I can't live, I can't afford to die

Xiao Xiao was stunned for a while, then slowly closed his eyes.

Sleeping in a daze until the afternoon, Xiao Xiao woke up with a headache and a sore throat. He got up and drank a glass of water. He took the phone and flipped through it. There were a few WeChat messages from strange contacts, which were ambiguous. Clearly asked him when he would go to the bar again.

Xiao Xiao frowned and recalled, vaguely remembering that it was the person who drank together in the bar last night.

Scrolling down, a piece of news from Liang Shiwei suddenly jumped into his eyes.Xiao Xiao looked at the name in a daze, and after a long time, he slowly clicked on the message box: "Call me back."

Xiao Xiao quit WeChat, opened the call log, and there were many calls from Xiao Lin, and several missed calls from Liang Shiwei.

Xiao Xiao suddenly felt it was funny, he twitched the corner of his mouth silently, opened WeChat again, and saw that Xiao Lin had left him a message: "Brother, I left a takeaway order on your table, you can order porridge by yourself when you wake up. "

It's not that Xiao Xiao doesn't remember the dispute between him and Xiao Lin in the morning.He said something outrageous, he knew it.At this moment, Xiao Lin saw Xiao Lin disregarding the past and still caring about his food and drink, Xiao Xiao felt mixed feelings in his heart, and he didn't know what it was like.

He hesitated for a moment, then dialed Xiao Lin's phone: "Lin, I want to go for a walk, please come with me."

More than half an hour later, Xiao Lin rushed over, and as soon as he entered the door, he asked Xiao Xiao: "Brother, have you eaten yet?"

Xiao Xiao said "I'm sorry" stuck in his throat, unable to say anything, he shook his head silently.

Xiao Lin sighed, took out his mobile phone and called for takeaway, ordered a fish porridge and a few light side dishes, hung up the phone, and complained to Xiao Xiao: "I told you to eat, You are going to grind your stomach through, brother, you just don't make people worry."

Xiao Xiao watched Xiao Lin talking like a mother-in-law, and he smiled.

Probably because he drank too much and hurt his throat, Xiao Xiao felt that every mouthful he swallowed felt like a thorn in his throat, and his throat hurt.He didn't want Xiao Lin to worry, so he barely drank more than half a bowl, and then excused that he was full and didn't eat.

After changing his clothes, putting on his hat and mask again, Xiao Xiao took Xiao Lin downstairs without any purpose. They walked slowly along the pedestrian street around the community, looking around or hurrying, or In the leisurely crowd, Xiao Xiao talked to Xiao Lin from time to time.

Someone beside him was hurrying on the road with large and small bags, Xiao Xiao slightly turned his side and gave way, his gaze followed the bag in that person's hand, thoughtfully.

Xiao Lin followed Xiao Xiao's line of sight to look at the bag, and seeing that there was nothing unusual, he asked Xiao Xiao suspiciously: "Brother, what are you thinking?"

Xiao Xiao's gaze lingered on those bags for a few more times, and he lowered his eyelids slightly, staring at the small piece of ground in front of his feet: "I'm homesick."

He breathed a sigh of relief, raised his eyes and looked ahead.It was dusk and the mist was dim. Xiao Xiao seemed to be immersed in the long-term memory, and even his voice seemed a little light: "There is a courtyard in my hometown. You northerners have never seen a courtyard, right? It's the kind without a roof. The yard is in the middle of the house at the front and back. At about this time, the courtyard will be snowing. Grandpa put a small heater in the courtyard. Tea is warmed on the stove. There are still some sweet potatoes and taro rolling in the ashes. Grandpa smoked, and grandma sat on the old pear wood armchair and mended.

Sometimes when I catch up with my grandfather, he will go out to buy vegetables in the evening, and when he comes back, he will carry a big bag in his hand.When the door was opened, the sound of children throwing firecrackers could be heard occasionally, and those curling fireworks could be vaguely seen from a distance, and they were frozen in mid-air before they could dissipate.

I always wanted to get out and play with them, but my grandma said that firecrackers were dangerous, so she coaxed me to stay in the house with a few sweet potatoes and taro every time. "

As Xiao Xiaoxu spoke, there was a slight smile on his lips, calm and calm.