Fans are always worried that I will die [Entertainment]

Chen Siyuan feels that if he expresses in public that his ideal is to be himself, he will probably be ridiculed by the people all over the country.

If you want to be yourself, you go for plastic surgery?

Chen Siyuan felt that even if he carried the twin brother out, he couldn't stop the enthusiasm of the crowd.

Do you have to go for plastic surgery if you want to be different from your twin brother?

In fact, Chen Siyuan also asked himself this question, and the answer was unbearable to look at directly, and he even wanted to persuade himself not to let it go.

Only plastic surgery can make him have a different, good place from his twin brother.

Ever since he was a child, Chen Siyuan has always wondered why his elder brother is always better than him despite being twins.

Talked earlier than him, got better grades than him, and was more likable than him.He is even more attracted to the opposite sex than him, plays the guzheng better than him, and can hold his breath underwater for 5 seconds longer than him.

After people say oops, your twins are so nice, there is often nothing to do with him.Everyone will continue to praise his elder brother for being smart, well-behaved and sensible, while he himself is that, ahem, more self-willed younger brother.

What his parents and elder brother said to him most often was: "I'm so used to you, there's no limit." After saying that, they all showed doting smiles, and then satisfied all his demands with a face of helplessness.

They would never know that what he wanted was never toys, clothes, or concessions, what he wanted was recognition.

But in the eyes of his parents and elder brother, he is just a "lovely pet that can be kept for a lifetime", and they have never expected him at all.

But he had hope in himself.He also wants to be the one to be praised, not the one to be pampered.

People are probably that complicated.

Obviously or everyone's dream life, but still want more.

The first time he had plastic surgery, he used his own money, the money he had spent as a tutor for three years in college.

Of course, his daily expenses are still paid by his parents. He just saved the money from his tutoring and used it to make eyebrows and eyes. In fact, he still hasn't been completely free from the support of his parents.

But it still made him very excited.

At least he did something he wanted to do with his own money.

When he came home from the end of his recovery period, the whole family was shocked, even devastated.

He was furious at his doting parents since he was a child, and even scolded him for not cherishing himself.The elder brother pushed him even more angrily, and asked him why he didn't want them to look exactly alike.

Chen Siyuan didn't realize it until he rushed out the door.This is actually what he wants, he wants to leave that home, he doesn't want to be a pet at home, he wants to be a recognized person.

The life just after leaving home was a bit difficult, and he returned all the cards and money given by his parents in a rage, and he didn't even have the money to buy a bus ticket back to school.

He saw a small restaurant recruiting dishwashers, just like working part-time to earn some money for emergency.As a result, as soon as the boss saw his clothes, he began to persuade him not to confront his parents. What the parents said was for his own good, and it was wrong to run away from home.

How did you know that he ran away from home?

I asked two stores one after another, but they didn't want him.It is said that he has seen a lot of people who run away from home, and they don't need to go home after two days.

Chen Siyuan had no choice but to ask his buddies for help, and the price for asking for help was that his parents immediately knew where he was.

Chen Siyuan robbed his buddy's wallet and ran away. At that time, he thought it was the price for his buddy's betrayal, but after a while he realized that it was robbery.

Fortunately, the buddy is a real buddy, and he didn't call the police to arrest him, and he didn't even urge him to pay back the money.

The reason for the live broadcast was that after returning to school, I accidentally stumbled into a senior sister's live video and was praised for her handsomeness.

Those barrages that praised him for being handsome made him very happy.

He looks as good as his elder brother, but he has nothing to do with being handsome. He never thought that he could be praised for being handsome just by doing eyebrows and eyes. This is a compliment that his elder brother has never received.

So in the last year of college, he spent most of his time live broadcasting.My brother came to the school to look for him several times, but he only said that he was an adult and wanted to live by himself.

Probably because he felt that he was not really missing after all, but just stayed at school and refused to go home, and refused to ask for money from the family, so he didn't pester him any more.

It is also a live broadcast, and he has learned a lot of skills, such as complaining about various TV dramas and news, the more venomous the fans, the more they like it.Of course, you must also master the degree, complain about those that everyone complains about, and don't complain about those that are touted, otherwise it will be cool.

There is also singing, his sense of rhythm is actually very good, but the range and sound quality are not that outstanding, but he still attracts fans if he chooses songs well.

Of course, what attracts his most fans is his plastic surgery.

Bit by bit, the more handsome you are, the more topical you are, the more popular you are.

At the same time, the parents and brother were getting more and more angry.

"Yuan, why did you make yourself into such a ghost, what's wrong with you!" The elder brother stared at him with red eyes.

His nose was still covered with gauze, and he looked at his brother through the sunglasses, with a cold voice, "I just don't want to be exactly like you."

"Why!" This sentence, my brother asked many times, but he never answered.He didn't dare to answer, the answer made him feel ashamed.

"Because I hate looking exactly like you, but not as good as you in everything." Since the start of the venomous character design, it is possible to speak harshly without emotion. It is cold and stylish.

My brother should be shocked, but he is not as shocked as he imagined. Yes, my brother is so smart. In the past two years, why do you still not understand these things?I was just deceiving myself.

The elder brother suddenly relaxed and sighed, "Why do you feel that you are inferior to me in everything? My father, mother and I all think you are very good, and you are the best brother."

"I know, you guys love me very much. I hope that I will be happy for the rest of my life. No matter how much I fail, I don't mind. You can keep me as a pet for the rest of your life." Chen Siyuan said these words without any expression.I just got my nose done, and I can't make facial expressions.

"Do you think we look down on you? We are your family, how can we look down on you. How can you think so." The elder brother finally showed an expression of disbelief.

Chen Siyuan laughed.My brother probably thinks that being willing to keep him as a pet for a lifetime is the greatest pampering for himself.

"Yeah, I don't want to think that way either. But I just can't help thinking that way. From childhood to adulthood, no matter what I do, you don't want me to succeed. You always say that it doesn't matter if I fail..."

"We were afraid that you would be too sad if you failed!"

"So you just think I'm bound to fail? Why don't you act like that when you do things?" Chen Siyuan asked loudly, too much, and even affected the opening on his nose.

"Because I'm an older brother, I have to take care of you, so I have to take on more. I'm also very tired, and I'm also working hard, so I have to do everything well." The elder brother said, drawing circles with his hands open, as if he couldn't express My own emotions, "Do you have to fight against your family because of these things? These insignificant little things."

"It doesn't matter to you, but to me it is a shadow in my heart for the rest of my life. Every time I do anything, I always get discouraged when I am about to succeed. It doesn't matter if I fail. It's like a curse, so I can't succeed at all. " Chen Siyuan said, and opened the car door, "Forget it, I don't want to talk to you anymore. Goodbye."

After speaking, Chen Siyuan got into the cab and drove away.

For a long time after that, my brother didn't contact him.

Later, his elder brother became the big boss of his live broadcast room, and his ID was "I am your elder brother". He often swiped gifts, praised him and encouraged him to say something that you must be able to do.

But he wasn't happy at all.

He felt that it was not his brother's sincerity.It was because he made it clear that he wanted to hear that he was able to hear this, something he had been longing for for many years, but he had never been able to get it.

People are so strange.

It's like a child who wants to eat candy, but never says it, but keeps staring at the candy, waiting for an adult to take the candy to her.It has to be like this to be happy.

Chen Siyuan really couldn't figure it out, so in the end he just didn't want to.

"Thank you for the Starfleet from the boss. Don't you need to spend your birthday with your girlfriend? You're still in my studio at 8 o'clock." Chen Siyuan said coolly, he was used to this way of speaking.

Although he was quite willful in the past, he always considers other people's feelings when speaking, and his tone is as polite as possible, so as not to lose too many people in the family.

I'm your brother: wait for your girlfriend to put on makeup, and listen to your singing.Great, come on!

Chen Siyuan smiled and ignored his brother.

So be it.What he wants, his brother has already tried his best to give him, what else can he do?Don't be sincere.But people say they are sincere, but you don't believe it.This kind of psychology is undesirable.

Chen Siyuan sang another song and downloaded it.

Tomorrow he is going to participate in a very important draft, and today he has to go to bed early to raise his face.

Now he is earnestly relying on his face for food.

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Suiyuan V: Siyuan is just resting temporarily, and will come back.He is my good friend and a good team member of Hexagram.Plastic surgery was not a mistake and he never cheated on anyone and I will always support him.

When Chen Siyuan saw this Weibo, he was really shocked.

The phrase "he will come back" sounds too firm, stronger than his life in the past 20 years.

For the first time, someone firmly believed in him.

Believe he can do it, he will go back.

Chen Siyuan's eyes were a little wet. He found out the box of mask, dug out the ointment inside and applied it on his face.

His face was cold, but his heart was warm.

He closed his eyes, and a strange thought came to his mind.

What do I want to be like?

I want to be who I am, as long as I believe, I am that.

In fact, many times, I can't know what I am like, I can only believe unconditionally, and I can become that way.

Then, there are others who believe with you.

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I still like Chen Erqing very much~ I wanted to give him a CP