I can't live, I can't afford to die

It should be almost midnight in the early morning, and there are sounds of firecrackers all around from time to time, and the colorful lights of fireworks occasionally flash across the sky.

Xiao Xiao ran barefoot on the New Year's Eve road in Beijing, his eyes full of panic.He only had a thin bathrobe on his body, and the exposed parts had already turned blue and purple from the cold, but he didn't realize it, and just ran forward desperately.

On New Year's Eve, snowflakes fluttered from the sky in response to the occasion, and fluttered down like goose feathers.

Xiao Xiao didn't know where he was going. When he stopped in front of a building, he realized that it was Liang Shiwei's home.

The place where he first met Liang Shiwei.

Xiao Xiao seemed to have some strength to think, he rushed upstairs in one breath, stopped at the door on the ninth floor, took a few breaths, and before he recovered, he rushed to ring the doorbell.

The doorbell rang loudly in the silent corridor, and Xiao Xiao kept pressing it, and kept pressing it until someone upstairs cursed and opened the door to check, but there was still no movement at the door of Liang Shiwei's house.

Xiao Xiao felt that the last trace of strength in his body had also swam away, and he no longer had the strength to run.

Xiao Xiao shuffled his feet and walked step by step to the apartment he lived in.

The snow is getting bigger and bigger, and slowly, the ground has been covered with a thin layer.When Xiao Xiao walked on it, he felt that each toe would be slightly sunken downwards, giving him a very unsteady feeling of emptiness.

When his mind gradually became clear, Xiao Xiao finally recovered some senses.

It's so cold, there is no temperature in the whole world.

When he returned to the apartment, the sky had already dawned, Xiao Xiao only felt tired, he had no energy to do anything, so he fell on the bed while wearing a bathrobe, and passed out.

Xiao Xiao didn't know how long he had slept. He felt that he was in a daze, as if he was floating, his whole body was hot and painful.Especially in the lower body, the pain surged up like waves.A few times, the sharp pain made him want to cry out, but the fire in his throat was as if it had been burned dry, and he was so hoarse that he couldn't make any sound.

This kind of discomfort is vaguely remembered when I was still young. On that day, it rained heavily, and all the children in the nursery were picked up by their parents early. He was the only one left, leaning against the door of the nursery. Crying: "Mom, the other children have gone home, why don't you come pick me up?"

In my impression, it was grandma who held up a big umbrella and rushed to the nursery through the water. Grandma told Xiao Xiao: "You can't cry. When mom heard you cry, she was even more unhappy when she came back."

Xiao Xiao sniffed his nose with swollen eyes, and nodded solemnly to his grandmother.

When he got home that day, Xiao Xiao was still drenched in the rain, suffered from the cold, and developed a high fever.His small body was burning hot, and his muscles were so sore that he couldn't even touch it. He moaned and hugged his grandmother's thigh, sobbing carefully, not daring to let out a cry.

Such pain, such discomfort.

Suffering in a trance, Xiao Xiao seemed to hear a phone ringing, as if it had come from a very far away place, so faint that he almost suspected it was an illusion.He wondered vaguely, who could have called him?Is mom finally coming back to pick him up?Grandma is right, as long as I don't cry, as long as I smile, my mother will come back after all.

In a daze, he heard someone knocking on the door again, the sound was very close to him, so real, Xiao Xiao thought happily, it was his mother who came!It's my mother who came to pick me up!

He really wanted to get up and run down to the door to open the door for his mother, but his whole body was in pain, so painful that he couldn't move, what should he do?

Xiao Xiao only felt anxious, and the pain in his body increased a little more when he was anxious.

It hurts.

Xiao Xiao heard someone open the door, "click", and the sound of the lock being opened was very crisp. He heard footsteps rushing towards the bedroom in a hurry, and he listened excitedly.