't want her to suffer because of this matter. Since Luo Qing likes me, I'll just accompany him. How fresh can he be?" What about the year? When he gets tired of it, I will be free, so what have I lost?"

He said it coolly, but Fang Yizhe was still uneasy, he couldn't help cheering himself up: "Stop for a few years, Fang Yizhe, isn't it a good deal for a few years to change your future?"

Boil for several years.

Unexpectedly, this simmering lasted for more than ten years.From eighteen to thirty, from the youthful age when she didn't know anything and needed Luo Qing to teach her everything, to the middle age when she was experienced and able to advance and retreat with ease.

Twelve years were wasted on Luo Qing.

In the early years, Luo Qing treated him well, always looking at him, accompanying him, pampering him.No matter whether he was attacking on purpose, or pretending to be foolish or obedient, Luo Qing always smiled lightly and let him have his own way.

But no matter how much you like it, you will dislike it after a long time.

Fang Yizhe couldn't remember when Luo Qing looked for him less and less, Luo Qing smiled at him less and less, and Luo Qing took the initiative to talk to him less and less.

Fang Yizhe would always comfort himself: "If you don't come to meet, you will be free after all these years. Who cares if he comes or not?"

Don't care?Fang Yizhe couldn't lie to himself.

The 12 years of companionship, so many first times, are all engraved with Luo Qing's imprint, saying that he doesn't like it, he doesn't care, how could he not have a little sincerity.

Fang Yizhe started looking for little boys, and began to take the initiative to accept the invitations of the bosses who coveted him.He deliberately acted in a high-profile and public manner, lest these news would not reach Luo Qing's ears.

But Luo Qing was still indifferent, and sometimes Fang Yizhe deliberately missed some clues in front of him, and Luo Qing just lightly instructed: "Take care with yourself, don't get sick."

Fang Yizhe panicked and collapsed.He started to have no intention of hanging around bars or other men, and gradually he took the initiative to find Luo Qing, the two of them did nothing, most of the time they just sat together, he drank wine, Luo Qing sipped tea.

Like two old friends who have been together for many years.

Until one day, Luo Qing was sipping tea, looking at a few still photos from the director Ouyang on her mobile phone, she seemed to sigh unintentionally: "Xiao Zhe, take a look, this Xiao Xiao really looks like you in the past, especially a pair of The eyes are clean and youthful."

Fang Yizhe leaned over to look, and Xiao Xiao in the camera had short, neat hair. Even with stained artificial leather glue and plasma on his face, he couldn't hide his clarity.

Fang Yizhe was suddenly frightened and uneasy. He fled to the bathroom in a hurry on the pretext of feeling sick to his stomach.Facing the huge mirror on the wall, what he saw were the fine lines and gloom that could not be covered under his pale and thick makeup.

He knew that the brilliance in Luo Qing's eyes was no longer for him, and the beautiful young man Luo Qing spoke of was just the past.

He returned to the table and suggested to Luo Qing with a smile: "Since Master Luo likes Xiao Xiao, then I will find a way to let him accompany you?"

Luo Qing looked away from the phone, looked up at Fang Yizhe: "Xiao Zhe, when will you worry about my affairs? Who do I like and who do I want to accompany, I can arrange it myself."

Fang Yizhe didn't know where the resentment came from for a moment, he giggled and sat down beside Luo Qing's armrest: "Yes, Lord Luo is never soft on those who want him, and he will get them by any means. , what are you worrying about?"

Luo Qing looked at Fang Yizhe, took a sip of tea and said, "Okay, what's wrong with me, I just said that Xiao Xiao looks like you, and you don't talk so much."

Gently pushed Fang Yizhe's arm: "Go, pour out this pot of tea, it's tasteless, you have to brew it again."

Fang Yizhe got up, took the teapot, went straight to the kitchen, and put it in the trash can. He laughed coldly: "I'm sick, I've been sick for many years. Master Luo, do you despise me? Do you despise me?" Are you not young anymore? Or do you think I am unclean?"

Fang Yizhe said, walked behind Luo Qing, stretched his arms around his shoulders: "But Master Luo, if I were as clean as a little boy, how could I satisfy you on the bed, right? "

Luo Qing didn't move, looked at Fang Yizhe quietly, and said lightly, "Don't be cheap."

These two words seemed to burn Fang Yizhe, he pulled his hand away abruptly, stared at Luo Qing and yelled angrily: "How can I be cheap? Who forced me to be cheap? Luo Qing, if you didn't push me so hard back then, I would use Got it now to come here in vain?" He approached Luo Qing and asked him, "Who is cheap among us?"

Luo Qing slapped him with a slap, and said in a cold voice: "Go back." Turning around, he walked out the door.

Afterwards, Fang Yizhe asked Haozi to find out where Luo Qing went that night.Haozi came back after a long time and said, "Boss Luo didn't go anywhere, he just went to the set."

Went to the set, of course Fang Yizhe knew who was on the set, and he snorted coldly: "Bitch." He didn't know if it was Luo Qing, Xiao Xiao, or himself who said it.

Probably in this world, the coldest thing is human nature, and the coldest thing is human heart.

Fang Yizhe thought, why should he be lucky.

Fang Yizhe began to contact Xiao Xiao frequently again. If Xiao Xiao had previously won cooperation with Luo Qing, and the close contact with Xiao Xiao was to give Luo Qing more chances to meet him, then this time, Fang Yizhe was just curious. Where did Qing fall in love with Xiao Xiao?

He dragged Xiao Xiao to drink, dragged Xiao Xiao to clubs, and listened to Xiao Xiaoxu babbling about the difficulty of filming, as well as all kinds of things with Liang Shiwei that were hard to detect in the words.

Whether it's loss, sadness, sorrow, or joy, although Xiao Xiao can't express it clearly, behind all the emotions revealed, there is a confident youthful feeling.

What confidence does he have?Fang Yizhe thought and thought, all he could think of was that Xiao Xiao still had a clean body.He thought that it was because of this clean body that Xiao Xiao could unscrupulously chase Liang Shiwei all the way and never let go, and he could make promises to Liang Shiwei, instead of having to hide in the dark and reflect on whether he was worthy or not. No, is it enough for this qualification?

He thought again, maybe what Luo Qing likes is not Xiao Xiao's clean eyes, but his clean body?

Fang Yizhe suddenly stopped being curious, he only had jealousy in his heart, he hated that Xiao Xiao could get Liang Shiwei's promise, and he also hated that Xiao Xiao could get Luo Qing's special favor.

He took out a small pill from his pocket, he thought, with this good thing, he would no longer have to work so hard to be jealous.

Seeing that Xiao Xiao's eyes were a little clouded, Fang Yizhe called Luo Qing and told him to come to the bar quickly.

He thought that when Luo Qing saw the unconscious Xiao Xiao, he would smile approvingly at him.But when Luo Qing rushed to the bar, looked at Xiao Xiao who was lying on the table and couldn't wake up, and then looked at Fang Yizhe who was sitting beside him smoking a cigarette, he understood.

Luo Qing's expression changed, he snatched the cigarette from Xia Yizhe's hand, threw it viciously into the wine glass on the table, said "lunatic" coldly, and left.

Fang Yizhe had never seen Luo Qing with such an excited expression. In the past 12 years, no matter what happened, Luo Qing always had a calm expression. Even when he was most emotional, his low breathing was peaceful and without any emotion. Emotional exposure.

But at this moment, Fang Yizhe saw shock, anger, and...disgust on Luo Qing's face.

Fang Yizhe chased after Luo Qing in a panic.

But outside the door of the bar, besides the festive lights and neon-filled New Year's scene, where else can one find Luo Qing's trace?

Fang Yizhe thought, this is a good time, if he failed to steal the chicken, he lost a lot of rice, and was disgusted by Luo Qing, maybe this time there is no room for change.

Fang Yizhe was in a daze, he didn't know how he got home, and of course it was even more impossible to remember that there was a drugged Xiao Xiao in the bar.

It wasn't until Xiao Xiao didn't go to the company that Fang Yizhe realized that something was wrong.He asked Haozi to inquire and found out that Xiao Xiao was ill.Haozi said that Brother Xiao has been ill since the first day of the Lunar New Year, and he is afraid that this year will be unlucky.

Fang Yizhe could vaguely figure out why Xiao Xiao was sick, but he refused to think about it thoroughly.He comforted himself, how could it be such a coincidence,