Desperate

Cen Lu lay in Zhou Pushen's arms, touching his forehead and cheeks one after another: "Xiaoshen, tell brother why you don't want to wake up."

Zhou Pushen didn't seem to have expected Cen Lu to ask him so bluntly, hesitated for a while, then kissed the slender hand with his face sideways: "I feel guilty."

"What are you guilty of?" Cen Lu suddenly became nervous, staring at him with light gray pupils: "If it's about Black Eagle, you don't have to..."

"It's not him." Zhou Pushen interrupted Cen Lu's words softly, and stretched out his hand to smooth out his frowning brows: "No matter what the reason is, I became a soldier of the Empire. I have been trained to think about the overall situation first. If I do it again, I might still sacrifice this child." He paused, remembering Geng Ying's stern roar before he died: "Then I thought, what I owe him, I just pay him back."

Cen Lu sat up a little bit, his long and narrow eyes were stained with anger: "When you were going to die, did you think about me?"

Zhou Pu was stunned for a moment, then quickly hugged him back into his arms, and put his head into Cen Lu's shoulder blades to act coquettishly: "At that time... I didn't know you liked me."

Zhou Pushen has figured out the way. In every previous conflict, as long as he was a little subdued, Cen Lu would forgive him without hesitation. His elder brother is a little tsundere.

Sure enough, Cen Lu felt comfortable, and found an intimate position to lean on the man's shoulder, enjoying the man's big hands along his spine to smooth his hair, but he still said unforgivingly: "Now you know, I will talk to you later." If you dare to disappear regardless of safety, I will chase you to the underworld."

Zhou Pu deeply understood the extended meaning of the words, almost broke out in a cold sweat from fright, so he could only cover up his guilty conscience with repeated promises.

Cen Lu rolled his eyes: "It's not because of the Black Eagle...it's...because of your parents..." His voice slowly dropped, the picture in Zhou Pushen's memory was too cruel, even a quick glance made it hard for him to see it. Forget, let alone Zhou Pushen as the party involved.

Zhou Pushen did not speak, but his expression was very calm.He pondered for a while before opening his mouth: "The people of the empire want me to serve as a soldier, my brother has seen it."

Cen Lu let out a "huh" and his heart ached badly. What made him most unable to face the whole incident was that the empire he had always been loyal to did such a militaristic thing.

He is no longer a hot-blooded young student, and he also knows very clearly how many bodies with fresh bones will be buried under a hegemony.But when this fact actually happened to someone he cared about, he still couldn't accept it.

Zhou Pushen could see what Cen Lu was thinking with just one glance. He couldn't laugh or cry, pulled the person close to him, put his forehead against his forehead, and scolded him from eye to eye: "What are you thinking? It has nothing to do with you, or , If it wasn't for you, I wouldn't be able to hold on."

Cen Lu felt that his statement was a little strange. Zhou Pushen had never met himself before, so why did he persist because of himself?But he felt that it was a bit cheeky to pursue this question, so he could only ask about the previous things: "How did you answer the imperial soldiers?"

Zhou Pushen's eyes dimmed. He never thought that one day, he would willingly reveal the bloody wound on his heart to others: "I was very scared at the time." He didn't know how to proceed.

Cen Lu looked at him encouragingly, and the lines on his fingers brushed against his chin.

Zhou Pushen seemed to muster up his courage: "Although I am angry, I am more afraid of ending my life on that dirty boat for a short time like my parents. I..." He took a breath: "I am with them Said, I am willing to join the army of the empire, and I will become a dog loyal to other countries." His black eyes gradually became frosty: "Since then, my desperate training, all kinds of knowledge I have learned, and The blood on my hands is just for this humble life. I am a shameless person, in order to survive in this world, I keep exchanging the lives of others for my own, and the first sacrifices are my parents."

"If it wasn't..." Zhou Pushen stopped suddenly when he said this, his frozen eyes turned into a gentle mountain spring when he saw Cen Lu, but he couldn't say the next thing.

If it wasn't for that coincidence that I became a prison guard and met you, I might have been killed by years of guilt.

Cen Lu looked at him for a while, then turned around suddenly, kneeling on Zhou Pushen's lap, his waist was limp, he put his arms around his neck, leaned closer and kissed his lips, this kiss was different from yesterday's confession of heart The eagerness at the time, but gently and slowly, lingering with Zhou Pu deeply like water, like comforting, but also like talking.

When the lips parted, Zhou Pushen saw that Cen Lu's eyes were shining brightly, and his red lips were shiny, and he said:

"Xiao Shen, I don't think it's a shame to live for my own life. What's more, it's you."

His eyes are full of Zhou Pushen: "I have my own selfishness. I am really glad that you have lived to this day and let me meet you. If you died on that ship or died by suicide, I am afraid Throughout my life, I have never found a single person who made me fall in love like this."

Zhou Pu looked deeply at the other party's eyes that were as clear as water, and suddenly felt his eye circles heat up.

Cen Lu touched Zhou Pu's crimson eyes, and smiled slightly: "From now on, live with me, okay? Don't feel guilty, don't torture yourself anymore, even if your pain can't be eliminated, at least you and I Take it together."

Zhou Pu hugged his waist deeply, as if he wanted to embed him into his own flesh and blood.He was tortured by so many dark memories, but Cen Lu always hit the softest part of his heart so easily.Whenever he couldn't hold on any longer, Cen Lu would come.

Zhou Pu stroked Cen Lu's soft hair deeply, and the dirt that had been hidden in his heart for many years was once removed.He thought, in the past his only light was Cen Lu, and now he wants to walk with this light.

Go to the bright place.

Cen Lu's face was facing the lightly veiled window, and suddenly he patted Zhou Pushen on the back as if he had discovered a new world: "Xiao Shen, look! It's snowing!"

Zhou Pushen looked back according to his words, and there were goose feathers and heavy snow flying in the gaps in the curtains, dyed warm orange by the setting sun in the west.The mountains in the distance are covered with snow, which is red like a handful of blood in the heart under the lingering sunset. The snow falls on the deep blue lake, causing shallow ripples, which melt in an instant. Integrate with the blue lake.

Both Cen Lu and Zhou Pushen have seen many snowfalls, some icy and lonely, but they have never had a snow that made them feel so warm.

They embraced and kissed each other, hugged each other and whispered love words, Zhou Pushen embraced Cen Lu, and heard him say softly with red ears:

"Xiao Shen, one day, I will take you away, okay?"

Zhou Pu smiled deeply, with white snowflakes reflected in his obsidian eyes, he smiled but did not answer.

"Oh, I understand the situation over there. Be careful." Liang Qian's voice came from the phone, sounding very tired.

Zhou Pu felt his boss's absent-mindedness keenly: "What's wrong with you?"

"Hey, it's not about the little beauty." Liang Qian's voice was weak, "Last time something happened, the little beauty owed me a favor, I might have tormented her too much and made her angry again. Zhou avoids me."

Zhou Pu hesitated for a moment, and looked down on Liang Qian's point of view: "Major, if you like Lieutenant Colonel Dou, you should treat him better."

There was a sudden silence on the other end of the phone.It took a long time before Liang Qian spoke, her voice became more serious: "Do you think I treat her badly?"

Zhou Pushen simply didn't know how to say to this person: "It's either bad... or... just be direct."

Liang Qian contemptuously "cut": "You've only made a lot of progress there, and you still dare to guide me. I, Young Master Liang, have never touched a single leaf among thousands of flowers. Unlike you, you spend every day on the same crooked tree. hanged from a tree around his neck, he still can’t get close to his body.”

Hearing this, Zhou Pushen poked his head out of the bathroom unconvinced, and glanced at Cen Lu who was sleeping soundly on the bed. Professor Cen seemed to feel that something was missing beside him, and he was replacing someone with Zhou Pushen's pillow, with his nose buried in the bed. Smelling the residual smell inside, I fell asleep in my arms.

So when Zhou Pushen spoke again, he couldn't help but feel complacent: "You don't need to worry about it."

Liang Qian seemed to have heard the other party's embarrassment, and did not forget to warn him: "I don't care how you get along with Brother Lu, when I brought you to see him, I hoped that you and him could have a good time. But let me remind you, if If he remembers, you have to go, do you hear me?"

Zhou Pu was silent and did not answer.

Liang Qian became anxious, and seemed to pat the table over there: "Zhou Pushen, answer the officer's words!"

"Yes!" Zhou Pushen had to respond to the instinct of his body for many years.

But when Liang Qian really received the answer, she couldn't help sighing again: "Hey, deep, I still advise you to break up with Brother Lu as soon as possible, he is... the country's precious property, you two will not have good results. It’s fine if you’ve been young or crazy, you can’t really take it seriously.”

Zhou Pushen asked him back: "Do you think I like him because I am young and frivolous?"

Liang Qian was stunned: "No... isn't it? Brother Lu is good-looking...and smart..."

He was answered with a busy tone of "beep... beep...".

Liang Qian was furious, and hung up the phone with a "clang" sound. Zhou Pushen dared to hang up the call of the officer now, it really turned against him!

In the middle of the night, the light was on the desk, and Liang Qian was still busy dealing with various letters under the light.

Among them was a secret letter, made of soft parchment, with the wording of the cabinet displayed on the envelope in fiery red lacquer.

Liang Qian pulled out the letter paper, and the Imperial Prime Minister wrote lazily in slender characters: "Who is the person next to 'Adam'?"

The author says:

Continue the sugar-coated bombardment!